BendinePIED iminyaka eli-12 (iDick engaphiliyo xa ndithandana nabasetyhini). Emva kwe-~4 iinyanga zemowudi enzima, ndibe nesondo esiyimpumelelo. Ndilala ngesondo ukusukela ngoko kwaye ndohlulekile kube kanye. Kwaye oko bekukumjikelo wesibini. Ngobusuku obulandelayo ndandikulungele ukuya kwakhona. Ndabelana ngesondo ngokulandelelana iintsuku ezi-4 zilandelelana ngaphandle kwengxaki encinci.
Ndiba nzima ngokufutha nje. Uqhaqho lwam luhlala ixesha elide kwaye alupheli. Baye baphela ngenkohlakalo ngelixa bebukele i-porn kwaye ndandiyi-PMOing kunye ne-dick enzima efuna ukukhuthazwa rhoqo. Nkqu ne-precum yam egqithisileyo "ingxaki" ibonakala ngcono emva kweenyanga ezintlanu.
Ukurhoxiswa kunye nezibongozo zenzeka kodwa kukuhamba epakini xa kuthelekiswa nokuqala kokuqaliswa kwakhona.
Iphonografi yam iphantse yaphela.
Udakumba lwam lweminyaka emi-3 lunyibilike lwaba kumoya omncinci emva kweentsuku ezingama-26 kuphela zemowudi enzima yokuqalisa. Andizange ndidandatheke nangemini enye ukususela ngoko. Ndilala kamnandi kakhulu. Ngaphambili, ndandilala ukuya kutsho kwiiyure ezili-12 ngempelaveki kwaye ndisaziva ndidiniwe. Kule mihla ndivuka ndedwa emva kweeyure ezi-6-7 zokulala kwaye ndiziva ndihlaziyekile.
Ndingumntu ophumayo kakhulu kwaye ndinobuchule bokuhlala. Zininzi izibonelelo, iphambene ngokupheleleyo. Ndingazithethela kuphela kodwa ukuqalisa ngokutsha kunye namandla kwiinyanga ezi-3 zokuqala kunokuba busindise ubomi bam.
Kunjalo nje. cofa le linki ukuthenga i-oyile yam yenyoka enyanga i-PIED kwisibetha sentliziyo.
As of ngomso ndi clean for 6 months. I-libido yam kunye ne-MW zibuyele kwisiqhelo. Ndandine flatline ekuqaleni eyathatha i26 days yaphela ngephupha elimanzi. Emva koko yonke into yaphucuka kakhulu kwaye izinto zisaphucuka. Njengoko benditshilo, emva kwe-~4 iinyanga ndiye ndakwazi ukulala ngesondo.
By Pete McVries
UHLAZIYO - Iqaliswe ngokutsha, yaphinda yasetyenziswa kwaye yachacha - iminyaka emi-2 icocekile, i-PIED ihambile!
Bathandekayo abasebenza kabusha,
Ukusukela namhlanje, ndineentsuku ze-731 ezicocekileyo kwi-porn kunye ne-masturbation. Ngokunokwenzeka, ibali lam alahlukanga kakhulu kwelinye likaJohn Doe ngePIED. Ngoko ndizama ukuyigcina imfutshane kwaye ilula kangangoko ndinako. Ukuba unayo nayiphi na imibuzo, zive ukhululekile kwaye ubuze uninzi njengoko uthanda, ndiza kuzama ukuyiphendula yonke.
isishwankathelo:
Ndiyindoda eneminyaka eyi-33 ehlupheke kwi-PIED ye-15 iminyaka ukusuka kwi-17 ukuya kwi-32. Kwiminyaka eyi-13, ndafumanisa i-porn kwaye ndaqala ukuyisebenzisa rhoqo ukususela ekubeni mhlawumbi ndineminyaka eyi-15 ubudala. Xa ndandineminyaka eli-17 ubudala, ndandisele ndinezinto ezingaphezu kwe-100 zeDVD-rips zemifanekiso bhanyabhanya engamanyala (nabani na okhumbula iintsuku ezilungileyo ze-ol'emule?)
