Amabali okubuyela kwimeko yesiqhelo kwi-5 yinxalenye yochungechunge olunamaphepha ama-8 aneeakhawunti ezimfutshane.
Ngexesha elide, ii-akhawunti ze-ED ezicacileyo zibone Ukubuyisela kwakhona iiAkhawunti kwaye Ukubuyiselwa kwangaphandle kweBlogs kunye ne-Threads
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Molo Bafana! Ndingu 27, ndingugqirha kwaye ndinengxaki efanayo njengani nonke. Ndijonge i-porn ngexesha lobomi bam bezesondo. I-orgasm yam yokuqala yayiyeyona bendiyi-14 kwaye bendinayo ubukele i-porn xa oko kwenzeka.
Intombazana yokuqala endayiphuzayo xa ndandineminyaka eyi-13 kwaye ubudlelwane bam bokuqala bezokwabelana ngesondo xa ndandineminyaka eyi-16 kunye nomfazi ongaqhelekanga kwaye, ngelo xesha, andizange ndifumane ibhonner. Ekuqaleni, xa i-Intanethi yayingafumaneki, ndandisebenzisa ukuthenga iiteyiphu, iiDVD zamva kodwa ezi ntlobo ze-porn zihlala zingakuniki amava anje nge-Intanethi. Umzekelo: ukuba umntwana wakho ulala ebusweni kumfazi, ukuba ukwi-intanethi, ungaya ngqo kwindawo, kwaye ke ngenxa yoko ufumana i-orgasm enkulu
Ewe, ukuqhubekeka nebali lam, ngexesha lokufikisa kwam, ngalo lonke ixesha ndanga intombazana endandidla ngokufumana ibhoner. Emva kwamava am okuqala okonzakala ngokwesini (kunye nentombazana engaziwayo) kwi-16 yam yam emva kwexesha, emva koko ndafumana intombi xa ndandineminyaka eyi-18. Amava am okuqala ezesondo kunye naye ayesilele, kodwa alandelayo (ngaphezulu kweenyanga ezisi-7 zonke besithandana ) kwakulungile. Ulwazi olubalulekileyo kukuba kunqabile ukuba ndicofe xa ndingena, bendidla ngokuyeka kwaye ndiwugqibe umsebenzi ngesandla sam. Emva koko, ndaye ndadibana nobunzima kwisikolo se-med kuba kwakufuneka ndifunde kakhulu kwaye phantse ndingabinalo ixesha namantombazana. Amava ambalwa endinawo, ndakwazi ukufumana iibhoners kodwa kunqabile ukuba ndifike kuvuthondaba olungena ngaphakathi (1 okanye 2 amaxesha).
Emva kokuba ndandineminyaka eyi-22, kwakukho i-boom ye-xvideos yasimahla emnatheni kwaye, njengoko ndandilikhoboka le-porn, ndahamba ngale ndlela, ndisiya ndibukela iimeko zesondo ezibi kakhulu. Njengoko unokucinga, ndaqala ukufumana amava abuhlungu ngakumbi. Ndaqala ukungabi namabhonari nangona ndanga amantombazana. Njengoko izinto zimbi kakhulu, i-100% yam i-masturbation yenzekile ibukele i-porn kwaye ndaqala ukuthintela iimeko kunye nabasetyhini kuba bendine-ED. Kwaye kwafika i-26 yam emva kwexesha apho ndaqala ukukrokrela i-porn njengesizathu sokungasebenzi kakuhle kwe-erectile. Ndandikrokrela kuba xa ndenza i-masturbated kwindawo yokuhlambela, andinakukufumana nzima kwaye xa ndikwazi ukuyenza, kwafuneka ndicinge imifanekiso engamanyala ukwenza njalo.
Ndiye ndazama nokuthatha isondo kunye nentombazana kodwa ayisebenzi (oku kuqhelekile kwi-erectile disys function (PRED) malunga neenyanga ezi-5 ezidlulileyo ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiyeke ukubukela iphonografi kwaye ndiphinda ndibuyele rhoqo. Nangona ndiqinisekile ngemeko yam, iimvakalelo zam zesondo zixhomekeke kakhulu kwi-porno kangangokuba kunzima ukuba ndiyeke.Kodwa ndiqala ukuba neemeko ezingcono ezenzekayo ebomini bam.iintsuku eziyi-2 ezidlulileyo, ndazisa intombazana yam indawo, kwaye ngaphandle kokuba ndingenayo loo "bonner inzima" ndikwazile ukungena okokuqala.Ndifuna izandla zam ukuwugqiba umsebenzi.Intombazana yayifuna ngaphezulu, kodwa andizange ndikwazi ukuyifumana Into enzima endinokukuxelela yona malunga nendlela yokulahla i-PRED yile:
Yivume yakho imeko
Phuma kwi-PORN. Ukuba awukwazi ukuyenza, khangela uncedo lwengqondo
Zama u *** kuphela kunye nomfazi onalo
Ukuba unzima ukufumana kunye nomfazi, kufuneka uhlawule. Mxelele ngemeko yakho kwaye ucele uncedo. Ukuba uyingcali, uya kuqonda
Yenza ingqondo yakho ibone iipateni ezintsha. Umzekelo, ukuba awukwazi *** ukungena ngaphakathi, musa nje ukwenza ***. Ngexesha, ingqondo yakho iyakuqonda ukungena njengendlela ekufuneka izonwabise ngayo.
Ukuba awukwazi ukuhlala ngaphandle kokuphulula amalungu esini, ngenxa yokusebenza kwakho ngokweemvakalelo, yenze, kodwa UNGACINGI NGEENKQUBO ZOKUQHUBA xa uhlambalaza.
Musa ukwenza i-masturbate ngokukhawuleza: zama ukwenza ingqondo yakho ibone isivinini esicothayo (njengokungena) njengephethini yesantya ekufuneka ukuba ***. Ukuba awukwazi *** ngesantya esicothayo, musa ***.
Ukuba ungayilandela le miyalelo ndiyakuqinisekisa ukuba kwiinyanga ezi-3 ubuninzi, uyakufumana indlela eqhelekileyo yobomi bezesondo. Ewe akunakwenzeka ukuba uzilandele ezi zinto, kuba unezithintelo ngokweemvakalelo eziya kuthi ekugqibeleni ziyaphule iiodolo zakho ezinengqiqo. Kunzima ukuyenza loo nto, kodwa njengoko ndizama, ngokungathandabuzekiyo kuphucula ukusebenza kwam. Ndiyathemba ukuba amava am anokubanceda abanye benu. Ndithathela ingqalelo imeko yam njengenye yezona zinzima (eyam i-orgasm yokuqala yesondo yayikukubukela iphonografi- oku kuyiprinta enzima yeemvakalelo) kodwa ngethemba lokuba ndiza kuba nosuku lobomi obuqhelekileyo ngokwesondo. Yazi abanye ngengozi ye-porn.
USUKU 48- NDIVALELE WOW AMAZING.
Amagama awanakuyichaza indlela endivakalelwa ngayo! Ndiziva ndikulawula kakhulu iimvakalelo zam! Andizange ndive nantoni na ephosakeleyo yokuthetha kwakhona! Kwaye ndinamandla iintsuku. Ndivuka ndikulungele ukuthatha ilizwe.Izinto ezinkulu zikhulisa ukuzithemba kunye nenxalenye ebalaseleyo… AMABHINQA AJONGE KUM!
NgoLwesibini, ndithathe amantshontsho amabini. Yenziwe ngomnye wabo. Inombolo ivale enye. Mna naye besithetha. Uthe uyayithanda inyani yokuba kubonakala ngathi andikhathali nokuba ndimfumene okanye hayi. Kwakukho nelinye inqaku apho ndaye ndemka kuye kuba wayedlala imidlalo emininzi, ndinoluvo lokuba andikhathali nokuba ucinga ntoni ngam. Kungenzeka nokuba ubuphantsi ukonwabela omnye nomnye okanye hayi. Ecacileyo nelula..Wenyuka waya kumfana wasekhaya, wambetha, wayifumana inombolo yam kuye lol.
Saya kwiklabhu kunye kunye kwiintsuku ezimbalwa kamva kwaye sasigqibene. Ubutsalane obuninzi. Yenziwe kunye nazo zonke izinto ezintle. Kwakuyinto yokuqala yokumanga ukususela kwintombazana endandiyithandayo kwikholeji apho ndaziva ndiba namandla. Ndaziva ndiphila. Ndaziva ngathi "sive" umoya omnye komnye.
Izolo bendiye kwiklabhu. Okwesibini kanye endangena kuyo intshontsho lalindijonge soooo kunzima ngathi bendifuna. Ndithethile naye ndafumanisa ukuba unesoka. Kodwa ewe ebesandijongile ngokungathi undifuna kakubi. Umhlobo wam wade waphawula malunga nendlela abonakala ngayo ngathi ufuna ukukrazula iimpahla zam. Uye wemka kum. Ngokujonga emva, ndiyazi ukuba ebendifuna kodwa wakhathazeka kwaye washiya lol olo hambo lushiyekileyo. Hee sukundinika amehlo e-DTF ukuba unesoka!
Emva koko kwakukho inkukhu emi eceleni kwam ukudanisa kwaye ndatsho isivakalisi esinye kuye waza ndaqala ukudansa phezu kwam. Kwaye si dibene. Ufumene inombolo yakhe
Ngelo xesha, wayedlala imidlalo kangangokuba ndaqhubela phambili
Emva koko ndaqala ukuthetha nentombazana kwaye saqala ukuyenza. Ndingathanda ukubonisa ukuba: ANGAKHONI NOKUBA NGOKUBA NGOKUBA NGOKUBA NGOKUPHILA KWAMI. HLAWANA KWEZIQINI EZINYE IVEKI ELINYE!
Ukumanga kwakuhle kakhulu. Bobabili sasicinga ukuba magnetism. Waye wayeka isigamu sahamba waza waqalisa ukuphefumula nokuphefumula okukhulu ngenxa yokumanga. Senza njengamaxesha amathathu. Ufumene inombolo yakhe
Ndivakalelwa ngathi ucinga, bendicinga ukuba ulula okanye into kodwa andiyenzanga. Ukumanga kwakungu-soooo epic.
(Ndidinga ingcebiso. Ndaziva ngokungathi ucinga ukuba kulula okanye utyhafile kwaye kwamenza wafuna ukubuyela umva. Ndambiza emva kweklabhu ndashiya i-voice-mail ehlekisayo kwaye akandibuyisanga. ndiyishiya ndedwa? okanye ndilinde iintsuku ezimbalwa? bendinomdla kuye kwaye ndiyazi ukuba ubetsala kum)
Intombazana endiyithethileyo ekholejini apho ndaziva ndinonxibelelwano olunzulu nayo, bendicinga ukuba ingumphefumlo wam kwaye ndicinga ukuba andizukuphinda ndiyifumane loo mvakalelo… .Ndagwetyelwa ukuhlala nenyaniso yokuba andizukuze ndidibane nomntu kwakhona kwaye ndingazange ndimfumane umntu onjengaye… ..
kodwa nanko ndiphephelwa. kwenzeka kabini ngeveki enye. Ndivakalelwa kukuba ndikwazi ukufumana le magnetism nabani na ondivumela ukuba ndidibanise nayo.
Ukubamba kwakunzima kakhulu kumdaka!
Andiphinde ndijonge abafazi njengento yezocansi. Ndijonge kubo njengokungathi zihle okanye azikho. Plain kwaye elula. Akukho mifanekiso yabo yesondo okanye nayiphi na into.
Ndiqinisekile nge-100% ukuba banokuyithatha le nto. Andiziva ngathi ndiyinja yophondo okanye kufuneka ndibasebenzise ukuze balale nam. Nokuba ufuna ukonwabela inkampani yam okanye hayi.
Ndiyakwazi "ukuziva" izinto kwaye ndiziva "abantu". Kwakumnandi kakhulu xa ndinombono wale nto ekuqaleni kokuqalisa kwakhona, kodwa ngoku kucace ngakumbi. Andazi ukuba ndingayichaza njani kwaye ndiziva ngathi ndingena kwihlabathi elitsha. Ndabona omnye umntu ekhankanya ukuba baziva ngathi bangoNeo kwi-matrix kwaye ndiyabalisa ngokupheleleyo.
Zonke ezi zinto zenzeke kum ngendlela enhle kwaye enhle. Ukuthabatha amatshontsho yi-sooooooo lula ngoku. Kulula kakhulu.
Le yinto nje encinci kakhulu yento eyenzekayo. Ndiqokelele amaninzi amaninzi kwaye ndifumene umsebenzi omningi, uhlazo lwakhe. Ndiziva ngathi i-quantum ixubile!
Ulawulo lwam lwentetho luyamangalisa. Andizange ndithintele ngoku kwaye ilizwi lam linamandla amakhulu kuyo. Xa ndijonga emva kum kudala, ndiziva ngathi bendililo. Andifuni nokuthi "mdala" ngenxa yokuba andisayiva loo mntu. Ndahamba nge-metamorphosis kwaye ndiziva ndibhetele kakhulu njengomntu.
