Ndizithatha njengelinye lawona matyala aqatha e-PIED endiwabonileyo. Kwandithatha malunga neminyaka eyi-1.5 ukuba ndibuyele, ngaphandle kokubuyela kwi-pornography. Ndinetyala kuni bafana ukwabelana ngebali lam lempumelelo. Nako sisiya.
Ukusetyenziswa kwamanyala:
Ukusetyenziswa kwam amanyala kwaqala xa ndandikwishumi elivisayo. Ekubeni ndingumntwana ongenalwazi, ndacinga ukuba i-porn ayinabungozi. Njengoko ndiza kufunda kabuhlungu, iphonografi ayinabungozi.
Ndabukela i-porn (PMO'd) malunga nolunye usuku. Ngaphandle kokuqaphela, umlutha wam we-porn wathatha ngokupheleleyo ubomi bam. Ndaba ngundaba-mlonyeni. Ndaphelelwa yintsingiselo nenjongo ebomini bam. Ndenze ubuncinci ukugcina inkohliso yokuba ndingumntu osebenzayo. Ubukhulu becala ukuze usapho lwam kunye nabahlobo bam bangazikhathazi ngam / bafumanise ukuba likhoboka lam.
Emva kweminyaka eliqela yokusebenzisa i-porn engaguqukiyo, ekugqibeleni ndawa ndatsha. Kunzima.
Rock Bottom:
Ngenye imini ndazama ukujonga enye iphonografi endiyithandayo. Okwandothusayo kukuba, andizange ndikwazi nokuvuseleleka. Ndiye ndahamba nge-porn eninzi kwiintsuku ezimbalwa ezizayo, ndicinga ukuba ukuswela kwam i-libido kwakuyinto engaqhelekanga. Ndandingekaziva kwanto kwaphela. Ndaqalisa ukungcangcazela. Kwangoko ndiye ndaqonda ukuba ibinzima kangakanani na iphonografi yam. Ayisiyiyo kuphela into yokuba ndingavulwa yintombazana yokwenyani, okanye ukubanjwa ngokomzimba, kodwa andikwazanga nokuvulwa yiphonografi endiyithandayo.
Ekuqaleni, ndandingazi ukuba kuqhubeka ntoni. Ndandingazi nokuba iingxaki zam zazinxulumene nokusetyenziswa kwam namanyala. Uninzi lwamanqaku e-ED kwi-Intanethi akafane akhankanye ukuba iphonografi ineziphumo eziyingozi empilweni.
Ukuqalisa kwakhona:
Ekugqibeleni ndafumana amanqaku athi i-porn yayinonxibelelwano kunye ne-ED kubafana abancinci. Ukususela ngaloo mzuzu andizange ndibuyele kwi-porn.
Ndingatsho ngokunyanisekileyo ukuba andizange ndide ndisondele ekubuyeleni kwakhona ngexesha lokuqalisa kwam kwakhona. Ubukhulu becala kuba ndandisoyikeka kakhulu kukuva intonga ephaphazelayo efileyo, kwanangephonografi endiyithandayo.
Ndandingakulungele ngokupheleleyo kwaye ndingazi malunga neempawu zokurhoxisa eziza kundibetha kwiiveki ezilandela ukuyeka kwam i-porn. Andazi nokuba ndingayichaza njani le nto bendiyiva. Ibingathi ingqondo yam iyandikhwaza. Njengoko yayindixelela ukuba ndiyafa ngaphandle kokwenza umlutha wam. Ndandingakwazi ukugxila kuyo nantoni na. Ndandicinga ukuba ndiza kushiywa ziingqondo.
Iimpawu zokurhoxisa zafika ngamaza. Ndandingasebenzi ngokupheleleyo kangangeentsuku ngexesha. Iimpawu zazinzima kakhulu xa zaziqala; emva kweeveki ezimbalwa zokuyeka i-porn. Emva kweeveki ezimbalwa kuye kwabangcono kakhulu, nangona ndiye ndafumana inkungu yengqondo (engakwazi ukugxila ngokucacileyo) iza ngamaza iinyanga ezininzi.
Ekugqibeleni ndiye ndafumana iividiyo zikaGabe kunye nazo zonke iinyaniso ezothusayo malunga nokusetyenziswa kwephonografi. Enkosi uthixo ngoGabe. Ukuba bendingazifumananga iividiyo zakhe… andazi ukuba bekuya kuba yintoni na kum.