Ndikwazile ukwabelana ngesondo kanye ndineminyaka eli-17 ubudala nentombi yam ngelo xesha kodwa kuzo zonke ezinye iinzame kunye naye okanye amanye amantombazana kule minyaka izayo (malunga neenzame ezili-15) uDick wam wawungenabomi kwaphela. Andikwazanga kufumana ukumiswa ukuze ndisindise ubomi bam. I-erections yam xa i-masturbating nge-porn yayingekho ingxaki eyatshintsha kakhulu ibe yimbi kwiminyaka yam engamashumi amabini. Ndagqiba ekubeni ndingakwazi ukwenza i-masturbate ngaphandle kwe-porn kwaye ndifuna ukuvuselela umzimba rhoqo ngelixa usebenzisa i-porn.
Iingcali ezininzi ze-urologists endandihlala kuzo ngexesha leminyaka azikwazanga ukundinceda kwaye i-Viagra ekugqibeleni abayimisela uPete oneminyaka engama-20 ubudala ayizange isebenze. Ukungazi ukuba yintoni eyabangela ukuba i-ED yam ibe noburhalarhume kwaye yandihlutha ukuzithemba kwam kwaye yandichaphazela kakubi kakhulu. Bendidakumbile kuyo yonke iminyaka yam yamashumi amabini kwaye ndabugxeka ubukho bam olusizi buqalekiswa nge-ED engachazekiyo.
Ngo-2015, ndafumanisa YourBrainOnPorn.com kwaye Intetho yeTED kaGary Wilson Zombini zazitshintshile ngokupheleleyo kum kuba ndiye ndafumanisa ukuba yintoni ebangele i-ED yam. Ndifuna ukudibanisa Ibhokisi yeMfihlakalo yeCawa kaNowa gig kuba wakwazi ukuchaza kanye indlela endandiziva ngayo nokubandezeleka ngayo yonke loo minyaka. Kuba ndilapha, Qalisa kwakhona itshaneli yeSizwe ukwangumthombo omkhulu.
Ndikwazile ukukrazula malunga ne-100 leentsuku ezicocekileyo ngoko nangoko kodwa ndantlitheka ndatsha kakhulu kamsinya nje emva kokuba neyona meko imbi yempilo yengqondo kubo bonke ubomi bam. Iminyaka emithathu yesihogo yaqala, apho ndandiza kuba lilitye elingakhathaliyo elingakwaziyo ukusebenza ngokufanelekileyo elalisonganyelwe yeyona misebenzi ilula yemihla ngemihla ngakumbi kwiimeko zentlalo.
Nge-5 kaJanuwari ka-2019, ndaphinda ndabuyela umva okokugqibela kwaye andizange ndiphulule amaphambili okanye ndibukele iphonografi ukusukela oko. Emva kokuba nohlobo lwe-epiphany ngelixa nditshaya idosi encinci kakhulu yokhula, ndakwazi ukuseta umvundla ukuba ubaleke kwakhona. Ngenxa yoko, ndiye ndakwazi ukuchacha phantse ngokupheleleyo ngokumalunga nempilo yam yengqondo, kwaye nokudakumba kwam kwaphela ngokupheleleyo emva kokuba ndicocekile kangangenyanga nasemva kokuba ndishiye i-flatline yokuqala ngenxa yephupha elimanzi. Ngaphezulu koko, ndaye ndakwazi ukuyeka ukuthatha amayeza endandiwafuna kakhulu ngaphambili ukuze ndikwazi ukulala kwaphela kwaye ndingahambi.
Ukuyeka i-orgasms kunye ne-porn kunye nethemba elitsha eliye landenza ndaqhagamshelana nomfazi endandimazi ngaphambi kokuphazamiseka kwengqondo kwaye ndaqala ukuba ngumntu ongesondo (kwakhona) emva kokuba ndicocekile iinyanga ze-4-5. Lo mfazi uliqabane lam unanamhla.