Kubo bonke abantu abangaphandle abafunda le nto kwaye usenzima, ndiyakubuza… .ndicela uyeke i-PMO! Ngokulula sesinye sezona zigqibo zibalaseleyo endakha ndazenza ebomini. Akukho kuphinda ubuye kwakhona kwaye akusekho nzima. Yima nje.
Kukho ilizwe elihle kwelinye icala kwaye umntu omangalisayo ulindele ukudibana nawe….
Ndenze nje iintsuku ezingama-60. Ndinqwenela ukuba ndibe neengcebiso ezilungileyo kubafana abaqala nje kwaye kunzima kubo. Sonke besilapho (kwaye sisenokubakho kwakhona ukuba siyeke ukugada), kodwa kwathatha uqhawulo-mtshato ukundishukumisa ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndiyeke iphonografi. Andinqweneli ukuba nabani na.
Ndineenkcukacha malunga nemeko yam:
Ngoku ndihlala ndihlaziya i-masturbate kwaye kaninzi ngamaxesha amaninzi ngosuku. Ndizokuyeka ngoDisemba kwaye ndibone ukuba iyanceda na i-ED yam.
Ukuza apha sisixhobo sam esikhulu ngokuchasene nesilingo. Izibongozo zam azimbi kakhulu, kodwa zisekhona. Xa bebonisa, ndiza ngqo kule subreddit.
Izinto zihamba ngcono, kodwa ngokukhawuleza. I-ED yam iya kuphucula kunye nokuqhaqha kwamanye amaxesha ngokuphantse kum. Kwakhona ndandifumana iphupha lokuqala lokuzikhusela kwiiminyaka eveki eveki. Ndiyathemba ukuba izinto ziya kubuyela eqhelekileyo ngehlobo elizayo.
Inhlanhla kunye nokukhetha okuhle kuthi sonke.
Ngaba Ubomi Bokugqibela Ubusuku
Mna nomfazi wam sinobomi obubi ngokwesondo kuba ndichitha ixesha elininzi ndibukela iphonografi kunye nokuphulula amaphambili. Kubangelwa i-ED kunye neminye imiba. Ibiyingxaki iminyaka, kodwa kwiiveki ezimbini ezidlulileyo ndizimisele ukuyeka iphonografi / ukuphulula amalungu esini kwaye ndijolise kumandla am esini kumfazi wam. Ngobusuku bokugqibela salala ngesondo kwaye ndafumana ukulungiswa okukhulu. Kwakumangalisa. Kwaye kwakungoLwesibini ebusuku. Andiqinisekanga ukuba sinoLwesibini ebusuku ngesondo ukusukela ekholejini okanye kungekudala nje. Mhlawumbi iholide ngexesha elithile. Kodwa ngolwesibini isini ayisiyonto yethu. Kwakumangalisa. Ndifuna nje ukwabelana.
Emva kwexesha le-90 lokuzilahla kwi-pornography / i-masturbation, ndabona ukuba ndandinomdla ngakumbi kunangaphambili, kwaye andifuni enye into yokuvuselela ukwenza i-horny. Ukuphuma kwamadlozi kuyekisiwe. Ndingoyena unomdla kakhulu kubafazi kwaye ndiye ndaphela ndilele nabo ngexesha lokuzama kwam amaxesha amancinci okuphulula amalungu esini.
Andenzi imowudi enzima, kodwa andiphulula amaphambili okanye ndijonga iphonografi…
Intombi yam entsha kunye nam sasondelana phezolo. Ndandisoyika ekuqaleni, ndinethemba lokuba isibambiso (ebendinaso ngomhla we-12) singanceda kwiingxaki zam. Kukhuselekile ukuba ndinobunzima, hayi iliwa eliqinileyo kodwa lanele ukundonwabisa. Intombazana yam yandinika intloko kwaye yayimangalisa. Ndaziva yonke into endandingayenzi xa ndihlala ndibaleka. Ukufika kwam ndaziva ngathi ndimnyama mzuzwana. Bekumnandi kakhulu bendiqala nokuthuka kakhulu ade ahleke.Ewe, ndizakuqhubeka ndiyenza le nto nabafana… yomelelani… oku kuthintela imisebenzi yethu emibi. LINK
ED ibuye emva kweeyure ze-2. Inkqubela.
Ndenze ngempumelelo i-nofap kwinyanga edlulileyo. Oku kwakwanele ukukrazula imiba yam (ED) kwaye ndaqhubeka nobomi bam, ndaphuma kanye ngeveki. Emva kwexesha elimnyama ebomini bam, ndazifumana ndiyanda ngakumbi.
Ndiyenza imodeli elula akukho fap, ndinayo i-gf kwaye sisebenza ngesondo. Ukufunda iingxelo zenkqubela phambili kuncumo kum kwaye ndifuna ukufaka isandla kulo mphakathi.
Andiyikholelwa yonke imfundiso yale subreddit kodwa ndiyabona ukuba ibeka wonke umntu kwindlela elungileyo. Sonke sijoyine ngenxa yezizathu ezahlukeneyo kwaye kufuneka sijongane neenjongo zethu ezithile kwiziphumo ezizizo.
Ngokuyeka kwam ndiye ndafumanisa ukuba ndingaphezulu ngalo mzuzu, andinaxhala kwaye andiziva ndingazithembi kwizenzo zam. Ndiziva ndikhululwe ngokwenene, ngokungathi andinanto ndiyifihlayo. Ndinamandla ngakumbi kwaye ndiqhuba. Ngoku ndifuna ukuphuma ndidibane nabantu kwaye ndifuna ukuzibonakalisa kuba ndiziva ndizingcikivile. Ndicinga ukuba inokuchazwa gwenxa njengekratshi kodwa ndonwabe ngokwenene yinkqubela yam.
Ndilale ngesondo amaxesha amaninzi kule veki kwaye iibhoner zam ziziva zinzima kwaye zihlala ixesha elide. Ndiye ndacinga ngayo kwaye ndifikile kwisigqibo sokuba uNofap uye wayicofa ingqondo yam ngokuzithemba.
Kuziva Ulungele Ukuba Nolukhulu!
Xa uncamisa umfazi kwaye iimpahla zakhe ziqala ukunyamalala kwaye uziva ukuba imvakalelo phakathi kwemilenze yakho obuqhele ukuziva xa ulungele ukubukela iphonografi, iyimvakalelo yokwenyani ngokwenene. Kwabo baphuma phaya bengekazifumani okwangoku, isitshixo sifumaneka kwiposti yam yokugqibela. Kuya kufuneka uhlale umde kude ne-porn, AKUKHO NANTONI.
Usenakho ukuphuma kodwa isitshixo kukuba uye uncipha ngokuxhomekeka kuyo! Ke ufuna ukuzifundisa ukuba awuyidingi ngokwenyani. Esinye isitshixo kukuba uphume uye kufumana abasetyhini abanokuzikhohlisa ngabo. Ngaba uyoyika? Yeka ukuba ngumfana ogezayo kwaye wenze nje.
Ngaphambi kokuba ndiqalise le nkqubo yokuphulukisa, ndandinenkathazo ngeendlela zokulungisa. Ndidinga ngakumbi nangakumbi iintlobo zokukhuthaza ezivela kwi-porn kwaye ayikancedi. Ndandiba nexhala ngokwenene ngayo yonke le nto. Kwakuqhubeka kusiba mandundu kangangeminyaka embalwa. Ukuxhalaba kwandinceda ndityhalele nzulu kwi-porn njengoko yayiqhubeka. Kunzima ukukholelwa ukuba ndingaqhubeka ndingena kuwo. Ndiyathetha ukuba mhlawumbi ndisebenzise lonke uhlobo lwemifanekiso engamanyala kunye nevidiyo ngaphandle apho ngaphandle kwe-porn yabantwana. Yintoni eyoyikisayo, ngaba ndingahamba ngaloo ndlela, nam, ngenye imini? Ngoku ngekhe ndazi. Ndiyabulela kakhulu noko.
Okukhona ndihamba ngaphandle kwe-pornography kunye ne-orgasm, kunzima ngakumbi ukuba ndingafumani ulwakhiwo. HLEKA KAKHULU. Ewe, bendinamaxesha amabini okanye amabini kwezi veki zimbalwa zidlulileyo apho kuye kwafuneka ndizolile okanye ndihlazeke.Ngoko ke kwindlela endizama ngayo xa ndizama ukuthi ukuba uhlala kude ne-porn kunye ne-masturbation umnqweno wakho wesondo uya kunyuka . Iya kunyuka ngendlela elungileyo. Kulungile, loo nto iyavakala ukuba iyaphinda uyifunde. Khange utsho ngaloo ndlela-amagama amabi. Ngumxholo obalulekileyo kwaye uyachukumisa. Ndiyazi.
Ukulungiswa kunzima kwaye kunzima
Ukuvuka namhlanje kwaye kwakunjengowow. Olu lwakhiwo lwalunzima kunanini ngaphambili. Kwaye ngalo lonke ixesha ndicinga ukuba yincopho, ayisiyiyo. Kuhlala kusiba nzima inyanga nenyanga. Andazi ukuba ndiza kuphakama nini kodwa oku kukuqala kwenyanga 9. Akukho kubuya mva ngoku. Qhubeka uzama umzalwana. Andizange ndiphumelele ngosuku lwe-90 njengoko ndisafumana kwakhona ke ungayeki. Andikhathali nokuba le shit ithatha unyaka omnye okanye iminyaka emi-1 kuba ndiyakubona ukukhanya kwaye kuko konke endikudingayo ukuze ndiqhubeke.
Amava am ezesondo ekholejini ayesoyikisa… ukungakwazi ngokupheleleyo ukuba nalo naluphi na uhlobo lolwakhiwo ngelixa usenza, njl., Libido ephantsi kakhulu. Bendingayazi ingxaki yam kodwa bendiyazi ukuba ayilunganga. Ndandiqonda ukuba andinakukwazi ukuphumla izihlunu zam zePC xa ndiza kuba nentombazana. Ewe ndinokuziphulula amalungu esini ngokulula… kwaye bendisenza rhoqo, ngesiqhelo ngoncedo olubonakalayo. Ukususela kwiminyaka engama-22 ubudala ndayeka zonke iifoto kunye nokuhlaziya i-masturbation.
Ngoku, andinalo naluphi na uhlobo lwe-ED. Ndisempilweni kakhulu ngokwesondo ngoku kwaye ndinamandla, ii-erections ezihlala ixesha elide ngaphandle kokhuthazo oluncinci oluyimfuneko. Ngoku ndothukile xa ndibona iphonografi, nditsho ndinxibe nje abafazi kumagazini ... ndiyadika! Kunzima ukukholelwa ukuba kuye kwaba nefuthe kum.
Andikwazi ukucinga ngayo nantoni na endiyenzile kwimpilo yam kunye nentlalontle leyo ephezulu yokuyeka iphonografi kunye ne-masturbation. I-soooo ixabiseke ngokupheleleyo. Ayikuko ukuba ungaze uphinde uzichukumise… Ndifumana imithambo yenyamakazi iyenye yeendlela ezilungileyo zokuvuka kusasa. Kuya kufuneka uphume ngokupheleleyo entlokweni yakho xa kuziwa kwisondo- akukho fantasy! Yiba khona kwaye ukhululeke… ngokukhethekileyo neqabane elinothando.
(Umfundi weYunivesithi) Sele kuyiveki oko ndaqala “ukuqala kwakhona.”… Inye into endiyiqapheleyo ngokuqinisekileyo kukonyuka kokulungiswa -Ndizifumana ntsasa nganye ngoku, kwaye zilulwalwa nzima. Uninzi lobusuku njengoko ndilindele ukulala, ndiyabona ukuba ndinako ukufumana ulwakhiwo ngokuyeka iingcinga zam zibhadule ngaphandle kokuzichukumisa. Olu luphuculo olubonakalayo kwiveki ephelileyo. Ndijongene no-ED, kodwa ndiziva ngathi ndinomfazi olele nam ekuseni, ngekhe ndikwazi ukumisa ulungiso ukuba bendifuna! Nokuba nekhondom, ebisoloko iyinto yokumisa kum.
Ngokubhekisele kwimeko yam-unxibelelwano phakathi kwe-porn kunye ne-ED ayinakucaca - U-ED wandibetha ngaphandle kwendawo kwaye wayonakalisa ingqondo yam. Nangona kunjalo, ndonwabile ukuthi emva kokusika i-porn kunye ne-masturbation ngokupheleleyo kwinyanga ephelileyo, yonke into ibuyela esiqhelweni kwaye andikaze ndizive ngcono.
i-yourbrainonporn = Ngokwenyani inyani sh! t. Ndisaqhubeka fap, kodwa ndayeka nje ukubukela iphonografi ngokupheleleyo kwaye ndiyavela narb's [akukho sizathu sibonakalayo seebhoners] kwakhona njengaxa ndandineminyaka eyi-15.
