Namhlanje iphawula iintsuku ezingama-90 zokukhululeka kwi-PMO kum. Andizange ndicinge ukuba ngendandifike kweli nqanaba kodwa ndonwabe kakhulu ukuba lapha. Ibiyindlela ephambeneyo, enzima ukuhamba kodwa ndinomgama omninzi wokuwugubungela.
Ndiza kungena kwiinkcukacha ezithile zembali ye-PMO kunye nokuba yeza njani yonke le nto. Ndineminyaka engama-23 ubudala njengenyanga edlulileyo. Ndaqala ukuvezwa iphonografi malunga neminyaka eyi-12-13 ngexesha elifanayo ndafunda malunga nokukhupha. Ukusukela kwiminyaka eyi-12-13 okanye i-14 bendidla ngokusuka nje ndiye kumbono wam entlokweni yam kwaye ngamanye amaxesha imifanekiso yamantombazana afana nelingerie. Ngethuba ndineminyaka eyi-14 okanye i-15 ndaqala ukubukela i-porn kwiindawo ze-tube ye-porn. Kunzima ukukhumbula zonke iinkcukacha kodwa ngeli xesha ukuphulula amalungu esini kuye kwaba ngumkhwa wemihla ngemihla (ngamanye amaxesha ukuya kuthi ga kumaxesha ama-4 ngosuku, ngamanye amaxesha uphoswe ziintsuku ezimbalwa), ndingasoloko ndine-porn kodwa ukuba bendikhe ndedwa bekuya kuba njalo. ukubukela amanyala. Ukhetho lwam lwamanyala aluzange lugqithise okanye lugxothwe, ngokuqhelekileyo nje i-vanilla ye-porn ephakathi kwemizuzu ye-15 ngeseshoni.
Ndikhulele kwikhaya apho ukwabelana ngesondo kwakusisihloko esihle kunye nokuthandana kwiminyaka yam (15) apho abazali bam bandikhuthaza ukuba ndibe ngumhlobo namantombazana. Ke ngokwemvelo ndasebenzisa i-porn njengendawo yam yezesondo kwaye andizange ndizikhathaze ngokuthandana kuba ndandivakalelwa kukuba kwakungelula kubazali bam. Ndiyilungelelanise indlela yam yokusebenzisa i-porn kuba ndingabelani ngesondo, kwaye wonke umntu endimaziyo wayebukele i-porn. Oku kwaqhubeka iminyaka, i-15 til i was almost 23. Ndaba ne "girlfriend" yam yokuqala xa ndandineminyaka eyi-17 kwaye ndikhumbula ukuba sasiceba ukwabelana ngesondo kwaye ndade ndasithengela iindidi zeekhondom. Nangona kunjalo sahlukana ngaphambi kokuba oko kwenzeke. Qhubeka nokusebenzisa iphonografi ngelixa unamantombazana amafutshane kuphela endiye ndidinwe ngawo okanye xa sele ndibazi babona iimpazamo zabo kwaye bacinywe. Ndiyibalula kakhulu loo nto kwi-porn, njengoko ndandibona imifanekiso ehlekisayo yento abafazi bekufanele bajongeke ngayo, nangona bendisazi ukuba ibingeyonyani ukuba isenesiphumo. Ndandinenye intombi eneminyaka eyi-18 eyayiphila ixesha elifutshane, apho babeza kuba nomlomo kodwa umama wakhe wamshiya umnakwabo omncinci waya kwi-cock block wamxelela ukuba angasishiyi sodwa haha. Sahlukana kamsinya emva koko. Lo mjikelo uqhubekile kwaye ndikhumbula inkumbulo yam yokuqala yokufumana iPIED. Bekusehlotyeni ka2013, bendinentombazana ndiziva kwanto. Khange ndiwuthathele ingqalelo lo mcimbi mkhulu, ibindicaphukisa kodwa ndiye ndaqhubeka. Kwenzeka into efanayo kwiinyanga ezimbalwa kamva, kodwa ndaphinda ndacinga ukuba andikho kule ntombazana kwaye yayingenguye ofanelekileyo ukuba ndiphulukane nobuntombi bam kuye. Kwaye andizange ndizisole ukuba, ndandine-porn emva kwayo yonke into kwiimfuno zam zesini kwaye xa ndidibana nentombazana efanelekileyo ndiya kuyiyeka kwaye ubomi buya kuba yinto eqhelekileyo. Ngoku ngeli xesha ndandingazi nokuba iPIED. Ndiqhubekile nokuba nala mantombazana kwi-2 - 3 iminyaka elandelayo kwaye andisoze ndivuswe kodwa ndine-porn andikacingi kakhulu ngayo kwaye nokuba ndiyenzile, ndingenza ntoni? Andikwazi ukuya kwagqirha, abazali bam bangafumanisa!
