I-intanethi ye-intanethi ihluke njani kwi-porn yexesha elidlulileyo?

I-intanethi ye-intanethi iyakwazi ukukhokelela ekugqithiseni ukudlula i-porno yexesha elidlulileyo"I-intanethi ye-intanethi ayinakubangela iingxaki kubasebenzisi kuba i-porno ibisoloko ikho ngonaphakade. Ukuba khange isenzakalise ngelo xesha, ayisayi kusenzakalisa nanamhlanje. ”

Ukuvakala kunengqiqo kodwa, eqinisweni, le ngcamango iphosakeleyo. Ixesha litshintshile-kwaye ngoko unobungqina bobugqwetha kunye nendlela yokuziphatheka kakubi kwi-bongo. Ukusasazwa kwe-porn, ukufikelela kwe-smartphone kwaye ngoku i-pornography ebonakalayo konke kwenza kube lula ukugqithisa ubuchopho.

Iphosta yeReddit wabuza, "UNgaba sisizukulwana sokuqala sokugcoba i-left-handed ngenxa yokuba izandla zethu zokunene zikhangela i-pornography?”Ewe, sonke isizukulwana siba yi" ambi-wackstrous "njengokubeka kwenqwelo enye.

Kudala-dala, ukuphulula amalungu esini kufuna iingcinga ezininzi. Yayiqheliselwa eyona nto iyiyo: “Kuqala ndiza kuyenza le… kwaye….” Akusenjalo.

"Ndiyinxalenye yesizukulwana sokugqibela ukuqala ukuphulula amalungu esini ngaphambi kokuba babe ne-Intanethi. Andikwazi ukuqonda ukufikelela kwimbonakalo yazo zonke iintlobo zesondo ngaphambi kokuziva ndinomdla wokuphamba. Xa ndandisengumntwana, sonke sasinomdla wokujonga ii-boobs, kodwa ithuba lavela kuphela ngesihlandlo esinye okanye ezibini ezizukileyo ngonyaka [ngekhathalogu]. Ndiyazibuza ngokunyanisekileyo ukuba ii-tits-tap zichaphazela njani izizukulwana ezizayo.

Kuthetha ukuthini oku kutshintsha? Benzisa i-intanethi ngokugqithiseleyo ngokugqithiseleyo i-videogaming kunezesondo zangempela. Idibanisa i-genes yakho yeNombolo 1 ephambili-kunye nomvuzo omkhulu wendalo (isondo) -kunye nokutshintsha okuhlala kusenzeka rhoqo, okumangalisayo kunye nokumangalisayo kwe "World of Warcraft." Isandla sakho sasekhohlo sisebenzisa uxinzelelo kunye nesantya ngakumbi kunokwabelana ngesondo. Isandla sakho sasekunene sicofa kude "kwimowudi yokukhangela," njengoko amehlo akho ejinga kwiscreen esinye ukuya kwesinye kwaye ukugcuma kugcwalisa iindlebe zakho. Akukho orchestation yokucinga efunekayo.

I-Porn, kunye nendlela esinikwe ngayo kwiibongo zethu, ishintshile. Yabona I-Porn Now and Now: Mkelekile kwiCrain Training (2011).

Awu, iingqondo zethu azikenzi uhlengahlengiso, kwaye oku kunokudala iingxaki ezingalindelekanga:

“Ndineminyaka ndisebenzisa iphonografi. Ndithanda nje ukubukela abantu abelana ngesondo. Ingxaki yam yanda malunga neenyanga ezili-18 ezidlulileyo xa ndifumana i-Intanethi ngesantya esiphezulu. Ngequbuliso, ndaye ndasuka ekubukeni imifanekiso kwi-intanethi, ukuya ekubukeni iividiyo kunye nemidlalo bhanyabhanya ekwi-intanethi kwangoko. Khange ndikhe ndicinge nzulu ngayo, kodwa emva kokubukela phantse yonke imihla-ngamanye amaxesha ndide ndibethe iiyure ukuphela ndibukele iividiyo ezingamanyala-ndaye ndaqala ukubona utshintsho kubomi bam bobulili kunye nomfazi wam. Andizange ndibe neengxaki ze-ED ngokwenene. Kodwa ngoku, nanini na xa mna nomfazi wam siqala ukulala ngesondo, andinakufumana ukulungiswa. Ngamanye amaxesha ndiyifumana, kodwa ngokukhawuleza iqala ukuthamba. Ukwabelana ngesondo yinto engekhoyo kuthi. ”