Ndifikile emva kwe-30, ndisebenzise i-porn kakhulu ukusukela kwiminyaka yam yokufikisa, kwaye bendinengxaki ze-ED ixesha elide - ubuncinci ukusukela kwiminyaka yam yokugqibela ye-20, nangona kutsha nje ukuba iphantse yaba kukuphamba okupheleleyo kwe-ED. Ndiyibek 'ityala kumaqabane ("Andikuthandi wena" / "Ndinqwenela ukuba ubuphendule"), ubutsha bamaqabane ("Ndidinga ukunika umzimba wam ixesha lokufikelela kwingqondo yam") , amanqanaba omzimba, ukutya, ubudala, uxinzelelo, uxinzelelo lwentsebenzo… kwaye eneneni, zonke ezo zinto, ngaphandle kwento ethi “Andikho kuwe”, inendima oyidlalayo. Kodwa xa ndabona ukuba andinakukwazi ukuphinda ndihlaziye i-orgasm ngaphandle koononophala - into ecofa. Kubonakala ngokucacileyo ngokungaboniyo, ewe.
Ngokuqinisekileyo ndiyakuqonda oku. Ndiyiminyaka engama-28 ubudala kunye nomdlali wangaphambili oqeqeshiweyo. Kwimeko yam ayingekho nje ngokugqithiseleyo njengabanye kodwa ukuyeka ukuzilahla kunye nokunciphisa i-masturbation ngokuqinisekileyo kunceda kunye ne-ED yengqondo. Ukuba isisongelo siba sikhulu kakhulu, senze i-masturbate kwiingcamango entloko yakho. Emva kweeveki ezimbalwa ndandiziva ndingcono kwaye ndithembela ngakumbi embhedeni nabasetyhini. I-Porn yiyona nto kuphela endiye ndaxhomekeke kuyo kwaye ndiyisela kwaye ndisebenzisa ukutshaya iiguba kunye nokhula. Yiya.
Ndayeka ukubukela i-porn ngo-Agasti 13th. Ukususela ngoko ndine-masturbated kabini kuphela. Ndilala ngesondo kunye nentombi yam entsha kaninzi ngeveki. I-Porn iyakulinga kodwa ayisoze yakwenza wonwabe. Musa ukoyika, yincame! Ukuyeka iphonografi kuya kuphilisa iziyobisi. Ukuyeka ukuphulula amalungu esini okwethutyana kuyakukhawulezisa inkqubo ngokubuyisela ubuntununtunu kwilungu lakho lobudoda kunye nokuvumela amandla akho ezesondo ukuba aphakame. Ukuzibandakanya kwi-masturbation ngokukhawuleza emva kwelo xesha kulungile. Ukumodareyitha kubalulekile.
Ndingu-41 kwaye ndiqhawule umtshato kwaye nam bendinomlutha woononophala, ngoku bendikhe ndayeka ukubukela iphonografi kule minyaka mihlanu idlulileyo, kodwa ndisayibukela mhlawumbi amaxesha ama-2-3 ngenyanga kodwa andisayi kuphinda ndiyiphulula amaphambili, mna gcina amandla am ezesondo kwabasetyhini bokwenyani ngoku, kwaye iindlela zam zokuqina zinzima kwaye zinde.
Ndiyabunandipha ubomi obungatshatanga ngoku, kodwa ndiyathemba ukufumana la mfazi ukhethekileyo ukuba ndichithe ubomi bam kunye naye, kwaye ngeli xesha uya kuba nayo yonke ingqalelo yam kunye nesini asifunayo. hleka kakhulu
Hlanganisa apho abafana banethemba, akuyi kuba lula kodwa kuyenzeka, kuye kwafuneka ndiphinde ndifunde indlela yokusondelelana nomntu obhinqileyo, ndizivumele ndihambe, ndifuna ukumonwabisa endaweni yokugxila kulonwabo lwam. Xa siphulula amalungu esini kwi-porn kuphela kwento esiyikhathaleleyo kukuzonwabisa kulula, asinalo "uxinzelelo" lokwenza omnye umntu abe yincasa.
Kwandibiza umtshato wam, ukuba ndiqonde ukuba abafazi kufuneka bazive befuna, baxabiseke kwaye sibaqonda.
Ukuba ndiyakwenza oko, nabani na onokukwenza, kuya kuthatha ixesha kunye nomonde kodwa umvuzo ekupheleni ufanelekile.
Usuku 45 - (Ingcebiso kwelinye ilungu leforum) ndandicwenga ngathi muthaf ***** kodwa xa ndandiqala ukwenza intombazana kunye kutshanje u-dick wam ngequbuliso waphila. Get Phuma uphele nje, kwaye ubekwinkampani yabasetyhini kangangoko unako. I-libido yakho iya kubuya. Kuya kufuneka uyikhombe kwicala elifanelekileyo. Ngaba akhona amabhinqa ebomini bakho okanye nabani na onomdla kuye? Phuma uphume apho ke bhuti.
[yobudala 53] Ukuphela kwezinto ezizenzekelayo endizenzayo xa "ndidlala" kunye nomfazi wam. Ngaphambi kokuba ndiqalise kwakhona, kwaye ngenxa yokulutha kwam PM, Kwakunzima kakhulu kum ukuba ndifumane naluphi na uhlobo lokwakhiwa xa ndandikunye naye - i-ED inxulumene ne-porn. Ngoku andinangxaki konke konke, lolona phuculo lukhulu kum, kwaye ndiyakwazi ukugcina izinto endizenzayo. Ngaba ndifumana ukulungiswa xa ndibona abanye abafazi? Hayi ngoba? Nanini na xa ndibona umfazi okhangayo, andisayi kumjonga njengento yesondo ezibuza engqondweni yam ukuba uya kuba njani embhedeni. I-Porn yenza loo nto kum. Abafazi baba ngamalungu omzimba kum kwaye bangabi ngabantu bokwenyani.
Ke ukuba ndibona abafazi abanomtsalane, ndiyabuthanda ubuhle bakhe okomzuzwana, kodwa kwangoko jonga kude kwaye ujonge kwenye into-ngaphandle kwenkanuko-ndiyigcinela umfazi wam. Ukuba ungumntu ongatshatanga, ndiyabona apho uya kuba nomdla ngakumbi ekuboneni ulungelelwaniso oluzenzekelayo xa ubona abanye abantu basetyhini. Kum oko akubalulekanga. Yintoni ebalulekileyo kum kukuba ukubuyiswa kwam kubuyele kulowo ndimthandayo. Ndiyathemba ukuba oku kuncede ukuphendula umbuzo wakho.
Ndikumhla wama-33 kungekho P / M. Izolo ndiphumelele ngesondo kabini, oku kulandela le yam yokuqala ikwinqanaba lokulala ngesondo ngosuku lwe-28Ukuba nabani na uyathandabuza ukuba ukuyeka i-P / M kukwenza ukungasebenzi kakuhle kwe-erectile, nceda ungayenzi loo nto, iyasebenza. Kwakusele iiveki nje ezidlulileyo ndaphantse ndazishiya ebomini ngaphandle kwesini esifanelekileyo. Ngoku ndiziva ngathi ndizelwe ngokutsha kwaye ndinento eninzi yokwenza. Nangona kunjalo iiveki ezininzi umntu ngamnye efuna, ukuzincama okuncinci ukulungisa into ebalulekileyo ebomini bakho, ngokunyanisekileyo iiveki zokuqala zezona zinzima, emva koko undizele.
OMG !! .. Ndiyenzile !! .. Kwakungenakwenzeka njengoko ndandikholelwa !!
Molweni bahlobo,
Ndilapha nje ukuzama ukukunika ithemba. Ndingumntu okholelwa ukuba akukho themba konke konke lokuba ndingaphinda ndibengumntu oqhelekileyo kwaye ndikonwabele ukulala ngesondo. Emva kwe-12 yrs ye-p yokulutha kunye nomkhwa we-pmo ogqithisileyo ofikelele kwinani elisongelayo, ndikholelwa ekubeni kufuneka ndijongane ne-asexual ngokulungileyo. Kwakhona ulibale malunga nawaphi na amaphupha okuba kubudlelwane okanye ukuba nomntwana ngenye imini.
Ngokwenyani, bendiphosakele. Caba likho ithemba. Izolo ebusuku bendinolwalamano olupheleleyo ngesondo ngempumelelo. Kwakuqala ukulala ngesondo iminyaka eyi-8. Emva kokuqalisa kwakhona / ukubuyisela kwakhona iintsuku ezili-115, ukuphelisa i-p & mo. Ndikhe ndadinga ukukhuthazwa kakhulu kwaye ndinayo ne-PE. Andiphilwanga ngokupheleleyo okwangoku, kwaye ndisafuna ixesha elide ukuba ndiphilisiwe. Nangona kunjalo ndidlulile kwelona xesha libi ebomini bam, kwaye ngethemba lokuba le micimbi inokulungiswa ngokuhamba kwexesha.
Oku akuyiyo impumelelo epheleleyo. Kusesekuseni ukuba ubhale ibali lempumelelo elipheleleyo, eliya kuba neenkcukacha ezininzi. Kodwa ndandinomdla wokunika wonke umntu apha ithemba. Ukuba umntu ulungile ngokwenyama, nje ukukhathazeka ngeenyawo kwaye ukholelwa ukuba akukho ndlela yokuphuma, ndingathanda ukuthetha ukuba kukho indlela ethembekileyo yokuphilisa.
Siyabonga bonke abantu
Ndinengxaki efanayo nawe. Ngendlela endikubona ubhala ngayo uvakala ungenathemba. Akukho lityala kodwa ukuba awukwazi ukuzigqogqa ukuze ufune ukuba ngcono awusoze. Ndinengxaki efanayo nawe, EXACTLY efanayo. ED kusuka kwi-pornography. Khange ndikwazi ukuyifumana ngaphandle komsebenzi wesandla okanye i-blowjob, emva koko bendinokuyigcina kuphela okomzuzu okanye kunjalo.
Nokuba ngaba ndikwazi ukuwufumanisa, ndabakho Ejaculation Premature, Ke ndingahlala 2 okanye 3 kuphela. Kuthathe iinyanga zokuzinikezela kunye nokuzikhuthaza ukuba ndoyise, kwaye ngoku andinakonwaba! Kwaye ndiza kubetha unyaka okoko ndaqala ukulungisa i-ED yam kunye ne-Pre-E. Kuya kufuneka uye ngaphaya kwemiqobo yakho yengqondo ngaphambi kokuba uqhubeke! Ndincoma ukudala iinjongo ezincinci, qalisa ngeentsuku ze-3 ngaphandle kokuhlaziya i-pornography. Emva koko zivuze ngosuku olulandelayo. Emva koko yiya kwiintsuku ezi-4, okanye nokuba ubona kufanelekile.
Ukuthi nje kuwe, "Andiyi kuphinda ndihlaziye i-pornography kwakhona" kuya kukwenza uxinezeleke xa ufumanisa ukuba akunakwenzeka! Kwakhona, ukuba uyaphazamisa kwaye ubukele iphonografi xa ungafanele uzikhethele ngaphambi kokuba uwe. Kuthatha ukuziqhelanisa kodwa ungavumeli ukuba ifike kuwe Le nto ivela kumntu ozibona encinci kuwe.
KUNYE into enokwenzeka! Ndazibonakalisa oko kum. Ungayenza. Umnqweno omhle.
Ndiza… .90 yeentsuku zandilungisa !!! Enkosi NoFap (ngokwakho.NoFap)
Ukuqala oku-ndicinga ukuba wonke umntu kufuneka enze umngeni- Nokuba ayisiyiyo le nto bacinga ukuba iyiyo umlutha. Ndicinga ukuba inkcazo yomntu wonke ngelo xesha iya kwahluka. Kum, nokuba kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo ngekhe nditsho ukuba ndilikhoboka le-PMO, kodwa bendiyibuka rhoqo ebusuku. Ndize ekholejini ndaza ndancitshiswa kakhulu, kodwa ndasebenza indlela yam ebuyela emva malunga namaxesha ama-3-4 ngeveki. Nkqu ukuba kwanele ukundinika i-ED / PE combo. Akukho mnandi kwi-ego.
Nangona kunjalo, ndilapha ukuza kuxela ukuba ndiphumelele ngokwesondo emva kokuba ikhawuntari yam ifike kwiintsuku ze-90. Khange ndive ngathi bendime nkqo kodwa ubuncinci ngama-80% + (kwaye ndonele: D), yiyo loo nto ndizokuqhubeka. Ngaphambi kweentsuku ze-90, andinakukwazi ukuma nkqo. Ndingathanda ukunceda nabani na oyifunayo nayiphi na ingcebiso, nceda uphendule okanye u-PM !!!
Ewe izolo ndigqibile iiveki zam ze-8 ngaphandle kwe-PMO kwaye ndalala ngesithandwa sam. Ndahlala nzima kulo lonke ixesha kunye nesondo. Kukho konke mhlawumbi ndihlala nzima malunga nemizuzu engama-25. Andizange ndibe neengcamango zeP ezihamba entlokweni yam kwaye ndandigxile kwimvakalelo kwi-c * ck yam
Ndandifuna ukuya kuyo yonke iSeptemba no-Oktobha ngaphandle kwe-PMO (iintsuku ze-61) kodwa ngobusuku obudlulileyo sasizikhohlisayo embhedeni kunye kwaye ndacinga nje ukuba ihamba kakuhle i-coz kwiintsuku ze-56 ngezobugcisa ukuba i-8 iiveki
Ngokumangalisayo i-orgasm, ebendikhathazekile / ndinemincili ngayo yayidanisa kakhulu. Akuzange ihlale ixesha elide kwaye ndaziva ngathi ayikho enye i-orgasm endakha ndanayo ngaphambili. Kunzima ukuchaza umahluko, yonke into endinokuyithetha kukuba uziva ungena entlokweni yakho xa i-orgasm yayingekho nje. Kufana nokuba bendinentloko ecacileyo njengoko ndize ndaziva ndingaqhelekanga kodwa ndingoneliseki kwaphela. Okwangoku, emva kweeveki ezisi-8, ndicinga ukuba ayothusi into yokuba yahluke kakhulu kunesiqhelo. Ndenza nje uhlobo lokucinga ukuba yeyona nto imangalisayo endakha ndanayo.
