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Rebooting to end porn addictionIn the links below the text you will find over 2,000 first-hand accounts of people's rebooting (recovery) experiences. We created a second Rebooting Accounts page, as our system can't handle so much success on a single page. In addition, 8 web-pages containing shorter porn-induced ED recovery stories can be found here (so first-hand recovery accounts now total well over 4,500).

If supplied by the author, a rebooting account starts with the age. Some begin with length of the reboot, others with a quote from the author. Almost all rebooting accounts contain a link to the original post, and most have a user name.

You'll also see a lot of 90-day reports. A common misconception is that YBOP suggests 90 days as a rebooting period. It doesn't. Lengths vary because goals vary. Many choose to write up a report at 90 days, but note that most have relapsed several times before achieving a 90-day streak.

Many more recovery accounts are found in these six sections, and scattered throughout the website:

  1. This page contains "advice columns" written by recovering porn addicts
  2. This page contains links to off-site blogs and threads chronicling recovery from porn addiction.
  3. A few 90-Day+ Reports from reddit.com NoFap
  4. 8 pages of shorter stories describing recovery from porn-induced ED: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8.
  5. The Other Porn Experiment - Below the article read several pages of short stories and "rebooting benefits"
  6. In addition, there are many mini-accounts in What benefits do people see as they reboot?

Commonly used abbreviations:

  • ED = Erectile Dysfunction
  • PIED = Porn-induced Erectile Dysfunction
  • DE = Delayed Ejaculation
  • PE = Premature Ejaculation
  • PMO = Porn, Masturbation, Orgasm
  • MO = Masturbation & Orgasm
  • HOCD = Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
  • SOCD = Sexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
  • gf - Girlfriend
  • SO = Significant Other
  • Fap or fapping = Masturbation

This seems to be a typical feature of recovery:

I am proud of living without PMO for two weeks. I'm single but I rely on friends, family, yoga, massage, exercise, and breathing to get by each day. I am learning many natural ways of relaxing and coping with my brain and environment. I'm more relaxed, generous, and appreciative with people. However, I feel great pain, lethargy, apathy, sadness, frustration and loneliness sometimes. The frequency and duration of my time in the Pits is definitely decreasing. There's a lot of comfort remembering that, whenever my dopamine needle drops real low. One problem with improvement is that we forget how messed up we were when we started. LOL

Rebooting is not linear (repeat this slowly, several times) - That is, each day isn't better than the last. There are ups and downs, although the trend over time is upward. Meanwhile, neurochemically induced mood swings (The Pits) continue for a while. Some people say these mood swings don't decrease in severity for a long while (graph by young rebooter). What changes is that they decrease in frequency, and they pass more quickly when they happen. So it gets easier and easier to just let them pass, and to turn to a healthy distraction (exercise, socializing, a rewiring exercise, doing something productive, and so forth).

Also, watch out for the good days:

Some of my relapses in fact happened on quite successful/happy days, like my mind was on some kind of dopamine rush and slipped to the porn without me having noticed. So keep in mind, self-control is always necessary, even if everything seems to be going just fine.

This man decided to graph his rebooting experience:

I've done 3 graphs, mood on y-axis, day since last MO on x-axis. First is the raw data, not surprisingly very choppy. Shows non-linearity nicely. The other two are rolling 3-day average and rolling 6-day average. Non-linearity still apparent. Note: I didn't know what to put for the first 5 days because they were all over the place, so I just put alternating 8 and 0.
 

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3-day rolling graph

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
 

 

 
 
6-day rolling graph

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Everyone's experience is somewhat different. It's an adventure to observe how the changes in the brain show up in your body and emotions. Said one guy:

All of these forces are at work: Erections, morning erections, orgasm/urge to orgasm, feeling of horniness etc. I feel like during the rewiring, these forces have all been there, but they are all kind of marching to their own beat. There have been times where I had the urge to O but wasn't horny and didn't have an erection. There have been times when I have felt really horny and felt nothing downstairs. There have been long spans of days where I would wake up with an erection and, after it was gone, I would be in complete flatline the rest of the day. But days like day 16, my brief relationship from days 22 to 35, and most importantly day 48 have shown me that things start working more harmoniously as time goes on.

