Phunzirani kwa ena za momwe zimakhalira kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula mukayambiranso.
Monga mochedwa Douglas Adams analemba kuti:
Anthu, omwe ali osiyana kwambiri pokhala ndi luso lophunzira kuchokera ku zochitika za ena, amakhalanso odabwitsa chifukwa chooneka kuti akusokonezeka kuchita zimenezo.
Ziyenera kuonekeratu kuti ngati ubongo wanu wathanzi, mu chiyambi chawo, unalowa osokoneza ndi / kapena zovuta zogonana- ubongo wanu wobwezeretsanso udzakhala wovuta, ngakhale mbolo yanu ikugwira ntchito mwangwiro. Ndipotu mungathe kubwereranso ku mavuto mosavuta.
Chifukwa muli ndi njira zakale za ubongo zomwe zikudikirira kuti zikhale ngati mitengo ya Khirisimasi mukawagwedeza ndi dopamine yowonjezera.
Tsoka, ambiri a ife timayenera kuphunzira movutikira, kudzera zokumana nazo zathu, komanso kangapo. Nayi ulusi wa Reddit komwe anyamata akukambirana za zotsatira za kubwereranso.
Ngati ndinu m'modzi mwa anthu osowa kwambiri omwe mungathe phunzirani kuchokera pazomwe ena adakumana nazo, nayi malipoti ena a iwo omwe adayambiranso ndipo adayambiranso:
Mukuganiza zowonanso Zithunzi zolaula? Ichi ndichifukwa chake ndi lingaliro loipa….
Ndimangofuna kutumiza china chake kutengera zomwe ndakumana nazo za lingaliro lomwe anthu ochepa akuwoneka kuti ali nalo. Lingaliro ndilakuti, 'chabwino sindinayang'ane P kwakanthawi tsopano, zingakhale zosangalatsa kungoyang'ana kuti ndiwone momwe ndikupezera'. Ndinachita izi zaka 10 zapitazo, nditasiya P kwa zaka zingapo m'mbuyomu chifukwa ndimadziwa kuti ndimagwiritsa ntchito kwambiri.
Kwa ine lingaliro ili lidatsagana ndi, 'chabwino, ndakwanitsa kuzisiya kwakanthawi. Chifukwa chake ngati kuli vuto kuyang'ana, kuyenera kukhala kosavuta kuyimanso. Osachepera ndikudziwa momwe ndingachitire '. Komabe, ndidachita izi zaka khumi zapitazo. Zinkawoneka zachilendo kuyang'ana zolaula poyamba - 'Chiyani? Ndinkakonda kusangalala ndi izi? Zimamveka ngati zolimba komanso zazikulu '. Komabe ine M'd ndi O'd ndipo pafupifupi sabata imodzi pambuyo pake ndidali ndi lingaliro lakuyang'ananso. Zinthu zinasokonekera kwa miyezi ingapo ndipo kugwiritsa ntchito kwanga kunasinthiratu.
Patatha pafupifupi zaka 5, ndinapita kumisonkhano yokwana 12 (monga zidakwa osadziwika, koma kuti ndizigonana) zomwe zimandichepetsa koma sizinandilepheretse. Nthawi yopanda P yomwe ndidakhala nayo zaka khumi zapitazi yakhala pafupifupi masabata a 6 - omwe ndidakwanitsa kangapo. Koma nthawi zina zakhala zoipa kwambiri. Ndinagona mochedwa kwambiri ndikuyang'ana P pafupifupi tsiku lililonse mu Januware mwachitsanzo.
Choncho, sizinali zophweka kusiyanso monga momwe ndimaganizira! (Pambuyo pa zaka khumi ndikuganiza kuti ndizosawerengeka). Chifukwa chiyani?
Choyamba, zomwe sindimadziwa panthawiyo ndikuti chifukwa kugwiritsa ntchito kwanga kwa P kunali kotalika, ndinali nditakhazikitsa gawo muubongo wanga lomwe nthawi zonse limakhalapo. Zitha kufooka, koma zowona, gawo langa mwina nthawi zonse limakhala losavuta kubwerera ku P.
Ndingafanizire kumverera kwa izi kusaiwala konse kukwera njinga - kapena mtundu wa skate skate. Ndinaisewera posachedwa kwanthawi yoyamba mzaka 20. Poyamba ndimagwedezeka pang'ono, koma ndidapeza mkati mwa mphindi 20. Yerekezerani izi ndi munthu amene sanasiyepo kale, yemwe angafunike maola angapo kuti ayambe kuchita izi. Chifukwa, chifukwa ndimazolowera, ubongo wanga umadziwa kugwiritsa ntchito P mokakamiza, ndipo umawona kuti ndiosavuta kubwereranso mumachitidwe omwe amapatsidwa theka la mwayi.
Chifukwa chake ngati mwagwiritsa ntchito P mokakamiza, kuyambiranso, osayambiranso, zingakhale zosavuta kuposa momwe mukuzindikiranso kuti mumayambiranso. Ngati mukuganiza za izi ndikungokufunsani kuti muganizire zomwe ndikunena ndikufunsani: kodi ndizoyenera kuwopsa? Kwa ine ndinayamba kusangalala ndikulakalaka kwambiri P patatha milungu ingapo, osaganiziranso za izi kwa zaka zingapo.
Chifukwa china chomwe ndikuganiza kuti ndizovuta kusiya P, ndikuti kuchira sikusangalatsa nthawi yachiwiri. Ndikuganiza kuti izi zitha kumveka malinga ndi kapangidwe kake kaubongo (ngakhale sindine neuroscientist, ndikuganiza izi ndizomveka). Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndinasiya P inali yosangalatsa kwambiri. Maganizo anga anali odzaza ndi mafunso: Kodi ndingathe? Kodi ndiphulika mokhumudwa? Kodi moyo wanga ungokhala wodabwitsa kwathunthu? Kapena ndiziulula mavuto aliwonse okhumudwitsa? Ndizosangalatsa komanso zowopsa kuziganizira - Ndikufuna kukula, koma kodi ndingathe kuthana ndi vutoli? Mafunso awa adapangitsa kuti kusakhala P kukhala kosangalatsa, ngati nthawi zina kumakhala kovuta, ulendo.
Chimodzi mwazinthu zoyambirira zomwe ndidachita ndikumuuza mzanga yemwe alinso ndi vuto lakelo. Izi zinali zowopsa, zosangalatsa komanso zomwe zidandipangitsa kuti ndizimva kulumikizana ndi iye mwanjira yabwino. Chifukwa chake mutha kuwona kuti pamakhala zolimbikitsa komanso zosangalatsa zambiri (zoyambitsa kutulutsa kwa mankhwala amubongo monga dopamine ndi adrenaline) ndipo palinso zokumana nazo zokongola zolumikizana (kumasula ma opioid achilengedwe).
Tsopano chimodzi mwazinthu zomwe zimayambitsa dopamine ndichachilendo - kotero kusiya nthawi yoyamba ndichabechabe - pang'ono ngati kupeza nyenyezi yatsopano ya P yomwe mukuganiza kuti ndiyodabwitsa! Koma nthawi yachiwiri ndi mtundu wa chipewa chakale - mumadziwa kale nyenyezi ya P, ndipo mukufuna ina. Mukudziwa kuti mutha kusiya. Vutoli silosangalatsa. Kuuza wina nkhani yanu kachiwiri sikosangalatsa kapena kowopsa, ndipo sikumakupangitsani kuti muzimva kuti ndinu olumikizidwa. Chifukwa chake mfundo ndikuti kusiya kachiwiri ndi (kwa ine osachepera) ndizovuta kwambiri, chifukwa sizosangalatsa kapena zatsopano monga nthawi yoyamba.
Onjezerani pazonse zomwe ena amaganiza kuti ngakhale mutabwereranso, mutha kuyambiranso monga mudachitiramo kamodzi, ndiye ndi chiyani? ndipo muli ndi zomwe ndiziitane kuti ndizovuta zenizeni.
Chifukwa chake upangiri wanga, kuchokera pazondichitikira, ngati mwasiya kuyang'ana P chifukwa zinali zokakamiza, ndipo mukuganiza chimodzi chokha chomaliza?
Osatero.
Tikukhulupirira kuti zimathandiza ngakhale munthu m'modzi. Ngati ndi choncho, izi zithandizira zaka khumi zapitazi za zovuta zokhudzana ndi P ...
Re: Mukuganiza zowonanso Zithunzi zolaula? Ichi ndichifukwa chake ndi lingaliro loipa….
Chovuta kwa anthu omwe abwereranso ndipo akufuna kusiya p ndikuti onse amati kuipa kunali koyipa pamoyo wawo. Kenako amabwereranso ndipo ubongo wawo umawapatsa mphotho. Dziko likutembenuzabe. Kuwala kukuwalabe. Ndipo zimamva bwino! Palibe choyipa chomwe chimachitika kotero timalingalira kuti sizingakhale zoyipa kuti achire… zomwe zimapangitsa kuti zikhale zovuta kupitilizabe pulogalamu yolimba. Kubwezeretsa kuli ngati Odysseus ndi ma siren. Amatichenjeza. Tikudziwa zomwe zichitike. Tikudziwa kuti tidzayesedwa. Koma ngakhale tili ndi zolinga zabwino tonsefe timafika nthawi imodzi pomwe choyipa chimatifotokozera mwatsatanetsatane chifukwa chomwe sichingakhale choyipa kuyesanso kamodzi. Zifukwa zake ndi zabwino ndipo tikukayikira ntchito yathu. Ndipo timadabwa: kodi zitha kupweteketsa pang'ono?
Yankho ndi: inde. Inde zitha kupweteka. Tiyenera kudzimangiriza pamtengo. Chiyeso chidzadutsa ndiyeno tidzapita ngati "o mnyamata, wokondwa kuti sitinagonjere".
Lero m'mawa ndimadzuka ndikumva kulira kwa azimayi chikwi… ..kufuula, kutchula dzina langa. Ndimatsatira phokoso ku kabati yanga ndipo tawonani ndikuwona kulumikizana kwanga ndi hard drive ndikundikakamiza kuseweretsa maliseche!
……… .. Tsopano ndayamba kufota ndipo ndikumva ngati kuti ndakhumudwa. Ndichite chiyani anyamata? Kodi mphamvu zanga zazikulu zidzabweranso? PIED yachiritsidwa masiku a 50. Kenaka ndinkachita zolaula.