Ngapha koko kusekutsha kakhulu ukuba manditsho ukuba oku kuyandisebenzela. Ndisafumana iifoto ezingamanyala entlokweni yam ukuba ndisafumana inkanuko. Ndiza kuhlala kude no-P kunye no-M kunye nefantasy. Ukuba ndiyanikezela kwaye i-MI iya kuyenza imvakalelo kuphela kwaye igcine ingqondo engenanto.
Ukwenza ibali elide lifutshane, umlutha wamanyala waqala xa ndandingu-9-10 yo ujonge abafazi abahamba ze kwikhompyuter (i-Intanethi yayingekhawulezi njengokuba kunjalo ngoku) Andizange ndiyazi ukuba i-ED yam ikhula, nangona kwisikolo esiphakamileyo, akukho ntombazana yangempela inokundivusa (kuba ngelo xesha ndicinga ukuba "akayena intombazana efanelekileyo kum"), ngaphandle kokuba andizange ndibukele iifoto okwethutyana, kodwa emva koko ndaye ndaphinda ndabuya umva, umlutha wam waba mbi kakhulu xa ndafumana i-iPod touch yam kwi-18 (Ndingu-20), kwakulula kum ukufihla umlutha kubazali bam, nangona befumene imifanekiso isixhobo kwaye ndaqhubeka "ndifunga" ngekhe ndiphinde ndijonge iphonografi.
Ndifikelele kwinqanaba apho ndinokuhlala khona ngaphambi kokuba ndifumane ulwakhiwo. Kodwa eyona nto yam imbi kakhulu, iphantsi yayimalunga neenyanga ezisi-7 ezidlulileyo, xa ndandibukele ividiyo ekwabelwana ngayo ngesondo (enokubakho apha) kwindawo yokuhambisa iphonografi yasimahla, ndaye ndaqonda ukuba kukho into engalunganga kum xa ndingakwazi nokuba nzima ukuzijula kuye kwaphela. Akukho orgasm, akukho ukulungiswa, akukho ukuvusa, akukho nantoni na.
Ndayeka ukubukela iphonografi kwiintsuku ze-10 emva koko, nangona bendijikeleze usuku lwe-6, konke oko kwakulungile ngaphambi kokuba ndibhaqe i-yourbrainonporn kunye nokudibana kwakhona, eyayingaphezulu kweenyanga ze-3 ezidlulileyo. Ngapha koko, ukulungiswa kwam kwakungcono kakhulu kuba bendithatha i-L-arginine emva kokuba bendithetha ngeentsuku ze-10 kwi-porn kulo nyaka uphelileyo. Andizange ndiyazi nangona ukuba umlutha wobugqwetha kunye nokuhlaziya i-masturbation bekuyeyona nto ingxaki yam ingxaki ye-ED ngexesha lonke, luye lwandichaphazela kwintlalo nakwiindawo ezininzi.
Ngoku ziintsuku ezingama-79 okoko ndiqalise ukuqala kwakhona, kwaye izinto endizenzayo kunye nemithi yasekuseni ziye zanda rhoqo kwaye zomelela, iziphumo ezilungileyo ziye zanzulu ngakumbi okoko ndisandula ukusebenzisa umthetho wokutsala ebomini bam ( malunga neveki edlulileyo), ngoku abantu, amadoda nabasetyhini, bandiphatha ngcono kakhulu ngokuzithemba kwam okutsha kunye nokuzithemba ngokupheleleyo! Ndiye ndaqala nokubonisa isini sam! Ukunyuswa kwam okwangoku akusekho @ 100% amandla, kwaye amandla am apheleleyo akabonakalisi, kodwa baya apho! Ubuncinci ngenxa ye-LOA, bendibetha i-PMO ngokulula ngemini, ngoku ingcinga yokujonga amantombazana ahamba ze kwi-Intanethi ayindenzi.
Mhlawumbi ngekhe ibe yintombi ngoku ukuba ibingeyiyo eyam ye-Porn ebangele i-ED
Ndiyintombi eneminyaka engama-24 ubudala kodwa ndiyakholelwa ukuba ngekhe ndibuntombi ukuba yayingenguye lo nyala wamanyala u-ED endinawo nazo zonke iingxaki zokuzithemba eziza nayo.
Ukuqala kwam ukuba nethuba nentombazana xa ndandineminyaka eyi-17 kunye nebali elide elifutshane, wayehamba ze ebhedini yam kodwa andinakwenza nto ngayo kuba andinakuhlala nzima… inqindi enkulu entle esiswini Uneminyaka eli-17 ubudala. Oko kudibana kwandoyikisa ukuzithemba kwam kubafazi kwaye bendihlala ndisoyika ukuthatha izinto kude nabafazi kuba ndiyoyika ukuba into efanayo izakwenzeka kwakhona. Ndinamathuba amaninzi endiziva ngathi ndixhaswe ngaphandle okanye andizange ndilandele ngohlobo olufanayo lokuzithemba ebendinokuba nalo ukuba bendingenayo loo nkumbulo itshiswe emva kwentloko yam indixelela: “it ' ndiza kwenzeka kwakhona ”.
Emva koko xa ndandineminyaka eyi-17 ndandibukela i-LOT yezononophelo kwaye ngelo xesha andingazi ukuba i-porno ibangela oku kodwa ukususela ngoko ndiye ndaqonda ukuba i-ED yam ibangelwa ngumlutha wokutshatyalaliswa koononophelo ngenxa yokuba enye ixesha ndaya kuhambo losapho kwigumbi lokuhlala ihlobo leeveki ezi-2 apho bendingenakho ukufikelela kulo naluphi na uhlobo lwe-porn kwaye kuba bendisoloko ndisebenzisa iifoto zoononophala andinakukwazi ukuhamba ngaphandle kwayo ... ke andizange ndifake ! Emva kweeveki ze-14 ndiye ndabona ukuba ngequbuliso andinangxaki yokufumana ulwakhiwo oluza kuhlala ngonaphakade kwaye ndinokuhamba ngengcinga yam ndedwa kwi-orgasm enamandla (into endingenakuyenza ngaphambili) kwaye oku kubonakala ngathi kuya kuhlala de ndiqale ukubukela iphonografi kwakhona.
Le yayiyinyani lokuvula iliso kum kodwa ndizamile amatyeli amaninzi ukuyeka ukubukela iphonografi ukusukela ngoko kwaye ndihlala ndibuyelela kwakhona kwaye ndingazange ndigqithe ngaphaya komhla we-14, kodwa ngoku ndiye ndabona ukuba ndineminyaka eyi-24 kwaye ukuba ' Ndihlala ndibuyisela ukuzithemba kwam kwaye ekugqibeleni ndilahlekelwe bubuntombi bam kuya kufuneka ndiyeke ukubukela iphonografi NGOKU! Ngoku ndiyazixelela oku ngalo lonke ixesha ndiziva ndinqwenela ukuza kwaye sisikhuthazo esikhulu kum, kunye nokutyelela le subreddit kunye nokufunda amabali empumelelo enu.
Imbali emfutshane
Ndaqala ukuba neentlobano zesini xa ndandineminyaka eyi-15 ngelo xesha ndandinokuyifumana nanini na nabani na. Ndandinentombi ixesha elide ndisemtsha kwaye sobabini sasonwabile kakhulu ngokuphila kwethu ngokwesondo; Kuze kube namhlanje isondo esona sihle kakhulu. Ekugqibeleni izinto zaphela nathi kwaye kwakubuhlungu kum. Ngeli xesha (mhlawumbi unyaka ngaphambili) amajelo eetyhubhu ze-porn ayesenza amatyala abo.
Ndidinga ukukhomba into enomdla. Andicingi ukuba ndingumlutha ngengqondo yokuba ndichithe iiyure ngosuku ndijonga iphonografi, andizange ndiyenze loo nto. Kakhulu bendiya kuchitha imizuzu engama-30 ukuya kwengama-45, kodwa oko bekungafane kwenzeke. Into endicinga ukuba yabulala ukuqhuba kwam ngesondo kukuba ndiza kuxhomekeka kwi-porn. Ndiya kuba ne-PMO malunga namaxesha ama-5 ngeveki, ngamanye amaxesha kabini ngosuku, ndijikeleza ngevidiyo ukufumana okulungileyo, ~ imizuzu engama-30 ngexesha. Ke ngelixa ingekho qatha njengabanye, ndiyakholelwa ukuba lelona galelo liphambili ekuqhubekeni kwam ngesondo.
Ndandineminyaka engama-20 ubudala nakwikholeji xa ndiqala ukufumana i-ED nentombazana. Ndandisela yonke imini (yayiyimini yam yokuzalwa) kwaye ndayibeka kuloo nto (eyongezwe kuyo). Ngentsasa elandelayo wazama kwakhona kwaye akhonto, ngakumbi kuba ndandisoyika ngento eyenzekileyo phezolo. Njengoko ibali lihamba, iminyaka emine elandelayo yobomi bam besini babephakathi kakhulu. Ndingayifumanela amantombazana kodwa kuye kufuneke ndikhawuleze ndibeke iikhondom, kwaye ndingaziva kakhulu xa ndidibana nentombazana entsha okanye ndichithe ubusuku kunye naye.
Ndaqhubeka kwi-PMO 4 - 5 amaxesha ngeveki ngaphandle kokucinga kabini. Kunokuba ndityhola ukungabikho kwam kwezesondo ekuseleni (okungancediyo, andisaseli kakhulu), ekutyeni, kukungazilolongi, kuxinzelelo. Ndiziphucule zonke ezi zinto, kwaye ewe ndibone ukuphuculwa kodwa hayi kufutshane nokubuyiswa ngokupheleleyo. Emva kokufumana ulwazi malunga nokuqalisa kwakhona ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndizame, kwaye sele ndibona iziphumo ezinomdla.
Ngoko ke uhambo lwam luqala
Ndingumhla we-10 kwaye i-sex drive yam iye yenyuka kwaye yehla. Awunakutsho ukuba ndikwixesha eliphantsi, kodwa kwiintsuku ezithile kuvakala njalo. Ndiziva ndinamandla, kwaye ndingazoli. Ndiziva ngathi ndiyindoda kancinci ngamanye amaxesha, kodwa iyadamba ngokuzilolonga. Ngobusuku bokugqibela ndandiphupha ngesondo sokuqala endikhe ndanayo kwiminyaka apho ndaye ndaguqukela ngokupheleleyo kwintombazana endiyithandayo. Bendihleli ecaleni kwakhe ndibukele imovie kwaye bendinxile luthando ndavele ndaya kuyo, into ebendingazange ndiyive okoko ndineminyaka engama-20. Owu, kwaye intombazana leyo yayinguTina Fey.
Ukubuyiselwa kwi-ED, sinokuqiniseka ngakumbi ngokubanzi.
Ndiqale ijenali ngo-Epreli kodwa ndandingalunganga ngokuzigcina zihlaziyiwe. Ukusukela ngo-Epreli 3rd andikhange ndibukele iphonografi kodwa ndiye ndaphulula amalungu esini kwaye ndazivalela emva kwenyanga yokuqalisa kwakhona. Emva kweenyanga ezimbalwa ekuqaliseni kwakhona ndaqaphela ukuba inqanaba lam lokuzithemba lalikhula kwaye uxinzelelo lwaluncinci (imbali ende noxinzelelo).
Kutshanje ndibone intombazana kwaye ngesiqhelo bendiya kuba nexhala malunga nokwabelana ngesondo kwaye ndinengxaki yokubeka iikhondom okanye ukungxamela ukufaka ukuze ndingalahleki. Kwimpelaveki ephelileyo (enokubangela ukuqala?) Undinike imisebenzi emibini yokubetha endinomdla kakhulu kuyo, konke awayenokwenza yayikukusondela ku-dick wam kwaye yayiza kuphendula kumnwe wakhe. Ngoku, namhlanje salala ngesondo okokuqala kwaye ndandingakhathazeki konke konke ngendlela endiza kwenza ngayo, ndaziva ndiqinisekile ngakumbi kwaye ndazi ukuba ukuqala kwakhona kuyasebenza. Ngokuqinisekileyo, akukho micimbi yekhondom, akukho xhala kwaye walala ngesondo. Wayifuna kwakhona kwiiyure ezimbalwa kamva kwaye AKUKHO micimbi.
