Makhe ndikwenze kucace kwasekuqaleni: awuyidingi i-pmo, le yinyani yeentsuku ezingama-30 zenze ukuba ndiqonde, akukho nto uzakuphulukana nayo, izibonelelo zigqithile kwimizuzu engama-5 yokuziva ichitha ubomi bakho i-100.
Nali ibali lam, ndandinomlutha xa ndicinga ukuba i-13 ngoku i-20, ndaqala i-porn ngaphambili, ndaqala ekubukeni izigcawu zokumanga ukuya kwi-porno ngoku ngoku, xa ndiqala ndingazi ukuba akukho nto iphosakeleyo ngayo, Bendingayazi nokuba yintoni, ndivele ndikhubeke kuyo, ke kule minyaka iyi-2 yokuqala iphakathi kwe-13 - 15,
ndandingenakucacelwa, ulwazi kuphela endikufumene malunga ne-pmo zivela kubahlobo bam abanomlutha nabo babengazi kwaye bengacingi ukuba akukho nto iphosakeleyo ngayo, ngaloo maxesha ndaye ndanyanzelisa, ngaphandle kokuhamba usuku ngaphandle kwayo, ndatshitshisa nantoni na engacingi ngayo ukungena kwiinkcukacha, nayiphi na into enokuyenza, uyenzile,
Ndicinga ukuba ngelaxesha ndandineminyaka eyi-16 ukuba ndaqala ukudibana nabantu ababelikhoboka lexesha elide abandixelela inyani yokwenyani yeyokwenene, ndafumanisa neNoFap ngelo xesha.
Kwaye yayikukuqala kokuqalisa kwakhona, yayisisihogo, kwakungekho lula, ndandinzulu kakhulu, ndikholisa ubuchopho bam obusele buthandekile ukuba into ebiyenziwa kwiminyaka emi-3 ayisiyonto intle kwaye kufuneka imisiwe kwakungekho lula, Yinto ekufuneka wonke umntu ayiqonde,
akukho ndlela ilula yokuphuma, nokuba ungasebenzisa yiphi na indlela, kuyakubakho indawo apho kuya kufuneka ubheke ezinzwaneni ngengqondo yakho, de ndiyamkele loo nyani andizange ndenze nkqubela phambili, eyona migca iphambili yam ngelo xesha yayi Ndicinga i-4 - 5 yeentsuku, ndakuba ndiziva ndingonwabanga ndinikezele, oku kwaqhubeka kangangeminyaka,
Ndaphapha kuyo yonke indawo naphina, ndaziva ngathi bendizulazula nje ngexesha, indichaphazele kakhulu, ndifunda ubudlelwane bam, nabahlobo kunye nosapho, ukuba ucinga ubudlelwane njengamantombazana HAYI kuba, injongo yam yokuthetha isini esahlukileyo / ukuzithemba kwakungekho,
ndandiyimbiza entle kakhulu, ngeloxesha ndandidlalela ibhola, ndidlala nabahlobo okanye abantu endibaziyo ukuba ndinguThixo, ndadlala kumanqanaba afana noMesiya okanye uRonaldo, xa ndajoyina iqela lendawo ndandingazi mntu, ukuzithemba kwam kwakungekho, kwakungathi andikaze ndiyidlale ibhola ngaphambili, ubomi bam bonke ngelo xesha buhle kakhulu buye ecaleni, andiphumelelanga nto.