Ndithe xa ndicinga, ndawalahla ngandlela thile, amathuba amaninzi okwabelana ngesondo nazo zonke iintlobo ezahlukeneyo zamantombazana kule minyaka iyi-4, andizange ndiwavumele ukuba anxibe ibhulukhwe yam, endaweni yoko sasimane sikhuphe, sibambene, kwaye ndifumane. bawasuse ngomnwe. Ndihlala ndibeka izizathu ezinje ngo “Ndilindele umntu ofanelekileyo” (ebeyinyani ndade ndajika ndafana ne-21, ngelo xesha bendifana nokuba ndifuna ukulaliswa), okanye “Ndiye nje ngokwahlukana kwaye andikakulungeli oku ngoku”. Kwakusoloko kukho isizathu sokundithethelela. Andizange ndilandele naluphi na ubudlelwane bokwenyani ngeli xesha kuba ndandisazi ukuba andivuswanga ngokwesondo kwaye ndiyakwazi, yayiyintoni injongo? Ndikhumbula ndikwikhompyuter yam kunyaka ophakamileyo wesikolo samabanga aphakamileyo, kwaye ndifumana isicatshulwa kule ntombazana ibukekayo intle bendibambe ebusika ngokusesikweni kwaye bendincokola kwaye ndijinga ngaphandle kwiinyanga ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo kwaye ibifuna ukuzihlalela kwaye mna nje. wayifunda wayijula esofeni wabukela amanyala/ wadlala imidlalo yevidiyo endaweni yoko.
Yayiqale yafunda nge-nofap mhlawumbi i-2 okanye i-3 kwiminyaka eyadlulayo, kodwa zange ndive nge-Porn Induced Erectile Dysfucntion. Kum le subreddit yayiliqela labantwana abangaqhelekanga ababengakwazi ukuthetha namantombazana kwaye bacinga ukuba ukuyeka iphonografi kuya kutshintsha ubomi babo kwaye babenze intombazana yamantombazana okanye enye into. Ndizamile i-streak ye-fap ekwindla ye-2014 kodwa ndaphinda ndabuyela emva kwenyanga. Nangona kunjalo ihlobo lokugqibela le-2015 ekugqibeleni ndeva nge-PIED kodwa andizange ndiqiniseke ukuba yayindim, okanye ukuba kwakunzima ukubetha kwasekuqaleni. Ndagqiba ekubeni ndizame ukuya kwi-streak kwaye ndenze iintsuku ezingama-25. Ndaphela ndiphinda ndiphinda. Kwakusebusika ngo-2014/2015 ndiye ndaqaphela ukuba umgangatho wam wokumiswa wawungekho mhle njengoko wawunjalo nge-porn. Kwaba mbi ngakumbi ngokuhamba kwexesha xa ndandifana neepesenti ze-60 ezinzima xa ndiza ku-porn. Oko kubi kakhulu, kwaye kubonisa indlela enzulu ngayo iPIED yam. Oku kwakubonakala kungaqhelekanga kodwa bendicinga ukuba mhlawumbi ndigqibile ukuyenza, kodwa khange ndiyeke. Lo mjikelo uqhubekile kobu busika budlulileyo bonyaka ka-2015/2016 xa ndiphuma kurhulumente kwaye ndaye ndachanabeka kwisixa esikhulu samaqabane ngesondo endiye kwafuneka ndijike kuwo ngenxa ye-PIED yam. Ngelixesha ibindiqhuba kakubi i couldnt get hard for real women. Ndineminyaka eyi-22 kwaye ndiseyintombi! Kufuneka ndiyikhuphe endleleni le, ndiyaguga! Kuthe ngo March walonyaka ndagqibela kudala ukuyibhaqa. Ndifunde ngakumbi kwi-PIED kwaye yonke ibivakala ngoku. Yingxaki yam le!