Kude kube sekupheleni kuka-2019, ndasebenzisa idosi encinci ye-Tadalafil (10mg amaxesha ambalwa okuqala, emva koko i-5mg) emiselwe ngugqirha wam we-urologist ngakumbi njenge-crutch yengqondo. Ngo-2020, ndaziva ndizithembile ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndingazama ukwabelana ngesondo ngaphandle kwayo kwaye ndiye ndakwazi ukwenza ii-erections ezazinamandla njengangaphambili kwaye zingenazo naziphi na iziphene. Xa ndithetha inyani, andizange ndikwazi ukwenza umahluko. Nangona, ndifuna ukuqaphela, ukuba xa ndilala ngesondo okokuqala ngaphandle kweTadalafil, ndaziva ndixhalabile. Ngoko ke, ukuba uceba ukuphinda udibanise kwakhona ngoncedo lwe-ED meds, qaphela ukuba oku kuya kuba ngumqobo (omncinci) owongezelelweyo. Ngokuchasene noko, umqobo wokuqala wokwabelana ngesondo (kwakhona) unokuba sezantsi kwaye kunokuba lula kuwe ukuba ubuyele kwisenzo.
Ndizithatha ndiphile ngokupheleleyo kwi-PIED endibandezeleke kuyo iminyaka eyi-15 elungileyo.
Ukuza kuthi ga ngoku, ndineminyaka emi-2 ndinxilile. Sesona sipho sibalaseleyo endakha ndasipha sona yaye ndiya kusixabisa ngolo hlobo.
Ezinye iingcebiso kunye neengcinga:
Nangona umlutha wam we-porn ungazange ubangele ukuwohloka kwam kwengqondo ngokuthe ngqo, ukuqalisa ngokutsha kwenza ukudakumba kwam kwanyibilika emva kwexesha elifutshane kakhulu. Kwiminyaka emithathu yokufumana uxinzelelo olukhulu kunye nexhala, ndizamile intaphane yezinto ezahlukeneyo ngethemba lokuphucula imeko yam yengqondo kodwa ukuqalisa ngokutsha ekugqibeleni kwayilungisa ngokusisigxina.
Andikwazi ukuyigxininisa ngokwaneleyo indlela endingenelwe ngayo ngokufumana uncedo lwesazi ngengqondo esandithatha nzulu. Ngexesha lengxaki yam, ndathetha noogqirha bengqondo abaliqela kunye neengcali zengqondo bonke abangandiqondi kwaye bazama indlela yokusika icookie. Omnye umnyangi wade wafuna ukuba ndizenzele ngokwam emva kokuba ndimxelele kwiseshoni yovavanyo ukuba ndiphethwe yi-ED ngenxa yokusetyenziswa kwam ngamanyala iminyaka emininzi kwaye wayekrokrela ukuba ndinengxaki. Qaphela inyani yokuba iingcali ezininzi azikayazi i-shit malunga neengozi ze-porn kwaye zikuxelela ngenkuthalo ukuba zisempilweni. Ndiyakubongoza, ukuba uthembele kwizifundo ezininzi ezizimeleyo ezikhomba kwicala elichaseneyo kunye nazo zonke iingxelo zamalungu eforamu.
Ukuqala kwam ukuqalisa kwam kokugqibela kunye nokwangoku ngo-2019, bendifuna ukulawula onke amathuba e-ED yam. Ke ngoko, ndaqhakamshelana nogqirha womchamo, ndamxelela ibali lam kwaye waqhuba iimvavanyo ezimbalwa ezathi zabuya zilungile. Ndothuswa kukuba, wayeyazi into eyenziwa yi-PIED kwaye wandikhuthaza ukuba ndiyeke kwi-porn kunye ne-masturbation ukuze ndibe ngcono. Njengodondolo kwaye ngenxa yokuba ndiyicelile, wandiyalela idosi encinci yeTadalafil ukuze ndiphinde ndihambe. Wandiqinisekisa, ukuba akuyi kundenza ndixhomekeke ekuveleni ukuba yinyani ukuba ndijonga imbali yam kunye namava endiwenzileyo.
