akuyankha:
Ndimavutikabe nazo. Koma nthawi zomwe ndasiya, ndimamva mantha. Chilimwe chatha ndidakhala kuthengo kutchire, kutali ndi zolaula komanso zowonera, ndikugwira ntchito molimbika tsiku lililonse, ndipo sindinamvepo zabwino kuyambira pamenepo. Kukhala zolaula kunangokhala gawo lake, koma moona mtima ndikuganiza kuti inali gawo lalikulu.
Pakadali pano ndili pa tsiku lachiwiri, koma ndakhala ndikuganiza zambiri ndipo ndiyesetsa kuti ndipange nthawi ino.
Zabwino zonse kwa inu, m'bale.
Ndiyenera kuchita zinthu zambiri kuti ndizisangalatsa (monga kupita kwa abwenzi, kukagula ndi kusewera masewera), zomwe ndimakonda, chifukwa zimandipatsa phindu
Sindikudziwa momwe ndingayambire ndinakhala zaka ndi zaka ndikumwa izi. Ndinali woyipa kwambiri ndipo sindinathe kudziletsa. Ndataya kwambiri chifukwa cha chizolowezi ichi mwanjira inayake ndinapeza bwenzi lodabwitsa kuti nanenso ndimakopeka ndi kugonana. Koma patapita kanthawi ndinamuyang'ana ndi maso achilendo. Sindinamupezenso wokongola ndipo ndimangofuna kuseweretsa maliseche nthawi iliyonse kuposa kugonana. Zotsatira zake amadzimva kuti wawonongedwa, wosafunidwa, wonyansa komanso wokhumudwa kuti mnzakeyo atha kutsatira akazi ena okongola ndikumathera nthawi yake ndi zithunzi ndi makanema kuposa iye, mayi wamoyo weniweni yemwe amaganiza kuti sanali okwanira. Ndidamuwuza kuti ndilibe kulumikizana kumeneko. Kugonana sikunali chikondi. Zinali zovuta kubwera kudzachita.
KOMA ndinazindikira kuti ndimakonda mkazi. Mkazi yemweyo yemwe ndidamuwononga ndikusuta. Ndinazindikira kuti adakalipo ndipo sindimamvetsa chifukwa chake. Nditalephera nthawi zingapo ndidagwidwa komaliza. Ndapeza reddit ndikudziwona ndekha mwa aliyense pano. Ndili ndi munthu pano yemwe adandipatsa upangiri ndipo ndidapeza wothandizira (zimapangitsa zodabwitsa). Kugonana moona mtima ndikodabwitsa tsopano ndili ndi kulumikizana mosasamala ngati kugonana kwa vanila kapena kugonana kovuta ndipo nanenso ndibwera. Tonse ndife okondwa tsopano. Iye ndi wokongola kwambiri. Izi ndizodabwitsa. Ndikufuna kuti agwere chifukwa cha zatsopanozi ndikulekana ndi ine wakale. Sindinabwererenso chiyambireni (sindikuwerengera masiku kuchokera pomwe zimayambitsa kupsinjika) koma ndikukuwuzani kuti kwakhala kanthawi. Moyo wanga ndi wovuta kwambiri. Ndikulibe chidwi ndi zolaula, sindikumva kufunika koti ndizitha posachedwa (zomwe zimathandiza kwambiri kupewa zolaula) chifukwa ndimadzipulumutsa kuti ndigonane
Momwe zimamvekera, mumayamba kuyang'ana akazi ngati anthu m'malo mwa thupi ndi mabowo, omwe ndi abwino. Kukhala mwamuna sikutali kwambiri kuti ndikhale mkazi, popeza ndizovuta tonsefe timakhala ndimalingaliro ndi zokhumba zathu ndipo tonse timatulutsa magazi ofiira ngakhale timasiyana pang'ono. Zomwe ndikunena pano ndi iwe ndi ine tinali ndalama kuti tisaberekedwe mkazi. Ingoganizirani zolaula zilizonse zolaula zomwe zikukuyang'anani pansi ndikuyankhula nanu ngati mukugundidwa. Atha kukhala ife. Atha kukhala amayi athu kapena alongo kapena ana athu aakazi kapena amalume pompano nthawi iliyonse akamatuluka. Kodi ndiye dziko lomwe tikufuna kukhalamo? Kodi ndizomwe mungafune kudutsa nthawi iliyonse mukapita pagulu? Pepani ngati mamvekedwe anga akuwoneka ngati ophatikiza, sicholinga changa. Moona mtima, kulemba izi kumandikumbutsa za ine ndi mavuto omwe ndimakumana nawo ndi zolaula. Ndimamenya nkhondo mkati mwanga.
Zosavuta komanso zosavuta, sindimayang'ana zolaula tsiku lililonse. Ndimakhala ndi nthawi yambiri yocheza ndi anzanga komanso okondedwa anga. Ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri zogwiritsira ntchito maubwenzi anga tsopano popeza sindikuwona zolaula. Zolemba zokha ndili ndi maola ochulukirapo masiku anga tsopano.
Kwa zaka zambiri ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula ngati njira yopulumukira. Ndinali wokwiya ndi ntchito yanga, ndinali wokwiya mu maubale anga (ndizovuta kwambiri kukhala ndi maubwenzi abwino mukamayesetsa pafupifupi FYI). Nditasiya kuonera zolaula ndinayenera kuthana ndi mkwiyo wanga m'malo mopewa.
Kuleka zolaula kunali kovuta kwambiri, ndipo ndizovuta tsiku ndi tsiku kuti ndisakhale ndi zolaula. Chinthu chachikulu kwambiri chomwe ndazindikira kuyambira pomwe ndimakhala ndi zolaula ndikuti tsopano ndili ndi zifukwa zambiri zokhalira wopanda zolaula.
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