Ndinavutika ndi PIED kwa zaka zambiri ndisanadziwe momwe zolaula zingawonongere zaka zisanu zapitazo. Mkazi wanga anali atatsala pang'ono kundisiya chifukwa moyo wathu wogonana unali wovuta kwambiri. Ndinayang'ana kwambiri laser ndikusiya zolaula / maliseche kwa miyezi 18. Tinali kupeza zovuta zambiri ndipo tinali kugonana kwambiri. Ndinagwa m'galimoto ndipo patapita miyezi ingapo PIED idabwerera. Masiku 41 apitawo ndinazindikira kuti ndiyenera kubwerera ku zolaula / maliseche moyo wopanda. Permalink
Ndinatha kusiya kuonera zolaula kwa miyezi iwiri, ndipo ndinapita patsogolo kwambiri ndi PIED yanga, ndinatha kukhala wolimba panthawi yogonana. Ndinayamba kuonera zolaula mobwerezabwereza m'masabata angapo apitawa, osatinso KUKHALA ndikuziwona. Sindingathe kuyambiranso ndi mtsikana. Ndizopusa momwe kungowonera china chake kungasinthire zonse zomwe ndidapanga. 🙁
Gay - (ED) Ubongo wanga unachiritsidwa, ndikhoza kudzutsidwa ndikumwetulira
PIED adachiritsidwa: kugonana kodabwitsa & zozizwitsa zabwino. Anabwereranso ndikupanga ED kachiwiri
Pali chinachake chenicheni apa. Nkhawa yatha pambuyo pake. Maganizo amavutitsidwa.
KUKHALA KWAMBIRI * Shit
Ndilibe magwero oti ndikutsimikizireni. Inu mungotenga mawu anga pa izo.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti pali chiwerengero cha anthu omwe sakhudzidwa ndi kukula ndi zolaula monga zoipa monga ena aliri. Koma ndikutha kukuuzani kuti ine ndili mu chiwerengero chomwe chikukhudzidwa kwambiri ndi zolaula komanso kudzikonda.
Mu masiku zana otsiriza ndi masiku onse, ndakhala ndikuganiza kuti ndine wabwino kwambiri. Ndaphunzira kuyendetsa galimoto, ndapeza ntchito yabwino kwambiri, ndipo ndinapeza chibwenzi chokongola.
Mausiku awiri apitawa, ndimakhala wotsimikiza kuti nditha kuyambiranso. Kotero ine ndinatero. Ndipo katatu tsiku lotsatira. Ndimaganiza kuti sizingandikhudze, koma zidatero.
Kodi mumadziwa momwe mumamvera mukakhala ndi nkhawa, ndipo mumakhala ndi nkhawa pachifuwa? Sindinakhalepo ndi izi kwa masiku opitilira zana. Dzulo idabweranso ndimphamvu zonse ndili kuphwando kunyumba. Chibwenzi changa chinandifunsa ngati ndinali bwino, ndipo ndinangonena kuti ndikudwala. Kunena zoona, ndinkachita mantha kuyambiranso kucheza ndi anthu.
Ndizamisala kuti izi zikuchitika. Awa si malowa. China chake chokhudza zolaula, kapena kuseweretsa maliseche chimasokoneza malingaliro ako. Kumbukirani kuti ndinali ndi zogonana zambiri, chifukwa izi sizili chifukwa cha kutaya umuna kapena china chake.
Izi ndi zamisala. Winawake ayenera kuchita maphunziro ambiri. Nthawi yokonzanso beji yanga
Zaka Zakale za 18 zinayambitsa ED kwa zaka 2
Ndili ndi zinthu zingapo zofunika kuzinena. M'chaka cha 2011 ndipamene ndidapeza kuti ndinali ndi ED ku 16. Ndinali ndi msungwana wokongola kwambiri yemwe ndakhalapo naye ndipo timakhala pabedi langa. Ndinali pafupi kutenga unamwali wake, koma sindinathe kukhala wovuta kupulumutsa moyo wanga. Simukumvetsa kuti msungwana uyu anali wokongola bwanji. Anayamba kukayikira ngati ndinali ndi mtsikana kale kapena ayi. Zinali zochititsa manyazi kwambiri ndipo ndinakayikira ngati ndinali wolunjika kapena ayi. Mwamwayi, pamapeto pake ndinapeza boner nditadzipangitsa kukhala wolimba ndi mafuta odzola
Atachoka ndinasanthula tsamba lawebusayiti kuti ndipeze yankho ndipo ndinapeza YBOP.com - mnyamata ndinali wokondwa kuti ndalandira yankho. Chilichonse chinawonekera ndipo sindinakhulupirire zomwe ndimakhala ndikudzipangira ndekha.
Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndimakhala ndi masturbated ndi pamene ndinali 13. Kwa zaka zingapo, ndikudziwombera popanda zolaula, nthawi zina ndimayang'ana pa zolaula koma ndikuchita maliseche popanda. Ndizotheka kunena kuti pamene ndinali 13 Ndinkakonda kwambiri kuona zithunzi zolaula pafupifupi tsiku lililonse.
Tsopano apa ndi pomwe zimakhala zachilendo. Kuledzera kwanga pamapeto pake kunandipangitsa kuti ndiyambe kutengeka ndi zinthu zachilendo monga zolaula komanso zolaula. Ndimachita manyazi kunena izi chifukwa im 100% yowongoka, komabe, pamapeto pake ndidayamba kungowonera magulu awa ndikuwasewera maliseche. Ndinadziwa, komabe, kuti sindinali gay chifukwa ndikamaliza pmo nthawi yomweyo ndimadzinyansidwa ndekha. Ndinayesera kuonera zolaula zachilendo ndi akazi achiwerewere koma ndimalephera kukonzekera.
Ndinanyalanyaza zonsezi mpaka tsiku limodzi pamene ndinali ndi mtsikana uja. Tsopano ndithamangira lero ndili ndi zaka 18. Ndakhala ndikuyenda ndi pmo kuyambira chaka chatha. Ndipo zomwe ndaphunzira ndikuti kusiya zolaula kumagwira ntchito ndipo mumagwira ntchito! The Ndatalika kwambiri ndapita pafupifupi masiku 55 I khulupirirani, koma ndawona kupita patsogolo mu nthawi imeneyo. Ndikukumbukira chilimwe chilimwe (pamene ndinafika masiku a 55) Ndinali ndi mtsikana yemwe anali wosakongola ngakhale pamene ndinamupsyopsyona, ndinkangomva msanga. Ndinkatha kuvala kondomu popanda kudandaula za kutayika kwanga.
Ndine wokhumudwa kunena kuti ndinapereka zimenezi ndikugonjetsa zolaula.
Posachedwa ndinali ndi mtsikana wina ndipo ndinali ndi mwayi womutenganso namwali, koma ndinakhumudwa kuti ed adandikankhira zabwino nthawi ino. Zinali pafupifupi miyezi iwiri yapitayo ndipo kuyambira pamenepo ndidadzuka mpaka tsiku la 40. Pafupifupi tsiku 40 tidzati masabata awiri apitawa, ndinali ndi mtsikana ndipo ndinali ndi hardon pokhala pafupi naye. Ndinali ndi iye pafupifupi maola 2 ndipo ndikulumbira kuti ndinali ndikumangirira nthawi yonse ndipo ndikutanthauza zonse!
Tsoka ilo ndidafika pachisangalalo ndipo ndidaganiza zopitilira masiku amenewo wopanda zolaula. Ndinamuwonanso sabata yatha ndikumupsompsona sanandipatseko vuto. Adayeseranso kundipatsa handjob ndipo palibe ... Ndikudziwa chifukwa ndidadzinamiza ndi MO.
Komabe ndikuganiza kuti titchule lero tsiku 3 chifukwa ndabwerako kuchokera ku MO lamulungu. Ndikudziwa kuti ndili ndi njira yayitali yoti ndipitenso, koma ndatsimikiza kuti ndikafike komwe ndiyenera kukhala. Palibe aliyense makamaka 18 yo ayenera kuvutika ndi ed. Ndikulemberani zonse ndikuyembekeza kuti ndibwerera kwa inu anyamata ndikupezanso bwino.
Zaka 50 - ED zachiritsidwa, zabwerera ku zolaula, tsopano za ED
Zonsezi zinayamba mutayesa nofap kumayambiriro kwa chilimwe. Mwadzidzidzi ndinayendetsa galimoto. Ndinayesa kalasi ya chilimwe mu latin (KUKHALA kovuta kwambiri). Ndinapita kukakumana ndi mtsikana IRL (mtsikana wokongola kwambiri).
PAKATI. Midway kudutsa chilimwe- Ine ndinayambira. Ndinadziuza ndekha kuti ndiyenera kukondwerera kumapeto kwa nyengo ya chilimwe, kupambana kwa anthu, zatsopano zokhudzana ndi chilakolako cha moyo.
Ngakhale zinanditengera sabata kuti ndizindikire- sindinapite. Ndinasiya kudya bwino. Zinali ngati kuti wina yemwe ali ndi mphamvu yayikulu yakutali pa moyo wanga wasindikiza.
Semmester yotsatira ku koleji ndalephera kalasi iliyonse (sindinayambe ndakhalapo kalikonse). Anazunza anyamata kuchokera pama psychedelics (zidakhala zovuta / zosokoneza bongo m'malo mongodzipangira ndekha). Ndipo ndinadzipatula pakati pa anzanga. (mpaka kufika posapita mkalasi.)
Mwamwayi makolo anga amandithandiza kwambiri. Popanda iwo ine akanatero musakhale pogona m'misewu pakalipano. Usiku watha bambo anga anandifunsa, "Unali kuchita chiyani chomwe chinakupangitsa kuti ukhale wopindulitsa kwambiri chilimwe chatha?" ndipo kuwala kunachokera mmutu mwanga. http://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/1fq4jg/what_were_you_doing_that_made_you_so_productive/
Ndakhala pa NoFap kwa zaka 3 tsopano. Ndakhala ndi zovuta zambiri kuphatikizapo chingwe chachikulu chotsiriza chilimwe. Kubwerera m'chilimwe cha 2014 ndinakumana ndi chibwenzi changa ndipo tinakhala pafupi, koma tinkayenera kuchita zinthu kutalika. Pa nthawi yomwe ndakhala ndikukhala woyera kwa miyezi ndikukhala wolimba. Zinthu zinali zabwino ndikupita kusukulu ndipo pamene tinkasonkhana zinali zodabwitsa!