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going to a docctor and getting checked out. Complete blood work. Tired all the time is not normal. Rule out other possibilities.

keep us updated

Already done that. I am all healthy.

So this time i managed to go 56 days and relapsed on the 57th day..and when i relapse i really relapse, i masturbated at least 8 times in the last 2 days. Last night I felt this heavy feeling of disgust with myself and thats what rock bottom feels like. So today is going to be my day one. The first step i took is to write this journal entry. Im giving myself a good 90 days to heal myself and get over this ED and performance anxiety because of it. Wish me luck, God bless.

Hi people,ive been really addicted to porn
for about the last 3 years,im 27 now.
Before that i watched it occasionally but i was always working and travelling a lot so i wasnt as much time on the computer as i am now.
About 3 years ago i opened a bussiness with a friend and that gave
me lots of free time.

Thats when the porn started and i was masturbating around everyday
and i hated that but i didnt know how to stop it.
And ill tell you something unusuall about me which i dont think
many people in here have done,or if im wrong correct me.
Ill tell you briefly cause its a bit off topic but trust me it has everything to do with porn addiction.

So,untill the age of 25 i was a complete looser with women,unsecure,shy,almost 0 expirience and accidently i stumbled on
a website of how to attract women,they had a forum and they gave courses to fix that area in your life,so after some thinking i went on on their courses.

Im not gonna get into lots of details but that was the best thing i ever did with my life cause since then everything changed,it didnt change over night of course,it took lots of practice and lots of
hard work but i really changed,in the past 2 years ive been with 22 diferent women,and prior to that i was only with 4 my whole life!!

So back to porn,all that time i was still watching it,and i had a few cases of ED which really pissed me off cause they werent constant,sometimes i would have it then the other day my pennis would work fine so i didnt know if it was porn related.
And ill tell you first hand that the more you watch porn
your motivation to meet women drops.

So i found your website also by accident,someone posted the link to it on another forum of attracting women where i post regularly
and i checked out the site and my jaw dropped to the floor.
I decided to make a change,blocked all porn sites i used to visit,threw away the magazines i had and started the reboot.

As i said i didnt watch any porn for 45 days now,but the masturbation thing is a bit hard,i have ocassionally slipped up over the last 45 days but i never thought about porn
and i must say the morning erections are appearing a lot now,
and i have to wear jeans all the time cause the guy downstairs
always gets hard from time to time in the various daily situations.

In the last week i started meditation,i never had any idea how to meditate so i put the first meditation thing i saw on youtube
and it was really helpfull.I really think i have the porn thing fixed because i held on really nice untill now but the masturbation is what i want to stop and its a bit hard,i get to 10 days without masturbating and my body and brain screams for release.
I promise im working on it and try to do it less and less.

And back to the meeting and attracting women topic,in the times i dont masturbate i have HUGE motivation to just get out of the house
and meet new women,in the daytime,in the night wherever.
So im really trying to be disciplined and not masturbate.
And the general feeling of being off porn is pretty good,i walk
around smiling a lot more and feel happier im glad i found
your website!

Today is the day 58 without porn for me. I'm asking for help because I had strong porn-related dreams for the third time in a row last night. I'm almost sure it's my mind trying to make me have a wet dream, since my last one was 34 days ago. Would it be better for me to masturbate without porn or fantasy in order to avoid these dreams in the next nights? Or just be consistent in the reboot and let the wet dream happen naturally, regardless of its heavy porn content?

