E leai ni mea faʻapitoa o loʻo faamatalaina ai aogā

(Day 10) I initially ran across /pornfree after doing a little research as a results of the Your Brain on Porn TEDx video. Previously I had never really considered a porn addiction to be a big thing, assuming it only affected a small amount of people. In fact I would usually get a chuckle out of the billboards that sported “Are you addicted to porn?” headlines (though this may be because they are super cheesy). I have always been able to pick up and drop things like alcohol and cigarettes with no issues or withdrawals. As such, I never would have considered being addicted to porn. After doing research on the dopamine effects that porn has, I was convinced that it would be a good idea to stop my consumption.

Atonu o se TL; DR, ae o nisi nei o mea na ou iloa i le taimi puupuu na ou auai ai.

Muamua, sa ou faitau tele e uiga i le eseese o faailoga o le taofia o le porn ma foliga mai e matua lautele lava. O le mea e ofo ai, ou te le lagonaina se tasi o nei aafiaga e ui lava o le faaaogaina o le initaneti i aso uma mo le 9 tausaga (O aʻu o 24 nei, oe faia le numera). E ono iai ni mafuaaga mo lenei mea, o le tasi ou te manatu e sili ona telē, ua ou filifili ou te le lagona le tausalaina e uiga i laʻu masani. Ou te talia o se filifiliga sese ma faataumaoi le faʻaaogaina, ae o le lagona tausalaina e uiga i ai o le a atili ai ona faigata. O le vaega lona lua lea ou te talitonu ua fesoasoani moni lava, o loʻu malosi i feusuaiga, ma o lena eria ua i ai ona lava aafiaga.

The details of my sexual activity is a story for another time and subreddit, but for the sake of the topic I will share that I am currently sexually active with a few women. In my encounters in the short time since I have stopped porn I have already noticed some differences. First and foremost is my interaction with the partner I am with. Even just being in the same room as them I have been feeling more emotionally engaged with them. When things start to get intimate my lust for them is on an entirely different level from before. As things progress, without getting too detailed, I can simply lagona latou sili atu. O se mea sili atu ona faʻafiafiaina. O le mea leaga o lea na ou maitauina se paʻu taua i le taimi na ou mulimuli ai (talu ai na ou tumau e faavavau), ae ou te matea o lenei o le a sili atu le lelei i le taimi e le o se mea faateʻia ai i le polokalama.

Ua ou matauina foi nisi o faamanuiaga i fafo atu o le feusuaiga. Mo se taimi umi sa ou feagai ai ma le tele o mataupu, e aofia ai le le lava o le malosi, le lava o le gauai totoʻa, ma le mea e taʻua i nisi taimi o le fogito o le faiʻai. Ua ou mafaufau mo lenei mea mo sina taimi ma o le vailaau na fesoasoani tele ia te aʻu ia ou i ai i se tulaga masani. Ina ua uma le taina o le porn na tutusa lava ma le masani ai mo le tusa o le vaiaso, ona ou amata lea ona ou lagonaina le tele o le malosi o le eletise. Na foliga mai na faafuasei ona ou alu i le tietiega. Talu mai lena taimi ua sili atu le maualuga o loʻu malosi, o laʻu taulaiga e sili atu ona lelei, ma sili atu le manino o loʻu lagona e sili atu ona lelei. Ua ou matauina foi se eseesega i le uiga o tagata ese mai ia te au. E masani lava ona faʻaaogaina au i se mea e pei o aʻu o se tagata aʻoga maualuga ma taʻalo i le kolisi, ae o le vaiaso talu ai na ou iloa ai o le tele o tagata e le maua mai le vaaiga. I se tasi aso na lava na talanoa mai ai se tasi o au uo teine. E leai se isi mea e mafua ai lenei mea nai lo le mea na suia ai le porn i loʻu mafaufau, aua ou te leʻi suia moni lava se mea i loʻu olaga i le taimi nei.

Faʻamolemole mo le tele pou, na ou lagona e pei o le faʻasoaina o loʻu poto masani mamao. TL; DR Ou te leʻi lagonaina le tele o aʻafiaga, o loʻu olaga feusuaʻi e sili atu, ma ua fesoasoani i nisi o vailaʻau faʻafitauli. I lenei taimi ou te le toe fia alu i tua i le porn.

Filifili e faʻataʻitaʻi ma / leai se totogi, ma na i ai ni aʻu faʻamoemoe (lelei) iʻuga. (leai se mea e leai