Ngokomntu, ndicinga ukuba ukuzikhwebula kuzo zombini i-masturbation kunye ne-porn kubaluleke kakhulu kubantu abane-PIED. Akunjalo nje ngenxa yokuba ndikholelwa ukuba ixesha lokubuyisela lifutshane kodwa ndiziva ndiqala ukuba ndikhuthazekile kangakanani ukufumana iqabane eliphumeze umgaqo olula wokuba ndiza kuba ne-orgasm ngabom xa ndilala ngesondo.
Ndicinga ukuba "ukugcina amadlozi" kuyinyani ukuya kwinqanaba elithile kodwa andikholelwa ukuba kuphela okanye ngenxa yokuba "iibhola zigcwele" ngenxa yokuba bendinamaphupha amaninzi xa ndiqalisa ngokutsha. Ukungazibonakalisi kwimifanekiso eyenziweyo yabasetyhini abakhanukela ngesondo kwaye bangenzi ngaphandle kukushiya unamandla amaninzi okukhangela eyona nto. Ndiyakwazi ukuthetha kuphela kodwa phakathi komhla we-60-120 wokuqalisa kwam, ndandinamandla amangalisayo kwaye ndaziva ndingoyiki, ngakumbi uloyiko lokungaphumeleli okanye ukwaliwa.
Ndenza isigqibo sokuyeka ukuphulula amalungu esini ngonaphakade. Ukwabelana ngesondo endikufumanayo kwanele iimfuno zam kwaye ukuba akufanelekanga ukubona iqabane lam ngaphezu kweentsuku ezilishumi elinesine okanye oko kwenzeka ngamaxesha ngamaxesha kulo nyaka uphelileyo, ndigcina izakhono zam zibukhali. Ngaphaya koko, andicingi ukuba ukuphulula amalungu esini kubi ngokobuqu, kodwa kum njengekhoboka, kunxibelelene kakhulu nokuziphatha okufana nesigwebo sokufa kum. Ukuba ndiyivumela ukuba isondele kakhulu kum kwakhona, ndisengozini enkulu yokuphulukana nento endiyilwele elona dabi linzima, elide nelona lidinisayo ebomini bam. Amaxesha ambalwa olonwabo, okanye ukukhululwa “koxinzelelo” akufanelanga ukuba yintoni enokwenzeka ngesiphumo. Ii-akhawunti ze-rebooters eziqale ngokutsha ngempumelelo kwaye ziye zabuyela kumgibe zibeka njengesilumkiso esicacileyo. Andicingi ukuba, ndikhethekile okanye ndingcono, ngoko ke andizukuncanca kule bhokisi yeekuki nanini na kungekudala. Ndiyaziyeka zilale izinja ngoku...
Ukususela ekubeni ndifumene ukuba i-pornography ingaba yingozi kangakanani kwimpilo yakho yezesondo kunye nengqondo, ndandifuna ukuxelela umntakwethu malunga nayo kuba ndandifuna ukumsindisa kwikamva elifanayo. Emva kokuba ndikwazile ukuqwenga iiveki ezimbalwa ezicocekileyo, ndaba nesibindi sokumxelela kwaye wayithatha kakuhle kwaye wayenombulelo. Ndiye ndaqhubeka ndaxelela usisi wam ngale nto nabahlobo bam abathathu abasenyongweni. Yonke into yehlazo ebendiyijikeleza nge-ED yam kwaye yonke iminyaka ngaphandle kwesondo kunye neentombi zachithwa. Wonke umntu endamxelela ngebali lam wayendiqonda kwaye ebulela kakhulu kuba babenokuyiqonda ngcono indlela endandiziphethe ngayo ngaphambili neyangoku. Kwaye ukumangaliswa kwam bonke kufuneka babelane ngamabali abo kunye ne-porn okanye iingxaki zesini okanye iingxaki ngokubanzi. Kwakubangel’ umdla ukubona. Kwaye okona kulungileyo kuko konke: Ubudlelwane bam kubo bonke bomelele kule nkqubo kwaye umnqweno wam wokuhlala ucocekile ebomini nawo womelele.