I'm afraid a conscious orgasm can slow down my reboot, since it seems like I still have a way to go in order to fully recover. 5 days ago I had my first intimacy moment with my girlfriend. She is aware about my reboot, so she didn't put any pressure in my performance. At first I had no problems getting hard (about 70-90%, a few times close to 100%) when she did oral sex in me, but the erections dissipated really quick as soon as the oral stimulus stopped. I even tried to penetrate her (I was planning on having a gentle intercourse without orgasm), but as soon as the oral stimulation ceased and I tried to put on the condom, my dick was limp. This fact, along with the fact I still have some urges to PMO despite being so much time away from porn, are making me a little frustrated. I only started PMO at 19 years old, and i'm 23 now so it was only 4 years, but since I already started with hardcore porn, didn't have much real sexual contact before it, and was consistent masturbating to it through these 4 years, i'm afraid the pathways may be deep :(

So basically, my questions are:

1:Masturbation without porn or fantasy, or porn-related wet dreams, which one should slow down my reboot the most?

2:Am I far gone enough in the reboot to try masturbation, sex, oral sex, or other sexual practices with my girlfriend, or should I wait more? I didn't feel any signs of a chaser effect or a binge after what we did 5 days ago (I didn't have an orgasm), but I must admit I got a little anxious about not being able to sustain an erection and penetrate her.

Thanks in advance for any advice!

Well I want to give you guys some hope. I slowly progress. Had sex with my girlfriend yesterday. Felt like my first time. I am far away from normal I would say but things definitely go into the right direction. To give something back to the community I would like to provide a full account. What shell I do for that?
Best regards

reading normal cinema magazines with normal exposure like hips,thighs,and lowneck dresses of favourite female stars,,is it ok?i dnt crave for it actualy...its under my control...i cut down porn completely,i wanna admire them for their beauty only,,,bt tat urge is stil there....is it normal?

If there is a will,there is a way

If that's your question. During the reboot it's best to avoid artificial in favor of real. This FAQ covers the concept

What stimuli must I avoid during my reboot (did I relapse)?

Hi, I was in a ED-infected relationship when I found this site (which in turn helped me gain 30 days with ease, then got dumped and got me even more motivated to stay away from PMO), I almost cried after looking for the cause for several years.

I am 23, circumcised since childhood, started with MO at 12 and P (nude pictures of average-looking women) at 13. It went from pictures to hardcore videos pretty fast, I'm very conservative by nature so I never experimented on weird genres. I just went through a selection of socially acceptable genres over and over.

I don't remember the last time I had a 100% (natural) erection (maybe at the age of 12?), I can remember that the erections were poor in PM sessions already at the age of 17. I got my first sexual encounter at 19 and didn't get it up. I didn't take it seriously, but it set the way on how I should live my life, cuddling and having girlfriends instead of short flings. I've never had a 100% erection, not even after one month of cuddling (I require that much time before I can even get an erection that I can penetrate with).

I've constructed and adjusted my whole life around this problem, I feel that I want to be able to have sex instantly and not calibrate for a month with each girl.

I'm at day 109 of my reboot/no PMO. I have felt a very low libido/arousal/horniness (flatlining?) until recently (after 100 days), I am starting to feel extreme urges to find someone to sex with (mixed with curiousity of how much I've healed and suicidal thoughts). The most sexual thing I've done so far, is taking dance classes to improve my confidence with women and rewire with them. I still feel intense fear of failure, that's why I don't sexually escalate with any woman. I will do my best to try, crash & burn.

I tested my erection by light stroking with no fantasy or porn, it felt good and managed to get an erection to 70%.

Rebooting benefits so far: The greatest benefit so far has been a major decrease in social anxiety. I always talk with flow now, before the reboot, I always thinked before I opened my mouth. And when I look at women, it's like they sense my strengthened sexual "aura" and get infected by it.

I also don't get stimulated by music anymore (Don't know if this is a benefit? Got tired of music around day 90, I was a music addict before that date), I barely feel the need to read the news, I got tired of watching movies.

If I ever get a son, I will tell him about this terror sweeping the modern world. If I don't do that, I have totally failed.

If I ever reach the point where I can have sex instantly without any difficulties, I will be happy for life, I would happily sacrifice anything for that gift.

It may take longer, as you probably know. This FAQ may or may not be helpful - Started on Internet porn and my reboot (ED) is taking too long

The problem with porn-induced ED is that performance anxiety gets mixed in with desensitization. YOu could also test your self by masturbating (no orgams, or getting close for now) with a bit of fantasy of real girls. Just to see where you are at.