Ndivile ukuba kuthatha iintsuku ezingama-90 ukuchacha, kwaye oko kubonakala ngathi ngumceli mngeni omkhulu, Ngaba ndingayenza le nto? Kodwa kumda omkhulu wezinto iinyanga ezi-3 ayisiyonto, ngokuqinisekileyo ndiyakwazi ukuyeka iphonografi ukuze ndiphinde ndifumane umsebenzi wam wesondo, akunjalo? Inike i-esile enye okanye ezimbini iinzame ze-esile kwaye ihlala iphinda ibuyele. Ndibuyele kwilizwe lam ngo-Epreli, ndaya ekhefini kangangeveki okanye kunjalo kwaye ndazifumana ndibuyela endlwini yabazali bam ngoMeyi. Ndenze uphando oluninzi lomphefumlo kwaye ndicinga ngobomi bam. Ngenye imini ndaqonda ukuba andizange ndibukele i-porn ngeentsuku ze-3 kwaye ndaziva ngathi lixesha elihle lokuyeka ukuyeka. Nangona ngeli xesha kwahlukile. Ndenze isixa esikhulu sophando kwaye ndafunda nge-PIED kunye neziphumo ze-porn ebuchosheni bethu kwaye ndaphuma ingqondo ivuthelwe ngomonakalo endiwenzileyo. Ndikhumbula ndifunda izinto ngokukodwa kwincwadi yeCawe kaNowa malunga ne-PIED kunye nokulutha / ukunyanzelwa nantoni na ye-porn ye-intanethi ebizwa ngokuthi "Wacked" kwaye ndithethe ngokuvakalayo "Owu thixo wam, oku kuyaphambana, ndim kanye lo". Imbono yam yonke kwi-porn yayitshintshile. Ukuba andiyiyeki i-porn for good, andisoze ndibe kubudlelwane bokwenyani, obuqhelekileyo, obunelisayo. Kwakusoyikeka ngokupheleleyo kodwa kwangaxeshanye ndeva ubunzima busuka emagxeni am. Ndandiyazi into emayenziwe, kwafuneka ndiyeke ngokupheleleyo. Ingqondo yam yayihleli, andisoze ndiphinde ndibukele i-porn.
Olo yaba lolona tshintsho lukhulu kum ngokwenza oku kude kwaye kwiinyanga kunye neminyaka ezayo. Isidingo sotshintsho olupheleleyo lwembono kuyo kunye nokwenza isigqibo ukuba andikhe ndinqwenele ukuba nayo le nto ebomini bam kwakhona. I-porn iya kukucaphukisa, ngandlela thile okanye enye. Ayisoloko ingasebenzi kakuhle ngokwesondo kodwa ngeendlela ezincinci ezifihlakeleyo.
Ngokunyanisekileyo andinakutsho ukuba ndinamava amaninzi anamandla ngeli xesha. Kusafuneka ndiphinde ndifumane iinkuni zasekuseni / ukwakhiwa okuzenzekelayo ebengekho iminyaka emi-2 ubukhulu becala. Ndiye ndadlula kwiiflatlines ezimbalwa ezazisihogo ngokupheleleyo kum. Ndiyabona ukuba i-penis yam inkulu kakhulu ixesha elininzi ngoku kunokuba ndandisenza. Yayikade ishwabene ukuya kuthi ga kwisayizi encinci, ngoku ingcono kakhulu. Ndiye ndafumana ama-erections xa ndibambene, ndihamba namantombazana kwiintsuku ezingama-90 ezidlulileyo kodwa ndifikelela kuma-60 eepesenti nzima, kodwa kungcono kunanto yonke endikhe ndadibana nayo. Ndiphulukene nobudlelwane nentombazana yokuqala endiyithandayo ngokusemthethweni kwaye bendinonxibelelwano lwengqondo lokwenyani kwiminyaka ngenxa yokungakwazi kwam ukuvuswa. Yabuhlungu loo nto, kule nyanga iphelileyo yenzeka. Ndade ndanexhala lokuphulukana naye ndaya kwagqirha ndafumana iViagra ndayithatha kanye naye kwaye ayizange indenzele nto ingako. Ukwalatha ngakumbi kule PIED njengoko iipilisi zebhona azincedi kuloo nto.