Ndinatenga maphunziro ophunzirira mumzinda womwewo bwenzi langa amakhala nthawi yotentha ndipo tinasamukira limodzi kwa miyezi itatu. Nthawi imeneyo inali yabwino! Tinkakhala bwino ndipo ndinalibe chinsinsi choti ndizingoyang'ana zolaula. Zinthu zinali zolimba pamiyezi ija ndipo ndinkadzidalira kuti ndidzalowa semester yanga kusukulu. Semester ya Kugwa sinali yoyipa. Iye ndi ine tinakhala tikulumikizana ndipo mtunda wautali udatigwirabe ntchito.
Kenako semester ya Masika inagunda… Ndinatenga zambiri pa semester iyi. Pamwamba pa sukulu yanthawi zonse, ndidatenga kafukufuku, ntchito ziwiri, komanso kalasi yowonjezera yamlungu. Ndimathandizanso ndi kalabu yaku sukulu ndipo ndimayenda kwambiri pamisonkhano yokhudzana ndi sukulu / mafakitale. Ndimadziyika kuti ndikhale ndi zochuluka kwambiri zoti ndichite munthawi yochepa. Ndimaganiza kuti ndidzachita bwino ndikapanikizika. Ntchito zonsezi zidapangitsa kuti zikhale zovuta kwambiri kulumikizana ndi bwenzi langa ndikupita kukamuwona.
Zovuta zomwe zidakulirakulira ndipo ndimayesetsa kumva ngati PMO yaying'ono ingandithandizire kupsinjika. Inde, sizinatero. M'malo mwake zidakulitsa kwambiri. Ndinayamba PMOing komanso nthawi zoyipa kwambiri pomwe ndimayenera kukhala mkalasi kapena kukhala mpaka 4am m'malo mogona kapena kulemba homuweki. Ndinayamba kukhala chipolopolo chopanda pake. Ndidabisa izi kwa bwenzi langa ndikuchita ngati zonse zili bwino. Ndayamba kuda nkhawa kwambiri.
Dzulo ndimagwira mphindi ya pivatol. Ndinayamba kumva kuti ndikufa ndipo ndikukwiya kwambiri ndikutopa chisoni. Ndinaitana chibwenzi changa kuti ndivomereze zonse zomwe ndakhala ndikudutsa mu miyezi ingapo yapitayo. Iye analitenga ilo molimba. Chovuta kwambiri. Iye ankaganiza kuti ndi chinachake chimene iye amachititsa mwa kusakhala bwenzi labwino kapena osandisangalatsa. Ndinafunika kufotokoza momwe PMO zimandipangitsa kuti ndizimva mankhwala osokoneza bongo komanso momwe ndimagwiritsira ntchito mankhwalawa. Momwe izo zinalibe kanthu kochita ndi iye kapena ubale wathu. Tinatha kukonza zinthu, koma tsopano akudziwa kuti izi ndi gawo la ine komanso gawo la ubale wathu.
Patha maola 24 zapitazo. Ndidalumikizana ndi othandizira ndipo ndikuyesera kupeza tsiku loti ndidzakumane. Ndatumizira mlangizi wanga maimelo ndikusiya ntchito yanga. Ndili pantchito imodzi tsopano. Kwenikweni ndinachotsa nkhawa zambiri pamoyo wanga. Ndidatha kupyola mulu wazopanda zomwe zidali kuwunjikira kunyumba kwanga.
Komabe, zonsezi kunena ngati mwakhala mukubisa izi kuchokera ku SO siyani. Muuzeni chifukwa zoyipa izi zikuphwanya nokha.
Ndidachitapo kale nofap kale. Ndakwaniritsa mozungulira masiku 90 ndipo munthawi imeneyo ndinapeza ntchito yatsopano, bwenzi latsopano, ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi. Zinthu zambiri zozizira. Koma ndinalakwitsa kuganiza kuti zonse zikamayenda bwino zonse zakonzedwa. Ndinabwerera kwa PMO ndipo zonse zinabwerera mwakale. Sanakonde ntchito, aulesi, onenepa kwambiri, ubale woyipa. [Werengani nkhani yokhudza kuchira kwachiwiri]
Ndabwereranso patatha zaka 1.5 ndipo ndili wokondwa kuti ndidatero
Ndine wokondwa kuti ndinabwereranso… chifukwa tsopano ndikudziwa kuti ndikufuna kusiya kubalanso ndipo nthawi ino ndibwino. Izi ndi zomwe ndazindikira:
- Ziribe kanthu momwe ndimayesera kutsimikizira izi ndi zolemba zakukula kwabwino, ndimakhala wokhumudwa nthawi zonse ndikamaliza. Inu anyamata mukudziwa kumverera.
- Ndimacheza kwambiri ndikudzidalira kwambiri.
- Sindingakhale wofunitsitsa kufikira ndi kutsata akazi. Ndikuganiza kuti izi ndichifukwa ndikudziwa kuti zosangalatsa ndizochepa chabe ndipo sindiyenera kudzipereka ndekha kunja kapena kuyesetsa kupeza mnzanga kuti ndikhale wosangalala ndi (zomwe siziyenera kuphatikizapo kugonana kapena zogonana).
- Zinali zochititsa mantha kuti ndinadzipangira bwanji msanga. Ndakhala ndikuseweretsa maliseche tsiku lililonse pafupifupi tsiku lililonse kuyambira pomwe ndinali 14 (tsopano 27) - izi ndizophatikiza zoyesayesa zambiri zoyimitsa zomwe zimatha milungu ingapo. Zotsatira zake, ndadziphunzitsa ndekha mwachangu, kotero kuti ndimatha kukhala wosangalatsa m'masekondi 30 ngati ndikufuna. Icho sichikhala chinthu chabwino ngati ndikufuna kugonana kwabwino, kotakasuka komanso koyenera ndi mkazi.
- Kuchita maliseche sikungakuthandizeni "kufufuza" thupi lanu monga momwe akunenera koma kumakuthandizani kuti mugwiritse ntchito kugonana kwanu ndi thupi lanu kuposa momwe amakuwuzirani. Kuwona mtima, patatha zaka 13 + ndikuseweretsa maliseche komanso "kudziwa thupi langa" sipangakhale chilichonse chosadziwika. Yakwana nthawi yoti muime, zabwino nthawi ino
Kwa anyamata omwe akubwezeretsanso kachiwiri
Ine ndinayambiranso masiku a 110, ndipo tsiku 95 wanga ED anali atapita kwathunthu ndipo anali ndi kugonana kwakukulu. koma .. mwatsoka ndinabwereranso pa zolaula pa masabata a 6 .. (pmo (2 nthawi zina 3 nthawi pa sabata) ndipo ndinali wodabwa, ndikulimbanso kachiwiri kwa masabata a 2 tsopano ndipo ndine wamkulu kwambiri.
Kotero funso langa ndilo: KODI NDI BWANJI KODI MALO AWO ACHIWIRI NDI CHIYANI? KODI ZINAKHALA PAKALE PAMENE ANAYAMBA KUBWIRITSA NTCHITO KUCHITIKA (KUCHOKERA ED?)
Ndili ndi layisensi yanga, ntchito yanga yoyamba, ndi ubale umene unagwedezeka (kenako nkuziponya zonse)
Kodi chimachitika n'chiyani masiku a 90? Akhondo akale akuwona
Masiku 441 apita ndinayamba Nofap nthawi yoyamba. Inali nthawi yanga yoyamba kusasula maliseche m'zaka zoposa 12. Zochitikazo zinali zodabwitsa. Nthawi yomweyo maganizo anga anayamba kufooka, chidaliro changa ndi amayi chinakula ndipo ine monga munthu ndinakhala wolimbikitsidwa komanso wolimbikira kwambiri. Mukhoza kuwerenga za masiku anga oyambirira a 90 apa: http://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/21nhjz/90_day_report_how_i_did_it_and_how_you_can_do_it/
Pambuyo pa masiku a 180 a Nofap ndinayamba kudabwa- ndi chiyani? Kodi ndiyenera kuti ndisapite nthawi zonse? Kodi si kopindulitsa kuphunzira kuseweretsa maliseche mwanjira yathanzi? Ndi chikondi ndi kulemekeza thupi langa? Sindinadziwe choti ndichite. Ndinayang'ana kuzungulira Nofap koma panali anthu ochepa omwe ndimagwirizana nawo.
Kotero, pafupi masiku a 220 ine ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche kachiwiri, poyamba, mwachindunji momwe zingathere. Ndilibe zolaula komanso zosangalatsa, ndikusangalala nazo. Poyamba ndimangochita kamodzi pa sabata. Koma mofulumira kwambiri, ndinatulutsa mphamvu. Kwa miyezi yotsatira ya 4 ine ndinali kumbali yowonongeka yokakamiza kugonana.
Zosangalatsa, zizindikiro zonse zoipa zinabwerera. Ndinataya mtima, ndinayamba kukhumudwa komanso kukhumudwa ndipo ndinangoyamba kuchitapo kanthu. Ndinawathamangitsa atsikana m'malo mozungulira, maubwenzi anga adagwedezeka ndipo ndinathera kunyanja.
Ndili pano tsiku la 21 ndipo ndimamva bwino. Monga zabwino kwenikweni, zabwino usiku ndi usana. Ndakhala paulendo umenewu kwa nthawi yaitali kotero ndiloleni ndinene, Nofap ntchito!
Kwa iwo omwe awa ndi oyamba anu oyamba, ndikhulupirire ine kuti zotsatira zonse zabwino za nofap ndi zoona. Ndipo kwa inu masiku a 90 apitalo, izi ndizofunikira kwa inu. Mudzadzipanga nokha chisankho mosasamala kanthu ndipo muli ndi ufulu wochita zimenezo. Koma ndikukhulupirira kuti nkhani yanga idzakhala liwu limene lingakutsogolereni njira iliyonse yomwe mwasankha.
PIED, kuchedwa kuthamangitsidwa, Kudzipereka.
