Ngaphambi kokuba ndiqale i-NoFap, bendize ngexesha lokwabelana ngesondo nomfazi wam malunga kabini kulo nyaka uphelileyo. Sasikwindawo yokuzama ukukhulelwa emva kweminyaka eyi-9 yomtshato, kodwa andizange ndikwazi ukuyigcina, eyayiphantsi ngokupheleleyo kumkhwa wam wemihla ngemihla we-PMO (umfazi wam unomtsalane kakhulu).
Kwiinyanga ezimbini kamva, sasiba neentlobano zesini kakhulu ngeveki. Kwiintsuku ezingama-61, uvavanyo lokukhulelwa kwakhe lwabuya lwathi enayo. Abanye abantu bathetha nge-nofap yokutshintsha ubomi, kodwa kwimeko yam yayiyindalo yokwenene yobomi.
LINK - Iinyanga ezi-2 kwi = 1 umfazi okhulelweyo
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Ndahamba ngaphezu konyaka kungekho PMO xa ndandingatshatanga ~ 12 kwiminyaka eyadlulayo. Andiqinisekanga ukuba ixesha elingakanani kanye. Ukuphindaphinda kwakumfutshane xa kwenzeka, amaxesha eenyanga phakathi. Ungacingi ukuba ndikhe ndabuyela ngaphezulu kweenyanga ezi-6 emva kwalo nyaka wokuqala.
Ndandiqhuba kakuhle kude kube malunga ne-2 kwiminyaka eyadlulayo, xa ndandiqala isilayidi sam ukubuyela kwi-porn. Ndizamile ukuzenza ndizive bhetele ngokuyibiza “njengesiqhelo” kodwa ndaziva ndimbi kakhulu ngam. Kufuneka ibe yinto yemihla ngemihla njengakwimihla yakudala embi.
Ndifikelele umzuzwana wokucaca emva kokucetyiswa kunye ne-yourbrainonporn kwiiveki ezi-2 ezidlulileyo. Ndiyiqonda ngcono ngoku into endiyaziyo kangangexesha elithile: iphonografi iyingozi kum, emtshatweni wam, kubudlelwane bam, kumandla am okuba yiloo nto ndifuna ukuba yiyo. Yinkohliso, kwaye andifuni kwanxalenye yayo.
Namhlanje lusuku 1. Andizange ndiphumelele ngaphezu konyaka, kodwa oko kwakuyiminyaka eyi-12 edlulileyo. Ndikhe ndadlula kwiintsuku ezingama-90 amaxesha ama-2-3 ukusukela ngoko, kodwa ingoma ye-siren ibisoloko inditsala umva. I-PMO ibangela iingxaki zesondo kunye nomfazi wam (enye i-ED, akukho mnqweno) kwaye ekugqibeleni ndifumana i-shit yam kunye.
Ndakhe ndayenza le nto ngaphambili. Ndiwuqonda ngcono umonakalo ngoku, ngokwenzululwazi nangobudlelwane. Ndenza iintsuku ze-90 ze-nofap kwaye andicwangcisi ukuyeka apho: Ndikhumbula ndiziva ndingcono kakhulu xa ndingazange ndifake. Andizukwenza imowudi enzima kuba mna nomfazi wam siza kuzama ukukhulelwa kungekudala.
Eyona nto inzima kum kukuba ndingumakhi wewebhu osebenza ekhaya, ngoko isilingo sihlala sisondele. Nanini na xa ndizama izihluzi zewebhu ziye zaphazamisana nomsebenzi wam wokwenyani, kodwa ndivulelekile kwiingcebiso.
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