Ndimele ndongeze, bendikwi-flatline kwinyanga okanye edlulileyo kwaye ndikhathazekile malunga nokuba kungathatha ixesha elingakanani ukuchacha kwam kwaye ndophula ndabiza abazali bam ndabaxelela yonke into ngembali yam ye-porn kunye ne-ED yam kuyo. Baye banenkxaso yokwenene kwaye bangabazali abangamaKristu abalondolozayo abangazange bathethe ngesondo kum kwaye bandikhusele njengomntwana. Oku kube kuhle ngokwenene kulwalamano lwam kunye nabo. Ndiza kubona ugqirha we-urologist namhlanje, ukuze ndikhuphe naziphi na iingxaki zomzimba kodwa ndiqinisekile ukuba ziya kubuya zilungile.
Ndiphantsi koluvo lokuba ukuchacha kwam kuya kuthatha i-ATLEAST ezinye iinyanga ezi-3, ukuba ayipheleli enyakeni iyonke, mhlawumbi ixesha elide ukugcina ndibona uphuculo olusekwe koko ndikufundileyo kwaye ndakufunda kwamanye amava. Ndiyathemba ukubona uphuculo ngombulelo/iKrisimesi okanye usuku lwevalentines mva nje oluya kuba luphawu lweenyanga ezili-9 kum kodwa ukuba luthatha ixesha elide, makube njalo. Uxolo, isithuba sinde, ndizive ngcono ukuba ndingene kwiinkcukacha! Nceda uzive ukhululekile ukundibuza nayiphi na imibuzo malunga nantoni na malunga nohambo lwam ukuza kuthi ga ngoku okanye imbali yam! Qhubekani nisilwa bafo!
TL; DR - Ubukele i-porn imihla ngemihla iminyaka eyi-9, Uhlushwe yi-PIED ye-3. Wonakalise amathuba amaninzi kwizesondo / ubudlelwane phakathi kweminyaka. Yenze ukuba ibe ziintsuku ezingama-90 kungekho pmo kwaye kuninzi ekufuneka kwenziwe.
LINK - Ukuqhubela phambili kokubuyisela kwe-PIED | Ingxelo yam yeentsuku ezingama-90.
By Imanalienlol
Hey guys, ndibe ne-PIED ukususela ehlotyeni lika-2013. Ngokucothayo ndiba mbi ngakumbi ngokuhamba kwexesha apho ngaphambi kokuba ndiyeke ngoMeyi, andizange ndikwazi ukufumana ukulungiswa kakuhle ngelixa ndibukele i-porn.
Ndisandul’ ukubetha iintsuku ezingama-90 kwiveki ephelileyo kwaye ngalo lonke eli xesha uphuculo alukhange lucace kakhulu. Ipipi lam likhulu kakhulu kune-flaccid kunokuba ndandiyi-PMO yenye yezinto ezibonakalayo.
Ndikhe ndatyhutyha iiflatlines ezimbalwa ezincanca ngokwenene kodwa ziluphawu lokuphilisa. Amaphupha acace ngakumbi. Kodwa nantsi eyona nto ingcono! Ekugqibeleni ndifumene iinkuni zasekuseni! Bendinomnye uMgqibelo kwaye ngoku ndenze nanamhlanje. Iyandikhuthaza le nto. Andikhumbuli ukuba ndagqibela nini ukuba nenkuni yasekuseni, ndingasathethi ke ngenkuni yasekuseni enesidima. Ukuba bendine "inkuni zasekuseni" kulo nyaka uphelileyo okanye emibini ibifana neyona shittiest 40 pesenti iinkuni, kunzima nokuba ndiwubize ngamaplanga asekuseni kwaye nangona kunjalo ibinqabile, ayizange yenzeke.
