Eli thuba libuhlungu, lihlazo, nelikhupha umzimba landikhupha ebumnyameni. Ukuba bekungekho nge-PIED, ngekhe ndachitha ubomi bam bonke bufikelela kwiiphikseli kwiscreen. Ngendichithe ubomi bam bonke ndisebenzisa le tyhefu ithengiselwe amadoda njengezolonwabo. Ngekhe ndachitha ubomi bam bonke ndifihla le mfihlelo mncinci emhlabeni. Kodwa ngoku ndigqibile.
Ndinomnqweno omncinci kwi-PMO. Ndingamelana neminqweno. Ndibona i-porn malunga nokuba yintoni, kwaye ndiyayamkela indlela ukuthambeka kwamanyala okungapheliyo okungcolileyo okuphindaphindiweyo kwengqondo yam. Andisenayo into yokuzifihla.
Ngaphezu koko, i-PIED yam inyanzele omnye umntu kwilizwe lam elincinci labucala. Ndiyi-PMO'ed into efana neminyaka elishumi. Ukuhamba kwam okwangoku (kunye nokude) sisiphumo sokungakwazi kwam ukwenza kunye nentombi yam, ecocekileyo kwaye elula. Kwakwenzekile, kwacaca sobabini ukuba kukho into ekhoyo. Ke, ndiziva ngathi ndinetyala kuye, ndiye ndavuma. Ndabelane naye isiqwenga sam sabucala bendisifihle kabuhlungu emhlabeni ishumi leminyaka. Uye wandixhasa ngaphandle komgwebo, kwaye inyani yokuba ndihambile ngaphandle kwezandla kukujika kwakhe.
Ukuvuma kuye kuza neenzuzo zakhe. Ndaziva ndinomvandedwa wokwabelana ngemfihlo yam nomnye umntu. Kwaye kwandenza ukuba ndiphendule komnye umntu ngaphandle kwam kuloluhambo. Oyena mntu ubalulekileyo ebomini bam ngoku ngu-NoFap cheerleader. Okokugqibela, isigqibo sam sokunyaniseka kuye samenza ukuba akhululeke ukuthembeka kum. Ngoku siyazi ukuba kukhuselekile ukuthetha omnye komnye nangantoni na.
Ukusukela oko ndayekayo, ukusebenza kwam kubuyiselwe kwakwintoni. Njengoko iintsuku zihamba, ndibona ukusebenza kwam ngokungaphezulu kunokuba bekukhona. Kwaye, ekugqibeleni, i-PIED isisiseko sokuzimisela kwam ukuba ndingaze ndiye kwi-PMO kwakhona.
tl; dr: I-PIED yandenza ukuba ndiyeke ukufota kwaye yandenza ukuba ndiphendule kwi-gf yam kuhambo lwam lwe-NoFap.
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