Andizukutsho ukuba ndibuyile ngoku kwaye ndifunde iingxelo ezininzi apho izinto zisaya kuba ngcono emva kweenyanga ezi-5 ukuya kwezi-7 zokuphinda zibuyele kwakhona. Ngoku ndijonge phambili ekubeni izinto zibe ngcono, kodwa okwangoku ndonwabile kakhulu.
Ndiyathemba ukuba oku kukunceda abanye benu abantu, hlala nokuqalisa kwakhona.
Iintsuku ezingama-48 ziphinde zisete- umzimba wam uphendule ngendlela eyahlukileyo kwisini nakwi-PMO
Ndiqale i-nofap ngezizathu ezintle eziqhelekileyo. Ndabona intetho yeTED, ndatyelela i-YBOP kwaye ndaqonda ukuba ezininzi iingxaki zam ze-ED kunye neengxaki zobudlelwane zibangelwa ukuhluma rhoqo kwiminyaka yokugqibela ye-20 + (Ndingu-36).
Ngeli xesha ndahlala malunga neentsuku ezingama-40 ngaphambi kwe-PMO. (Ndiseta kwakhona ngoku, ke ukuba ibheji yam isathetha ama-48, ukuseta kwakhona akukenzeki). Ngaphambi kokusetha kwakhona ndafumana le miphumo ilandelayo:
- Ukwandiswa okukhulu kwamandla kunye ne-libido
- Emva kweveki yokuqala, ukuphuculwa okuqhubekayo kunye nemiba ye-ED
- Emva kweveki ezimbini, ukunyamalala kwemicimbi ye-ED
- Umgca omfutshane malunga neentsuku ze-5 kwindawo ethile ngeveki yesithathu
- Ukuzithemba okwandayo (nangona bendisithi ukuba i-ED iya kuba bhetele-ndandingasoyiki ukuthatha umfazi ekhaya ndingakwazi ukwenza)
- Kufumene kulula ukujonga abantu emehlweni kwaye ubambe amehlo abo
Eyokugqibela yayiyeyona imangalisayo. Ndandihlala ndikulindele konke oko kusekwe kwinto endiyifundileyo kunye nengqondo, kodwa ndaye ndalahla izinto ezininzi "ngoku ndingumazibuthe wesini!" Kwaye "ndiyabava abafazi abaphuma kumgama oziimayile kude!" iintlobo zamabango amakhulu. Kodwa ndabona umntu ekhomba into yokudibana kwamehlo kwiiveki ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo kwi-nofap, kwaye yayiyinyani ngokuqinisekileyo kum.
Nangona kunjalo, ndandisebenza ngesondo ngeli xesha. Khange ndibelane ngesondo kwi-8 yokuqala okanye kwiintsuku ze-9, kodwa ke ndaqala ukulala ngesibini amaxesha ngeveki ixesha lonke. Ukusebenza kwam ngokwesondo ngokuqinisekileyo kwakuphuculwe. Bendingasakhathazeki rhoqo malunga nokuphulukana nokwakhiwa kwam ukuze ndithathe ixesha lam. Konke kwakumnandi ngakumbi, nako. Khange ndihlale xesha lide, kodwa ibingengxaki, kuba bendihlala ndihlala kakhulu Kwakude kudala kwaye ngoku bendiza kuhamba malunga nexesha elifanelekileyo leyona ndawo (bekukho mhlawumbi ukuba ndize ngokukhawuleza, kodwa kwakulungile-saphinda salala ngesondo emva nje).
Ekugqibeleni ndabuya. Andizukukuzalela ngeenkcukacha, kodwa yayiqhelekile. Ndayeka umlindi wam ndaza ndaya kwi-PMO kathathu okanye kane ngaphezulu kwekhosi malunga nosuku.
Into ephambeneyo kum yayiyeyona nto yahluke ngayo isiphumo esivela ekutshintsheni kunokuba sasivela kwisini. Xa ndalala ngesondo, ndaziva ndonelisekile emva koko, kwaye ndonwabile, kodwa inkanuko yam yesondo yabuya ngokukhawuleza. Ndisenawo “umlilo.” Emva kwe-PMO ndaziva ndonelisekile kwaye ndonwabile ngokunjalo (ndithetha nje inyani), kodwa inkanuko yam yesondo ayibuyanga. Ndandinomnqweno we-PMO engaphezulu, kodwa umlilo wawungasekho- bendinamandla amancinci, i-libido esezantsi, umtsalane omncinci kubafazi, amandla amancinci, njl.
Sele phantse iveki kwaye izinto ziqala ukubuyela apho bezikhona ngaphambili, ngombulelo. Ngandlela thile, ndonwabile ukuba ndibuyele umva, kuba kuye kwafuneka ndibone umahluko omkhulu phakathi kwe-PMO kunye nokwabelana ngesondo okwenyani. Ndiyazi ukuba i-PMO ibingandibambanga, kodwa kude kube yile yenzekileyo, bendisahlala ndinoluvo ngasemva kwengqondo yam ukuba izibonelelo endizifumanayo zivela nje ekunciphiseni inani le-orgasms, hayi ukunciphisa inani le-porn kunye ukuphulula amalungu esini. Ndijika, bendingalunganga.
Ndiyazi ukuba inde lento, kodwa bendifuna ukongeza into-ndiyabulela kakhulu ukufumana le subreddit, kunye nani nonke. Iya icaca kum ngoku ukuba ubudlelwane obuninzi obugqwesileyo endibe nabo kwixa elidlulileyo buye basilela kwinxalenye enkulu ngenxa ye-PMO. Ndizifumana ndingatshatanga kwi-36, ayisiyonto imbi emhlabeni, kodwa hayi apho bendicinga ukuba ndiyakuphela khona. Abanye abantu abaze benze njalo. Kubo bonke abantu abangena kule minyaka yekholeji okanye kumashumi amabini eminyaka, zibaleni nithamsanqa. Ngokwenyani sonke kufanele ukuba sizithathe njengabantu abanethamsanqa, nkqu nabadala abadala. Ngamanye amaxesha ndiye ndiqale ukuzisizela kwaye ndizisole ngemicimbi ebangelwe yi-PMO ebomini bam, kodwa ke ndiye ndijonge kwicala eliqaqambileyo- ubuncinci ndikugqibe oku. Kusoloko kukho ixesha lokujika izinto. Ke, enkosi.
tl; dr Ndaye kwi-nofap kwiintsuku ze-40, kodwa ndilala ngesondo. Ukwabelana ngesondo kuya kundishiya ndonelisekile, kodwa inkanuko yam yesini iya kubuya ngokukhawuleza. Emva koko ndafaka, kwaye i-libido yam yanyamalala kwakhona kwaye ndalahleka "ngumlilo" ngokupheleleyo. Kwiveki kamva iyaqala ukubuya.
Iimpawu zokuqala zoNyango: Olo Vuyo
Ndabona i-gf izolo kwaye ngenhlanhla wayesexesha lakhe, ngoko akukho nto ixinezelekileyo. Wandinika isandla kunye no-b-msebenzi, kodwa andizange ndibe. Akukho buhlungu okanye buhlungu, kodwa kuninzi, kakhulu. Ekugqibeleni uyavuya. Ukulungiswa kwam kwakunzima kuye okokuqala ngqa. Esi sizathu esinjalo.
Ngokuqinisekileyo enkulu enkulu yokuqala, ukuphucuka ngokuphawulekayo.
Sele ziintsuku ze-8 okoko ndingu-PMO'd kwaye yeyona ndlela yam inde. Ndenze iintsuku ze-4-7 ngaphandle kwamaxesha ambalwa ngaphambili, kodwa andisaziva isidingo saso kwakhona. Ndonwabile. Ukuzama ukunamathela kuyo. Kodwa andifuni ukukhawulezisa inkqubo yokunyanga…
Gcina u thunyelwe.
Ndithumele apha iqela, kodwa andikaze ndingenise ibhlog. Ndifuna nje ukwabelana nawe ngamanye amava am. Ndicinga ukuba ndiphantse ndayikhotha le nto.
Imvelaphi encinci: Kunyaka ophelileyo (malunga noJuni) ndihlupheke ngenxa ye-ED eyona nto ndiyifumene nayo ebomini bam. Ukusukela ngoko, ndizamile ukuyeka iphonografi ngokuzama ukuyinyanga. Ndiphinde ndabuya amaxesha amaninzi kunokuba ndikhumbula, kodwa njengoko izinto ziqhubela phambili kubonakala ngathi ziya zibangcono.
Ngoku ndiphantse iintsuku ze-90 kwi-reboot yam yakutsha. Ndiziva ndibhetele kunanini ngaphambili.
Amagama ambalwa esithemba, ugqozi, kunye neengcebiso kumntu owenza oku:
1. Kwixa elidlulileyo xa bendizama ukuqala ngokutsha. Ndingasika iikona ezininzi kakhulu. Ndingathatha naluphi na uphawu lwenkqubela njengesizathu sokubuyela kwimikhwa emibi. Umzekelo, le iya kuqala ukuphinda ndizame apho ndikhwebuke ekuphulula amalungu esini ngokupheleleyo. Ukwenza oku kwenza umahluko omkhulu. Kwixa elidlulileyo, bendiza kuthatha iphupha elimanzi njengophawu lokuba izinto zisebenza ngokwesiqhelo, kwaye ndingabuya ndikwabelane ngesondo kunye nokushaya indlwabu. BHALA. Indlela endivakalelwa ngayo ngoku ngoku ngaphambili, akukho thelekisa.
Ndine-orgasms ezimbini kuphela okoko kwaqala oku. Omnye unobangela wephupha elimanzi, kunye nolunye ukudibana ngokwesondo (kwakungekho khondom ngoko andazi ukuba bendizokwazi ukuba neentlobano zesini). Ndiyazi ukuba ngaxesha lithile kuya kufuneka ndibuyele ekuhliseni amalungu esini, kodwa okwangoku ndifuna ukulinda ubuncinci iintsuku ze-100, isihogo mhlawumbi side sibuyele kulo.
2. Andilangazeleli iphonografi. Ngamanye amaxesha ndinama-flashbacks, kodwa andinawo umnqweno wokuphinga okanye ukubukela iphonografi kwakhona. Ngapha koko, ngenxa yohlobo lomsebenzi wam, ngalo lonke ixesha kunye nexesha, ngamanye amaxesha kuye kufuneke ndijonge isini, ngamanye amaxesha inkanuko, ngamanye amaxesha imifanekiso engamanyala. Oku kunempembelelo eyahlukileyo kum kunangaphambili. Andisafumani ukuphambana entlokweni yam. Andisakulangazeleli ukukhangela imifanekiso ezizigidi ezifanayo, kwaye okona kubaluleke kakhulu, andisabambeki kwilog enyanzelekileyo yokujonga iphonografi kunye nokuzihlambalaza kuyo iiyure ezininzi ngexesha.
3. Uninzi lweendlela zam zokuziphatha ezinyanzelekileyo zanyamalala ngokupheleleyo. Ngaphandle koononophala, omnye umlutha omkhulu weencwadi. Andisenamnqweno wokuthenga ii-comics, kwaye ndinomnqweno omncinci wokuzifunda. Kuyothusa ngokwenene ukuba phakathi kwabahlobo bam beencwadi ezihlekisayo kunye nokuqonda ukuba yeyiphi inkcitho yexesha. Ndikumda wokuthengisa mhlawumbi ingqokelela yam ngexesha elithile. Ewe kunjalo, kunokwenzeka ukuba ndirhweba ngomlutha omnye komnye, kuba ngoku ndinomdla wokubhloga, kodwa ubuncinci kukuzonwabisa okunempilo, kwaye oko akubizi mali.
4. Ndiyaqala ukufumana uninzi lwezinto endiza kuzilungisa, ndikhwele uloliwe kusasa. Kwiveki emva kokudibana kwesondo okukhankanywe apha ngasentla, ndaziva ngathi ndinakho ukuba nesondo esiseqhelweni. Andinakulinda ukufumana iqabane elizimisele ukuvavanya le ngcinga.
5. Ngokwasemphefumlweni, okwangoku andiziva ndizinzile ngenxa yezinye iingxaki ebomini bam, kunye nokunyuka kokuzithemba okunokuthi kufike kwangoko ekuqaliseni kwakhona kubonakala ngathi kuhambile. Ukwahlukana kuphela okuqinisekileyo ndivakalelwa ngoku ngaphambili kukuba xa ndiziva ndiphantsi, andizange ndive nomnqweno wokujonga iifoto zoononophala ukuze ndizive ngcono. Ngamanye amaxesha ndiziva ndinqwenela ukuphulula amalungu esini ukuze ndizive ngcono, kodwa ayikhe ibe yinto eyoneleyo yokuba ndinikezele.
6. Impembelelo yokuleqana ibonakala iyinto yexesha elidlulileyo. Ndinephupha elimanzi kwaye ndakwazi ukulawula ngokulula umnqweno wokuqala ukuphinda ndihlaziye kwakhona. Ndidibene nentombazana, kwaye andiziva ndifuna ukujonga iphonografi.
7. Xa ndicinga ngesondo kwaye ndicinga malunga nokuhlangana okwenene ngokwesondo kunye nabasetyhini bokwenene. Kwaye xa ndisiya esidlangalaleni ndiye ndithathe ingqalelo enkulu yobuhle babafazi. Kwaye ukuvusa endikufumanayo akufani nokugcwala i-porn-buzz eyayingeyiyo inkanuko yesini, kodwa umnqweno wokubuyela emva kwescreen sekhompyuter kunye neebhlukhwe zam ezijikeleze amaqatha am.