Ndikhe ndabonisa kwisishwankathelo ukuba ndine-epiphany ngelixa ndibhakwa kancinci emva kokuba ndibuyele okokugqibela. Ekubeni ndandidandatheke kakhulu ixesha elide, ndandivaleleke phakathi kwezo mvakalelo zazisele. Kwaye ndiyacinga ukuba, ukuguqula isimo sam sengqondo njengelinye icala kwandinceda ukuba ndibeke izinto ngendlela eyahlukileyo. Ke ngoko, ndiye ndakwazi ukunxibelelana nam kwakhona okokuqala kwixesha elide kakhulu. Njengoko ndandingena kwesi simo sengqondo, ndaqala ukufunda ijenali yokuqalisa kwakhona eyayinefuthe elihlala lihleli kum. Ngelishwa, andisakwazi ukukhumbula ukuba yayiyeyiphi ijenali, kodwa yayiyijenali yomfana okwiminyaka yakhe yamashumi amahlanu endiye ndagqiba ukuyifunda. Kwaye ngenxa yemo yengqondo yam eguqulwe kancinane, ijenali yakhe yandishukumisa kwaye ndakwazi ukunxulumana noko wayekubhala ngokunzulu. Yayigcwele ukuzisola kwaye ichaza ubomi bakhe obuchithe. Wabhala ngokucacileyo malunga nendlela i-porn ebimlawula ngayo ukususela kwiintsuku zakhe zokuqala; ukuba uchithe iiyure ezininzi kunye needola kwiivenkile zamanyala zeVHS; ukuba into yokuqala ayenzayo xa efika ekhaya, ukulayisha i-porn kuphela ukuba azibandakanye kuyo iiyure ekupheleni; ukuba ukuphila ubomi obumbaxa kwakucinezela yaye kudandathekisa kakhulu; ukuba wachitha amathuba amaninzi; kwaye ukusebenzisa iphonografi akuziva kukwanelisa. Xa ndiyifunda ngokweenkcukacha yonke le nto, kwathi qatha kum, ukuba lo mfo ndandifunda ngaye ngokusisiseko wayemdala ngeminyaka engama-20 kuphela. Kwaye le ndlela ndandihamba ngayo yayiyilandlela wayehamba ngayo. Ukuba ikamva lakhe liya kuba lelam. Ngobu busuku, ndigqibe kwelokuba ndiqale kwakhona elinye itrayi elithembekileyo, kwaye njenge-corny njengoko kuvakala, okuseleyo kuye kwaba yimbali.
Ukwenza ijenali kunye nokufumana inkxaso yoontanga kuye kwanceda itoni. Andikwazi ukukuxelela indlela endinombulelo ngayo ngabantu abalungileyo abathe banegalelo kwijenali yam endinayo kwiReboot isizwe kwaye babelane ngeembono zabo ngentanda-bulumko kunye nemibuzo yepragmatic endiyiphakamisile ngexesha lokuqalisa kwam kwakhona. Ijenali yayikwangumqondiso olungileyo wenkqubela phambili endiyenzileyo ngexesha lokuqalisa kwakhona. Ngomhla wama-234, ndiyekile ukubhala ijenali kuba ndandingasenanto ininzi endinokuthetha ngayo malunga nokuchacha kwam kukungasebenzi kakuhle kwezesondo.
Zithathele ingqalelo kwaye uwuthathele phezulu umlutha. Ndiyakubongoza ukuba ucinge ngayo okomzuzwana. Ukuba wena mfundi othandekayo uyawafunda la mazwi ndiwachwethezileyo, awuzanga ngengozi apha. Ukusetyenziswa kwakho kwe-porn (ab) yeyona nto inokubangela ingxaki enkulu, nokuba ufumene ukungasebenzi kakuhle ngokwesondo, okanye ubeke ubudlelwane bakho emngciphekweni, okanye ukuthanda kwakho ngokwesondo kuye kwaguquka, okanye inkqubo yakho ye-dopaminergic idiniwe kangangokuba ubomi bemihla ngemihla buye baba mnyama. okanye ude wadandatheka. Ungawuthathi lula umonakalo owenziwe ngamanyala kuwe.