Fantasy about real women gave similar hardness in erection (not more than 70%). Should I worry about not getting morning woods? I seem to be the only one not receiving them after this long (3 months+).

I also seem to have entered a phase of apathy towards most things mixed with periods of libido (and semi-erections very rarely, by looking at real womens assets). I don't want to feel apathy, I want to feel that I have a purpose in life. I don't look so much into the future now, my career goal doesn't feel "mandatory" for me anymore, but I am still going in that direction just to have somewhere to go (I have to pay the bills).

Maybe I should get grab my balls and approach women that I find attractive, it's so scary though (even though social anxiety has vanished, approach anxiety is still intense, I hope increased libido and confidence in erections will decrease the anxiety towards attractive women.

I am confused.

Especially so for guys your age who started Internet porn around 11-13. Dopamine levels and receptors drop significantly between age 15 and about 23 - which is why so may 22-25 year olds are now having trouble.

However, I always encourage men to see a good urologist to be checked out. Have them check hormones and rule out what they can. It's unlikely they will view Internet porn as a possible cause, though.

Contact with a real partner is beneficial.

Thanks for your reply, what's the most important data/stats I should save from the tests? I tested myself 2009 (had my first ED experience when 17 or something), and the doctor said there was nothing wrong.

but the usual hormones that could affect erections include testosterone, prolactin, thyroid hormones, and maybe 24 hour cortisol levels. They rule out such things as chronic infections, prostatitis. Perhaps evaluate emotional status such as chronic depression. Sometimes they check blood flow into the penis.  For young guys, there's not a lot to check.

Almost always the conclusion is psychological. Which is a non-diagnosis. However, it can't be performance anxiety, if weak erections occur during masturbation

Has anyone reported periods of apathy a few months into rebooting?

80 days without porn. I'm definitely not in the flatline anymore, but also not 100% recovered yet. My libido is starting to come back for real, specially when i'm with my girlfriend. Morning wood is also strong very frequent these days, but the erections dissipate a few moments after I wake up. When I catch myself thinking about sex, there's sometimes some response down here, but never full erections. Spontaneous erections happen very rarely, but are also not 100%.

The bad part: Porn memories are still very strong, and I still have desire to masturbate to porn, specially in the last weeks, as my girlfriend is very busy and we're seeing each other less frequently. I had to redefine my K9 password because I ended up memorizing the old one, and I was starting to browse some forums and imageboards that I used to frequent in my PMO days. I configured my browser not to show any images when I went to these sites, but yesterday, even without the images, just the fact I was browsing these sites gave me a very strong rush of adrenaline and an urge to PMO, that I fortunately was able to resist and close the browser. I hope it doesn't disturb my reboot, but either way, i'm not going to these sites ever again now.

Hi guys, A few weeks back i was having sex with a girl and it didnt go well. This made me anxious and worried. I quickly starting googling why this happened and came to this site. I quickly began worrying abuot my health and started to excersize more and eat healthy. I also stopped masterbating cause i knew i was doing it too much. I think i would average 1.5/day.

After a few weeks of masterbating less and eating healthy and some excersiing i didnt notice any improvement. I tried to think about other things but i coudlnt think about anything else. Meanthile the worry continued. I quickly decided to see a uroligist to see if everything was ok. luckily i was able to schedule something the next morning.

I visited him the following day and he assured me that it was a psycological problem. and that i should cut down the masterbation to 2/3 a week so that my brain doesnt get used to the stimulation. He also wrote me out a viagra prescription which i didnt end up taking but after visiting him my stress level went down and my overral happiness/mood went up. He gave me more confidence and a few hours after the appointment i had a rock hard erections 9.5/10.

also 75% morning wood when the past few days i didnt have any.

ITS all psychological guys. Also rememebr Balance guys. Find work/excersize/socialize play video games/poker wahtever just dont think about your ED..

