Here’s my success story of how I got to day 180.
(Protip: If you want to skip my rambling, there’s my action point list in the end)
Le amataga:
I started NoFap because of my porn addiction and sever PIED. I won’t go to details here, but lets say my path was a classic story of escalation from normal vanilla porn to femdom and sissification porn, which has caused me inability to get an erection or any satisfaction from normal sex with another person.
I started my NoFap journey an the end of 2017, did one almost 90 day streak, relapsed for a couple of months and started this current streak mid April 2018.
Na faapefea la ona ou oo mai iinei:
And why I was unable to get here before?
For me the main reason for constant relapses was my mindset and my approach to my relationships and women in general. But we get there later.
O laʻu filifiliga muamua o le faʻataʻitaʻiina lea o laʻu malaga NoFap. Na ou iloaina o se manatu o le faia o le 90 aso saʻo i luga o se tulaga maualuga tele ma lofituina. Na ou filifili e auai i lenei mea 7-aso lu'i ma ina ua uma ona ou faia lena mea, sa ou siitia atu i luitau e 14, 21, ma le 30 aso. O le auala lea na ou maua ai ni nai manumalo i lea taimi ma lea taimi ma o le mea e sili ona taua, na ou maua le lagolago ma le faaosofiaga mai isi uso Fapstronauts i luitau lava e tasi.
I le taimi lea na ou iloa ai o laʻu auala agai i mafutaga ma tamaitai na matua le fiafia. Na ou vaai i fafine na o auala e faia ai feusuaʻiga ma faʻamaoni, naʻo se pu e faʻafefe ai. Ae a'o ou faitau i le tele o pou i le vaega Fafine-Na'o, na faafuasei lava ona amata ona ou vaai ia i latou o se tagata, ma ni faaletonu ma le ituaiga tauiviga na ou oo i ai, ma o lena lagona alofa ia i latou na tatalaina ai oʻu mata. Sa amata ona ou fesootai ma tamaitai i se tulaga fou atoa. Na amata ona ou taulimaina i latou o se tagata nai lo na o se isi ituaiga-meataalo-ituaiga. Ou te iloa, atonu e foliga le lelei, ae o loʻu manatu lena i lena taimi.
Ma o le amataga moni lea o la'u tala manuia.
When I realized how warped my thoughts about what sex or relationship is supposed to be, doing NoFap started to make more sense to me. I wasn’t anymore doing this just for me, but also for my future. I knew I had to grow as a human being if I ever wanted to really get cured. And I did. With a help of this forum I was starting to see sex-relationship related things straight for the first time in my life. I was no longer seeing women inferior beings that was something out of my reach and which I was only allowed to drool in screen. I was seeing women just as a same kind of person as I was. Flawed, insecure persons who was seeking same kind of acceptance and love than I was. I almost cry now when I write this down. I really see women in a way I haven’t been able to see them never before.
Ia te a'u o le manumalo silisili o le mafai lea ona ou faailogaina lo'u fili moni i le olaga. Ia te aʻu o le faia o le NoFap na faigofie tele ina ua ou iloa o loʻu faafitauli o laʻu sailiga e le gata o lena sili ona faigofie o le dopamine maualuga. O laʻu sailiga mo lenei sili ona faigofie o le dopamine maualuga o le mafuaʻaga lea o laʻu vaisu porn. O le taimi lava na ou maua ai loʻu fili moni, na amata ona ou suia i se auala ou te leʻi mafaufauina.
O a'u gaioiga i le taimi nei:
O le a la le mea na ou faia ina ua oso aʻu e le faʻamalosi poʻo le fefe Flatline?
E foliga faavalevalea lenei mea ae ia te au o le tali o le faamalositino ma meaai. Na amata ona sui laʻu meaʻai, paʻu mamafa ma faamalositino 6 aso o le vaiaso. Sa ou setiina la'u sini
a) fa'aitiitia le mamafa ma fa'alelei atili i la'u vaai
e) amata tamo'e (Sa ou fia tamo'e lava), ma
i) faatulaga le afa itula i aso taitasi mo le mafaufau loloto.
O mea'ai o se mea faigofie aua e toetoe lava a le i'u le aofa'i o fa'amatalaga e uiga i mea'ai eseese i luga ole upega tafa'ilagi. Na amata le 16/8 anapogi ma suia laʻu meaʻai e faʻamama meaʻai e leʻi gaosia (fualaau faisua mata, fualaau aina, vine, nati, moa ma iʻa). Ma ina ua amata ona paʻu loʻu mamafa na amata ona oso aʻe loʻu talitonuga i luga o le taualuga e pei o se roketi avanoa.
