Pornul mi-a condus toată viața și m-a făcut să fiu retras social. Mă căsătoresc peste două săptămâni.

Nu m-am gândit niciodată că voi putea să merg vreodată 90 zile fără cel puțin Ming sau să vizionez filme porno, dar am făcut-o !!!!!!! Cu 90 zile în urmă, am fost foarte intens PMOing în fiecare zi (de mai multe ori pe zi) de la ultima mea recidivă cu un an anterior. Am revenit aici după ce am primit un e-mail, m-am alăturat războiului Reddit, care mi-a dat cu adevărat un început bun acestei provocări din ziua 90.

This has been a life long struggle for me, as a very young lad I discovered MOing (although the O was dry I was so young) I never stopped and it got worse and worse and worse until the Internet came along and guess what…… It destroyed my life even more. Like many others here I spent whole days (make that several days in a row) PMOing. This had ruled my whole life, caused me to become socially withdrawn, withdrawn from every body around me without any connections that should have been there. The list would probably be endless with the negative effects that this addiction brings. I mean everything in life was dulled and muted by turning to PMO.

No longer! I have tried before many many many times but I would relapse so many many many times I’ve lost count, and really at my last relapse …… I gave up trying to quit PMO.

So I met a girl some time ago, this was when I had some success at being ‘sober’ from PMO and now we are due to marry in two weeks.

În mod clar că a mă căsători este și mai mult motiv și mi-a oferit mai multă motivație de a pune în pericol această dependență. Așadar, 90 zile în urmă am început de la PMOing de mai multe ori pe zi să trec la modul dur COLD TURKEY.

• Fără porno
• Fără subs porn
• Nu se masturbează
• Fără orgasm

And I realised along the way that I had to try extremely hard to keep my mind off fantasizing or thinking anything sexual. It’s the brain that needs rewiring and if I were to keep feeding the brain its dopamine hit by fantasizing I would be undoing what I was trying to achieve. I believe this to be the biggest reason why my reboot has been extremely successful – keeping the mind clean as much as possible. This was not easy by any means and I struggled and at times I don’t know how I managed not to PMO.
Starea mea de spirit a crescut și a coborât puțin, câteva zile m-am simțit ca o prostie și am nevoie doar de PMO (cumva am trecut prin ea)

Uneori am simțit că mi-a fost dor de P atât de mult, încât a fost să jelez moartea cuiva. Cel mai rău moment a fost să mă trezesc gândindu-mă că am făcut-o doar pentru a descoperi că visam, asta chiar m-a încurcat.

However I stuck with it this time and did not give in, after around 40 days things got much easier to resist. For me at least the urges were not nearly as bad as they had been and finally I felt in control. Seriously this is the first time in my life I’ve been in control of myself and it feels great!

I’m confident, able to face life and have great chats with people and really connect with them. Of course most importantly I feel so much closer to my GF.

Și ce acum?

Well I’m clearly never wanting to PMO ever again. After marriage I will set my counter to one year.

Two weeks and I will be able to have a natural release with my wife. We will both be virgins on the night and we haven’t even touched each other sexually.

Of course my history with PMO may well give me some issues yet but one thing I sure can say is it will be so much better now I’ve made 90!!!!!!

Wish me luck! I will keep you guys updated. My head is held high knowing I’m going into my marriage fully rebooted.

Urmărește-mi povestea: http://www.NoFap.com/forum/index.php?threads/journal-of-life.51671/

LINK - 90 days completed finally – now getting married in two weeks.

by Aproape căsătorit