Omnye umfana:

"Umahluko phakathi kwe-intanethi yanamhlanje kwi-intanethi kunye nakwiminyaka embalwa edlulileyo. Ngoku, ungaya kwiiwebhsayithi ezahlukeneyo kwaye ufumane iphonografi yasimahla kunokubukela xa uyeka umsebenzi wakho kwaye wanikezela ubomi bakho kuwo — konke ngombala ophilayo. Unokukhetha umntwana wakho owuthandayo, nantoni na oyifumana kakhulu, kwaye ubukele ividiyo emva kwevidiyo yayo. Ukuba ubungqongqo buyancipha kwimizuzwana embalwa, okanye uyakruquka kukubukela imizimba efanayo imizuzu emibini ngqo, ungatsiba kwiseti entsha usenza izinto ezintsha. Inokubangela umonakalo omkhulu ekuxabiseni kwakho into yokwenene kunanini na ngaphambili. ”

Ngokuchanekileyo. I-intanethi ye-intlanzi ixhaphaza ngaphezu kwesifiso sesondo kuphela. Iqhuba abasebenzisi ngaphaya I-libido yabo yendalo: Abasebenzisi banokubukela iphonografi kwiifestile ezininzi, ukukhangela ngokungapheliyo, ukujonga ubutsha rhoqo, ngokukhawuleza ukuya phambili kwiibits abazifumanayo zishushu, batshintshele kwingxoxo yesini ephilayo, batshise izibuko zabo ze-neurons ngesenzo sevidiyo okanye i-cam-2-cam, okanye ukunyuka ukuya kuhlobo olugqithisileyo kunye nezinto ezivelisa ixhala. Yonke isimahla, kulula ukuyifumana nge-smartphone, iyafumaneka ngemizuzwana, iiyure ezingama-24 ngosuku, iintsuku ezisi-7 ngeveki, kwaye inokujongwa nakweyiphi na iminyaka. Kule mihla, iyaphuculwa ngokwenyani kunye nezinto zokudlala zesini ezilinganisa unxibelelwano lomzimba.

Sondeza kwingqondo

Yintoni ebangela olu phango lungaqhelekanga? Dopamine. Yeyona nto iphambili kwi-neurochemical emva kokufuna umvuzo. Amanqanaba e-Dopamine yeyona barometer apho sithatha isigqibo (kwaye sikhumbule) ixabiso lalo naliphi na amava. Ayothusi into yokuba, inkanuko yesini inyusa i-dopamine ngaphezulu kakhulu kuneminye imivuzo yendalo.

Uninzi lwabantu lucinga nge-dopamine njenge "buzz," "iswekile ephezulu," okanye ukuqhuba ukuya kwi-orgasm. Ngokwenyani, i-spikes ngokuphendula kwisikhuthazo esihambelana neemfuno zokusinda. Ngu Khuthazo. Isitshela ukuba sisondele okanye siphephe kwaye sinike ingqalelo kuyo. Ngaphezu koko, isitsho yintoni okumele uyikhumbule, ngokunceda ukubuyisela ubuchopho bethu.

I-intanethi ye-intanethi iyenzeka nje ukuba ifake i-spikes ye-dopamine zonke yentshukumisa “ephucukileyo” esathi savela ngayo ukuze sijonge:

  • Imvakalelo enamandla: ngaliswa, Ukoyika, ucekise
  • Inveli: imithombo yokutya entsha, izidlo ezintsha, abatsha abasha
  • Ukufuna no ku khangela: ukuhlola indawo, ukutya okanye amathuba okulinganisa
  • nantoni oko kwaphula okulindelekileyo: bonanzas ezingalindelekanga okanye iingozi

Amagama ama-Erotic, imifanekiso kunye neevidiyo ziye zadlula ixesha elide. Kwakhona kunjalo ukukhawuleza kwe-neurochemical ukusuka kumalungu omtshato. Sekunjalo i-innovative ye-once-month-month playboy ikhuphuka ngokukhawuleza nje xa uvula amaphepha. Ngaba umntu unokubiza playboy okanye iividiyo ezithambileyo "ziyothusa" okanye "zivelisa uxinzelelo?" Ngaba kungaphazamisa ulindelo lwenkwenkwe efunda ikhompyuter engaphezulu kweminyaka eli-12? Awuthelekisi no "phendla nokufuna" kwithebhu ezininzi zikaGoogle.

