Ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche mwina ndili ndi zaka 12 ndipo 14 kapena 15 ndidayamba kuwonera zolaula. Ndili pakati pa 30 ndipo iyi si njira yanga yabwino kwambiri. Ndapita masiku 180 osachita maliseche kale. Koma pali kusiyana kwakukulu pakati pa nthawi ndi nthawi. Zomwe ndinali kuchita zinali pafupi zaka 6 kale, masiku 180 amenewo, ndimamenya nkhondo kwenikweni. Ndinkalimbana ndi zolimbikitsa nthawi zonse, kuwuluka, ndi zina kenako ndikubwera tsiku lomwe ndinali nditatopa kwambiri kuti ndithe kumenya nkhondo ndipo ndinasiya. Mavutowo adakulirakulira. Nthawi ino, masiku 120 awa anali osiyana, sindinangomenya, ndinasiya kuziwona ngati nkhondo. Ndinali ndi chilimbikitso chofanana ndi nthawi yotsiriza, koma momwe ndimayendetsera zolimbikitsazi zinali zosiyana nthawi ino. Sindinatope panthawiyi, osamva kupsinjika koma mbali inayo ndimatha kumva kuti zofuna zanga zikuchepa pang'ono ndi pang'ono kapena mwina sizili zolimba monga kale.
Ndakhala ndikuganiza zopereka zolemba za izi kuyambira masiku angapo. Zili choncho chifukwa ndikuwona anthu ambiri akudzinenera kuti akumenya nkhondo, mizimu yolimbana ndikupitilizabe kumenya nkhondo. Abale okondedwa, sindingathenso kupanikizika, chonde siyani kumenya nkhondo chifukwa iyi ndi nkhondo yomwe simungapambane. Chonde musatenge ngati nkhondo. Ndidawerengapo kwina nkhani kuchokera ku epic ya ku India yonena za chiwanda chomwe chimapeza theka la mphamvu ya amene akumenya. Chiwandacho chimakoka theka la mphamvu kuchokera kwa mdani wake ndipo chimakhala champhamvu ndipo wotsutsayo amafooka. Zolaula, ndi chiwanda chotere. Kuledzera kulikonse ndi chiwanda chotere. Mukalimbana nayo, imapeza mphamvu kuchokera kwa ife ndikulimba mpaka tsiku lina tidzakhala ofooka kwambiri kuti titha kumenya nkhondo. Tikataya mtima, timasiya zoyipa. Ndicho chomwe timachitcha kuti binging.
Ndiye tingatani? Monga nkhani ya chiwanda, tiyenera kupha osalimbana nayo. Idyani ndi njala! Osapereka chakudya. Pano pali chakudya, ndicho chidwi chathu, malingaliro athu. Tsopano ili ndi vuto linanso. Kodi timafera njala bwanji zomwe nthawi zonse zimafuna chidwi chathu? Ndi zomwe Phiri la Napeolean limanena, 'kusintha'. 'Sublimation', imatero filosofi yakum'mawa ndi Chibuda. Poyambirira ndimaganiza kuti mawu oseketsawa, 'transmutation' ndi 'sublimation' ndi ma jargons omwe amagwiritsidwa ntchito ndi ma geek auzimu ndipo alibe tanthauzo kwa anthu wamba onga ine. Ndiposachedwa pomwe pano ndidazindikira kufunika kwamachitidwe awa ndi mphamvu yayikulu yomwe idanyamula. Zimangotanthauza kusunthira malingaliro anu pazinthu zabwino kuti muiwale zinazo.
Pezani china chake chofunikira, tengani china chomwe chimakuthandizani kukula. Chonde musatengere chizolowezi china kuti mupewe, koma china chake chabwino, china chake chimakusangalatsani. Ikani malingaliro anu mmenemo. Nthawi iliyonse pakabwera chilimbikitso, zindikirani kupezeka kwake, musanyalanyaze ndikuiwala. Ganizirani za chinthu china chabwino. Anthu ena amachita masewera olimbitsa thupi, ena amatenga chida choimbira, kulemba, kusinkhasinkha, ndi zina zambiri.
Ndikulakalaka tsiku lina tonsefe titafika poti sitidzakhalanso ndi chidwi ndi 'zopambana' NoFap zomwe zingabweretse, chinthu cha 'alpha male' ndi zina zonse zotere ndipo timaiwala kuti tili pa mzere wa NoFap ndipo izi zimakhala gawo lachilengedwe za moyo wathu.
Chidule choyenera kukumbukira:
"Chilichonse chimene mumalimbana nacho, mumalimbikitsanso, ndipo zomwe mumakana, zimapitirizabe." - Eckhart Tolle
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