You will overcome it. This is the second time i have overcome it and both times involved me seeing a urologist and him giving me more confidence..

good luck

 dont stress

Hi , I'm 27 years old . I started rebooting 23 days ago ,I've been with No porn No masturbating & No orgasm for 23 days , I even quitted watching porn before that . But this morning I woke up after a sexual dream [ not dream about porn , but it's me with someone having sex ] and I checked under and I found out that there was some pre-cum !!! ] , I was so disappointed ! probably I had an orgasm during sleep right ?

I wanna know does this considered as a masturbating ? which means a delaying in the recovery proccess ? or is it normal ? how does it affect the rebooting ?

and how can I avoid this since I can't control my dreams ?

P.S : During these past 23 days I didn't exactly have the absent of libido that most people here mentioned , I had an erection usually .

please answer , waiting !!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't thank you enough for this site !

It can't be a relapse if you didn't purposely watch porn. Wet dreams happen. This site is about choosing to alter your lifestyle, not controlling your biology, or becoming obsessive.

I suggest reading this FAQ -What stimuli must I avoid during my reboot (did I relapse)?

good luck

Thank u

I read today what others here have wrote about wet dreams and I'm pacified now

I can't thank you enough for this site !

It's been nearly a month since I started , NO PMO , I've been consistent enough , not tasting and not comparing . I have faith in myself and the process . What bothers me now specificlly is two things : 1_ After a month I still have "sometimes" these flashbacks of porn , especially of some particular movies that I watched frequently many times , I know it's normal but when it happens it gets me down with a huge urge to be in touch again with those scenes !. My question is : Will it come a day where these flashbacks are no longer that much effective and stimulating to me ? Will it come a day where my libido will basicly be ON to the true thing and nothing less ?

The second thing that bothers me is : 2_ When I think of my sexual future , accidentally , there is always that memory of my previous " Failure " , especially the memory about failing penetration more than once , but I also think of many beautiful upcoming feelings . Is this normal ? any advice to drive that image away ?

Good luck to you guys , thanks for reading and answering ... Modar

I can't thank you enough for this site !

Bot are a normal part of the process. The flashbacks will ease up like any memory, and thoughts of failure will subside with positive sexual experiences.

I need help. I have no urges for porn and I never got better despite me trying to reboot. I have damaged my penis and kept it that way for a long time, and im stupid to not have gotten it checked out, until I bought this product called man1oil, and it seems to work, but im extremely impatient, and i've been feeling a lot worse. Like extremely depressed, crazy thoughts, and the like. Is it because now that i'm recovering down there i'm actually feeling these symptoms now? I really need someone to confirm that I am actually going to be alright as long as I stay away from porn, which is no problem. I mean I was always depressed even during the whole PMO thing, then I stopped and i felt completely numb, and now i'm experiencing many many unpleasant symptoms despite me recovering down there.

I just hope that all these symptoms were merely just "on hold" until I actually started repairing the damage down there. I hope I didn't permanently damage myself.

questions about trauma to your penis.

I can only say that if you have porn-induced sexual dysfunction, it can heal. As you can see from the rebooting accounts and this FAQ,  What does withdrawal from porn addiction look like?, that depression is normal.

I'm 26 and I've been dealng with this problem since I was 19. I started watching porn at maybe 14. I never knew I had a problem until I had a naked girl in my bed and opted to masturbate rather than have sex with her. I've been researching this website for the last few days and it's refreshing to see I'm not alone. What's even better is that everyone is recovering. I know I will too, I'm a believer.

1st day after quitting I woke up to me humping the air. I get morning wood and have not reached the "dead dick" stage. I am horny a lot and I find myself thinking about real girls a lot, which is a good thing. I have a girlfriend but things are turning quick, she loves sex and I want to be able to please her. I'm leaving town in a few weeks for a couple months so hopefully I will recover by the time I see her again or maybe before I leave.

I'll keep updating to keep track of my progress and to look for some motivation from people on this site.

King Me

following forum - http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/ - was founded by a guy inspired by this site, and has a section on porn-induced ED.

 

I wanted to know if fantasizing about girls you know is a good or bad thing during the rebooting period.