33yo anakwatira mwamuna akulimbana ndi kuchepetsa kutaya moyo wanga wonse. Zinakhazikika mu zomwe ndikuganiza ndi PIED. Ndinkakhala ndi tsiku la 60 tsiku losavuta, koma ndinabwerera m'mbuyo chifukwa chotsatira zogonana. PIED ndi DE adabwereranso.
Anandipatsa Viagra, yomwe idathandiza pang'ono, koma osayandikira NoFap. Komabe, ndalimbikitsa. Masiku 9 tsopano.
Chenjezo Lalikulu Kwambiri Pambuyo Panu Pachiritsidwa (Musamangokhalira Kuiwala Zonsezi)
Ndinachita izi zaka zingapo zapitazo nditazindikira YBOP, ndipo [www.yourbrainrebalanced.com] anali mwana chabe wobadwa ndi mbewu yowonongedwa ya oyambitsa athu oyambira (mnyamatayo wakula - ndikuganiza kuti zikukhudzana ndi onse 'mamembala onyada olimba'
Nditangopeza kuti 'Pron' anali wotsutsana nane, nthawi yomweyo ndinakhala ndi imodzi mwa 'ahh mphindi', ndikutsatiridwa ndi mbama pankhope panga. Imeneyi inali nkhani ya m'modzi mwa zinthu izi zomwe zikuwonekeratu kuti simukuziwona. Sindinali wokayikira konse. Mawu amkati mkati anali kugwedezera mutu ndikunena kuti 'yup sucker, ndakhala ndikuyesera kukuwuza kwazaka zambiri'. manda! (Yang'anani motere abwenzi, tonsefe tinali ndi 'Pron' - sanali zonsezo. Bwanji osapeza imodzi yomwe tonsefe sitinakhale nayo - zabwino :-))
Zinali zophweka kwambiri kwa ine, ndimaganiza kuti ndiyenera kungochotsa Pron 'wakale' mnzanga mzaka zonsezi… ZOSAVUTA! Ndinali nditasungulumwa ndi 'Pron' kwazaka zambiri ndipo ndimangoyesetsa kuti ubalewo ukhalebe wamoyo. Anzake kuti sizinali kugwira ntchito, bwenzi kuli kwanzeru kwa iwo akadasudzulana kale ndikusiya wina ndi mnzake.
Kuyambira tsiku lomwelo sindinayang'anenso ku 'Pron' tsiku ndi tsiku dziko lenileni (china chake chomwe chitha kukonzanso) adadzionetsera kwa ine mochulukira. Ndinawerenga maakaunti onse obwezeretsanso pa YBOP, anyamata ena adapeza mtendere wamkati, ena adalongosola kubwereketsa kwawo kwatsopano ndipo m'modzi kapena awiri amatha kuwuluka ndikukhala ndi mphamvu zamatsenga zamitundu yonse. Chimodzi mwazinthu zabwino kwambiri pazomwe apezazi ndichakuti zimapangitsa funso limodzi zinthu zina zambiri - kuyambiranso ku chilichonse. …
Pamenepo muli nacho - Chinathandiza - Chilichonse chinabwera kwa ine monga momwe zinachitikira kwa ena onse - Kupambana (kumapambana pang'ono) koma…
Koma… Chifukwa chiyani Gahena ndili pano tsopano?
Ndazichita! Ndipachika mutu wanga. Ndazichita!
Pambuyo pazaka zambiri ndikumakumbukira kofooka uku sindinkaganiza kuti ndingayang'ane 'Pron' ndipo anali, woseketsa kuposa kale. Monga wopusa, ndimayenera kuyang'ananso 'Pron' kuti ndiwonetsetse kuti ndampezadi wosasangalatsa.
Ndipo apa ndiye amene akumenya ... Ndikuziwona kuti ndizotani (zidakali zotopetsa) koma 'Pron' wakumbiranso misomali yake ndipo akundipangitsanso kamwana kanga kakang'ono. Sizosangalatsa konse, mawu mkatimo akufuula 'Hei sucker, ndimaganiza kuti ndakuwuza!'
Sindimasangalala nazo koma ndimadzipeza ndikutero - mafotokozedwe anga ndi awa: -
Nthawi yoyamba kuzungulira ndinali wokhumudwa kwambiri sindimasamala zosiya chilichonse - sindimamva kalikonse - zomwe zidapangitsa kuti zikhale zosavuta kupatsa 'Pron' wakale.
Nthawi yachiwiri - ndimamva zonse ndipo ngakhale ndikudziwa zomwe ndikumva komanso kuti 'Pron' siine kwa ine ndimamuyendera ngati banja losasangalala pomwe timadzikakamiza kuti tizikondana.
Chenjezo Langa - Mukakhala kunja ... Khalani kunja komweko! (Sindichita mawu a Godfather ;-))
Ndikudziwa ngati ndinafikira tsambali koyamba pomwe malingaliro anga adayamba kudzifunsa kuti sindidzabwereranso. Chifukwa chake, mukachiritsidwa kwakanthawi ndikudzimva kuti 'mukufuna kudziwa' werengani zina apa ndipo zonse zibwerera kwa inu. Zomwe zimawoneka ngati zolimba komanso zotsimikiza tsopano (monga zolaula) zimafooka pakapita nthawi - tonsefe titha kupindula kukumbukira kuti chifukwa chinthuchi ndi cha moyo komanso kukhala ndi 'Pron' kulibe moyo.
(Kwa Ine) Nthawi yachiwiri idawoneka yovuta kuposa nthawi yoyamba (osati pano ngakhale masiku a 10 osasamala - Ndikudziwa kuti ndimangoyang'ana zolaula ndili ndi thanzi labwino ndikumverera bwino (inde momwe zimamvekera pomwe zimatiyamwa koyamba in)) - Mwamwayi, ndikuganiza sindinalole kuti ndilowerere nawo moto wanga wakale ndipo ndikukumbutsidwa mwanjira yovuta.
Ndiye abwenzi, tonse timadziwa 'Pron' - Ali ndi zochenjera zambiri, osamupatsa chisangalalo CHONSE.
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Zaka 28 - Nkhani yanga momwe NoFap yasinthira moyo wanga ku 2013 - ndi momwe zidapitilira ku gehena
Anthu ambiri amafotokoza zolimbana zawo ndi kubwerera mmbuyo mutatha kubwereranso kuchokera kuutali wautali ndipo sindinali osiyana. Pambuyo pokhala ndi zolaula ndi maliseche pamwezi wa 6 ndipo ndinafikira pamene ndinaganiza kuti sindidzabwerera ku chizolowezi chimene chinali chowononga moyo wanga, ndinadzipezera kuti sinditha kufika ngakhale masiku a 4.
Anali masabata a 4 a hellish ndipo ine ndinali wosiyana kwambiri ndi omwe ndinali masabata a 4 apitawo: osasamala komanso okhumudwa ndi kusintha kwakukulu. Chisangalalo chodziwika bwino cha anthu ndi zovuta, kupsinjika maganizo ndi zotsatira zina zonse za PMOIng nthawi zonse zimadziwika pano.
Ndinalephera kuwongolera moyo wanga nditaugwira mwamphamvu. Zomwe zidandipangitsa kuti zikhale zovuta kwambiri kuti ndilandire kugonja ndikuti ndidadzipereka mwaufulu popanda zolimbikitsa - chinali chisankho chopusa kudziwa momwe chizolowezichi chikuwonongera.
Chabwino, nthawi zina ndimasandulika tsiku ndi tsiku, tsiku ndi tsiku ndimasinthidwa kangapo masiku ena ... Mtima wanga udatsika, sindinathe kutengeka ndikulimbitsa thupi .. Sindingadandaule kuyesetsa kuti ndipange chakudya chopatsa thanzi kotero ndimangokhala ndi ma microwave komanso ndinabweretsa , Ndimakhala wotopa nthawi zonse, ndimamva ngati ndikuthimbira kuposa kale…
Osachepera ndapha mawu m'mutu mwanga omwe akundiuza kuti nofap anali bullshit. Nthawi ya Sooooo yoyesanso, ndikufunireni mwayi anyamata! Ndatumiza izi kuti aliyense aziganiza zomwezo, mwina kuwerenga izi kukupangitsani kuganiza mozama.
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Zomwe mukufotokoza ndi momwe ndidakumaniranso. Zero ali wofunitsitsa kuchita chilichonse mukamamwa mowa mopitirira muyeso… Zolaula zimatisokeretsa.
Kusintha kwakukulu m'moyo wanga, koma….
Chilichonse chinali chabwino! Ubwino? Nthawi zambiri ndimakhala wolimba mtima, wofunitsitsa kucheza ndi anzawo ndikuphunzira zinthu zatsopano, koma kuphatikiza apo ndidalandira mphamvu zambiri. Ndinayamba kudzipangira ndekha kusintha; kugwira ntchito, kukhazikitsa luso, kupeza maluso ochezera, kuchepetsa kuzengereza, kuchita zinthu zambiri! Malingaliro anga ndiwosavuta, ndimatha kuyang'ana mosavuta, nthawi zina ndimakumana ndi mayendedwe. Masiku ena ndimatha kukhala tsiku lonse ndikuwerenga zolemba zanu, tsiku lina ndimadzuka molawirira kuti ndisataye tsiku ndikuyesa zochitika zambiri. Nkhondo yanga ya miyezi 10 inali yabwino.
Mwadzidzidzi mwezi watha ndinalephera (kusakatula reddit, kudina pang'ono, nsfw sub ndipo mukudziwa zomwe pambuyo pake). Ndikuganiza kuti zili bwino, patapita nthawi yayitali, sizingakhale zovulaza, ichi chinali chodzikhululukira changa. Sabata yatha nkhani yomweyi, patangopita masiku ochepa… ndiye chizolowezicho ndi chowopsa.
Chifukwa chiyani ndalephera? Mwina chifukwa ndimakhala ndi nthawi yopuma kuposa nthawi zambiri, mwina chizolowezi changa ndicholimba kwambiri ndipo ndidachichepetsera (ndikuswa lamulo langa). Ndikuwopa kwambiri, ndiye lero ndaganiza zomenyanso! Ndapeza gawo latsopano lolimbikitsana, tsopano ndine wachuma. Ndikudziwa kuti ulendo wanga ndi wautali kwambiri, koma ndine wokondwa kwambiri. Chifukwa chiyani ndikulemba izi? Chifukwa ichi ndi chizolowezi chomwa mowa kwambiri, osakhala ovuta kwa iwe wekha, koma nthawi zonse uzikhala wowona mtima kwa iwe wekha, zindikira zakumwa zoledzeretsa ndikukhala wotsimikiza!