I-Porn Now And Now Chart

(Cofa ukuze ukwandise isati)

Ibinzana elithi "Ukwahluka sisinongo sobomi" livela kumbongo kaWilliam Cowper (1785) malunga nomfana othandana nentombazana eyahlukileyo veki nganye. Kodwa i-Intanethi yenza ukuba kube lula ukusasazeka okungapheliyo kwesosi yeTabasco ngohlobo lwe iipopamine spikes. Ukukhangela kwam kuGoogle "i-porn" kufunyenwe nje malunga ne-1.3 zigidi amaphepha (ane "Porn for the Blind" kwishumi lam eliphezulu). Ukukhuthaza rhoqo kunokuphazamisa iifayile ze indlela esicinga ngayo, nangaphandle kwemifanekiso ekhulayo. Enyanisweni, uphando olutshanje luye lwabonisa ukuba ukusetyenziswa kwe-intanethi (i-videogaming) inguqu enxulumene neziyobisi.

“Kwaya kusiba kubi. Ndiza kuthatha inkukhu ekhaya kwaye ngamanye amaxesha andinakukwazi ukufumana i-d * ck yam ngenxa yokuba i-porn ibuyisele kwakhona ingqondo yam kwaye yayimisa ukuba ibe ne-5-6 amantombazana ngexesha. Enye intombazana, nangona yayizibonele ngawayo, yayingayenzi loo nto. ”

In 2007, Baphandi base Kinsey babengabokuqala ukuxela iphonografi-eyabangelwa kukungasebenzi kakuhle (i-PIED) kunye noonografi-babangela ukuba libido ephantsi ngokungaqhelekanga. Isiqingatha sezifundo ezifunyenwe kwimivalo kunye neendawo zokuhlambela, apho ividiyo yephonografi "yayihlala kuyo yonke indawo," khange ikwazi ukufezekisa ukwenziwa kwelebhu ukuphendula yevidiyo. Xa ethetha nezifundo, abaphandi bafumanisa ukuba ukukhutshwa okuphezulu zoonografi Iividiyo ngokucacileyo zikhokelele ekuphenduleni okuphantsi kunye nemfuno eyandisiweyo yokugabadela, izinto ezikhethekileyo okanye izinto "zekinky" zokuvuka. Abaphandi bahlengahlengise isifundo sabo ukuze babandakanye iziqwengana ezahlukeneyo kwaye bavumele ukuzikhethela. Ikota yesini sabathathi-nxaxheba ayikaphenduli ngokwesiqhelo. Ukusukela ngoko, ubungqina bukhulile ukuba i-intanethi ye-intanethi ingaba yinto ebalulekileyo kuyo ukunyuka ngokukhawuleza kwimivuzo yesondo.

Kutheni i-dopamine yokuvuselela ihlale ingumlutha? Njengengcali ye-neuroscientist David Linden Ucacisa, amagwegwe okutshaya ipesenti enkulu kakhulu yabasebenzisi kune-heroin, nangona i-heroin inika ukuqhuma okukhulu kwe-neurochemical. Ngoba? Umbuzo woqeqesho lobuchopho. Ukukhuhla nganye nganye kwezi zigarethi zingama-20 ngepakethi nganye kuqeqesha abantu abatshayayo ukuba bayacuba. Ngokwahlukileyo, umntu angadubula kangaphi? Kwikhoboka leziyobisi “yokufunda. "

Kwimeko ye-intanethi ye-intanethi, cinga ngesiganeko esinokoqobo, izinto ezixakekayo okanye ezixhalabileyo, kunye neefowuni ekukhangela uphendu olugqibeleleyo njengothutho, kunye ne-orgasm nje into enamandla. Bobabini baqeqesha ingqondo. Nangona kunjalo, siva kubafana ngaso sonke ixesha kunye no-ED, owenza i-ED, oza kuyeka ukugcoba ukuzama ukuphilisa kunokusilahla i-intanethi ye-intanethi. Bayazi ngokukhawuleza ukuba i-dopamine yokubhobhoza yintoni:

Ndidla ngokucinga ukuba iphonografi yeyona nto ikhuthazayo ibangela ukungasebenzi kakuhle, hayi ukuphulula amalungu esini. Into engaqhelekanga endiyifumanayo malunga nokuzama kwam kukuba ngaphandle koonobumba be-intanethi, andiyiva ngathi i-masturbating. Nangona ndizama, andivuswanga ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndihlaziye. Ingqondo yam ayisacingi ngoku, njengokuba yayisenzeka xa ndandisengumntwana kwiintsuku ezingaphambi kwe-Intanethi. ”

Ukusetyenziswa koononophelo kwanamhlanje kuninzi malunga ne-dopamine hits kunokuba yincopho

I-Dopamine iqhuba yonke into evukisayo, kodwa ukutshintsha ngokukhawuleza kokutshintshisana nokunyusa ukunyuka kwamandla kungumzekelo onamandla kakhulu wokuqeqeshwa kwengqondo kunokuba kunesiphelo sokuhlaziya i-masturbation kwi-orgasm. Yingakho i-erotica ye-intanethi ingenza izilingo ezinamandla kwiibhokhwe ezithile.

Okulusizi kukuba, ubuninzi be-dopamine abalingani. Umyalezo wayo uhlala usithi, "Ukoneliseka kulele kufutshane nekona, ke Qhubeka uhamba! ” Uphando lweziyobisi ekutyeni, ekungcakazeni nakwividiyo ye-Intanethi ibonisa ukuba kuninzi kakhulu dopamine i-numbs impendulo yokuzonwabisa yengqondo. Oku kubonisa ukuba iinkqubo zokulutha zingena ngaphakathi. Ingqondo ebuthathaka ikhokelela kwiminqweno engaphezulu; nkqu nefoto egqibeleleyo ayinakwanelisa. Iphonografi yanamhlanje ayihlangani nje neemfuno zakho; iyazigqwetha.

Ukubukela ukushona kwelanga, ukufaka ikati, nokubukela iqela lakho elizithandayo ayifani neenjabulo ezininzi. Ngokuzonwabisa okuqhelekileyo, ufumana izibonakaliso ze-dopamine kwaye ubuchopho bakho buyabuyela ekhaya-homeostasis. Ngokwahlukileyo, ezinye izinto zinezinto ezinokuthi zenze i-dopamine ixesha elide.

Ewe, kwi-2011 oogqirha beMelika Society of Addiction Medicine ikhishwe ingxelo ucaphula isondo, ukutya kunye nokungcakaza njengezinto ezinokubakho. Zishiya ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo kuzo zonke iziyobisi-nokuba kungotywala, i-heroin okanye isini-ziyafana ngokufanayo. Isazi ngengqondo uPhilip Zimbardo, naye, uye wakhomba kwiingozi zokuba "likhoboka lesini." (Intetho yeTED Ukuditywa kwamaGay?)

Nangona abaselula bayalumkisa malunga ne-intanethi ye-intanethi. Baye bacinga ukuba i-porno ibangela ukunyuka nokudala ukuxhatshazwa ngokwesondo:

"I-porn binges iiyure ezingama-4-6 kwiintsuku ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo. Kwicala lokudibanisa, kuye kwacaca ukuba i-transexual sex porn ayihambelani nesini sam. Emva kokubukela iiyure ze-30 + ngaphezulu kweentsuku ze-5 ezidlulileyo, iphonografi engamanyala yaqala ukuba yindinisa! Ndaqala ukukhangela ezinye izinto, ezenyanyekayo nezothusayo. ”

Iimpawu ze-intanethi zithintela ingqondo ngendlela ekhethekileyo. Ukongeza ekuvuseleleni rhoqo, akukho mda wendalo ekusebenziseni-ngokungafaniyo nokutya okanye iziyobisi. Ukonyuka kuhlala kusenzeka ngenxa yokuba ubuchwephesha bendalo bokungonelisi kwendalo abukhawulezi ngaphandle kokuba kuvuthondaba elinye — elinokuthi lingabi ziiyure. Nokuba kunjalo, abasebenzisi banokucofa kwinto eyothusayo ngakumbi ukuba baphinde bavuke. Kwaye ne-Intanethi ayizukuphela iyenze isebenze inkqubo yobuchwephesha yendalo ("Andinakukunyamezela okunye ukuluma / ukusela / ukuntywila!"). Ngubani ongakwaziyo ukujonga omnye umfanekiso wenkanuko? Ukuzaliswa yinto ephambili kwezofuzo emva kwayo yonke loo nto.