Ukuba kude ne-porn ixesha elide kunye nokusebenzisana imihla ngemihla kunye nomfazi ongumlingane wam wandenza ndaqonda ukuba zininzi kangakanani iingcamango eziphosakeleyo endinazo malunga nowesifazane kunye nesondo ngokubanzi. Nangona ndandiyazi kakuhle indlela i-pornography ebonisa ngayo umfanekiso ongekho ngqiqweni wesini kunye nabo bonke abantu ababandakanyekayo, akuzange kundithintele ekwakheni nokuba neengcamango ezininzi eziphosakeleyo. Ukuqonda ukukhohlisa akulingani nokuba ungakhuselekanga kuko. Xa kunjalo akukho mntu unokuphinda abhengeze.
Ukuthetha ngeentengiso: Nje ukuba ukhuphe iiveki ezimbalwa ezicocekileyo phantsi kwebhanti lakho, kuya kukhanya kuwe ukuba ihlabathi lethu ligcwele njani ngokwesondo. Ukuqala kwam ukuqalisa kwakhona ngo-2015, kungekudala emva kokuba ndiziva ngathi ndikwimuvi kaJohn Carpenter. Bayaphila. Kuyaphazamisa kakhulu xa sele uqonda kwaye wetyisa ngokwenyani ukuba isini esikhoyo kwindawo zonke kwihlabathi lethu kwaye siboniswa kwaye sisetyenziswa njani njengemveliso ukuyithengisela wena. Ngelo xesha, yayiphazamisa kakhulu.
Qaphela ukuba xa uqala ukuqalisa kwakho, kusenokubakho ixesha lesiphithiphithi ngaphambili. Ngokuqinisekileyo uya kubonakalisa ngakumbi ngobomi bakho kunye nendlela obuphila ngayo. Uya kuqaphela izinto ezininzi ofuna ukuzitshintsha kwaye oko kuya kubangela uxinzelelo kunye neentlungu. Musa ukuzama ukusindisa ihlabathi ngosuku olunye. Unohambo olude ngaphambili ngoko ke khawulezisa ngokwakho.
Ukuba uyaphinda, phezu kwazo nje iimvakalelo ezingakhiyo oya kuba nazo, zama ukufunda kuyo. Zibuze ukuba njani kwaye kutheni ugqibile ukusebenzisa i-porn? Ukuba unokukhomba kwaye uchonge iimpawu ezimbalwa, kuya kuba lula kakhulu kwixesha elizayo ukunqanda ukuphinda ubuyele kwakhona.
Ukusebenzisa i-porn kaninzi kuhamba kunye neminye imisebenzi. Ngaba kunokwenzeka ukuba ubuyele kwakhona xa u-hungover? Yeka ukusela. Ngaba i-facebook ibangela iingcamango ezidandathekileyo ezikhokelela ekubeni usebenzise i-porn? Cima iakhawunti yakho. Ngaba iingxabano eziqhubekayo noMntu XYZ zibangela uxinzelelo kwaye ujongane ne-porn? Beka unxibelelwano elubambeni okanye ufunde ukujongana neemvakalelo.
Kusenokuba imeko yokuba awuzukukwazi ukuzibamba ngempumelelo ukusuka nje uhambe. Kwandithatha iminyaka emine ukuyilungisa. Ukuba kufuneka wongeze imijikelo embalwa eyongezelelweyo, oko akuyi kunciphisa impumelelo yakho ekugqibeleni. Kubalulekile ukuba ufikelele kwiinjongo zakho kwaye ufezekise ukuzola okuzinzileyo kwexesha elide. Kuya kufuneka ucace kakhulu ngale nto: Ingxaki yakho ye-porn ayiyi kuhamba yodwa, kungakhathaliseki ukuba uzama kangakanani ukuyihoxisa okanye ukwenza ngathi ayisiyiyo into eninzi yesivumelwano.