Kwaye ngequbuliso ndilapha, iintsuku ezi-2 kwezi-3 ndifumana iinkuni zasekuseni ezazilumgangatho olungileyo wokumiswa! Ndingathi malunga nama-80 ekhulwini! Ndiyazi ukuba ndiyakwazi ukwakhiwa okukhulu, kunzima kodwa kunjalo, oku kuye kwaphakama ngokupheleleyo kwingqalelo kwaye kunzima, kubandakanya nentloko. Oku kwakunzima kwaye kugcwele ngokwaneleyo kwisondo. Thixo ndonwabile qha.
Ndisazi ukuba ndinendlela ende phambi kwam yokubuyisela impilo ngokupheleleyo, kodwa ndonwabile ukubona uphuculo oluncinci ekuhambeni kwexesha. Andizange ndizinike i-PIED ngobusuku, kuthathe iminyaka yokusetyenziswa kwe-porn ukuya apho.
Ndisalindele nokuba ezinye iinyanga ezi-3, ndinethemba lokufumana ngokupheleleyo ukuba andiphantse ndachacha ngokupheleleyo kuluhlu lweenyanga ezi-9-12. Uninzi lwabafana lubonakala luchacha ngokukhawuleza kunam, kodwa ngokusekwe kubukhali beempawu zam ze-PIED bendilindele ukuba ibende kum kunento ndiyibona kakhulu.
Iintsikelelo kuye wonke umntu!
SINGAPHILA!
UHLAZIYO - Ukususela kwiminyaka emi-3 ye-PIED enzima ukuya ekuchacheni! Kukho ithemba kuye wonke umntu ohamba kule nto!
Ndine-PIED kwiminyaka eyi-3 edlulileyo emva kwe-PMOing imihla ngemihla ye-9 iminyaka. Ndineminyaka engama-23 ubudala. Ndiseyintombi nto ngenxa yokungakwazi kwam ukuvuka nabafazi bokwenyani. Nakulo nyaka uphelileyo okanye ke ukumiswa kwam kwi-porn kuye kwaba buthathaka kakhulu, ndingakhange ndifumane iinkuni zasekuseni ngaphezulu konyaka. Ndiyiyeke i-PMO ngokulungileyo ngoMeyi 13th walo nyaka. Ndidlule kwiiflatlines ngeentsuku zokuqala ezingama-90, kwaye yayisisihogo. Ukungaqiniseki okuninzi malunga nokuchacha kunye nomda wexesha, bendilindele ngokupheleleyo ukuba ndifune iinyanga ze-6-12 ukuze ndiphinde ndifumane impilo yam yezesondo.
Ndaqala ukubona intombazana malunga neentsuku ze-45 kwi-reboot yam kwaye ndandinamaxesha kunye nayo ichithekile, iphuza, i-rewiring, njl. waphoxwa okanye yintoni na. So ndavele ndatyhola istress. Andizange ndinyaniseke ngokupheleleyo kwaye kwanzima ukuqala kokumazi kwinyanga kaJulayi kwaye ekugqibeleni ndaye ndagqiba ekubeni ndiqhawule unxibelelwano kuba ndiye ndafudukela kwenye idolophu kwaye kubonakala ngathi akukho nqaku lokuzama olu budlelwane xa. Ndandingakwazi ukwabelana ngesondo. Ndibaleke ndabuyela kuye kwimpelaveki ephelileyo, kwaye saphela sichitha iintsuku ezi-3 / ubusuku kunye ngokulandelelana kunye nokuphinda kuphindwe kwakhona, kwaye sicofe nje ngakumbi. Bekucaca ukuba sobabini besifuna ukuba kunye kodwa ndaqonda mandicacelwe nempilo yam yezesondo nalapho ndikhoyo ndamxelela uba sizoba sobabini andiqinisekanga ukuba ndizokwazi nini ukwenza isex. iqabane lakhe. Waye waqonda ukuba ndiphi wafuna ukundinceda saqala ukuthandana ngokusemthethweni.