Yiyo yonke into endinokucinga ngayo ngoku. Ndiyathemba ukuba oku kuyakunceda umntu aphume. Ngelixa ndenze inkqubela phambili kunyaka ophelileyo, andinakuthi ndiyazi ngokwenyani ukuba ukuqala kwakhona kwakunjani de kube lelona linge lakutshanje. Uvavanyo lweasidi nangona kunjalo luya kuba nakho ukwenza isondo xa kufika ixesha. Ndiza kunazisa abantu xa kusenzeka.
I-LINK -Ikhupha ikhululekile malunga neveki ezintandathu; vuyiswa ngu kuphinda
Malunga neenyanga ezintathu ezidlulileyo, andiphumelelanga ukuba ne-erection eyaneleyo yokungena kumfazi wam othandekayo. Kudala ndandihlangabezana nesidanga esithile se-ED kubomi bam bonke bokulala ngesondo, kodwa ayikaze ibe namatyala ngokupheleleyo. Ngalo lonke eli xesha bendixinezelekile, ndididekile kwaye ndiziva ndingenamandla.
Ndiqalise ukwenza uphando, kwaye ekugqibeleni ndade ndafumana ezinye izinto kwinto engcolileyo eyenzayo kwingqondo yakho. Ndifunde ukuba ngokusisiseko, ukusebenzisa i-porn yayikukhetha ukunikezela ngento yokwenyani. Ndiye ndaphelelwa ngumnqweno wokuyibukela. Ngamanye amaxesha ndiyayinqwenela, kodwa ndakuba ndenze isigqibo sokuyekela kwihlabathi lam eliqobayo, ezo zinyanzeliso ezazindibambe iminyaka ziye zaphelelwa kukuzibamba.
Ukuchacha kwam kwakungafezekanga. Ndayibukela iphonografi kwakhona ngesiqhelo, kodwa andizange ndiyilibale. Ndake ndalala ndalala kanye, ndamisa kanye xa ndivuka. Kwaye ndabelana ngesondo kunye nenkosikazi yam kwaye ndenza ngesandla ngesandla ngokuzama okukhulu kabini ngexesha lam lokufumana iiveki ezintandathu, zombini ukuya ekuqaleni. Iingxaki ezifanayo ze-Ed zimbini zombini amaxesha, nangona zingalunganga njengakwiintsuku zamva nje.
Kwiintsuku ezintandathu ezidlulileyo, ndaya kwikhefu leentsuku ezintlanu ngaphandle komfazi wam ukuya kutyelelo losapho lwam. Izolo ebusuku, sinomfazi wam sibuye kunye kwimibhiyozo yethu yeKrisimesi. Ndinee-mast erections phantse lonke uhambo oluya ehotele yethu. Xa ekugqibeleni safika apho, salala ngesondo, kwaye andinayo i-ED nantoni na. Siphazanyisiwe, nangona kunjalo, khange sigqibe, sayolala. Namhlanje, saphinda saya kwakhona kwaye ndaphinda andabinayo i-ED, kwaye ngeli xesha sobabini sigqibe ukonwaba. Bekufanelekile.
Ukutshintsha kwemozulu, amathandabuzo, iminqweno… konke kufanelekile. Ndiziva ndonelisekile ngam, ubudlelwane bam, kunye nenkosikazi yam ngeendlela endingenayo ngaphezulu konyaka. Yiya kwi-porn mahala. Uya kuyithanda.
Ndafika kwiintsuku ze-90, andikaze ndizingce ngam. Ndicinga ukuba le yeyona mpumelelo inkulu ndiyenzileyo ukuza kuthi ga ngoku ebomini bam. (LINK)
Ndiye ndazigcina ndixakekile ndisebenza, ndifunda, ndenza izinto endizithandayo, ndenza enye into ngaphandle kokucinga ngesondo / ukufakela xa ndifumana izibongozo. Ukususela ngoko, akukho ED! Ndiye ndaqala nokwenza inyathelo lokuqala kumantombazana, ndiziva ndizithembe ngakumbi. Andicingi ukuba idityaniswe ngokuthe ngqo kwi-nofap, kodwa kwinto yokuba ndigqibe kwelokuba ndizikhathalele kwaye ndenze utshintsho ebomini bam.
Ke kuni nonke nina bafana baqala nje okanye abangaphantsi kweentsuku ezingama-30, musani ukunikezela! Isiphumo sikufanele oko. Impilo yakho kunye nokuzithemba kwakho kuxhomekeke kuyo!
Isihloko kakhulu sithi yonke into. Uninzi lwabantu abafuna ukwazi ngakumbi:
27 M. Ndandiphezu kwam. Ndilunge kakhulu ekukhetheni / ekukhuphukeni kunye nabasetyhini (iwebhusayithi enkulu nonke ekufuneka niyijongile ischchch.com, uncede umdlalo wam kakhulu, ukuba ufunda inqaku elinye nje funda eli malunga nokuthumela imiyalezo). Ngaphezulu konyaka bendisoyika ukuya ekhaya naba bafazi ngenxa yokoyika ukuba i-dick yam ayizukusebenza. Ngokucacileyo wonke umntu olapha unokuziqonda ngoluvo lubi. Xa sasingabelani ngesondo, amaxesha amaninzi emva kwemizamo emininzi kwiintsuku ezahlukeneyo, ekugqibeleni ndandiwasika ebomini bam ngenxa yeentloni. Baninzi abafazi abakhulu endinokuba nabo ndakhulisa ubudlelwane obuhle kunye ukuba bekungenjalo.
Kwiiveki ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo ndiyeke iphonografi ngokupheleleyo, ndinqumle ukuphulula amalungu esini, ndizama ukuziphazamisa ngalo lonke ixesha ndinazo naziphi na iingcinga "ezingamanyala", kwaye kule mpelaveki kuye kwabonakala kusebenza kwinqanaba elithile. Ndonwabe kakhulu yilento ndingakhala. Andizange ndijonge iifoto kwakhona. Yityhefu yengqondo.
Ngapha koko enkosi kwakhona dudes. Ndiyayithanda ngenene inkqubo yenkxaso kule ndawo. Andiqondi ukuba ndisekupheleni kohambo okwangoku (bendinomnqweno omncinci wokujonga iphonografi namhlanje) kodwa ubufazi bokwenyani obususa i-dick yakho ngokuqinisekileyo sisikhumbuzo esihle sokuba yintoni injongo apha. Ukuba kukho nabani na onemibuzo ndiyakonwabela ukuyiphendula.
Ndiyathanda le forum, ngoko ndiya kuxelela inkqubela yam yokugqibela. Ngo-Epreli ndakwazi ukwenza Iiveki ze-8 zokubuyiselwa kwakhona kwaye imeko yam yayiyinene. Impilo yengqondo kunye nempilo yayimangalisa.
Kodwa ngo-Agasti ndaqala ukubukela i-porn kunye nokuphonyula kwakhona. Namhlanje imeko ibubi kangangokuba ndiphinga i-3 ngemini kunye noonopopayi.
Yingakho ndiya kwenza iiveki ze-10 zimise ukuze ngiphilise le ngxaki. Ndiza kufaka apha inkqubela yam. ananda76111
Ngamanye amaxesha i-sex drive yam ivakalelwa ngendlela efanayo xa ndandineminyaka eyi-14; Andikaze ndibenamandla anje kule minyaka ingama-20 idlulileyo, ngaphandle kwaleyo yam yokugqibela ye-no-fap ye-54 yeentsuku. Ukuba sithathela ingqalelo ukuba isizathu sam sokujoyina i-no-fap yayiyi-erectile i-dysfonction yam (ukungakwazi ukufumana ulwakhiwo neqabane elabelana ngesondo) iziphumo ziyathembisa… http://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/2d9mq9/ 3_iiveki_21_iintsuku_nofap /
Ndiye ndaphinda ndaphinda ndaqala kwakhona kuba kusenokwenzeka ukuba ndimatsha ndibuyele endleleni. Kodwa ndadibana nale ntombazana izolo, ndicinga ukuba ndikwicala elisezantsi ndikwazile ukufumana ulwakhiwo olomeleleyo kwaye ndadibana ne-blowjob eyinto endingazange ndayenza ngoncedo lweViagra ke linyathelo elikhulu ngokwenene.
Kodwa ndicinga ukuba ndikwi-flatline andiyixabisanga kangako njengoko bendicinga kodwa ndiza kufunda ukuba le yinxalenye yenkqubo? Nokuba yeyiphi indlela evuya kakhulu kwaye ndiyathemba ukuba lo ngumqondiso wezinto ezizayo! Enkosi!
Heyi bafana, nantsi ingcaciso yam yesiqingatha sempumelelo- isizathu sokuba ndiyibize ngokuba sisiqingatha sempumelelo kukuba kuye kwacaca kum ukuba iingxaki zam ze-ED zinemithombo emibini eyahlukeneyo, enye isuka kuxinzelelo ngokubanzi kwaye enye isuka kwi-PIED. Ndiyazi engqondweni yam ukuba yintoni ebangele imiba yoxinzelelo ngokubanzi kodwa i-PIED inokuba negalelo kuyo.
Ngoku ukuya kwicandelo le-PIED bc ndiqinisekile ukuba yile nto unomdla kuyo. Ngokwenene ndibone izibonelelo ezintle ngokwenza i-5 mini reboots. Ndenze i-21,21,35,31 kunye ne-38 yeentsuku zokuqalisa kwakhona. Okwangoku ngomhla onje nge-4 yento endiyathemba ukuba iza kuba kukuqala kwam kokugqibela (bendikhe ndatsho ngaphambili, kodwa ndinesizathu esitsha). Ukunyaniseka, ukusuka kumbono we-PIED, ndicinga ukuba ndi-95% yonyango.
Ukomelela kwam kusisidenge ngendlela elungileyo. Ngaphandle kweentsuku ndiziva ngathi ndicacile engqondweni, ndinokunyanzelisa ukulungiswa kwengcamango, ukuphakama nokuhambahamba kwaye kuya kuthatha imizuzu eyi-2. Ngeentsuku xa kunganyanzelekanga ukuba ndivuke kwakusasa, ndiza kuhlala ndilele ekuseni ndicinga nje kangangeyure kwaye ndilungiselele ixesha lonke-ewe iyure, iintsuku ezininzi zilandelelana, kwaye ndiziva ndilungile. Kananjalo, nangaliphi na ixesha xa ndiziva ngathi ixhala lam lisezantsi okanye lihambile, ndiziva ngathi lirhamncwa lokwabelana ngesondo - eneneni horny, ndinazo iimoto zesini endingenazo kwiminyaka.
Molo, ndingu-48 kwaye bendiphulula amalungu esini kwimifanekiso engamanyala kunye ne-Intanethi kangangeminyaka emininzi kunangaphambili! Ndiyakuphendula njengoko uninzi lwabafana abalapha bancinci kakhulu kwaye ndicinga ukuba ikhwelo into abahamba kuyo lulwazi oluxabisekileyo kubo bonke abantu ngamanye amaxesha umntu omdadlana kunokuba ngumdlalo osondeleyo kwinto ohamba kuyo. khumbula, ukuba sikule nto iminyaka eli-10 kunye nokulindela ukubuyela kwakhona kwiinyanga ezi-3 sinethemba lokutsho okuncinci. Akukho phethini apha okanye ifomula. Ezinye zeenyanga ezintathu zinokuyenza kodwa kwabanye kuya kuthatha ixesha elide.Kwaye ndaya kwimodi yokurhoxa kwaye ndaziva ndinyanisile ngathi ndiza kuphuma kwiziyobisi malunga neeveki ezi-2 (ayisiyiyo eyokuba ndiyazi ukuba kunjani!). Ndandicaphuka, ndinentloko, ndinomsindo, ndibuhlungu njl njl. Emva kwenyanga ndaya ndaza ndaza ndaphinda ndahlala kwakhona kwiiveki ezimbalwa. Akukho mdla kwaphela kuyo nayiphi na into eyabelana ngesondo. Ndacinga ukuba ipenisi yam iyekile kwaye yahamba. Ngasekupheleni kwenyanga ye-3rd ndaqala ukubona nokuziva izinto ebendingenayo iminyaka emininzi. Ukulungiswa kwasekuseni, ukulungiswa ngaphandle kwesizathu emini njlnjl. Konke oku kwandinika ukuzithemba ukuba bendikwindlela elungileyo.Ngoku ndiziinyanga ezi-6 ezantsi komgca kwaye nangona bendinamaxesha ama-2 ukuba ndibuyele umva (enye ibizimisele ukubona ukuba kuya kwenzeka ntoni) ndinokuxelela ukuba ndiyindoda eyahlukileyo kwiinyanga ezi-6 ezidlulileyo. Amandla am abuyile, i-libido yam ibalekile ngokupheleleyo, ngokusisiseko ndiziva ngathi ndiyintombazana kwakhona. I-Porn kunye ne-masturbation yandibetha iminyaka engama-20 kwaye ndandingazi ukuba iyakwenza.Qhubeka uhambe kwaye ungatyhafi. Yonke le nto uziva uqhelekile kwaye ukuba uhlala ekhosini uya kuphuma kuyo.