King Me

My story is a little different from the rest, I had trouble with delayed ejaculation and ED BEFORE I started masturbating. I used to watch a lot of porn before but I wouldnt masturbate. I would say in the last 8 months or so I started heavy on the porn and masturbation to compensate. I believe my problem is the masturbation. The grip and speed is not comparable to sex with a woman. Today I was feeling anxious and really horny during the middle of the day. It's been 7 days since I've masturbated. I wanted to know if this normal and is the rebooting process going to work for me?

King Me

I'm having trouble understanding your story.

 You say you had delayed ejaculation before masturbating, but then say you believe its masturbating.

Did you read the links under porn & ED? We describe a guy in the START HERE article that had ED just by watching porn, and only masturbating once every ten days.

Why would your scenario be different? Isn't porn involved?

I've read the Start Here article, I guess I'm just a little paranoid that I won't be able to recover. Thanks for the feedback

King Me

Where can I write my thoughts about my process of rebooting ? Is there a place here on the site instead of leaving comments ?

I can't thank you enough for this site !

The following forum is set up for journals and very familiar with the material on YBOP-

http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/

So last night I went to my girl's house for a get together. I did not tell her about me rebooting or my porn addiction, but the last time we were being intimate I did not get it up. she texted me later saying she needs me to f*ck the sh*t out of her. I told her I didnt know why and she said "You should find out."
So back to last night, she tells me to come downstairs to watch a movie. Sure enough we did not attempt to watch a movie, she said she wanted sex, I was semi hard and tried to go in, but of course I lost it. I gave her oral instead. After that attempt I told her about my porn problem. She said I was lame and there's something wrong with me. I tried my best to explain about rewiring my brain to vagina instead of my hand and she said that's an illusion and she was not hearing it, we just started watching the movie.

Interesting enough, I was not nervous. We watched the movie and joked around as if nothing happened. I asked if she was upset and she said no. The thing about this chick is that she has no filter, she'll say whatever she thinks whenever she wants, which is why I love her. So I decide to spend the night, the room was hot and I said I was going to take my clothes off. And she asked why take my clothes off when I'm not going to do anything. This made me laugh and I just started kissing her. I took her clothes off and started getting an erection, maybe 70 percent. I told her I was going to try again and she said something I would never forget, " I don't have hope for you." Caught me totally off guard but found it hilarious. So I went in at 70 percent, as soon as she started moaning I got up to 100. I figure after all the sh*t she's been talking to me it could not get any worse. We switched positions and I was so hard and thick, we stopped because I was about to come and I was not using a condom.

After we joked around and she said she liked it better when I couldn't get it up. I woke up the next morning extremely aroused and wanted more, she did not. I felt so confident and comfortable during the sex it was unbelievable. I guess the point I'm trying to make is that although my girl was being selfish she told me how she felt and she was not trying to hear or see me in such a low state. She made me more confident by telling me we had sex before so we can do it again. She was not accepting excuses. Fellas, quit the porn forever, and find a girl who's willing to stick there with you and motivate you. The rest will take care of it self.

King Me

After my last update I was feeling confident and like a man. My girl came to visit me and for the first time in my 25 years of existence I had sex and came! We did it three days in a row until she had to go back. I felt like I was cured. So I go the whole summer without seeing her, so I started back masturbating. I thought this wasnt a big deal since I didnt watch porn. We broke up and I didnt have sex since I saw her again a couple weeks ago. Tried for sex and nothing happened. Had to fake it. We're not together anymore and I was little depressed last night and MOed again. I'm done for good now, I want to be healthy. This is day one of the real deal. I realize I need the support.