Andizange ndivumele amantombazana achukumise i-dick yam ngenxa yentloni yokuba ithambile, kodwa phezolo siye sagqiba ekubeni sizame ngesondo kwaye sibone ukuba kwenzekani. Andizange ndilindele ukuba ndibe nzima ngokukhawuleza kule nkqubo yokubuyisela, kodwa ndiyenzile. Ndaye ndachama kangangeepesenti ezingama-90 yaye ndakwazi ukuba neentlobano zesini naye. Ndiyakholelwa ukuba i-rewiring idlale indima enkulu kule nto. Khange ndifumane i-boner lonke ixesha ndiqalisa kwakhona de kube semva kosuku lwama-90 xa ndifumene iinkuni ezintle zakusasa iintsuku ezi-2/3 kuloo veki. Bafana bendineyona PIED imbi endikhe ndafunda ngayo xa ndithelekisa nabanye. Oku kubonisa nje ukuba SINGAPHILA. Ungaze ulahlekelwe lithemba, kufuneka uthathe isigqibo kwaye ube notshintsho olusisiseko lwembono kwi-porn onganqweneli ukuba nayo ebomini bakho kwakhona kwaye yiyo loo nto yenze umahluko kum. Ngoko ke nonke nina bafana apho kwiimeko ezifanayo, gcina ilori kwaye ungalibazisi ukuzama ukuhlakulela ubudlelwane kunye nomfazi nokuba awucingi ukuba uya kukwazi ukulala ngesondo ixesha elithile. Unokuzothusa, kwaye ukuphinda kufakwe i-REwiring YINKQUBO yabantu abangazange babelane ngesondo ngaphambili.
Iinyanga ezi-8 zasimahla kwi-PMO kwaye emva koko
Ndihambe ukusuka ngoMeyi wonyaka ophelileyo ukuya kuFebruwari walo nyaka ndikhululekile kwi-PMO. Ubunyulu obulahlekileyo, bangena kubudlelwane, baphucula kakhulu iPIED. Ndacinga ukuba ndoyisile umlutha we-PMO. Bendingalunganga. Izinto ezincinci ezibangela ukuhamba kwexesha zikhokelela ekuweni kwam ngokupheleleyo. Ukuqala kwi-shit encinci njengamantombazana kwi-instagram, ekugqibeleni yenza ukuba ibuyele kwiividiyo ze-porn. Ukusukela ngo-feb ive mhlawumbi ubuye waphinda malunga namaxesha angama-20. Akwamkelekanga.. Ixesha lokuziphendulela kwakhona.
Ngoko ndandimalunga neentsuku ze-100 xa ekugqibeleni ndabelana ngesondo. Kwaye nangona ingagqibelelanga ngokupheleleyo, uDick wam awukasoloko unzima njengoko kufanele ukuba ndisenobomi obulungileyo bokwabelana ngesondo kwaye intombi yam ayiboni mahluko. Kodwa fuck, ndifuna ukuphiliswa ngokupheleleyo kwaye ukubuyela kwam kwakhona akuncedi, kodwa ayenzenga mahluko umbi nokuba ichasene noko ndikubonileyo kodwa ukuba iyaqhubeka ngokuqinisekileyo iya kuba mandundu. Ndandizithembile kum kwaye imbali yam ye-pmo yayisemva kwam kwaye iphantsi kolawulo. awunako kwaphela ukuyekelela ukulinda kwakho. Into yayo egulayo kufuneka uhlale womelele ngayo. Ndizinikezela kwakhona namhlanje.
ndineminyaka engama-23, kwaye malunga neminyaka emi-3 okanye njalo ngalo lonke ixesha ndikunye nentombazana, kwanaxa ndidlala phambi kokwabelana ngesondo andizukuba nzima kwaphela. Nakunyaka wam wokugqibela wokubukela i-porn erections yam yayisiba semgangathweni kwaye i-shittier, kwaye ndafikelela kwinqanaba lokuba ndandifafaza nge-dick e-flaccid. ngathi 50 ekhulwini nzima. yabiwa.
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