Yayazi iimpawu zokugqithisa

Inkolelo yokuba "ukusetyenziswa gwenxa kwe-porn akunakubangela monakalo" kwavela ngexesha lenyanga playboy. Njengayo okanye hayi, i-intanethi ye-intanethi ihluke kwi-erotica edlulileyo njenge "Polemon-Go" ivela kwi-tic-tac-toe. Ukuzibika yenze icace le nto. Endaweni yokuba "yi-porn nje," ukusasaza i-intanethi kwi-intanethi yinto entsha, apho ukuziphendukela kwemvelo kungakhange kulungiselele ubuchopho obuninzi.

Ookhokho bakho babengenayo i-Intanethi okanye iinkumbulo kwiibhanki ezisekwe kwi-porn. Ukuba baphulula amalungu esini, i-libido yesiqhelo kunye nokucinga kwabo benza umsebenzi. Ukuba ukuphendula kwakho ngokwesondo kuyancipha, okanye ufuna iphonografi ukuya kuvuthondaba, ke, uya kuba ngaphezulu kweengqondo zakho zendlela yokutya, kunye nomngcipheko wokulutha. Lindela ide ingqondo yakho ibuyele kuyo uvelwano oluqhelekileyo. Ukuhoxiswa kunokuba nzima, kodwa iingcebiso kunye nenkxaso zikhoyo.

Ingqondo yakho ayizange iguquke ukuphatha i-erotica-at-a-swipe yanamhlanje. Ayiboni iividiyo kuphela; iyaqonda amathuba okuchumisa ngokungapheliyo, kwaye iya kusebenzisa "isabhokhwe" sayo sedopamine ukuqinisekisa ukuba uchumisa uninzi kangangoko unakho — nokuba leliphi na indleko. Endaweni yokuqhubeka nokuqhubeka nobomi, ababukeli banamhlanje bahlala beqhubeka ixesha elide ukuba bangahlala bephaphile- bengazi ukuba basengozini yokuba likhoboka okanye iingxaki ukusebenza. NjengoEliezer Yudkowsky wabhala wathi,

"Ukuba abantu banelungelo lokulingwa-kwaye yile nto inkululeko yokuzikhethela-imarike izakuphendula ngokunikezela ngesilingo esinokuthengiswa. Inkuthazo yentengiso iqhubeka ngaphaya kwendawo apho i-superstimulus iqala ukonakalisa umonakalo kumthengi. ”

Funda iimpawu ezibonisa ukusetyenziswa koonwabo ngokugqithiseleyo. (Funda iingxelo zabanye abantu.Awungekhe uhambe ngokwenziwa ngabahlobo bakho, okanye ngengcebiso ka zesondo okanye oogqirha. Hamba ngo nina saziso.

Emuva ngomhla wokufowunelwa, ndakwazi ukukhuphela umfanekiso (ngamanye amaxesha uthambile) ngenxa ye-Intanethi engalunganga / ecothayo kwaye ndingazi ukuba ndingabufumana phi ubuqhophololo. Kodwa ngoku ngesantya esiphezulu, nkqu nakwiiselfowuni, indenze ndaqhubeka ndibukele ngakumbi nangakumbi nangokusonjululwa okuphezulu. Ngamanye amaxesha iba yimicimbi yosuku lonke ekhangela ogqibeleleyo wokugqibezela. Ayisoze, yanelisa. "Ufuna okungakumbi" ingqondo ihlala isitsho… ubuxoki obunjalo. "

"Njengomntu obenomlutha we-opiate kwaye ngoku ulwa nomlutha we-porn, ndingatsho ukuba iphonografi ngokuqinisekileyo ngumlutha wokwenene. Ukuqala kwamanyala e-intanethi ndisemncinci kwaye ndinxibelelana nabasetyhini kwi-intanethi kwisikolo esiphakamileyo, ndafumana imikhwa emibi ehlala ichaphazela umgangatho wobomi bam. Ngeheroin, ubuncinci xa ndinemali ndingaqhubeka nokuya eklasini kwaye ndibenobudlelwane; kwanaxa ndandisebenzisa naliphi na inani leziyobisi ezinzima, ndakwazi ukugcina ubomi obufanelekileyo. Ngoku, xa ndizibona ndikwindawo elungileyo, ndiye ndizifumanele ndonakalisa ubudlelwane bexesha elide ngenxa yeemeko ezingaqhelekanga zesini. ”

Enyanisweni, sivalelwa kumadoda onke amaxesha amaninzi aphethwe ziziimpawu ezinzima kwi-intanethi ye-intanethi, kodwa kunokuba uzame ukuyeka ukuhlaziya iindlobongela ukuzama ukuxazulula iingxaki zabo kunokushiya ukubukela i-intanethi ye-intanethi.