Iphonografi ≠ Iphonografi. Ufuna ukujolisa ukungazivuseleli ngokwesondo ngokwesondo. Ingqondo yakho ayicaluli phakathi kweesayithi ze-porn, i-erotica, ikhathalogu yempahla yangaphantsi kwi-imeyile, okanye iprofayili ye-facebook yentombi yakho eneminyaka eli-19 ubudala.
Ulwazi lungundoqo: Funda malunga nesayensi malunga nobungozi be-porn. Ubunzima bakho kwiSono nguGary Wilson kunye Iimfihlakalo zeNtsomi nguMat Fradd ziincwadi ezigqwesileyo umzekelo. Ukuba ufuna ukufunda malunga nemikhwa kunye nento ethintelayo kwaye iyikhuthaze (ingcebiso: indlela owenza ngayo / usebenzisa i-porn yinto eqhelekileyo), ndincoma kakhulu ukuba ufunde. Imikhwa yeatom nguJames Clear. Ulwazi oya kuboniswa ngalo aluphanzisi umhlaba kodwa kuluncedo kakhulu ukukhunjuzwa ukuba iziseko zisebenza njani kwaye utshintsho oluncinci kubomi bakho bemihla ngemihla lunokuba luncedo okanye lube yingozi kuwe. Ukuzimisela okuncinci okanye umzamo womntu ngamnye owufunayo ukuze ube okanye uhlale uyekile, kokukhona uya kuba nempumelelo ngakumbi kumzamo wakho kwaye Imikhwa yeatom izokunceda kuloo nto.
Ndifumene iintsuku zokubala ziluncedo kakhulu ngesizathu esinye: Njengomntu we-PIED, ubungqina be-anecdotal bucebisa ngamandla ukuba ukucoceka kwe-squeaky kubaluleke kakhulu ukuze uchache kwi-PIED kunye nokuba i-ED ingabuyi emva kokuba ichachile. Ke, inani leentsuku eziyekiweyo kwi-PMO yayisisalathisi esilungileyo kum malunga nokuba kufuneka ndilindele nini na uphuculo kunye nokuba kufuneka ndenze ntoni malunga nokuphinda ndifake iintambo.
Eyona nto yayindoyikisayo ekuchacheni kwam ngokuqinisekileyo yayikukuphinda ndifake iintambo. Emva kokungabelani ngesondo ngempumelelo iminyaka engaphezu kwe-10, bendinexhala elininzi elijikelezayo. Kodwa ndithe ndakubona ukuba ukuqalisa kwam kwakhona kunokuvelisa isiqhamo, ndafunga kum ukuba ndiza kujonga iqabane endinokuphinda ndilisebenzise emva kokuba ndicocekile iintsuku ezili-100. Ekugqibeleni, yonke into yahamba kakuhle kunokuba ndandicinga. Ndiqinisekile ngokuqinisekileyo ukuba uphosa inqaku lokuthatha inyathelo ngokumalunga nokufumana iqabane, ukuchacha kwakho kunokufika kume kwaye kuphele ngokupheleleyo kuba kuvakala ngathi akuyi ndawo.
Ngaphezu koko, ndicinga ukuba abaninzi abaqalayo abasilelayo bayayenza ngenxa yokoyika ukuphinda kufakwe iwiring. Ngenxa yoko, bayazonzakalisa ngeengcinga ezingalunganga (“akukho mntu undifunayo; andisoze ndifumane mntu; ukwazi umntu ngamaxesha e-COVID akunakwenzeka; Ukuba ndiyasilela ukufumana ukwakhiwa, ndiya kujongeka kwaye ndizive ngathi yeyona inkulu emhlabeni. idiot”, […]). Zonke ezi ziingcinga ezifanelekileyo neziqondakalayo. Ke ngoko, ndiyacinga, kubaluleke kakhulu ukuba unoluhlobo lweengcinga ezixhalabileyo ukuba uthathe ingqondo eqinileyo, uphuhlise inkalipho eyaneleyo, kwaye ulwe noloyiko lwakho ukuze lungakumisi ukuchacha kwakho (kwakhona)!