O le faamalositino o se luitau sili atu ona faigata. Sa avea au ma se pateta nofoa i lo'u olaga atoa, ma o le faamalositino o se mea na ou matua 'ino'ino i ai. Ae na ou oo lava i ai. Na amata ona ou alu e savali faaono i le vaiaso ma o taimi uma lava ou te lagona ai le osooso. Soo se taimi lava ou te lagonaina ai le oo mai o uunaiga, ou te alu e savali. E oo lava i le vaeluaga o le po pe a manaʻomia. Sa ou lotomalie e vaivai i le aso e sosoo ai i le galuega pe afai o lona uiga e mafai ona ou ʻalofia le toe foʻi. Ina ua mavae ni nai masina o savali sa amata ona ou tamo'e a'o siisii lo'u malosi.
But meditation was the hardest part. I tried traditional meditation but it wasn’t working for me. Maybe I was doing it wrong (and I probably was) but I decided to change it to writing. I started to ask “How are you doing?” from myself and wrote down what ever was going through my mind at that particular moment. This soul searching gave me more answers from myself than any psychologist or counselor has ever given me. I started to find my weaknesses which in turn was causing my low self-esteem, and for the first time in my life I was able to help myself to get healed. It was an exhilarating feeling and I was getting so motivated that I felt like I was alive first time in my life.
O fea la ua ou i ai nei:
O le taimi nei, o laʻu vaisu porn e toetoe lava a leai se mea ma ua le toe i ai sau PIED. Na mafai ona ou maua laʻu uluaʻi faʻatasi ma laʻu uo teine i se mea i le aso 100 (e ala i lima) ma iu ai ina maua se orgasm mai le PIV sex i nai vaiaso talu ai. O loʻo i ai pea aʻu faʻafitauli e oʻo atu i le orgasm ma ia faʻamaoni, ou te le o mauaina lava se tasi i taimi uma matou te feusuaʻi ai, ae o lenei faʻafitauli o le a sili atu ona lelei ma o le mafuaʻaga lea o le a ou faʻaauau ai le faia o le NoFap i le lumanaʻi. Ou te le toe fia pau i lena mailei porn.
I’ve got rid of porn addiction and cured my PIED. So all in all…
I see this as a great success and victory.
O la'u lisi o mea e fai:
I se aotelega o nisi o mea na fesoasoani ia te aʻu e oʻo ai iinei:
- Saili le mafuaʻaga o lau vaisu ma lou mafuaʻaga e maualuga ai le dopamine. Atonu o ni faafitauli o le manatu o le tagata lava ia, tuuatoatasi po o le atuatuvale, ae po o le a lava, e tatau lava ona e mauaina.
- Amata ni mea fiafia fou e faʻalavelaveina oe mai le aloese mai porn. Afai e te nofo i totonu o lou fale ma taulai atu i le aloese mai le porn, e foliga mai e te toe foʻi i se taimi mulimuli ane. Taulai atu i se isi mea. Alu i fafo. Alu e savali. Alu e faitau se tusi i se fale kofe. Aua e te nofo i lou fale. O le fa'amalositino fa'aletino o le a alu ai i fafo ma fa'amāmā ai lou malosi tele.
- Faʻaitiʻitia lou taimi mata. O minute uma e matamata ai lau mata o se mea e ono fa'aosoina.
- Faʻaitiʻitia lou taimi i luga o faʻasalalauga lautele. E lua mea e fai ai: Muamua o le a e va'aia le tele o ata fa'aoso (bikini-beach-vacation-type-things) ma lona lua e te le toe fa'atusatusaina oe i isi. O le a faia se eseesega tele.
– Faitau pou mai lenei Fono. Ave fautuaga mai isi. Ave le mea e te mafaia ma fai mea uma e tatau ona e faia.
- Fesoasoani i isi uso Fapstronauts i lenei Fono. O le tele e te fesoasoani ai, o le tele foʻi lenā e te maua mai ai. O le faʻamalosia o se isi tagata e te maua ai le faʻamalosi e faʻaauau lau lava malaga.
O la'u tala lenei. Ou te faʻamoemoe e faʻaosofia laʻu tala ma avatu le faʻamoemoe i se tasi.
LINK - 180 aso manuia ma fofo PIED
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