U-ED uhambe emva kweentsuku ze-12, intombi "iyinyani" kwakhona
(Qaphela wathi-ndingu-24 kwaye ndaqala malunga ne-19 -Uqale kwi-Intanethi emva kwexesha emva kokuba ezokwabelana ngesondo. Yenza umahluko.)
Phantse kwindawo ye-90 yemizuzu esecaleni kwaye ndikwi-upswing emva kokuba ndithe tyaba kwiiveki 3 kunye ne-4. Le yeyona ndlela yam inde kakhulu kwaye ndaye ndakwazi ukulala intombazana amatyeli amaninzi ngaphandle kwengxaki zokumisela (emva kokuba ne-porn ED iminyaka embalwa) phezolo. Umjikelo wokuqala uphele ngokukhawuleza; Iintsuku ezingama-38 zokwakha zenza ukuba kube nzima kakhulu ukugcina ulawulo. Kodwa imijikelo yamva yayimnandi kwaye ndahlala ixesha elide.
Ukuzithemba kwam kunene ngoku kwaye ndinemihlali ebomini. Ndikulindele phambili kwisiqingatha sesibini somngeni!
Bafana, Ndingumfana osemncinci kunye ne-ED ezinzulu eziye zacetyiswa ngokukhawuleza emva kweenyanga ze-4-5 ze-nofap. Nangona kunjalo, iiveki ze-3 ezidlulileyo ndabuya ndaza ndafumana iintsuku ze-4 zokuhamba (i-4 okanye i-5 faps) ngoku ndixinezelekile kwaye ndithwele, kwaye ndabuyela kwi-zero ngokwemigqaliselo kunye ne-libido. Ngoko ke ndicinga ukuba umbuzo wam - ngaba kuthatha ixesha elide ukubuyela emva nje ngeemeko ezinjalo? Ingaba ingqondo yam isoloko ihlala isengozini yokuphulukana ngokukhawuleza ukuba ukuphiliswa okuninzi kunokupheliswa ngokukhawuleza kangaka? Ngaba uyayixabisa ukuba umntu omeleleko angakwazi ukulinganisela kule nto.
ngoko ucinga urere kwi-hardmode?
(Ubudala be-21) NDAHLALA ndihamba nawo onke amaqabane esini endikhe ndanengxaki enkulu yokuyeka. Out of my 20+ abalingane bezesondo kuphela BABINI abaye bandenza ukuba ndigqibe, kwaye babekw ubudlelwane bexesha elide apho besinokuthi siziqonde. Kwakulusizi. Ngokwenyani kuye kwafuneka ndihlale apho ndivale amehlo am ndicinge umjikelezo wengqondo we-porn ukuze ufumane uvuthondaba kunye namasikizi awo. Ngela xesha ndandisebenzisa okanye ndisebenzisa kancinci imizimba yentombi zam ukundinceda ndibaleke.
Ngoku ndilapha.Khange ndigqibe umceli mngeni wosuku lwe-90. Kodwa ndinexesha elide elihle (kum) kwiindawo apho ndakwazi ukuyeka i-PMO. Ngexesha lokulula xa bendinalo iqabane endikwaziyo ukufikelela kulo ngaphandle kwexesha konke konke, ndingakhange ndicinge nge-porn engqondweni yam. Kwakungummangaliso. Yayiyeyona mvakalelo ilungileyo. Akukho xhala malunga novuthondaba = ukusebenza okungcono. Ndikwanamagunya am amakhulu ngokukhawuleza. Ndandiphuma kakhulu, ndithembele ngakumbi .. Ukudibana kwamehlo yayiyinto elula.
Ngaba wayedlala izolo, kwahamba kakhulu!
Ndihleli nentombi yam iinyanga ezi-2 ngoku, ndayeka i-PMO malunga nenyanga eyi-1, ndafumana iziphumo ebezingalindelekanga kunye nomkhuhlane njengempawu kwiveki yokuqala, emva koko ilibido ithe tyaba .. Kudala ndinobunzima bokuba nezinto ezintle xa siza kuyenza ngenxa yoxinzelelo kunye neminyaka yam yokusebenzisa iphonografi.
Ndabona kwakhona ukuxhalaba xa siza kukwenza, kodwa izolo andinayo nayiphi na inkxalabo kwaye sayenza ngamaxesha e-3, ndandinzima ukuyifumana, kodwa xa ikhona, akukho ngxaki nhlobo !! Kwaye kwakukuhle kakhulu kuthi sobabini, wayengakwazi nokuma imizuzu eyi-15 emva koko oko kwandenza ndazithemba kakhulu kwaye kwandenza ndanexhala ngokupheleleyo!
Kulapho ndaye ndaqonda ukuba i-ED yam ivela kumjikelo obonakalayo we-flatline -> uxinzelelo lwentsebenzo-> flatline kwaye ndicinga ukuba ndiza kuphilisa ngokukhawuleza ngoku ukuba andinaxhala kwakhona, nokuba kusenzima ukuyinyusa okwangoku, iphucule kakhulu kwinyanga ephelileyo.
Ndiqaphele ukuba izinto ekufuneka zindenze ndalungiswa, njengokubona intombi yam kwizithende kunye nezithende eziphambi kwam ngekhe, kodwa izinto zekinky zinako, ke ndiseneengxaki zokurhoxa.
Ndizimisele ukungaze ndibukele i-porn emva kwakhona!
Molweni nonke..Im Teabag kwaye le yeyam inqindi ...
Kulungile… andizukubamba nto kwaye ndiya kuthembeka kangangoko ndinako. Andizifundanga zonke iiposti apha apha ke ezinye zezinto endizoxoxa ngazo zinokukhankanywa.
Kulungile ukuqala ..Umlutha wam kuqala waqalisa ikhaya lam kwi-15 yosuku olunye lomhla ngelixa kuhlambulula. Ndafumanisa i-masturbation kwaye yayingumgubo. Ekuqaleni
Ndiyakhumbula ngokucacileyo. Ndiyakuncwina ngeyure kwaye akukho nto i-ejaculation kodwa ndoloza ukulungiswa nokuvusa. okokuqala ndafunda ukuyenza kwaye ndaqonda oko
ibiyi. Namhlanje kwiminyaka yamashumi amathathu ndikhumbula i-orgasm yam yokuqala kwisitya. Ndiyakhumbula ngokucacileyo ngokwenene. Nokuba uvakalelwa. Kodwa ngelo xesha nje ngiselula, ndandithandwa kakhulu
amantombazana. Ndinamanqanaba aphezulu ezesondo kunye ne-foreplay .Le yayi kunye namantombazana am ubudala ababenomdla kodwa bengafuni ukuhamba yonke indlela ngokungena.
Khange ndinyanzele kodwa nasi isizathu sokuba. Ndingumzi wam sasineendlela ezingamanyala ezazivalwe ngaphandle kwaye ndafumanisa ukuba zisebenza njani iitshaneli. SO emva kokufumanisa
i-masturbation ndandibukela ngokukhawuleza i-pornography. Ndiyona nto inani lamaxesha amaninzi ndiyi-masturbated kwaba ngamaxesha e-6 ngosuku olunye. Oku bekukho konke ngaphambi kweminyaka eyi-18.Kulungile. Sele ndiyifumene le ndlela. khawuleza phambili ndineminyaka eli-18 xa ngoku ndandilala namabhinqa. Ndandivuseleleka ngokwesini kwaye ndine-erections emva koko
Ndingabulala kwanamhlanje (njengobungakanani). Ndiza kuhlala ndikholisa kwaye ndikholisa iqabane lam, kodwa ndingaze. Kwaye kwaba ngesondo kunye ne-ejaculate, eyona yodwa ixesha lokuba ndive ndonwabe. Kodwa iNtloko yelungu lobudoda yam yayingenamvakalelo. Njengomfana osemncinci andizange ndiyazi ukuba kwakunjani ukuziva kwaye kwakuza kubuza ukuba ngaba le nto yayiyiyo ngokwenene ngesondo. Xa ndiqala ukudibanisa ubomi bam bobulili kunye noononophelo xa ndandidla ngesondo ndiza kucinga ukuba le nto yayiyi-porn kwaye bendikumdlalo bhanyabhanya.Kwakuza kwakhiwa uhlobo oluthile lokuvuselela kwaye kwanceda ndincede xa ndifuna. Yonke into endimele ndiyenze yayikucingayo kwaye yayiza kukhankanya ngokubhekiselele kwingqalelo yobunono.
Nanku ke ndabona into ephosakeleyo ngoluvo ebudeni bam. Ndakudibana ngokungaqhelekanga kunye nesetyhini kwindawo eshiyiweyo. Ndamngena,
njengendoda engumfana andizange ndiyithande iikhondom kwaye ndalala kunye namantombazana angenamava kwaye ndisebenzisa njengemitha yokunciphisa ukuchithwa kwe-STD (osemncinci kum.) Xa ndamngena
Ndandicinga ukushisa kwaye kwakuyinto engazange ndive ngayo ngaphambili. Kwakunzima kwaye kuyamangalisa. Kwafuneka ndiyeke nje kum ukuba ungayi kukhangela ngaphakathi. Ekugqibeleni ndifikelele
ingongoma yokubuya (uyazi ukuba nqakraza ukuziva xa uzi ukuba ulungele ukukhulula). Kwaye kwakucinga ukuba ndilahlekelwe yintombi yam. Kwakukhawuleza kwaye kukhulu. Ngokusekelwe kwindawo yam
ngeli xesha emva kokuba sishiye size sihambe ngendlela eyahlukileyo. Andikwazanga ukuhlamba ngoxa ndihamba ngandingaziva ndiziva ekhanda lam intloko. Oku kwakuyinqaba
Kodwa loo nto yayi .. Kude kube ngulo mhla andikaze ndivakalelwe kwakhona. Ndinobudlelwane obuninzi kwaye andikaze ndixelele oku kumaqabane am
ukuba andiyi kuva nto.Bayazi nje ukuba ndithatha ixesha elide kakhulu ukuya kwincinci.Kwakungekho nje ngoku kutshanje apho ndafumana iwebhusayithi yakho ingqondo kwi-pornography loo nto yaqala ukubeka imbono. Ayikwenzi le inde ukuba sele ikho.
Ndandibukela iphonografi kwaye mhlawumbi ikhethiweyo ngamanye amaxesha kabini ngosuku ngeminyaka yokugqibela ye-12-15 iminyaka. Ndagqiba kwelokuba ndifuna loo nto ibuye ndibuye ndize ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiyeke ukubukela i-pornography.
Ngethamsanqa andikufumani kunzima. Ndiyekile phantse inyanga ngoku. Kodwa ngaphambi kokuba ndiyeke ukuyenza ndayenza inyanga kunye kodwa ndaphinda ndaphinda ndabuya… iphi i-horny endinayo
Ukuphinga. Nasi umehluko nangona kunjalo .Ngelo nqanaba andizange ndifune iifostile ukuba ndivusiwe ndingasebenzisa ngokwenene ubudlelwane besetyhini ebomini bam bomntu ukuba ndihambe endaweni yokubukela
abangaziwayo balala ngesondo. Ivakalelo kwintloko yam i-penis yaziva ihluke kakhulu kwaye ikhululekile. Ndiyakwazi ukuziva ukuba kukho into ehlukileyo. Ndiye ndivavanya mna
kunye neewebhusayithi endizifumanayo ezihlaziyiweyo kunye nezinto ezintsha ezingamanyala. Andizange ndinqwenele ukuphulula amalungu esini okanye ndiqhubeke nokubukela. Kufana nengqondo yam yathi… Awusayifuni le nto nokuba ndibona iphonografi ingumfanekiso nje kwaye andifumani vuselelo kuyo. Endimdala ngendiye ndangena ngaphakathi. Ndiyaqhubeka ndifumana i-horny kunjalo kodwa iingcinga zam ngokwenyani aziveli kwihlabathi lamaphupha.Andiqondi ukuba akukho apho ndikulungeleyo ukuhlangana ngesondo apho ndikwinkqubo yokulungisa iminyaka yomonakalo .. Nangona ndiyazi ukuba andindedwa… ndiyathemba ukuba oku kuyasebenza…
EWE! Yiyo kanye kanye le bendiyenza kwaye ndiye ndaphumelela kodwa ndibuye ndibuyisele umva kum. Ndiva isiluleko esincinci ngokubonelela kuba ndandibukela i-porno kwaye ndenza i-masturbated kabini kwiiyure ezi-2 ezidlulileyo, kodwa isiluleko esilungileyo kungakhathaliseki.
