imvelaphi -Umfana waseIndiya oneminyaka engama-34 ubudala-wayebukele iphonografi ukusukela kwiminyaka ye-19/20. Ngaphambi koko bendihlala ndisiya emaphephandabeni, nditsho nemifanekiso eshushu yabasetyhini abadumileyo kumaphephandaba, kunye nengcinga zam ezingcolileyo (ubukhulu becala iingcinga zesini ezothusayo / ezinqabileyo, ngenxa yokukhuliswa kwam kakubi lelinye ibali ngokwalo eligcinelwe elinye ixesha ndicinga ngalo) . Ke yintoni echaza i-95% yamaxesha ndibukele iphonografi ligama elinye- 'Ukuhlela'!
Ewe-kholwa okanye hayi! Ukusukela oko ndimncinci kakhulu xa bendihlala ndihlikihla amalungu am eselukhukweni ebhedini ixesha elide, ndaye ndaye ndadibana ndandisa ukonwaba kwam ixesha elide.
Emva phaya ndandisazi ukuba ukonyuka kubi kwezempilo kwaye kunciphise amandla / amandla am kakhulu - kodwa bendingazi ukuba esona sizathu siphambili soko 'kukuziva ngathi shit' emva kwexesha-le-5 leyure 'yayiyinto' yokuhlela 'kunye nokuthotywa / nenxalenye yetyala endizonwabisayo kulo, kwaye hayi kanye i-ejaculation. Kulungile, ukunyusa amaxesha amaninzi kubi kodwa ndicinga ukuba uninzi lwethu luyazi ukuba jizzing iposti ye-10 yomzuzu wokucinga / ukuhlangana ngesondo okusondeleyo yi-LOT LESS enobungozi kune-orgasm ebangelwa zi-porn.
Ndiye ndalikhoboka lale ndlela yokuphila. Ndikwazile ukubukela iiyure ebusuku nokuba ndinomsebenzi wokuya kusasa. Oku kuchaphazele ukulala kwam, ukuzithemba, inkqubo yam yokucinga, isidima sam, ubukrelekrele bam, impilo yam, indlela endisebenza ngayo kunye nokuba yintoni. Ndandixinezelekile i-90% yexesha lam lokuvuka. Ndaqala ukoyika yonke into encinci ejikeleze mna, ngakumbi ukungqubana kunye nabantu abanegunya-ke ukusebenza kakubi kwaba kwaye ekugqibeleni ndayeka.
Ngenxa 'yobume' be-porn endiyijikelezayo ubukhulu becala (fem-om, tra-y) ye-13 iminyaka emide, idityaniswa neendlela ezisezantsi ze-binging ye-porn- ndaqhubeka nokuhla ndiphantsi kumjelo wamanzi. Ndisazi ukuba kufuneka itshintshe ngokukhawuleza, kwaye ndazama iindlela ezimbalwa (ndakuba ndisiya kude malunga neentsuku ezingama-31 emva kokufumana / r / nofap) kodwa ekugqibeleni ndiza kuchukunyiswa kwaye 'umnxeba we-gutter' ungandikhokelela ekubeni ndiphinde ndiphinde ndiphinde ndiphinde ndiphinde ndibuye. Ngokomndilili, ngendibukele iiyure ezingama-2/3 zoononophala YONKE IMIHLA kwiminyaka yokugqibela ye-10 okanye nangaphezulu (uqikelelo nje, isenokuba ngaphezulu).
Ndingongeza amaphepha kwimvelaphi yam enzulu ye-shit kodwa ukusika ibali elifutshane, bendiyinto yomntu wonke. Ndazi ukuba ndifuna utshintsho, kodwa andikwazanga ukuhamba ngaphandle kwethamo lam eliqhelekileyo le-porn kwiintsuku ezimbalwa. Ewe, emva kokuba ndibuyele emva kwayo yonke into - Oo mntu! Oko yayikukuzinkcinkca ngeenkcukacha zazo ezoyikisa isihogo kubantu abathanda intsimbi.
Phuhliso -Ndisendleleni 'yokuzama kwakhona' kulo mkhwa, ndadibana Ividiyo kaGary Wilson (njengabaninzi benu niyazi). Ndiyidlile le sub, ndifunde iiwebhusayithi ezahlukeneyo (njengeYBOP, ukubuyisela kwakhona iiforamu njlnjl.). Ezi zinto amaxesha ngamaxesha zikwazile ukubuyisa ukuzithemba kwam kancinci. Nje ukuba ndifunde kwintambo yeforum (uxolo andikhumbuli, ngumfo odumileyo kule forum) malunga nokuba 'ukuzama ukuyeka' ngaphandle kwesicwangciso sobomi / inkanuko ayizukukhokelela kuyo nayiphi na into eneziqhamo. Ndiyayazi-kodwa ndandingenakunceda ngaphandle kwenjongo / ukuthanda / ukuzonwabisa.