Ndadutsa masiku 100 (pepani, ndinasiya kuwerengera) wopanda PMO ndipo ndili pachibwenzi pompano ndi mtsikana wamkulu. Tinali ndi zovuta nthawi iliyonse yomwe timakumbatirana kapena kupanga, koma osagonana panobe. Nthawi zonse ndakhala ndikufunika kukhala womasuka ndi mtsikanayo ndisanapite patali.
Tsopano chifukwa cha nkhani zoyipa. Ndinayambanso PMO'ing milungu ingapo yapitayo ndipo ndinamva ngati sizinandichitikire bwino. Ndikadali ndikudzuka kumatabwa ammawa kotero ndidaganiza kuti ndachiritsidwa. Izi zidandipangitsa kudzidalira kwambiri ndipo ndidapitilira ku PMO sabata yamawa.
Pang`onopang`ono koma mosadukiza usiku ndi matabwa m'mawa anazimiririka ndipo zinandimasula ine kuti kupita patsogolo kwatha. Anayambanso kusiya pa February 10 zomwe zimapangitsa lero kukhala tsiku la 5 la PMO. Nkhani yabwino ndiyakuti ndadzukanso m'mawa uno kuti ndikhale nkhuni zam'mawa. Oo, sindikukhulupirira kuti ndidakhala nthawi yayitali ndikudziletsa ndikubwereranso mumsampha. Tikuchezera tsambali kuti mupitilize kutsatira njirayi.
Chinthu china chomwe chinandimasula ine, pamene ndinali PMO'ing kachiwiri, palibe zochitika pamene ndikukumbatira kapena kupanga ndi mtsikana wanga. Ndikuopa kuti ndadziyikira kumbuyo, ndikuyembekeza kuti sindinabwerere kutali kwambiri. Zikomo powerenga, ndikuyembekeza kuti aliyense apitiliza kulimba pankhondoyi.
Zaka 25 - Kuyambira NEET kupita ku alpha kuti mubwererenso kukonzanso
Ndimaganiza kuti ndikumenyera mayi uyu fucker. Mulungu akadali ndikulakwitsa
Ndinachita masiku anga a 90. Anagwedezeka ndipo anachita 150. Moyo wanga unasintha pamaso panga. Ubale wanga ndi chibwenzi wanga unaberekanso. Anandidalira ndipo anandilemekeza m'njira zomwe sindinkaganiza kuti n'zotheka. Ndinkadzikonda ndikudzilemekeza ndekha momwe sindinaganize kuti n'zotheka.
Ndimamva kuti ndikukula ngati munthu. Ndimaganiza kuti mayi awa ali ndi thumba m'thumba. Ndimaganiza kuti ndimathera mphamvu zochulukirapo osaganizira maliseche. Sindinasinthe ndipo ndinachotsa baji yanga. Ndidasiya kupita kuchipatala pomwe ndidayamba ntchito yolemetsa yomwe imatenga nthawi yanga yonse mkati mwa sabata. Ndinasiya kupita kuchipatala. Ndinasiya kugwira ntchito yochira. Ndinabwereranso. Ndinabwereranso. Ndabwereranso kumapeto kwa sabata iliyonse mwezi watha.
Ndikutsetsereka. Ndikutaya zonse. Ndikumva kuti ndikubwerera ku umunthu wanga wakale. Kachigawo kakang'ono kotheka. Munthu wodzikonda. Alibe chidaliro. Kuthamangira ena. Mabodza. Kupanga.
Sindingathe kuchita izi. Anapaka. Ndikhala pano m'mawa uliwonse kudzakhala ndi tsogolo labwino. Ndimakhazikitsanso kauntala yanga. Ndikufuna kuyambiranso tsiku lililonse lodziletsa. Ndilibe nthawi yoti ndionane ndi dokotala wanga chifukwa cha magwiridwe anga antchito, koma ndimayankha maimelo ake m'malo momunyalanyaza. Ndikupeza china chosatetezeka komanso chauzimu choti ndizichita kumapeto kwa sabata.
Ndiyenera kuchita izi. Ndikuyenera kumenyana. Ine ndimaganiza kuti zatha, koma ine ndinali kulakwitsa. Nkhondoyi ikhoza kutha.
Achinyamata, ndabwera nditakhala nthawi yonse yotentha ndi chibwenzi changa. Pakadutsa miyezi iwiri ndikupita komwe amakhala kuti ndikakhale naye. Ndinkakhala naye pafupifupi tsiku lililonse ndipo ndinkakhala kwathunthu, ndikutanthauza kwathunthu, ndachiritsidwa ku ED nditakhala nthawi yayitali zolaula. Pamene nkhawa yanga inatha ndinapeza kuti ndimatha kuchita nthawi zina mpaka masiku 5 molunjika. Kukhala kutali ndi zolaula kunapangitsa kuti kukhale kosavuta kupeza erection. Kupsompsona kopanda tanthauzo! Chotsatira mukudziwa kuti ndinu ovuta!
Ndakhala ndiri kutali ndi chibwenzi changa kwa sabata limodzi ndi theka tsopano. Chowopsa ndichakuti, popanda kugonana, ndidabwereranso kanayi sabata latha ndi theka. Ndayesera kuzilungamitsa, koma chowonadi ndichakuti, popanda kugonana, malingaliro anga tsopano akuyesa kupeza "mankhwala" ake. Ndili ndi mantha ngati gehena tsopano momwe ndikudziwira zotsatira zake. Ndicho chifukwa chake ndabwerera. Nditha kupanga. Ndinazichita kale.
Kachiwiri mozungulira, ndikukhumba ine mwayi.
Chaka chatha ndinayesa nofap kwa miyezi pafupifupi 3 ndipo, ndiyenera kuvomereza kuti imeneyo inali nthawi yanga yopindulitsa kwambiri komanso yosangalatsa. Ndidangoyang'ana pa ntchito yanga, ndinabwerera kusukulu, ndipo ndinayamba moyo watsopano wolimbitsa thupi nthawi zonse. Tsoka ilo, ndinabwereranso ku zizolowezi zanga patapita miyezi ingapo ndipo zonse zidatsikira pamenepo. Zinanditengera miyezi 9 kuti ndizindikire kufunika kwa moyo wosakhazikika "kokha" pazakugonana komanso zolaula.
Ngakhale ndidakali wokangalika pantchito zanga zosangalatsa komanso ntchito, sindingathe kudzipereka chifukwa chodalira zogonana, zolaula, komanso maliseche. Ndikufuna kumasuka kuzinthu izi kwamuyaya ndichifukwa chake ndikubwerera kwa inu anyamata monga mwakhala mukundidabwitsa ine kale. Ndikudziwa kuti sindingalimbane ndi izi ndekha; ndipo mothandizidwa ndi ine ndikuyembekeza kuti pomalizira pake ndimenya chilombo chogonana chomwe chakhala chikundizingirira m'khosi mwanga kwa zaka 15!
Kenaka ndinapunthwa pa kanema ka TEDx komwe kanalongosola zolaula. Ndipo zinali ngati kumwamba kutseguka kwa ine. Ndipo ndinasiya zolaula tsiku lomwelo ndikuzichita chaka chimodzi popanda kubwereranso. Ndipo izo zinagwira ntchito. Ndinachita bwino kwambiri, ndinkakhala wopambana kwambiri pa ntchito yanga, ndinkangokhala pabedi mosavuta, ndinkasewera masewera, kuwerenga, etc. Ndinayamba chibwenzi pa Intaneti ndipo ndinapeza msungwana wabwino yemwe ankakhala kutali kwambiri ndipo patapita pafupifupi mwezi za kutumiza ndi kutumizira imelo kumbuyo ndikupita patsogolo iye anandiitana kuti ndibwere kudzakhala naye Lamlungu. Ngakhale kuti lingaliro linali lakuti ndimagona pabedi, sindinapangepo pamenepo. Tinkagonana tsiku ndi tsiku (nthawi zina kawiri) kwa masiku 3. Tavomereza kuti ubale sungatheke chifukwa cha mtunda ndipo tinasiyidwa pamapeto a sabata.
Patapita miyezi ingapo ndinakumana ndi mtsikana pafupi ndipo zinali zosokoneza nthawi yomweyo. Tidalumikizana mwachangu kwambiri ndipo ndinadabwa kuti anali otseguka kwambiri mchipinda chogona. Izi zidandipangitsa kukhala wopanda chitetezo, sindinkafuna kutsalira (amayendetsedwa kwambiri). Ndinapita kwa dokotala wanga ndikumufotokozera ED wanga, anandipatsa chitsanzo cha mapiritsi a 4 Viagra kuti andipatse "chilimbikitso". Ndinali wokayikira pa Viagra kotero ndinayesera kumwa mapiritsi theka pamene ndinali ndekha. Kungoganiza za kugonana kunandipatsa boner yomwe idamangidwa kuti izikhala. Apa ndi pamene zonse zinasokonekera.
Chibwenzi changa chitatha (osagwiritsa ntchito Viagra) ndinali ndekha nditatha kuchita zachiwerewere. Pokhala ndi njira yotsimikizika yochokera ku ED yanga ndi Viagra komanso wopanda chibwenzi, mdierekezi wamng'ono paphewa adati: "tiyeni tisiye, mwakhala oyera kwa chaka chimodzi, mutha kugwira kamodzi pa sabata, simuyenera kutero onerani zolaula. ” Kotero ine ndinatero. Ndisanadziwe kuti ndidabwerera komwe ndinali zaka 1.5 zapitazo kanema wa TEDx asanafike. Zovuta zanga zidabweranso, ntchito yanga idayamba kuchepa. Ndinabwereranso pa 1. https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/rebooting-accounts/rebooting-accounts-page-31/age-XNUMX-ed-depression-went-away-more-successful-at-my-job-and-relapse/
Ndabwereranso kawiri m'mawa uno nditatha kudzuka m'mawa tsiku lililonse ndikupita kokachita masewera olimbitsa thupi. Ndinaganiza zoyesa kuyesa porsche boxter, ndipo chachiwiri nditatuluka m'nyumba yanga, ndimamva ngati ndikumwa mankhwala osokoneza bongo. Kuyanjana konse ndi wamalonda uja kunali kolumpha, kunjenjemera, komanso kutopetsa. Nthawi zambiri ndimakhala chilombo ndimacheza. Sindingathe kuyendetsa liwiro la 5 osakhala wovuta nthawi yonseyi, ndipo ndakhala ndikuyendetsa bukuli kwanthawi yayitali mgalimoto yanga (audi tt).