emva kovavanyo oluninzi kwaye ndisilele, ndade ndalamkela ikamva lam, ukuba bendizokuyeka oku, kuye kwafuneka ndingene konke, ndenze imantra apho ndizixelela khona ukuba ndiza kuhamba esihogweni ukuba kunyanzelekile, ungabi nzima kuba ubomi bam babusisihogo kakhulu,
Ngelo xesha ndandiqala ukubona iziphumo, ke ngoku ndineminyaka engama-20 ubudala kunye neentsuku ezingama-30, kwaye ndiziva ndimangalisa, bendingenguye okholelwa kakhulu kumandla amakhulu kodwa nazi iinguqu endizibonileyo / endinamava ngazo
- imeko yam iyonke ibe ngcono, ndizifumana ndiziva ndilungile
- ndiqaphele ukwanda kokuzithemba kwam, ndingumntu ojonge phantsi ngoku, ndinokujonga nabani na emehlweni, ngamanye amaxesha ndiziva ndijonge emphefumlweni wakho (LOL)
-Ndisebenza rhoqo nokuba ngeentsuku zam ze-pmo kwaye bendijongeka ndilungile, kodwa kwezi ntsuku zingama-30 zidlulileyo, khange ndisebenze ngokwenene ngenxa yesikolo kwaye konke, bendisebenza nje ngamaxesha athile kwaye ndikhangeleka ndikrazule ngokungathi umzimba wam uyazikrola , ndiye ndazijonga esipilini ngale ntsasa kwaye ndiyayithanda, ngathi yinto engaphantsi, ndiyayithanda into endiyibonayo
-Ndiyabona ukuba andikuniki nto malunga nantoni na, akukho nto indiphambanisayo, ekuphela kwendlela endiziva ngayo kule mihla luthando, ngoku ndiwela ngokulula kubantu besini esahlukileyo, izinto ezincinci endingakhange ndizibone ngaphambili njengezulu kum ngoku, ukuncuma kwentombazana, okanye indlela yokuthetha okanye isimilo okanye uburharha kundenza ndiwele intombazana (kufuneka ndiyibeke phantsi kolawulo)
-Ndicinga ngcono, ngokukhawuleza nangokucacileyo, ekuphela kwendlela yokuchaza oku, ingathi yeyenkunzi yegusha yePC, emva kokususa nokucima iifayile ze-junk, ifumana inkunzi yegusha eninzi kunye namandla okusombulula, ndiziva ngathi ndinguSherlock Holmes ngoku
-Inokuba kungenxa yesi sibonelelo singasentla, ndiyadlala ibhola kwaye ndivakalelwa kukuba ndikhule ngengqondo yesithandathu, ndigqitha ekuqhubeni amanqaku kwaye ayindim owenza ezo, kufana nokuba ndenza izigqibo zemilisecekeceke, ndizamile ukugqiba ukuba kutheni Ndihambe ngale ndlela, bendisazi njani ukuba lo mkhuseli uza kuhamba ngaloo ndlela, kwaye khange ndikwazi ukuyicacisa ngokusengqiqweni, kuyenzeka nje
yile nto ikhe yanamava ukuza kuthi ga ngoku
ukumisa umlutha womelele njengokuba oku kungelulanga, ingcebiso yam kukufumanisa ukuba yeyiphi into ekusebenzelayo, icebo lika-A alinakusebenzela uB, icebo lika-B alinakusebenzela uC, asizange sonke sibe ngamakhoboka ngendlela efanayo, kwaye into Undincede nyani kukuqikelela umnqweno okanye ukuphinda ubuye ngaphambi kokuba yenzeke kwaye uphephe ukuqala kwayo, indincede kakhulu kwaye yenza ukuba ndiqalise kwakhona kube lula kakhulu, emva kokwenza oko ukunqanda zonke izinto ezinokubangela nokuba zibukeka zingabalulekanga
Olu ngumdyarho weembaleki hayi ugqatso, kwaye khumbula ukuba ubukhe walikhoboka lomlutha akukho mntu ungenakoyiswa, hayi ukuze akoyikise kodwa ndicinga ukuba ndifike kwiintsuku ezingama-30, yonke into malunga ne-pmo izakuphela inyamalale kwaye andizukulingwa kwakhona, ayisiyiyo le kunjalo, ubuncinci hayi indlela ekum ngayo kum, bendisenawo umnqweno ngale ntsasa, inqaku elipheleleyo leNoFap kukomelela ukuya kwinqanaba apho yonke iminqweno ingenamandla njengokuhleba
Andazi ukuba izakunyamalala umphelo, kodwa ndiqinisekile ukuba isihogo somelele kakhulu kunakuqala
Wonke umntu unokutshintsha, ukuba umntu ofunda eli xesha ubuyile kwiminyaka emi-2 eyadlulayo kwaye wandixelela ukuba ndifike kwiintsuku ezingama-30, ngekhe ndikholelwe ndicinga ukuba ndinomlutha kakhulu ukuba ndikhululeke, wonke umntu kwaye nabani na angatshintsha, ninokwenza konke oku
yithathe nje ngosuku, iRoma ayakhiwanga ngemini, ungayenza le nto, ungayibetha le nto, ube sisilo esicocekileyo obucetyelwe ukuba ube ngaso, amathamsanqa amathamsanqa.
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