King Me

I like this website very much. Although it wasn't a good new to find out I am addicted but it really convinced me to fight against PMO addiction. I started to practice staying away from PMO but after couple days, sometimes couple weeks, I unfortunately got back. Luckily, it is not as bad as it used to be. I am getting rid of the addiction but it seems to be slow process.
Anyway, I just set a goal to myself - 30 without PMO

Im Dustin and im here because I got an addiction to porn. im 25 years old and im in a danger zone of losing my girlfriend because of my addiction to porn. we have been together for a year so far. I dont want to lose her over something like this, Ive promised her that I would stop using porn, but never seemed to follow through. today is the 2nd day that ive gone without it, im feeling some pressure on the inside but i know I can make it through and save my relationship. me and her have gone on this break from eachtother for a few weeks so she can figure things out in her life but shes giving me the chance to rid myself of it because it has become a major problem in my sex life. Cant get it up to her, but I can with porn. my frequency is once a day almost, never more than 15 or so minutes so its not like its an 8 or more hour deal. i will stay updated with this site and post any additional information as the time passes. I want to have great sex with my girlfriend and have a happy life. The things that im experiencing so far are just mood control is off big time and my self esteem levels have dropped considerably since I started 7 years ago when I was 18. i know it takes alot of will power to keep up with all this, but it can be done. Ive read up alot on this subject and im clear on how this whole process works so Im gonna give it a go and see my end result. ive been feeling good so far for the past couple days, we will see how far I make it and how my moods change. Wish me Luck, I know im gonna need it.

This is stupid , I'm on my 50th day of no PMO , everything's going perfect ,

But today while I was horny and putting a pillow on penis imagining having sex ( just for a very quick second ) , I stopped right away because I got afraid that I had an orgasm or something , I don't know why I got this impression although there was no cum at all and no real feeling of having orgasm and nothing to call orgasm , maybe the need to pee at the moment gave me a sense of cumming ?

You know how one gets paranoid sometimes , but it wasn't orgasm because if yes I can simply tell , right ?

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I can't thank you enough for this site !

Hi all,
I had another wet dream today. This was my 3rd in my 6th week of reboot with no PMO.
the first one was during the 4th week but since then I have had two wet dreams in 2 weeks.
I'm quite worried now. Am I developing a new disease because of the reboot? Will this lead to PE? Coz I had a problem of delayed ejaculation but PE would be worse. Please Help!

Charlie!!

What about wet dreams?

No big deal. Don't worry. Suggest you visit http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/ and ask others opinions.

I'm on my 66th day of No PMO , and I'm in flat-lining .. today I felt horny and was talking with a girl through the msgs ( I thought I should try to be close to woman maybe it helps to end this flat-lining ) and just after some msgs I looked in my pants and found that I cummed a little ! I didn't even touch it how that happened !!!!! and I was sitting while texting not lying down ! ... it's like I've been dreaming awake and had a wet dream ! I'm so confused ! what should I've done with this controllable orgasm ??!!!!!! ... is this consider as official relapse ! ...

I can't thank you enough for this site !

What you describe seems to be precum, which is normal.

yes exactly it was precum and I didn't felt an orgasm .. and after a while I checked the pant in the laundry basket before it was washed and there was no stain on it ! I know that cum leaves a spot ! ... thanks for your reply

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I can't thank you enough for this site !

hello, basically ive been having ED for the past 4 years, it started when i was around 18, from the age of 15 i used to mastrubate alot and smoke cannabis daily for years, i noticed sex wasnt enjoyable but i had no ed at that stage. when the ed started (18) i could get half errections that wouldnt last but i continued to heavily masturbate and smoke cannabis and the problem got worse, my penis started feeling very cold and shrunk, i associated this with a blood flow problem and cannabis and didnt think it was related to masturbating because theres little to no information on masturbation ed. when i was around 20 i decided to stop smoking cannabis beliving it would make my ed go away. it did not. i continued to heavily madturbate to porn and while i did see some slight improvement with my erections it was nothing special, i could get hard to porn aslong as i was touching myself to stimulate it. and the very cold feelings down there persisted, my penis would feel normal and warm temprature somtimes during the day and then it would shrink and feel cold, somtimes even when its regular size it can feel cold, i began using vigra at age 20 and the viagra worked really really well even though i had no labido, the majority or my sex has been on viagra. at age 21 i started abusing opiates to deal with the depression and masturbating heavily, after about 8 months of the drug and masturbation abuse i tryed to use viagra one day and it would not work nearlly aswell as it should do, cialis basically does nothing to me (even though it used to) i stopped abusing opiates about 3 months ago to see if it makes any difference but continued heavily masturbating to more and more extreme porn because i was bored of regular porn. i then found out about masturbation ed from this website and a few others. i have decided to quit porn and mastrubating all together for aslong as it takes. during the first week about day 5 i experienced flatline badly and it felt cold down there. during the 2nd week i noticed the cold feeling started to go but would still happen somtimes, but nowhere near as bad as it was 2 weeks ago, i have also had a day or 2 since i began reebooting where i have had some strong labido but no errections. my question is : what is the reason for the cold feeling? i dont belive it to be a blood flow problem because viagra worked fine for years. has anyone else experienced the cold penis feeling? its really worrying me, ive been to urologists and they cant find anything wrong with me, i have a decent testosterone level. can somone explain the cold feeling or tell me if they get it aswell.