Ngakhale ndikulemba izi nditha kudziwa kuti malingaliro anga ndi osiyana, mawu anga onse amawombedwa ndipo sindimavutikanso kukonza zolakwika monga momwe ndimafunira. Ndazindikira kuti ndikadzipeza ndekha, kapena kuonera zolaula, zikuwonetsa kuti moyo wanga suli momwe uyenera kukhalira. OSAKHUDZANSO. CHIDULE sindikuyembekezera mawa pamene chifunga ichi chitha pang'ono… ndi street19masiku 4
Cholemba changa choyamba apa mu 2011 chidandifotokozera mwachidule. Ndidangowerenganso. Pambuyo popita kuzizira ndikumva bwino, ndikulumbirira PMO, ndakhala ndikubwereranso kangapo ndikutsatiridwa ndimaphunziro apakatikati a ED ndikukhala ndi vuto lokhalanso ndiubwenzi wanthawi yayitali. Chidziwitso: sizimakhudzana mwachindunji ndi zochitika zina zogonana. Komabe, Porn inakhalanso njira yondithandizira chisoni. Osati mwamphamvu monga kale, koma kudya moledwerabe. Kenako panabwera ulendo wakunja komwe ndidadziwitsidwa zamadzimadzi zotsika mtengo zomwe ndimagwiritsanso ntchito kwa zaka zingapo kuti ndithane ndi zovuta zilizonse zokhudzana ndi ED. Ndili ndi zaka zapakati pa 40s ndipo sindiyenera kudalira zinthu zimenezo!
Chinthu chachikulu kwa ine pakadali pano ngakhale nditakhala ndi erection sindikumva zambiri. Sindikumva kuti ndimanyazi. Ndikuwona wina yemwe atha kukhala wokulirapo kotero tsopano ndili ndi milungu ingapo kuchokera kwa PMO ndikuyesera kuti ndibwererenso bwino ndikumva bwino. Tikukhulupirira kuti nditha kuyambitsa chinthu ichi nthawi ino.
Nkhani Ya Wachikulire Wogwa, ndi zina zomwe ndawona nditabwerera kumdima
Ndayambanso mzere wanga woyamba ku Sept 2012, kodi masiku a 90 anali ovuta kwambiri poyesa ndikuyamba kuimba nyimbo zotamandika za nofap. Icho chinali kusintha kwa moyo. Kuchuluka kwa mphamvu ndi chidaliro chimene ndinali nacho kuzungulira tsiku la 90 kunali kodabwitsa.
Miyezi ingapo idadutsa, ndipo ndidasankha kusiya. Porn sizinandisangalatsenso, koma atsikana ovala zovala zowoneka bwino anali, chifukwa chake ndidadzipeza ndekha ndikuyenda ndi Netflix makanema B akuwonetsa khungu. Koma si zolaula, sichoncho? Ndipo sindikudzikhudza, ndiye zili bwino, sichoncho?
Mukhoza kudziwa kumene izi zikulowera. Zinangotenga mwezi kuti pang'onopang'ono zichoke pang'onopang'ono, mpaka kufika poyambira mwezi umodzi wapita, ndagwa mowirikiza kwambiri mu chizoloŵezi changa chokhalira maulendo angapo pa sabata, ndikukhala ndi maola ochuluka maola ambiri. Asa. Miyezi isanu ndi iwiri, munthu.
Mukakumbukira zomwe ndalemba kuyambira koyambirira kwa chaka, mutha kuwona momwe ndinalankhulira molimba mtima pazinthuzi komanso momwe ndidazitengera. Sindikudziwa kwenikweni zomwe zidachitika. Kupsinjika ndi ntchito mwina kudafooketsa kutsimikiza kwanga. Pamapeto pa tsikulo, ndidapanga zisankho zomwe zidandipangitsa kuti ndisiye mayendedwe anga ndikubwereranso kuzikhalidwe zakale.
Ngati pali chimodzi chotsimikizika pazochitikazi, ndikuti tsopano ndili ndi kuyerekezera kwabwino kwa ABA kwa moyo ndi wopanda.
Popeza ndikubwerera, ndiku:
- Utsi wa ubongo
- mphwayi
- Kukonda nthawi zonse
- Palibe maloto usiku
- Chisangalalo chochepetsedwa pa kugonana
Sikoyenera kupitiriza kukula m'moyo wanga. Chifukwa chake ndikuyambiranso lero kuti ndisiye. Chinthu chimodzi chomwe ndingatchule ndikuti njira yovuta ndi ZINTHU ZOFUNIKA KWAMBIRI kuposa zosavuta.
Adabwezeretsanso, koma adalumikizidwa kachiwiri. Kutsegula kachiwiri kwachiwiri
Zaka 19 - Zomwe ndimayesa ndi NoFap. Imagwira ndipo si placebo!
Ah ndipusitseni. Patatha masiku 318 ndikubwerera komwe ndidayambira.
Pafupifupi chaka chapitacho, ndinayamba nofap ndipo inasintha moyo wanga. Ndinali ndi chidaliro ndi mphamvu kuti ndipeze bwenzi. Ndipo izo zinali zabwino
Dzulo usiku tinasiyana. Sindikuganiza kuti ndi ameneyo, koma kumapeto kwa chibwenzi chathu ndidayamba kumenyedwa. Sitinkagonana pafupipafupi monga tinkachitira kale, kotero ndidayamba kusamba, kapena akugona kapena china chake.
Ndiye ndimafuna zolaula, kotero ndinayang'ana zina, ndinaganiza kuti kwakhala kanthawi ndipo sindingathe kumwa. Koma ndidatero. Ndakhala ngati 4, nthawi 5 dzulo ndipo ndimamva ngati wotayika kachiwirinso.
Ndinapezanso 20lbs ndikuyamba kusuta.
Nditengeni. Ine ndikubwereranso moyo wanga palimodzi. Ndinali chaka chokha cha 1 chaka chapitacho.
Ndimaganiza kuti zolaula ndizovuta, monga matenda a chiponde. Kwa munthu amene sagwirizana ndi chiponde, mtedza si "woyipa" kapena "woyipa" ndi zinthu zomwe munthu sangakhale nazo, chifukwa padzakhala zotsatirapo. Munthu amene ali ndi ziwengo amavomereza izi. Paphwando, pomwe anzawo akudya mtedza, samasilira anzawo, kapena kuwanyoza chifukwa chowadya. Avomereza kale kuti sakugwirizana ndi chiponde.
Ndizofanana kwambiri ndi zolaula. Pali anthu kunja uko omwe samakonda zolaula ndipo amatha kugwiritsa ntchito bwino komanso pang'ono. Ndikunena mphamvu zambiri kwa iwo. Koma kwa tonsefe omwe tili osokoneza bongo, tiyenera kuvomereza kuti ife ndi zolaula sizigwirizana. Kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kumabweretsa mavuto kwa ife. Tiyenera kungovomereza izi ndikupitiliza ndi moyo wathu.
Mukamamva kuti zonse zikudutsa, komabe mukudziwa kuti nofap ikhoza kukupulumutsani.
Ndakhala ndikulimbana ndi ED pafupifupi chaka chimodzi tsopano ndipo ndakhala ndikubisalira pa subreddit iyi kwazaka zambiri, ndikuganiza kuti ndizoseketsa nthawi zina chifukwa champhamvu zopitilira muyeso zomwe ena mwa inu mumatchula. Komabe ndinkakhulupirirabe zomwe Gary Wilson ananena pokambirana ndi TEDx. Komabe, nditapezabe zifukwa ndikazichita izi moyenera tsopano… bwanji? Chifukwa ndidapita mwezi wapitawo masiku 23 osayang'ana zolaula ndipo dick wanga adakhalanso ndi moyo.
Nthawi zambiri ndimakhala ndikulingalira koma ndikuzindikira kuti zolaula ndimavuto akulu. Dick wanga pomalizira pake adachitanso chidwi pambuyo pa masiku 23 amenewo. Koma tsopano ndili ndi tsiku la 4 nditapeza chifukwa china chomvetsa chisoni chobwereranso ku zolaula. Koma tsopano ndili ndi bwenzi lodabwitsa komanso lotentha koma ndimamva kuwawa chifukwa sindingakhale okhwima kwa iye. Nditha kulimba koma sizovuta kwenikweni.
Sindikudziwa momwe ndingathanirane ndi vutoli, ndakhala womasuka komanso wowona mtima pazonse koma ndikumva kukhudzidwa ndikutayika pakadali pano. Ndikudziwa kuti zitenga kanthawi tisanathe kugonana moyenera ndipo izi zimandiwononga mkati. Ngati sindingathe kuchita zomwe timayenera kukhala nazo, ndili ndi phindu lanji?
Ndinapita kwa dokotala pafupifupi miyezi ingapo yapitayo ndipo anandiuza kuti zonse zinali bwino, ndinali ndi testosterone modabwitsa kwambiri, komabe ndiyenera kukhala ku dorm yaku yunivesite komwe anzanga onse akuyenda ndikutha kutalikirana kuchokera kwa ine. Izi zikundipha mkati, ndichifukwa chake upangiri uliwonse kapena chithandizo chilichonse chikhala choyamikiridwa kwambiri.
Zomwe ndikudziwa tsopano ndikuti tsopano ndatha, ndipo nditha kunena izi ndi mtima wonse, ndikudzipereka kuti ndisawonenso zolaula ndipo mwina sindingakhalepo kwakanthawi. Kodi ndingayambitsenso bwanji kugonana posachedwa, sindikufuna kuwononga chibwenzi changa ndi bwenzi langa latsopano.