”Ukuthetha ngokunyanisekileyo kumava am, ndihlala ndicinga ukuba yi-porno evuselelayo ebangela ukungasebenzi kakuhle, hayi ukuphulula amalungu esini. Into engaqhelekanga endiyifumanayo malunga nokuzama kwam kukuba ngaphandle kwe-intanethi ye-intanethi, andiyiva ngathi i-masturbating kwaye nangona ndizama, andivuswanga ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndihlaziye. Ingqondo yam ayisacingi, njengokuba yayiqhelekile xa ndandisengumntwana kwiintsuku zangaphambi koononophala. ”

Izifundo kubasebenzisi bezononono zibona -

Ezi zibeka amanqaku zibonisa ukuba intanethi yinto ekhethekileyo

 Nazi ezinye iimpawu eziye zaphawula:

Ndandihambela kwenye yezona zinto ziphosakeleyo, kwaye nangona kunjalo andizange ndifumane ukukhululeka okukhulu, nangona emva kokuchitha iiyure ngosuku.

Kwimeko yam, bekukho inkuthazo ephantsi (andikhathali), ndihlala ndidiniwe, inkungu yengqondo, ubunzima bokugxila, unxunguphalo lwasentlalweni, uxinzelelo, njl njl. Bendisazi ukuba akukho nto ilungileyo kum (nabahlobo abasondeleyo nosapho bayazi nayo ), kodwa andikwazi ukubeka umnwe wam kuyo (okanye andifuni).

Kuphakamileyo kwindlela yam yokusebenzisa iidemon, i-orgasm yayisayi kuphinda ivakale. Kwakuyindlela nje yokuzikhusela.

Ndiqale ukujonga iphonografi ngo-11-12 ndaza ndalahla ubuntombi bam nge-22. Intombazana kwafuneka indinyanzele ukuba ndize. Ipeni yam yayindindisholo ngokupheleleyo kwilungu lobufazi. Ndiza kuba nzima ngexesha langaphambili, kodwa andinakabelana ngesondo ngaphezulu kwemizuzu embalwa ngaphandle kokuthamba.

Xa ndimntwana ndiyakhumbula ukuba ndiphumayo kakhulu ngeenjongo ezininzi. Yonke into yatshintsha xa ndandineminyaka eyi-14. Ndiza kuchitha iiveki kunye nobusuku bebukela i-pornography.

Ndifumana xa ndingakhange ndibukele ixesha elide, akukho mfuneko yokuba ndichame rhoqo. Kubi kakhulu ngexesha lokusetyenziswa nzima; Ndisebenzisa indlu yangasese kakhulu! Kwakhona, bendisoloko ndinexhala lokuba abahlobo bam bathetha ngam ngasemva kwam, ke umbono wam wento abantu abayithethayo / abacinga ngayo uyaphazamiseka xa ndibetha.

Emva kweminyaka yokusetyenziswa, iimpawu eziqale ukubonakalisa eneminyaka engama-25 zezi: iintloko ezingaqhelekanga, ilizwi elingenzulu kakhulu neliphantse ukuva, bendiziva ndome ngaphakathi kwamehlo kwaye ndiziva ndomile ebusweni ngokubanzi. Ekuseni, ndandisiva into engathandekiyo emzimbeni wam wonke. Khange ndikwazi ukugxila kwizifundo zam ixesha elide kunemizuzu engama-40 ngaphambi kokufumana imvakalelo efanayo emzimbeni wam, endenze ndalala. Ndaphambana. Emva koko ndacinga ukuba ndineswekile (iswekile esezantsi yegazi), umbono ombi (ndaye ndawuvavanya umbono wam owawugqibelele). Ndade ndacinga ukuba ndine-ADD okanye i-ADHD, kuba bendinokuba ndingxamisekile amaxesha ngamaxesha. Ukongeza koku, bendiziva ndingakhuselekanga kwiintlanganiso zentlalo kwaye ndingaziva ndikhuselekile kwaye ndikhululekile xa ndiphakathi kwabantu ngokubanzi.