i forgot to mention that during the time the vigra started losing effectiveness, prematrue ejaculation was becoming a really big problem

but continue on your reboot and hope for the best.

So I just wrapped up day eight. Haven't felt exceptionally stupendous or higher energy yet. Realized some triggers: loneliness, boredom, confusion. Have only had strong urges a couple times - taking a nap, jogging, or just getting up and actually doing something got my mind off it pretty quick. I want to thank everyone here who's written and shared here - the success stories are nothing but inspiring and the struggles moving.

I'd tried quitting before, but it never lasted more than a couple days. This is the longest I've lasted stopping totally voluntarily. I have had other times when i had to stop - vacations, camping, meditation retreats, but not like this.

The thought that made me commit this time was that I would rather have real sex with a real woman more frequently that I masturbate. Over the last year I've been the guy that women play around with between relationships. Had my heart broken a couple times through that. But lately I'd found myself, like many of us, looking at stranger and more extreme things online and just feeling generally crappy about life - as if everything I touch turns to garbage (gross overstatement but that's how it feels).

Today (day 8) was the first day that truly sucked. Had ample opportunity to relapse, but didn't. Started beating myself up over past missed opportunities - even took a stroll down the sad path of looking up ex-girlfriends on facebook... i know, i know i know :) So again, thank you all for sharing your stories and being here as a resource.

Just wanted to share!

exercising seems to make me flatline hard but for some reason my testicle size increases?...if im not flatlining then i run 3 miles i will flatline for most of the day, also my flatlines typically are frequent but they are up and down during the day...i dont flatline for days and days and finally, somtimes when i flatline i dont even have a shrunken or cold penis but i can definatly feel im flatlining. does anyone else have experience with any of these subjects? getting a bit worried.

I started masturbating at age of 13 to a porn movie. I increased the frequencies and the fantasies especially after age of 21 to a point where binging could last all day and even all week ends. I think it all came from a mix of violent family environment (parents fighting, shouting mostly rarely physical violence), neglecting father, unhealthy parents as a couple, boredome (I had few friends), complexes about my height, etc.). So i found in masturbation, a safe haven. I mainly mastrubated to internet porn, chatting and stories.

I lately realized I am a sex addict and this addiction is impacting negatively all aspects all my life (social, self confidence, professional, girlfriend, etc.) . After successful studies and an expected promising career, I find myself jobless today having wasted all my money with a hectic career behind me, wasted opportunities and rare long term relation with girls.
What I blame masturbation the most is that it removed my desire, and without desire, I did not make goals nor want things. So i was never in control of my life and did not value things nor cared about anything, it was events that controlled me.
After the denial phase, I started reading more and more about it and I got convinced that I should change.

Today is my 36th day of abstinence. I feel much better than before in all aspects (especially socially) although I can feel deeply tired and a bit down. I had 2 micro relapses consisiting of 5-10 minutes exposure to porn with a small bit of masturbation. But the good thing is I had the willingness to stop it consciously, analysed the causes and took steps to prevent relapsing. So i consider those relapses as strengthening events to my brain.

I am a healthy and sociable person, who work out often, who is attractive to women, who is smart, etc. and masturbation made me the opposite of all that. I want today to remove the masturbation cover of me to be able to cope with my real issues, bring back my personality, let the desires and emotions flow again and simply live my life like all people do.

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