Masabata a 9 oyesetsanso kuyambiranso adayenda mwachangu kwambiri: - zoyipa: kusintha, malingaliro, kugonana mwachisawawa ndimavuto a ED - zonsezi zidachedwetsa kuchira kwanga. Kenako ndinapezeka kuti ndili ndekha m'nyumba yopanda intaneti komanso yopanda mapulogalamu. Amuna, kodi ndinabwereranso.
Zolaula tsiku lililonse, 2-3 tsiku. Choyipa chachikulu ndikubwerera kunyumba, zidanditengera pafupifupi sabata kuti ndikhazikitsenso zosefera Koposa zonse, ndizodabwitsa kuti zolaula zidandipangitsa bwanji !!! Ndinkaopa kutuluka, kukakumana ndi anthu, kukasamalira zochitika zanga zamaluso. Masiku awa a 10 obwereranso pa zolaula adandibwezera m'mbuyo ndisanayambirenso!
Mapeto? Kuyambiranso ndikotalika komanso kovuta. Ndipo ngati mubwereranso m'mbuyo, zimakubwezerani m'mbuyo. Ndimamva ngati ndidachita masabata 20 apitawa. Mwamwayi, kuyambiranso kwatsopano kukuyenda mwachangu kuposa nthawi yomaliza. M'masiku a 2, ndinganene kuti ndadutsa masiku 3.5 osachepera.
(Zithunzi zolaula za ED, masiku 50 opanda PMO, kubwereranso kwamasiku angapo) Nditangomaliza kumene, ndidapita milungu ina iwiri wopanda PMO. Ndinagona ndi mkazi wanga. Zinali zabwino kwambiri. Ndawona momwe ED ikuyendera bwino popewa / kuyambiranso. Pa flipside, ndinamvanso kuti chaser effect m'njira yolakwika. Ndinayamba kuyang'ana P patsiku lotsatira ndikumangirira za masiku a 7. Ndinasangalala kukwanitsa M ndikulumikiza bwino kwa kusintha.
Ndidayamba kamodzi patsiku, ndikupita ku nthawi ya 2 komanso masiku awiri, ndidapita kwa 2. Ndinakulira mwachangu (wopenga momwe ndidapangira pulogalamu yayikulu ya P (3 gigs!) Ndidadziwa / kudziwa kuti izi zitha kusokoneza kupita patsogolo komwe ndidapanga, koma sindinasamale pamlingo winawake.
Komabe pamapeto pake ndidaganiza zosiya. Ndinachotsa mafayilo anga apakompyuta mwachangu ndikuchotsa pulogalamuyo ndikuyambiranso. Masiku 3 tsopano, ndipo ndikumva bwino. Ndinasiya kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi kwa masiku 10 ndikuyambiranso.
Kuchokera apa, ndaphunzira kuti sindingathe kukhala PMOer wamba. Ndi malo otsetsereka mpaka chizolowezi chonse. Yang'anirani pa mphotho. Zovuta ndi zipsyinjo zomwe ndidakumana nazo panthawi yamafashoni (kusinthasintha kwa malingaliro, kusakhazikika, kupweteka mutu,) sichinthu chomwe ndikufuna kukumananso nacho. Ndikudziwa bwino kuti PMO ndi njira imodzi yokha yolowera br brickick.
Sindikufuna kutaya nthawi yochuluka kwa PMO kuti ndizitha kuchita zinthu zambiri. Sindikufuna kumva kulakwa / kusatetezeka / kutayika kwa umphumphu komwe kumandigunda ndikamachita. Ndabwerera ngolo.
Ndakhala ndikulimbana ndi mtsikana
Izi zidandiopsa PMO kwanthawizonse. Sindingathe kupeza boner ya moyo wanga ndipo zinali zovuta ngati fuck, zinali zomvetsa chisoni komanso zochititsa manyazi, sindikumva ngati munthu, zinali zowopsa kwambiri. Sindinaganize kuti PIED ndiyotheka kwa ine chifukwa sizinachitikepo, koma ndimadziwa kuti china chake sichili bwino pamene dick wanga amawoneka ngati wazaka 8. Ndimawona mphamvu zanga zogonana mosiyana tsopano, ndazindikira kupindulitsa kwake kupanga mizere yayitali.
Ndine anthu awiri osiyana kotheratu pamene PMO ndimakhala tsiku lililonse poyerekeza ndi pomwe sindinathe miyezi ingapo. Ingokumbukirani kuopsa kwa PMO komanso chizolowezi chogonana, ndizowona, izi zikuchokera kwa munthu yemwe amangobwereranso modzidzimutsa. Ndikumva ngati ndikufunika kudzipatula ndekha pakati pa anthu kwakanthawi mpaka kubwerera ku umunthu wanga wamba, ndi momwe ndimamvera chisoni ndipo ndimomwe ndimakhalira ndi mphamvu tsopano, ndimamva ngati woledzeretsa wa heroin.
Pomaliza, musalole kuti wina azikutsimikizirani kuti kuseweretsa maliseche kuli bwino. Limenelo ndi gulu lazachiphamaso zomwe anthu ambiri amakhulupirira. Chonde lolani nkhani yanga yosautsa ikulimbikitseni ndikulimbitsa chikhulupiriro chanu cha NoFap.
Patsiku 87 lopewa PMO, ndimagonana bwino kwambiri ndi mtsikana yemwe ndidakumana naye kuphwando. Chikoka changa ku moyo weniweni amayi adasintha kwambiri, ndipo inali nthawi yosangalatsa kwambiri yomwe ndakhala nayo kwanthawi yayitali. Ndinali ndikudwala matenda osokoneza bongo a erectile ndikuchedwa kuthamangitsidwa kwa zaka 6-7 osamvetsetsa chomwe chimalakwika. Zinganditengere kwamuyaya kuti ndikhale ndi erection ndikulimbikitsidwa kwambiri ndi msungwanayo, ndiye ngati ndikanatha kupeza erection yathunthu yogonana ndimakhala mpaka kalekale ndisanamalize, ndikuyankhula ngati mphindi 45 kuphatikiza .
Pambuyo pa masiku 87 ndinakhala ndi erection mofulumira kwambiri, ndipo ndinganene kuti kugonana kunatenga maminiti 5-10 ... ndipo gawo labwino kwambiri ndiloti limamva bwino! Sanakakamizidwe, sindinayese kuchita kapena kuda nkhawa ndi zomwe ndimachita, zinali zachilengedwe zokha komanso zosangalatsa. Patsiku 87 sindinamvepo 100% ndikuchiritsidwa, koma ndimakwanitsa kugonana. Pambuyo pa mwezi umodzi wogonana ndimamva 100% ndikuchiritsidwa. Ndidagonana bwino ndi mtsikanayo kangapo pamwezi wotsatira, koma zinali zowonekeratu kuti uwu unali ubale wanthawi yayitali. Sitinadina mokwanira kuti chikhale chinthu chanthawi yayitali, motero pamapeto pake chinasungunuka, zomwe zinali zabwino ndi ine.
Pambuyo pake, ndinaganiza zondilola kuti ndiyambe kuseweretsa maliseche kachiwiri, koma kamodzi pa sabata, ndikungoganizira chabe za dzanja langa popanda malingaliro (chinachake sindikanatha kuchita ndisanayambe pano)
Koma pang'onopang'ono ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche kawiri pamlungu, kenako malingaliro atatu ndi zogonana adayambiranso m'maganizo mwanga panthawi yakuseweretsa maliseche… panthawiyi ndinali bwino.
Apa ndipamene ndidakumana ndi nthawi yovuta pamoyo wanga. M'modzi mwa makolo anga anapezeka ndi khansa ya chiwindi, ndipo ndizovuta kwambiri mwatsoka. Ndinakhumudwa poyamba, choncho ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula ndi maliseche kuti andipatse msanga kuchoka kuzinthu zatsopano. Ndinkagwiritsa ntchito kawiri patsiku pafupifupi pafupifupi mwezi umodzi. Gahena imagwira ntchito. Sindikudziwa kuti ndikadagona bwanji usiku popanda iwo. Koma pamene zinthu zinayambiranso kukhazikika, ndinazindikira kuti ndikuyamba kuwona zomwezi zomwe zimanditsogolera patsamba lino. Ndinatayikiranso kugonana kwanga.
Ndine wokondwa kunena kuti tsopano ndakhala PMO kwaulere masiku 8 apitawa. Ndinazichita kale kale ndipo ndikutsimikiza kuti ndidzachira nthawi inanso. Ndikuganiza kuti ndangotsala pang'ono kuseweretsa maliseche kwamuyaya. Ndikuwopa ndikangoyamba ndikadzilowera. Zili ngati momwe chidakwa sichingamwe mowa kamodzi kanthawi.
(Mnyamatayu sanapeze malo apakati pano) Chifukwa chiyani vuto la tsiku la 90 limayamwa!
Kuyambira masiku 150 kufika ku 0. Zimene ndazizindikira.
Mbali imodzi yaikulu yomwe imalimbikitsa nofap ndiyo kupezeka masewera olimbitsa thupi nthawi zonse. Ngati mungandifunse, izi ndizofunikira kwambiri. Ndasiya kulemba masewera olimbitsa thupi mwezi umodzi wapita chifukwa cha maubwenzi ambiri ndi mabwenzi atsopano.
Sabata yatha ndidapeza kiyi ya 7days ya mmorpg yatsopano ndipo ... ndidasiya kudya, kucheza, kusapitilira..kudikirira chiyani ??! eya! chifukwa chotopetsa ndinangolowa osaganizira zomwe ndimachita. Ndinayambanso kubzala 3-4 nthawi patsiku ngati pre-nofap ndipo o mulungu wanga zimamva bwino… kwakanthawi. Masiku oyamba ndimakhala ngati "Ok izi ndizabwino kwambiri, ndikuganiza kuti nofap inali chabe placebo chinthuy" koma tsopano patatha masiku angapo ndikungodziwa kuti fucking REAL palibe fap. Tsopano ndikutha kumva kusiyana. Maganizo anga ndi osiyana kwambiri, ndimamva ngati ndikupewa ena ndikungokhala ndekha, osalankhula kwambiri, sindikudziwa choti ndinene ... Ndangokhala chete ndipo ndikungodabwa, ZINTHU zotheka bwanji kuti ndikhale wotero munthu wosiyana? Izi sizingakhale placebo.
Kuyambira lero, ndili pa nofap komanso ndikupita ku masewera olimbitsa thupi. Ndinayenera kutulutsa izi. Nofap + masewera olimbitsa thupi ndi moyo.