Ukusinda kwinkqubo yokuqalisa kwakhona kunye neempawu zokurhoxisa, fumana into (okanye izinto ezininzi) onokuthi ubeke ingqondo yakho kuzo. Okubaluleke ngakumbi, yiba nobubele kuwe. Unokufumana isihogo emhlabeni ngokuqalisa kwakho ngokutsha. Musa ukuba nzima kakhulu kuwe.
Ndaqalisa ukubaleka, ndaphakamisa iintsimbi. Ndaziva ngathi kukufa kukwenza le misebenzi, kodwa hayi ngenxa yokuba irhafu ngokwasemzimbeni. Ubukhulu becala ngenxa yokuba kwixesha elidlulileyo ukusebenza ngokwasemzimbeni kwakusoloko kundenza ndizive ndonwabile. Akunjalo ngexesha lokuqalisa kwakhona. Inkungu yengqondo/impawu zokurhoxa zaziphambili engqondweni yam nokuba ndenza ntoni na. Sekunjalo, ndandizingisa ekwenzeni umthambo kuba ndandifuna ukutshintsha yonke into ngam. Engqondweni yam, ndandingayeki nje amanyala, ndandizinika ithuba lesibini ebomini.
Ukuvuselela:
Ndaqala ubudlelwane nentombi yam yangaphambili kamsinya nje emva kokuba ndiqale ngokutsha. Ndikholelwa ukuba ngokuqinisekileyo wandinceda ndachacha okwethutyana, kodwa ndazama ukumfihlela iingxaki zam. Andikukhuthazi ukuba yimfihlo ngeengxaki zakho ukuba uzifumana ukwimeko efanayo.
Isilumkiso esivela kumava am -
Ndiyazi ukuba zininzi ii-rebooters ezinqwenela ukufumana intombi ukuba ibancede babuyele. Nyathela ngononophelo. Abafazi abaninzi banamhlanje (kunye namadoda) abangobantu abalungileyo. Musa ukuthengisa ngentliziyo yakho ithuba lokuba kunye nomfazi okhohlakeleyo. Nokuba ucinga ukuba kuya kunceda ukubuyisela kwakhona. Kuya kukwenza umonakalo omkhulu kunokulunga. Ndikholelwe.
Andikho kwinkolelo yokuba ukuphinda kufakwe iintambo kunyanzelekile ukuba uphinde ufumane kwakhona. Nam ngokwam andizange ndizive ndiphile de kube ziinyanga eziliqela emva kokuba ndohlukene nentombi endandithandana nayo ngoko.
Isiphelo:
Kwandithatha malunga nonyaka onesiqingatha ukuba ndizive ndichache ngokupheleleyo (ngaphandle kokuphinda ndibuyele). Oku kude kakhulu kunomndilili. Ndiziva ndingcono phantse unyaka ngoku.
Into endinqwenela ukuba ndiyixelelwe kwasekuqaleni, kukuba alukho usuku oluqinisekileyo apho uya kuvuka kwaye ngokukhawuleza uzive u-100%. Ukuqalisa kwakhona luhambo. Njengoko uqhubela phambili ekuchacheni kwakho, uya kuba neentsuku apho uziva ulungile kwaye usondele ekuchacheni, kulandele iintsuku apho uziva usoyika kwaye uphelele. Ekugqibeleni, iintsuku ezilungileyo ziya kuqala ukuba ziqheleke ngakumbi kunobubi, kwaye iya kuyeka ukuziva ngathi yonke imihla yimfazwe. Ngaphambi kokuba uyazi, awuyi kucinga ngokuqalisa kwakhona kuba uziva uqhelekile kwakhona. Ubuncinane, yayingamava am lawo.
Yazi nje ukuba kudala usokola nalento likhona ithemba. Yomelela. Uhambo lude, kwaye lunokuziva ngathi alunakuphela. Yiloo nto eqinisekileyo ukuba yayivakala njani ngexesha lam lokuphinda ndiqalise. Kukho ukukhanya ekupheleni kwetonela ndiyathembisa. Qhubeka utyhalela phambili.
Ndiyanithanda bobhuti.
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