Ndinengxaki efanayo, ikakhulu i-ED kwaye ngakumbi ukunqongophala kwesondo kwi-porn engaphaya kunye / okanye ukuphulula amalungu esini. Into eyandincedayo (njengokulungisa ingxaki iphela) yayikukuphulula amalungu esini ngaphandle kwe-porn KUNYE ngaphandle kokucinga. Kancinci, ngokwasemphefumlweni, ujonge nje nakweyiphi na into ekucimayo. Isixhobo sam sokhetho yidick yam, kodwa ungenza nantoni na oyifunayo. Hlikihla kulezo zingono kwaye uvuselele iesile lakho ukuba yile nto ikususayo. Andiqinisekanga ukuba uyizamile le nto, kodwa ukuphulula amalungu esini ngaphandle kwemfesane yinto endiyenzileyo, ukuyenza kancinci kancinci nangokwasemphefumlweni, ngokuyimfuneko ukuyenza malunga nokuziva ucocekile ngokwasemzimbeni ngesondo sakho kunokuba uyiphupha.
Ngoku ndisebenzisa i-lotion kwaye ndizama ngeendlela ezahlukeneyo kunokuba ndiye ngqo phezulu nasezantsi ekubambeni ukufa. Ndigcina amehlo am evulekile kwaye emhle kakhulu, kwaye ndiyazi ukuba oku kuvakala kuyothusa / kusile / kuyothusa / nantoni na, nkqo ujonge kwindawo yam. Ndiyathetha ukuba akufuneki ukuba kugcwele ukukhanya, kodwa kuyandinceda ndigxile kwisini sam kwaye HAYI komnye umfazi okanye kwimeko endinokucinga ngayo. Xa ndiqala ukwenza oko malunga neeveki ezi-2 ezipheleleyo (ndenza ~ 1 i-masturbation yonke imihla okanye i-2, andiqinisekanga ukuba kubalulekile nangona kunjalo), i-ED yam yaphiliswa / ilungiswe kwaye i-sex drive yam yahamba phezu kophahla.
Ngoku ingxaki yam kukuphela koononophala. Andikhumbuli kakuhle xa ndiqala ukubona iziphumo ekuqaleni, ihlala ixhomekeke kubukhali kunye nokuphila ixesha elide lokuzinkcinkca nge-porn. Ndiya kucinga ukuba ndiqalise ukubona ukuphucula kwi-ED yam kunye nokuqhuba ngesondo malunga neentsuku ze-5-8 nangona. Amaxesha endikhe ndakwazi ukuhlala kuwo ndingamanyala oku kuhlala kusebenza kum. Zive ukhululekile ukuphendula okanye ukuthumela umyalezo ngemibuzo / ngezimvo / ngeevers.
Okuhle kodwa!
Ukuphulukiswa koononophelo kuhanjiswe kwi-ED nangona kunjalo ukuhlaziya umzimba
ngumfazi walapha
26days = ezinye zezesondo ezilungileyo!
Ewe ndihambile iintsuku ze-26 ngoku emva kokuhamba nje iveki ngexesha leminyaka, ndiye ndabelana ngesondo esimangalisayo kunye ne-gf yam yeenyanga ze-8, ayimangalisi ngendlela yesitayile se-porn, kodwa ndithanda kakhulu iimvakalelo kwaye ndiziva ndimhle. Besabelana ngesondo i-4 amaxesha kule veki, i-2 yazo yayimangalisa, i-2 yayiyeyona iqhelekileyo nje yokuziva ulungile. Kubonakala ngathi kuphuma ngaphandle kwesondo esimangalisayo. Kodwa eneneni yayikukusilela kwe-porn ukuba ndiqinisekile. Ndizibuze ukuba ingaba ndicinga ukuba yahluke kakhulu kwaye i-gf ayikhange, kodwa kunjalo, gf ukuba yahluke kakhulu kwaye iyamangalisa, eyenza ukuba ngcono. Ke qhubekeka nokukhaba i-porn kwindawo yabantu abanomdla!
Ingxelo yosuku lwe-30 ngemiphumo emihle (post post)
Ubudala be-37 kwaye bendilikhoboka le-porn ngaphandle kokuyiqonda kule minyaka ili-8 idlulileyo.
Ndaqala ukuphonononga ukuphulula amalungu esini xa ndandineminyaka eyi-15 kwaye ndabuya ngaloo mihla ndisebenzisa ukukhanya okuvuselelekayo, ukusuka kwiphepha 3 elangeni ukuya kwiifoto zokuqubha kumaphephandaba aphuma ngeempelaveki. Oku kwakwanele ukuqala ifantasy entlokweni yam amaxesha ambalwa ngeveki.
Izinto ziye zanda ndakube ndisiya e-Yunivesithi kunye neemagazini ezimbalwa ze-Playboy apha naphaya, ezigqwesileyo zaya kwiimagazini ezinzima ngakumbi ngexesha elifanelekileyo. I-intanethi yayingekabi nkulu ngeli xesha kwaye, ngonxibelelwano lwangaphambili lokufowuna, ukufikelela kwiividiyo kwakungabalulekanga ngoko ke ukucinga kunye nokucinga bekubalulekile xa ujonga iifoto kunye nemifanekiso. Ngokunjalo, iphonografi yayifumaneka kuphela kumatshini wedesktop okwangoku ukuze ndikwazi ukufikelela kuwo amaxesha ngamaxesha ngeveki xa ndinendlu kum.
Ndicinga ukuba ndandimalunga ne-22 xa ndingaqala ukukhuphela iividiyo, kodwa ekuqaleni yayilixesha nje elininzi evekini kwaye mhlawumbi sisiqendu sesibini se-10. Oku kwaqhubeka iminyaka eliqela de ndafudukela kwenye indawo ndisebenza e-29, ndathenga iflethi yam yokuqala ndaza ndaqala ukuhlala ndedwa. Isilingo sokugoduka, ndivale umnyango kwaye ndizicwilise kwi-porno saba sikhulu kakhulu. Andizange ndazi ukuba le nto yayingumlutha - ngelo xesha yayiyinto endifuna ukuyenza.
Andizange ndive ngathi ndilahlekile kubomi bezentlalo okanye kubudlelwane njengoko bendinomsebenzi oxakeke ngokwenene kwaye bendonwabile ukuba sekhaya emva kweentsuku ezili-10 ngosuku. Kodwa ekuhambeni kwexesha 'i-wank ekhawulezayo' yajika yaba yiseshoni yemizuzu engama-90 kunye neevidiyo ezininzi ekuhambeni - andisakwazi ukubuyela kwindawo enye kwaye ndifuna abafazi abaninzi ukuba bafumane naluphi na uhlobo lokukhaba. Ukufika kwe-iPad kunye ne-iPhone kwenza izinto zibe mandundu.
Malunga neminyaka engama-33 ndandineentombi ezimbalwa ezingaqhelekanga kwaye ndaqaphela ukuba akukho namnye kubo owayendiguqula- 'ndandisele ndifile' izihlandlo ezininzi kwaye ndaqala ukubuza ukuba ndingumlingani na, nangona ndingazange ndafumana indoda enomtsalane okanye ebekhe wakhangela kulo naluphi na uhlobo lwe-porn ye-gay. Ekugqibeleni ndibubekile phantsi ixhala okanye utywala kwaye ndaqhuba njengesiqhelo.
Kwakungekadluli iiveki ezine ezidlulileyo, xa ndadibana nentombazana endiyithandayo ndaza ndayithanda ibhulukhwe, ndaye ndaqala ukuphanda ngemicimbi yam ngokweenkcukacha. Njengoko ndilele apho kunye naye kwaye ndinamava okufa okufileyo kangangeyure, wayenomsindo kwaye ecinga ukuba andimthandi, kodwa akukho nto inokuba yayiqhubeka inyani. Oku kundinike isundulu endilifunayo ukuze ndifumanise ukuba yintoni ingxaki kwaye ndabona ubuchopho bakho kwiwebhusayithi ye-porn. Ngokukhawuleza yonke into icofa kwaye ndazi ukuba kufuneka ndenze utshintsho - bendine PIED kwaye bendixinekile. Yayize njani le nto?
Ukusukela okokugqibela 'ukufa kwabafileyo' amava kwiiveki ezine ezidlulileyo bendinayo 'iphonografi ayisiyiyo indlela' kunye neentsuku ezingama-30 ndingenamnqweno wokubuyela kwindlela endandiyiyo. Amava okugqibela okothusayo andinike inkuthazo endiyifunayo ukuze ndivume ukuba ndinengxaki - umlutha. Ndiva ngathi ndivukile ephupheni elibi kwaye andinakulinda ukuyoyisa kwaye ndiqale ukuphila kwakhona.
Iiveki enye, ezimbini kunye ezintathu ze-PMO zonke zidibaniswe kwixesha leentsuku ezingama-21 zokulala, inkungu yengqondo kunye neentloko zentloko kunye neempawu ezibandayo kunye nomkhuhlane. Ndaziva ndibuhlungu kakhulu ngalo lonke ixesha, kodwa ndinomnqweno wokujonga iphonografi. Njengoko benditshilo, bendinayo 'iphonografi ayisiyiyo inketho' kwasekuqaleni kwaye ndizixelele ukuba andinguye lo ndinguye. Ndijolise kumntu endifuna ukuba nguye kwaye ndiziphosa kwisondlo kwaye ndisebenze, izinto ezimbini ezinkulu kum. Ngombulelo i-porn ayikhange ichaphazele umsebenzi wam, oqhubeka uqhubeka kakuhle, kwaye bendihlala ndisebenza rhoqo kwaye ndidlala imidlalo. Kodwa ndiye ndaphepha ubudlelwane okoko nje ndikhumbula, ndingazi ukuba iphonografi yayitshintshile ingqondo yam kunye nembono.
Iveki yesine iqala kwaye ngequbuliso ndiziva ndimangalisa. Akukho nkungu yengqondo kunye nesitshetshe esicace gca. Phantse uNyaka oMtsha kwaye kuninzi endifuna ukukufezekisa-umhlaba yimbatyisi yam. Usuku lokuqala lwale veki ndisiya kwindawo enkulu yokuthenga. Ndihlala ndikuthiyile oku, kodwa ndikonwabele ukunxibelelana nabo bonke abancedisi bokuthengisa. Ndiziva ndilungile kwaye ndikhangelwe ngabafazi abane abajonga kwicala lam, ndirhangqa iinwele zabo njlnjl. Bendicinga ukuba ndiyacinga, kodwa kuyenzeka ngokuqinisekileyo. Andikaze, ndiqaphele oku ngaphambili kwaye kukho abathandekayo, abafazi abamangalisayo kuyo yonke indawo. Ndiziva ndiphila, ngaphezulu kunangaphambili.
Ndiyothuswa ngokumangalisayo kwiintsuku ezimbini kunye neeveki ezine ezine-erection enzima. Akukho mnqweno wokujonga iphonografi okanye ukuphulula amalungu esini, kodwa umnqweno wokwenyani wokuba kunye nowasetyhini, ukuze ndizicwilise kunambitha, ivumba kunye namava okuba kunye nomntu. Oku kudlula ngokudibanisa amazinyo am, ukumamela umculo othile kunye nokuhambahamba.
Akunjalo nayiphi na imithi yentsasa ukuthetha ngeveki ezine, kodwa ndiza kuthi ndivuka nge-50% ukuya kwi-80% yokwakhiwa rhoqo ngoku. Olu luphuculo olukhulu njengoko ndingazange ndibenalo naluphi na uhlobo lokuvuselela ezantsi apha ekuvukeni, ubuncinci hayi kwiminyaka emi-5 edlulileyo. Ipenis yam ecekeceke nayo ijongeka intle. Ixhonywe ixesha elide kwaye igcwele kwaye iziva igudile. Ndiziva ngathi ndiyindoda ngenxa yoko. Ilizwi lam lilahle ii-octave ezimbalwa ebendingazilindelanga kwaye zinzulu ngokubonakalayo.
Ndiza kuphinda ndibhale kwakhona njengoko izinto ziqhubeka, kodwa ingcebiso yam emva kweentsuku ze-30 ayizukugxila kwinani leentsuku ozihambileyo ngaphandle kwe-PMO. Ndiyathetha, uza kwenza ntoni xa ubetha iintsuku ezingama-30, ezingama-60 okanye ezingama-90, ubuyela kwindlela ebeziyiyo izinto ngaphambili? Umngcipheko kolo hlobo lweenjongo kukuba uyeke xa uyibetha. Endaweni yokuba ujonge ukuhlala ebomini bakho kwaye ube ngulo mntu ufuna ukuba yiyo yonke imihla kwaye uyenze ngoku. Ziphose kwizinto ozithandayo nakwizinto onomdla kuzo, yenza ixesha lokupheka, ulolonge, uphume uye kunxibelelana nabantu, thetha nabasetyhini kwaye ubuze abambalwa. Jonga phambili hayi ngasemva kwaye ungajongi kwinani.
Ndihlala ndisebenza kwaye ndidlala imidlalo, kodwa ngaphandle kwe-PMO ndibetha izinto ezithandekayo kwindawo yokuzivocavoca veki nganye kwaye ndenza impumelelo emangalisayo. Ndifuna ukuqala ezinye izinto ezithandwayo ngoku kuba ndinexesha elininzi elongezelelekileyo ezandleni zam.
Ingcinga yokujonga iphonografi iyandigxeka ngoku njengoko ndibone kuqala into enokuyenza kubudlelwane. Ayisiyonyani kwaye ungamosha ubomi bakho ngokwenza uthando kwisandla sakho. Vuka ngoku, qala ngokuphila kwaye uphuhlise ubudlelwane bokwenyani.
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