Ndizamile ukufunda 'ukubhala ngobuchule' kwaye ndazibhalisela ikhosi yeempelaveki ezili-12 kunyaka ophelileyo. Ndifunda kakuhle kakhulu, kodwa ngenxa yesiyobisi sikhohlakeleyo se-porn, ndaqala ukuphoswa ziiklasi / izabelo kwaye ekugqibeleni ndazishiya phakathi.
Ndikhe ndaya nakwiintsuku ezili-10 zokuthula 'kweVipassana' kwisikhululo senduli eIndiya (uninzi lwabantu baseYurophu nabaseMelika babekhona) kwaye ndacinga ukuba ndiza kutshintsha emva koko. Incede iintsuku ezimbalwa kodwa ke 'ndibuyile kwishishini' (ngelishwa). Kodwa ndiqinisekile ukuba ndinyanzelwe ukuba ndihlale kuloo ndawo phantsi kwemithetho yabo kangangeenyanga ezi-2/3 ubuncinci, ngekhe ndibuye njengomntu owahlukileyo. Ngapha koko.
Utshintsho oluncinci endaluqala kulo nyaka uphelileyo kukuba ndiye ndaqala ukumamela ezinye 'iiMantra' (inkolo yethu yamaHindu ityebe kakhulu kule meko) rhoqo, kwaye ndizama ukuthatha uhambo lwemizuzu engama-20/25 kwangokuhlwa xa ndinako. Kweminye ayizukuthetha nto, kodwa ndikholelwe ezi zinto zimbini ziqale ukundiguqula njengomntu, ukuba khe zincinci kangako.
Kwaye ngenye imini - Umhlobo, owayeyazi ukuzithemba kwam okuphantsi / impilo embi kunye nomnqweno wam wobuntwana wokufunda ubugcisa bemfazwe (kodwa ndingazi malunga nesiyobisi sam se-porn) wandinyanzela ukuba ndithathe uvavanyo lokulwa iklasi yobugcisa (Krav Maga to be precise) kufutshane nasekhaya. KwakungoLwesithathu lo. Ndisakhumbula ukuba emva kwaloo klasi, ndandisentlungwini kwiintsuku ezilandelayo ze-2/3. Andikwazi nokuqhekeza ngokufanelekileyo ukuba ndihlambe (apha eIndiya sisenayo i-'squatty 'commod kumakhaya amaninzi), kuba umqeqeshi wam undinike ukukhaba ngakunye emathangeni am angaphandle. Uye wayikrwitsha kancinci intamo yam wandibetha kanye esiswini, kodwa ngokunyaniseka emva kweklasi ndaziva ndibhetele kakhulu kunangaphambili.
Kwiintsuku ze-2 kamva (ngolwesiHlanu) kuye kwafuneka ndihambe nemirhumo yenyanga, kodwa ndiyaqikelela-usuku olungaphambi koko ndaphinda ndabuya ndalahla wonke umnqweno / ukuqhuba ukuze ndihambe. Ndathumela umyalezo kumqeqeshi wam ukuba ndiza kujoyina ukusukela ngoMvulo (ngokuzinikela nje kwesiqingatha-esile) nangobabalo lukaThixo, ndikwazile ukuzinyanzela ukuba ndizise iesile lam elibuthathaka, umrhumo wenyanga, iifoto ezimbini kunye nepen yokubhala. Iphepha elichazayo ukuba awusenanto oyifunayo - ngalo Mvulo umnandi.
Ukusukela ngoko, khange ndijonge emva. Into ephantse ibe ngumlingo (ibonakala ngathi iyimilingo kum ubuncinci) yaqala ukwenzeka. Ndandinomdla kakhulu ngokufunda iinyanga zokuqala ze-2/3 kangangokuba ndalahla isilingo kunye nomnqweno we-porn. Ayisiyiyo loo nto kuphela, phantsi kwempembelelo yomqeqeshi wam (uThixo amsikelele) ndakwazi ukuphucula indlela enditya ngayo ndade ndalala ngokwaneleyo. Yonke into idityanisiwe akunjalo? Ufuna ukulungela iklasi ukuze uzame ukuthatha ukutya okufanelekileyo / ukulala, okudityaniswa nehlombe lakho kukhokelela kufundo olukhawulezileyo kunye nokusebenza okuphuculweyo ngesantya esifanelekileyo. Uyabona ngokuthe ngcembe ukuba uya usiba sempilweni kwaye 'ukumile kakuhle'.