Ukuthatha imihla ngemihla kunye nokuhlala ngoku kubaluleke kakhulu. Okukhona uchitha ixesha elininzi ujongene neengxaki ezikhoyo ngoku kwaye uzifumanela izicombululo, kokukhona ikamva lakho liya kuba ngcono. Awunakutshintsha ixesha elidlulileyo, ke zama ukungachithi nawaphi na amandla (Ndiyazi, kunzima kakhulu…). Kukwanjalo nakwiziganeko ezizayo ezingasoze zivele. Zama ukugxila kuphela kwimisebenzi ekhoyo kunye nokuzalisekisa iimfuno zakho ezisisiseko. Ukuba nesicwangciso sexesha elide (esirhabaxa) sokubuyisela kwakhona kuyacetyiswa kakhulu kuba inika ukuqalisa kwakho ngokutsha kunye nolwakhiwo lobomi bemihla ngemihla.
Emva kweentsuku ze-60 ezicocekileyo, ndadibana nomthombo omtsha we-porn owawufana ne-siren endibizayo. Kwakunzima ukuba ndixhathise kangangokuba ndagqiba ekubeni ndizithengele i-blocker ukuze ndivimbe le nto kunye nazo zonke ezinye iisayithi ze-porn. Ngelixa i-blocker ye-porn yayingaphumeleli, ibeka ingqondo yam kakhulu ukuba iphumle, kangangokuba andizange ndibe nomnqweno wokubuyela kule ndawo. Ukuba umntu usebenzisa i-blocker, ndicinga ukuba kubalulekile ukuba ungayivavanyi kakhulu kwaye uzame ukuyamkela into yokuba i-porn ivaliwe ngoku kunokuba luncedo kakhulu ukuze uhlukane nomkhwa wokukhangela i-porn kunye nokunyuka.
Ukujonga phezulu kubi, MMHHKAY? Ngokukrakra, ukuba awukwazi ukuyeka ukukhwela phezulu, kunokwenzeka ukuba awusoze ukwazi ukulawula ngokupheleleyo umlutha. Umlutha wakho uya kutshintsha ukusuka ekuzibandakanyeni kwi-porn ngoko nangoko ukuya ekudaniseni malunga ne-porn ngaphambi kokuba ekugqibeleni uzibandakanye kuyo.
Ukuqukumbela, ndifuna ukuthetha ukuba ukuqala uhambo lokubuyisela impilo yam yezesondo, nangona yayingumsebenzi weHerculean, yayisisigqibo esihle endakha ndasenza kunye nedabi elifanele ukulwa nangona kwandithatha ngaphezu kweminyaka emine. Ubomi bungcono kakhulu ngoku. Ayikuko ukuba yenzeka kumhlaba waseCockaigne kodwa ukukhululeka kumthwalo wePorn kunye nePIED kwenza ubomi bube lula kwaye bufanele ukuphila. Kunqabile ukuba ndizive ndingenathemba ngoku. Imisebenzi enzima nangakumbi iyalawuleka. Isiseko sam sentlalontle kunye nokomelela kuphezulu kakhulu. Ukuba sele uzoqala uhambo lwakho, ndiyavuyisana nawe. Ukuba sele nisendleleni, ndithi kuni bambelelani kwimipu yenu. Ekugqibeleni, konke kuya kufaneleka.
Okokugqibela, ndifuna ukubulela amalungu ambalwa asuka emazantsi entliziyo yam ngenxa yokuba ndizuze kakhulu ekufumaneni izimvo ezintsha kunye nemibono, ukuthumelana imiyalezo, kunye nokukwazi nje ukunxibelelana nabantu abajongene neengxaki ezifanayo okanye ezifanayo. Ukuba nguwe ondincede kakhulu ekubuyiseleni nasekugcineni impilo yam yezesondo kwaye ngenxa yoko ndinombulelo ongazenzisiyo:
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