Unhooked from porn - Taste for transsexuals disappeared, women look good

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porn siteI thought I would share my story with you about this addiction and how I overcame it last year. I watched regular porn from the age of around 11-15, but progressed into Transexual porn, in what looking back reveals is exactly like this article describes in escalation. It became the only arousal cue for me and I lost almost all sexual interest in women to the point where even the vagina felt alien and even quite disgusting at times. I assumed I had ‘turned’ gay, but never watched gay porn and could never ejaculate watching gay porn.

So I then realized I must have been “Trans-Orientated.” I continued to watch transsexual porn and had sex with numerous trans women over the next few years and I am ashamed to say I basically used them for my own sexual gratification there was no ‘love’ or no ‘feelings’ there, they were basically just a way to get off for me it always felt so messed up, but I felt like this was the only way I could get my buzz.

After doing sex acts with them that would probably make some hard-core porn fans convulse, I had a small break down and looked online to see if I could find anything about this. I discovered various porn addiction websites and later your website ‘Reuniting’ and 'Your brain on porn' after reading the articles everything made sense and I had the lightbulb moment.

For the next few years I struggled to overcome what I now had realized was a pornography addiction, I eventually managed to go 11 weeks in mid 2012. The changes in not just my sexual fantasies but also my social life were astronomical. Not only did I lose my attraction to transsexual women, but I also developed an attraction for women that is stronger than anything I remember. Women are approaching ME for a change, it was absolutely incredible and I’ve loved every minute of it.

I’ve since had several great relationshipsand never felt better about my life, everything fits into place now, I don’t need porn anymore and I’m certainly over my transsexual porn addiction. I am so happy now. A lot of it is a blur though, kinda like it was a dream in a way.

Also, to all those HOCD guys out there, here’s a quote that will some up your situation in a second: “If you THINK you’re strait, you’re strait.” And that’s from a Gay therapist who helps guys with HOCD, so try to stop worrying!

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One thing that comes across in many of these posts and in Gary's talks (podcast, etc.) is how young people today (and anybody who starts viewing internet porn) have a direct link between porn and masturbation. They cannot masturbate without fapping to porn (literally, they become impotent).

Well, there's another direct 1:1 correlation, I think with porn, and this poor fellow who got into transvestite porn is an example. That is: All internet porn devolves into fetish porn.

So, all masturbation becomes about porn. And all porn becomes fetish porn....

....And since guys need the internet to get off, it could be set that all male orgasms are to fetish pornography.