Zaka 17 [Sangalimbikitsidwenso]
Ndili mdzenje lamdima ndipo sindingathe kudzilimbikitsa. Ndikumva kuti ED adapita ndipo abwerera ndi chibwenzi changa (koma sikokwanira kundilimbikitsa kuti ndisiye PMO), ndakhala wonenepa (koma sikokwanira kundilimbikitsa kuti ndisiye PMO), malingaliro anga ali ndi khungu komanso khungu koipitsitsa (koma sikokwanira kundilimbikitsa kuti ndisiye PMO), sindimadzidalira (koma osati eno ……)
Mukuwona kachitidwe? Pa njira yanga yodziletsa kwambiri, ndinachoka ku ED, chubby, osadzidalira ndi zina zotero ndikupita kumalo abwino ndikung'amba. Ndidaipiraipira onse awiri, koma osakwanira kuti andiyendetse kuti ndichitepo kanthu.
Sindikufunanso kuti 'ndiwerenge ndikulemba masamba obwezeretsa zolaula
Zaka ziwiri zapitazo ndinkakwera ndege. Ndinagonjetsa zolaula zanga ndipo ndinali ndi zodabwitsa. Pomaliza ndinali munthu wabwinobwino, ndikusangalala ndi chibwenzi monga chilengedwe chimafunira. Sipadzakhalanso PIED, sipadzakhalanso nkhawa, sindidzakhalanso wopanda pake. Sipadzakhalanso manyazi pomwe sindinathe kuyimitsa. Zonsezi zinali m'mbuyomu. Atapita.
Ndinasamukira ku dziko lina ndipo ndinakumana ndi mkazi wodabwitsa. Kulumikizana kwathu kunali kopambana: zabwino zomwe ndidakumana nazo. Kukwaniritsa modabwitsa, kuphatikiza pamlingo wauzimu. Ndinali Homo sapiens, kuchita zochitika za kupembedza komwe moyo wonse (kapena moyo wambiri, osachepera) umadya. Zithunzi zolaula zikuwoneka bwanji! Ndimalingaliro ang'onoang'ono ndi olemekezeka, bwanji zochepa, zosaganizira ndi zabodza!
Mpaka tsiku lina ndinayang'ana mavidiyo azimayi okhala ndi zazikulu zamtundu wa butts. Zili bwino, Ndinadziuza ndekha. Iwo abvala! Izi si zolaula kwenikweni. Mulimonsemo, zinali choncho zosiyana kuchokera ku zokonda zanga zakale, sizingakhudze ubongo wanga m'njira zoyipa zomwezo. Dziko lomwe ndimakhala tsopano (kontinentiyo yonse) ili ndimalingaliro osiyana kwambiri pazosangalatsa poyerekeza ndi Kumadzulo, ndipo ndapeza (mwina mwa kukongoletsa, kapena chifukwa ndizomwe ndapeza zokongola ndipo ndimangodziwa) kuti ndichinthu changa. Zowona zinali zosiyana (kapena kotero ine ndinaganiza) zinapangitsa izo kukhala zabwino, mu malingaliro anga.
Kotero ine ndinapitiriza ubale wanga, koma ndinayamba kuyang'ana mavidiyo awa nawonso. Pasanapite nthawi ndinabwerera kumbuyo kwa PMO. Izi si zolaula! Ndimadziuza ndekha, pamene ndimasuta ndikukhala ndi ola limodzi ndikuwonera makanema apa intaneti.
Miyezi inayamba kupita. Sindinawone nkhuni zamitengo. Ndizosiyana! Ndinkangobwereza ndekha, ngakhale nditayamba kuwonera makanema momwe zamaliseche zimakhudzidwira, ndiyeno makanema omwe angawerengedwe ngati zolaula ngakhale ndi tanthauzo lodziletsa kwambiri.
Nkhani yayitali yaitali, ine ndi chibwenzi changa tinapuma. Ubale wathu unali wovuta kwa miyezi yowerengeka, ndipo mosakayikira chizoloŵezi changa chophatikiza zithunzi zolaula chinali ndi chochita ndi icho. Tonse tinasankha kutenga nthawi kuti tidzakhale chinthu chabwino kwambiri.
Dzulo, ndinakumana ndi wina wamkulu paulendo wa ntchito, ndipo chinthu chimodzi chinatsogoleredwa. Inu mukhoza kulingalira zomwe zinachitika. Zaka zonsezi zinali zopanda phindu. Ndinali wachinyamata yemwe anali wodandaula, yemwe anali ndi chiwindi, wodetsedwa, nthawi zochepa misozi. Anakhala pamenepo pakati pa miyendo yanga, wamphongo ndi wakufa, pamene ine ndinkayesera kukonzekera izo mwa kumuchitira zinthu zina. Kuzungulira kozolowereka kwa malingaliro kunabweranso. Nkhawa, manyazi, ukali; ndemanga yowonjezera yomwe inangopangitsa chirichonse kukhala choipa kwambiri.
Sindinamvepo wopanda pake m'moyo wanga.
Pafupifupi theka la chaka ndakwanitsa kusintha zonse zomwe ndimagwira molimbika. Ndabwerera pansi pa phiri, ndikuyang'ana pamwambowu, monga m'masiku akale oyipa. Ubale wanga, chidaliro changa, kudzidalira kwanga - zonse zidatayidwa. Chifukwa chake musapange kulakwitsa kwanga. Musatengeke ndi lingaliro labodza la chitetezo! Zizolowezi zathu ndizobisalira, ndipo amachita chilichonse chomwe angathe kuti abwererenso m'maganizo mwathu.
Nthawi yomweyo, ndi Tsiku langa loyamba 1.
Pambuyo masiku 649, ndikukhazikitsanso baji yanga.
Ine ndikuwombera kwathunthu. Ine ndinali nazo zonse, ndipo ine ndinazitaya izo. Nayi nkhani ya momwe nofap inasinthira moyo wanga, ndi momwe ndikuyenera kuyambiranso.
Miyezi iwiri yapitayo ndidayamba kutenga nofap mozama. Zisanachitike, sindinathe kupitirira masiku asanu ndi awiri. Sindinachite bwino mpaka pomwe ndidaganiza zokhala sabata lathunthu kutali ndi nyumba yanga komanso opanda foni yanga. Ndinagona pamasofa ndikubwereka mafoni a anzanga kuti ndiwaimbire foni. Popanda zosokoneza zilizonse ndidakwanitsa masiku 10.
Pambuyo pa kupambana koyamba ndinapita masiku a 90. Zotsatirazo zinali zodabwitsa. Ndinataya mapaundi a 35 kuti chilimwe, ndinayamba kuona msungwana wokongola, ndipo ndinagona ndi pafupifupi khumi ndi awiri usiku umodzi wosiyana. Mphamvu zapamwamba zinkamverera zenizeni. Pambuyo pazinyalala kwa milungu ingapo zonse zinabwerera kawiri. Ndinachoka ndikulephera kuti atsikana amvetsetse ine, kuti asandilekere.
Kusintha kofunikira kwambiri m'moyo wanga, ndikuti pambuyo pa chilimwechi ndidayamba chibwenzi ndi msungwana wokongola kwambiri, ndipo tidakali limodzi. Ndidamaliza maphunziro awo kukoleji ndipo ndidalandiridwa sukulu yomaliza maphunziro. Mpaka miyezi iwiri kapena itatu yapitayo, sindinabwererenso konse. Moyo wathu wogonana unali wodabwitsa, nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndi mphamvu zambiri, ndipo ndimagona ngati mwana. Chofunika kwambiri, sindinakonde zolaula. Chinthu chokhacho chomwe chingandipangitse kuyanjana kwenikweni ndi mtsikana.
Kuyambira pamenepo ndinabwereranso. Zonsezi zinayamba ndikakhala pafupi mlungu umodzi ndi bwenzi langa. Ndidavomera ndipo ndimaganiza kuti "ndafika pano, zowonadi nditha kubwerera mwakale". Ndinali wolakwa. Kwa kanthawi zinali zikuipiraipira. Bwererani ku zizolowezi zanga zonse zoyipa. Zotsatira zake: Ndinayamba kunenepa. Sindinkachita chidwi ndi kugonana. Anthu ankangondifunsa ngati ndikudwala. Sindinkagona usiku.
Sindikudziwa chifukwa chomwe zidanditengera nthawi yayitali kuti ndizimvetse. Mosasamala kanthu, ndiri pano, kuyambira pomwepo. Ndikudziwa kuti ndiyenera kuyambiranso.
Mwanjira zina, ndakhumudwitsidwa ndipo ndakhumudwitsidwa. Ndi kupambana kwanga konse sindingakhulupirire kuti ndibwerera komwe ndidayambira.
Mwanjira ina, ndimakopeka kwambiri mtsogolo. Sindingathe kudikiranso kuti ndichite bwino. Sindingathe kudikiranso kuti ndidzilamulirenso moyo wanga.
Komabe, ndikonzanso baji yanga pambuyo pake. Ndili pafupi masiku atatu mulimonsemo. Ndimangoganiza kuti ndigawana nanu anyamata. Ngati mwachita bwino, musakhale omasuka kwambiri. Ngati simunachite bwino, musataye mtima. Pali china chake pa izi; imagwiradi ntchito.
TLDR: Zaka ziwiri zapitazo, nofap idasintha moyo wanga kukhala wabwinoko. Zotsatira zake zinali zodabwitsa. Ndabwereranso, ndipo zotsatira zake zakhala zowopsa. Tsopano ndikuyambiranso. Zimayambira kuyamba konse, koma ndili wokondwa kwambiri mtsogolo.
SUNGANI: Zikuwoneka kuti pali chisokonezo. Ndikadakhala kuti ndikumveka bwino. Ndinabwereranso pafupifupi miyezi iwiri yapitayo. Zinanditengera mpaka pano kuti ndikonzekere ndikudzipereka kuyambiranso. Masiku a 649 alidi olondola ngakhale. Pafupifupi zaka ziwiri zapitazo ndipamene ndidayamba mndandanda wanga. Ndimapewa zinthu monga reddit, chifukwa chake sindinakhazikitsenso baji yanga kufikira nditakhala mwezi umodzi kapena iwiri.
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