Kwaye xa umqeqeshi eqala ukukuncoma- oh boy! Ungena kolo luvo luqinisekileyo (uyayonyusa imisebenzi X ukuze wenze ngcono kwimisebenzi Y, umsebenzi ongcono u-Y ukhokelela kukuqiniswa okuninzi okuhle ngohlobo lwe-Z olufuna ngakumbi ukuba wenze okungaphezulu komsebenzi we-X, yiyo loo nto u-Y / Z njalo njalo).
Isishwankathelo seenyanga zokugqibela ze-6 -Andikhange ndijonge iphonografi efanelekileyo ngese (akukho vidiyo, akukho mabali, akukho pics) kwiintsuku ezingama-180 zokugqibela - ngaphandle kwetyala. Kule mizuzu ilinga ndingavula iisayithi 'zokuhambisa' okanye ndikhangele izinto 'zeky-y females' kinda izinto kuGoogle okanye 'ezona zilishumi zibalaseleyo zamaxesha onke' kuwe ityhubhu njl. Imizuzu emi-10 (ngaphandle kokuchukumisa uJohn wam. Ndiyeke iingcinga zam zibaleke kancinci okwemizuzu embalwa), endaweni yoko ndenze i-4 yokunyuka, cinga ngeklasi elandelayo yobugcisa bemfazwe njl.
Kwiinyanga ezi-1/2 ezidlulileyo ukuphuculwa kobugcisa bemfazwe kuye kwacotha ngenxa yezizathu ezininzi kwaye ndiye ndaqala ukukhupha (izizathu eziphume esandleni sam), kodwa ke ubomi bungcono kakhulu kuneenyanga ezi-6 ubuyile. Inkungu yobuchopho iyinciphisile i-LOT, abantu baqalisile ukuphawula ngokuqina kwam, ubuso bam obungenatyala / obuhle. Ngolo suku kwindawo yesihlobo ngaphezulu kwabantu aba-2 bavakalise ukuba andijongi i-34 kodwa ndingaphantsi kwe-30.
Ngamanye amaxesha ndibamba amabhinqa aqala kum, ebeyiphupha ngaphambili. Ndiqalile ukukholelwa kuThixo / kuMandla oLuntu ngokubanzi, into leyo elawula yonke into (kwakhona abanye bakho bangangakholelwa, sonke sineembono zethu). Ngoku ngamanye amaxesha (kanye kwinyanga eblue), abantu baqala ukwenza intetho encinci kunye nam (ngaphambili bendicinga ukuba wonke umntu ufuna ukuhlala kude nam). Ndicinga ukuba i-aura yam yamandla iba ngcono ukuya kwinqanaba elithile ngenxa yokutya okungcono, imikhwa engcono njl.
Ukunyaniseka, andikhange ndibenguKing Kong. Andikatshati kwaye ndinokuninzi ekufuneka ndikufundile malunga nokuhlala kamnandi namantombazana / nabafazi. Ndinezigaba zokudakumba (nangona ezo zinciphise malunga ne-60/70% ubuncinci), ndisenezilingo (ekufuneka ndizilawule), ndisoyika ukujongana nabantu (kodwa ndiyabona uloyiko lwam luyehla kancinci kancinci). Ukutya endikutyayo akukakulungelanga (ndithatha iikhabhohayidi, iswekile njlnjl. - ukutya kwayo eIndiya), kodwa kungcono kunangaphambili
Sele iinyanga ze-6 kwaye ngoku ndiqale ukuziva 'ndonwabile' ebomini. Abanye abantu bacinga ukuba iinyanga ezi-6 lide kakhulu ixesha - ekumele ukuba zitshintshile kwinyanga yesi-2/3 okanye nangaphambi koko - apho ndithi: 'Wonke umntu ukwelinye inqanaba lobomi, kwaye unemvelaphi eyahlukileyo njengam . Okukhona ungena nzulu ezantsi kumjelo wakho, kokukhona kuya kuthabatha ixesha / umzamo omkhulu ukuphuma kunye nokunyukela esibhakabhakeni, kodwa oko akukho sezandleni zethu / ezandleni zakho konke konke '.
Ngokubanzi, le sub, YBOP / iiforamu ezinxulumene noko, ukuzibandakanya kwam kuluncedo (eyam yayiyikarati, ungangena kulwimi okanye isixhobo kwakhona), konke phantsi kobabalo lukaThixo- kundincedile ekufumaneni ' Iinyanga ze-6-inkwenkwezi apha. Andazi ukuba izakuqhubeka ixesha elingakanani le nto, kodwa namhlanje bendifuna ukwabelana nani ngayo yonke le nto, ndenze njalo. UThixo asikelele wonke umntu!
Ndithandaza kuThixo ukuba abe ngumhlobo / umxhasi kum koluhambo. Ndibuze nayiphi na imibuzo ukuba unayo, ndiya kukuvuyela ukuphendula.
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