Ndandiba ngathi ndingumntwana ngamanye amaxesha. Ukunyanzelwa, ukungazinzi njalo njalo. Ndingaziva nokuba isibheno sam sesini sasisezantsi zero. Kodwa akukho nto ndinokuyenza ngayo! Ekugqibeleni, emva kokuhamba malunga neeveki ezimbini ngaphandle koononophala okanye ukuhlaziya i-masturbation ndaziva ndikhululekile. Zonke iimpawu ezidweliswe apha ngasentla bezimkile kwaye ndaziva ndizolile kwaye ndonwabile ekuhlaleni. Intetho yam yayiqinile, izinzile kwaye izolile. Ndiye ndahleka ndancuma nobuso bam bonke. Ndandinomtsalane kwaye ndandidlala ngothando. Imvakalelo yokungabikho kwesibheno sesondo yayihambile kwaye ndaye ndabona ukuphendula okungcono kunye nokuphendula kwabantu abandijikelezileyo. Ndibe nokunxibelelana okungcono nabahlobo bam, usapho, abantu endisebenza nabo kwaye kunjalo namantombazana.

Ndaba noxinzelelo lwentlalo, uxinzelelo, ukunqongophala kokuqhuba, ukudinwa ngokwasemzimbeni, ukudinwa engqondweni, ukungabinamsebenzi, ndingakwazi nokuhamba ndiye ndaya kwiiyunivesithi ndingoyiki nokufa kwabantu, ndiziva ndoyikeka xa ndijikeleza abantu ababhinqileyo ukusuka kwabancinci ukuya kwabadala. njl.

Umoya wam uyehla emva kokubamba; Ndicaphuka msinya ngabantu. Indibeka kwimeko enye yengqondo yonke into endinokucinga ngayo ngoononophala. Iphazamisa ubuthongo bam; xa ndisiya kulala ndinayo i-kaleidoscope ye-porn entlokweni yam. Kuyacaphukisa ukuzibona ndenza into enye ndiphindaphinda.

Kwabaninzi kuthi (mna ndibandakanyiwe), i-ED yayiyeyona nto yokuqala yokwenziwa kwekhonkrithi / yomothuko osishukumisayo, kwaye isenze siqonde ukuba into ayilunganga.

Ndandidla ngamandla xa ndingu 16-17. Ixesha lam li-porn-sex liqalise ngaphaya kwe18. Ndaqala ukuba ngumfana okhutshiwe, kunye nokusebenzisa i-caffeine njenge-maniac. Andizange ndive ndivakalelwa yintlungu.

Ebutsheni bam, bendihlala ndingena egumbini kwaye abantu bebendibona kwaye banomdla kum kwaye bafuna ukuthetha nam. Xa ndandihamba ezantsi kwesitrato ndaziva ndithembekile kwaye ndinamandla, kwaye amantombazana aya kukuqaphela oko kwaye andamkele. Njengoko iminyaka iqengqeleka, ukusetyenziswa kwe-porn kuye kwanda kwaye loo mandla ahamba kancinci. Ubomi bam bezentlalo babandezeleka. Ndandihlala ndicinga ukuba kukuguga, kodwa ndandingalunganga. Ndixolile kakhulu kukuba ndiye ndabona ukuba ngubani owonileyo. Ndiyakuva ukuba amandla abuya ngoku.

Khumbula, ookhokho bakho babengenayo iphonografi kwi-Intanethi okanye kwimemori yeefoto ezisekwe kwi-porn. Ukuba baphulula amalungu esini, kungenxa yokuba umnqweno kunye nokucinga kwabo bodwa benze lo msebenzi. Ukuba ukuphendula kwakho ngokwesondo kuyancipha, okanye ufuna iphonografi ukuya kuvuthondaba, ke, ngokungathi kunjalo, ugqitha kwiinkqubo zobuchopho zendalo. Kwaye ukuba awukwazi ukufikelela kuvuthondaba ngaphandle kwe-porn, linda ide ingqondo yakho ibuyele kuvakalelo oluqhelekileyo. Oku kunokuba nzima ngelixa ingqondo yakho ibuyela esiqhelweni, kodwa iingcebiso kunye nenkxaso ziyafumaneka ezininzi iiwebhusayithi.