Molweni bahlobo. Sekulithuba ndingekho apha ngoba ndade ndafunda esinye isitshixo sokuziphilisa kukuba ndiyeke ukubala i-damn counter uphume uphile ubomi. Ndandinesondo eqhelekileyo, enkulu phezolo. Ndaphinda ndabelana ngesondo esikhulu malunga neveki okanye edlulileyo. Andisazikhathazi ngePIED kwakhona.
Nantsi intwana yomva wam.
Ndineminyaka engama-24 – ndazalwa ngo-1990. Xa ndandimalunga ne-11 leminyaka, i-intanethi yesantya esiphezulu yayiqala ukuba yinto eqhelekileyo. Malunga nobudala be-12, ngaphambi nje kokufikisa, ndaba nencasa yam yokuqala yephonografi ngokusebenzisa imifanekiso ethambileyo. Yakhiwe ngokusisiseko ukusuka apho - imifanekiso ikhokelele kwimifanekiso emininzi ekhokelela kwiividiyo. Ngombulelo, imidla yam ye-porn ayizange ihambe kakhulu. Andizange ndikuthande ukubukela into abanye abantu abanokuthi "i-porn" eqhelekileyo. Ngokwesiqhelo iividiyo ezinentombazana enye okanye ke zazanele kum.
Ndaqhubeka ndibukele ngalo lonke ixesha lokukhula kwam. Ndandinamantombazana kwaye ndathandana ngesondo ngaphandle kwengxaki yokwenene. Ndangena kubudlelwane bexesha elide ndineminyaka eli-16 ukuya kutsho kwiminyaka eli-19. Kulapha apho ndandizilungiselela i-PIED. Ngelixa ndikunye nale ntombazana, andizange ndibukele nayiphi na iphonografi. Ngoko akukho ngxaki. Nangona kunjalo, xa sahlukanayo-unyaka wam omtsha wekholeji, ndaqala ukuphinda ndibuyele kwi-porn. I-PIED yayingekangeni okwangoku, ndiye ndaqhubeka ndilala namantombazana ngelixa ndibukele i-porn.
I-PIED yazibonakalisa ngokwenene xa ndandimalunga nama-20 eminyaka ubudala. Ndandisoloko ndiyibalela ekuseleni, njl njl. Izandi ziqhelekile, akunjalo?
Oku kwaqhubeka kukwehla ndade ndagqiba iminyaka engama-22 – ngasekupheleni kuka-2012. Ngeli xesha ndandidandatheke kakhulu – ubuntu bam obabuxakeke kakhulu babusele buba yindoda engathandekiyo kakhulu eyayingafuni kuthetha. Kwakhona, iinzame zam zokuba neentlobano zesini namantombazana aliqela zaphela ngokuphoxeka. Ndandingenwe yintoni?
Ekugqibeleni, ngoFebruwari 2013 yajikeleza kwaye ndandifumene intombazana eshushu ngokwenene ebhedini yam ilungele ukwabelana ngesondo. Kodwa u-zero wayesenzeka ezantsi. Ndaqala ukujonga ukuba inokuba yintoni ingxaki yam kwaye njengabanye abaninzi, ndakhubeka kule ndawo.
Umzamo wam wokuqala wokuqalisa ngokutsha waqala ngoFebruwari 14, 2013 (Todai nguNovemba 9th, 2014) Yayiyisiqhelo sakho sokuqalisa kwakhona ngapha nangapha - ukuguquka kwemizwelo, iingcebiso zokuphilisa, njl. Nangona kunjalo, emva kwenyanga okanye ngaphezulu, ndangena “ukukroba” kwiividiyo ngaphandle naphambili- ndingazi ukuba le yeyona nto iyingozi kakhulu ebendinokuyenza.
Kwiminyaka emi-2 elandelayo kude kube yilenzame yokugqibela yokuqalisa ngokutsha (enye ikhawuntara yam ingenile), eli yayilibali lokuqalisa kwam kwakhona. Inkqubela phambili elandelwa kukubuyela umva, i-flatline, ukuphoxeka.
Ndifike ndagula okokugqibela, kwabe kulapho icofa khona entlokweni yam. AKUKHO PORN. AKUKHO UKUJONGA. Ndiye ndema. Kwakunzima, kwaye kwakuhenda, kodwa ndandisazi ukuba kufuneka ndiyeke ukujonga zonke iindlela zabafazi abahamba ze kwi-intanethi.
Malunga neentsuku ezingama-20 ukuya kwezingama-30 zokungajongi koku kuphinda kuqalwe, ndiqale ukuqaphela “ubuntu bam obudala” obubuyayo. Ixhala belihlala liphelile kwaye lithatha indawo yokuzithemba kwam. Ndaqhubeka ndihamba.
Ndikho ke ngoku, nangaluphi na usuku olu. Ndinentombi ngoku. Siye sabelana ngesondo phezolo. Andizange ndikhathazeke nge-PIED kwaphela kuba ndandine-erection epheleleyo ngaphambi kokuba iimpahla ziphume. Sabelana ngesondo ixesha elide, kwaye emva kokuba iphelile kwakukho ixesha eliqhelekileyo lokungafuni - kwindoda enempilo. Malunga nemizuzu engama-20-30 kamva ndandikulungele ukuya kwakhona. Ndivuke ngenkuni yasekuseni ngale ntsasa. Kanye njengendoda esempilweni.
Ke iluhambo olude ndenze konke okusemandleni am ukuba ndilugcine lufutshane ngenxa yokufunda kwakho. Yazi nje oku - UYA kuphilisa. Kodwa kufuneka uyeke ukujonga i-porn. Ukuba uziva ngathi ufuna ukukroba, ndiza kukunika iingcebiso ezingaqhelekanga - yiya ku-MO ukubamba. I MO'd phakathi kwe-10 kunye ne-20 amaxesha oku kuqalisa kwakhona, rhoqo xa ndiziva ndilingeka ukuba ndikrobe. I-MO's ayizange indibuyisele umva kakhulu ukuba konke - ngaphantsi kwexabiso lokukroba.
Nazi iingcebiso / iingcebiso endinifumene zona bafana, ezo ndiziva zibalelwa ekubetheni kwam oku ekugqibeleni.
- Khetha i-MO ukuze uchukumise ngaphezulu kokukroba iphonografi: Kwakhona mhlawumbi isiluleko esingaqhelekanga. Kodwa ndaphinda ndaqalisa kwakhona phantse iminyaka emi-2. Kumava am, i-MOíng yokuchukumisa yenze umonakalo omncinci kunemizuzu embalwa yokujonga iphonografi. Andiqinisekanga ncam ukuba kutheni, kodwa ndiyazi ukuba yintoni esebenzayo kwaye yintoni eyandibuyisela umva.
- Hlala uxakekile, Hlala usebenza: Fumana into oyithandayo ebomini bakho. Kum, yayiyibhendi yam kunye nendawo yokuzivocavoca. Ndanikela ingqalelo kwezo zinto ndaza ndaqalisa ukuzinandipha. Ndabeka i-damn reboot kwi-subconscious yam kwaye ndaqala ukuphila. Ikhawulezisa ngokwenene inkqubo kuthi ngokwengqondo.
- Rewire xa unako: Ndiyazazi ke mna ukuba nokujola nentombazana kungenza istress ube usazi ukuba idick yakho ayiyenzi le ifanele. Yenza njalo. Yiza nezizathu eziqhwalelayo zokuba kutheni ungakwazi okanye ungabelani ngesondo. Kodwa yenza konke onako ukuze "ubuyele kumdlalo". Ukufumana nentombi yam yangoku yenze iinyanga ezi-2 zokugqibela zolu kuqalisa ngokutsha luqabele kwi-overdrive.
- Qhubeka uhamba: Uzoziva noba kube kanye ukuba awusoze unyangeke. Ndaziva kaninzi. Zininzi iintsuku ezingenathemba. Kodwa apha ndihleli ngoku, ngobunye ubusuku obukhulu besondo phantsi kwebhanti yam. Ulungele ngakumbi. QHUBEKA UHAMBA!! Unganikezeli kwaye ungabuyeli ekukrobeni. Ukukroba kuya kubulala inkqubela yakho.
Kwaye ekugqibeleni, isishwankathelo seempawu zam kunye nokuchacha:
Ngaphambi kokuQala kwakhona:
- Gqibezela i-PIED, akukho mpendulo yokuchukumisa konke konke. Akukho phawu lokuqhama.
- Ukuphulukana ngokupheleleyo nokuzithemba. Super awkward kubo bonke abantu, ingakumbi amantombazana.
- Ukudakumba kunye nokulahlekelwa ngumdla kwimisebenzi yam eqhelekileyo
- Ukuziva ukungabikho kwe testosterone
- Akukho zinkuni zakusasa, akukho mikhwa engaqhelekanga
- Ilungu lobudoda elincinane xa lithe kratya
Emva kokuQalisa kwakhona:
- I-Erections iyasebenza. Ungalindelanga ukuba ufumane i-boner ekhawulezileyo kwi-touch yokuqala okanye ube ne-boners enomsindo ngelixa uhamba esitratweni. Oku akukho ngqiqweni. Kodwa - xa ixesha lifika, uya kuba ulungile. Iba yinto eqhelekileyo, kwaye uyeke ukucinga ngayo.
- Ukuzithemba okungenamkhawulo kunye namandla. Ndiziva ngathi ndineminyaka eyi-16 kwakhona.
- Ukudakumba kuphelile. Kuvakala kumnandi ukuvuka nje ube namathuba okuphila.
- Ukuziva ukongezwa kwe testosterone
- Iinkuni zasekuseni kunye nokwakhiwa okungahleliweyo imini yonke. Kubonakala ngathi naluphi na uvakalelo olunamandla luya kuvusa ubuncinci i-chub. (hleka kakhulu)
- Ilungu lobudoda elikhulu
- I-libido enkulu
Ifanelekile ngokupheleleyo bafana. Zonke iinkalo. Nje. Yenza. HAYI. KHAWUZA!! Ukukroba kwandibulala. Ngendiphila ngoku ukuba bekungekuko ukungaziphathi kakuhle kulandawo. NgoFebruwari 2015 iya kuba yiminyaka emi-2 yale ndlela yokuphila entsha. Ndisenophuculo oluncinci ekufuneka ndilwenzile, kodwa lilonke, ndizibona ndiphilisiwe. Ibiyinde, indlela eneengxaki – kodwa ibisoloko inexabiso layo.
Ndiza kujonga oku ngamaxesha athile ukuze ndiphendule nayiphi na imibuzo onokuba nayo.
Qhubeka nayo! Qhubeka uhamba! Uya kuphilisa.
LINK - 24 kwaye ndanyangwa kwi-PIED, nalapho ndandicinga ukuba ayinakuze yenzeke.
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