Ke bendijongana nesiyobisi se-porn okoko bendineminyaka eyi-18, kwaba yingxaki enkulu kwiinyanga ezili-18 ezidlulileyo. Ndaqala ukufumana iingcamango ezingaqhelekanga emva kokugcoba i-masturbating kwaye ndiza kuba nenkungu yengqondo kwithuba elithile emva koko. Kwaye kwakhokelela ekubeni ndihlaziye i-masturbate kwizinto ezichasene nokuziphatha kwam (akukho nto engekho mthethweni) endinako ngakumbi okanye ngaphantsi ndikwazi ukuyeka ndedwa ngexesha lokulutha.
Nangona kunjalo, ekugqibeleni ndaqala ukuphulula amalungu esini iiyure ezingama-2-3 ngelixa ndaye ndaya kuhlala kwindawo entsha nentombi yam andinakukunceda, ndimlinde ukuba aye emsebenzini ukuze ndibethwe ngamatye ndize ndihlaziye ixesha elide ekugqibeleni. Ekugqibeleni konke kwafika entloko xa ingqondo yam yaphuka ngokoqobo. Yonke into endiye ndayeka ukuphulula amalungu esini ukuba andivumelani nayo yayikhala entlokweni yam ifuna ityala lam.
Ekugqibeleni ndafumana isiqinisekiso kumgqirha wam. Andizange ndikholelwe ukuba ndinomlutha, kodwa emva kokuba ndibuyele kaninzi kula maxesha kwaye ndaziva ukuba kubi kangakanani okwenze iingcinga, kodwa ndibuye ndibuyele kwindlela yokunyusa ukuthanda kwam, ndade ndamkela ukuba ayindim nje inkwenkwe ethande iphonografi kwaye ekufaneleyo ukwenza izinto azithandayo ebomini. Ngexesha lam lokugqibela lokuphinda ndibuye ndaye ndathatha iintsuku ezintathu ukusuka ekubukeni iphonografi ye-vanilla, ukujoyina enye yezo zinto zingathandekiyo zencoko yezinto apho uphulula amalungu esini nabanye abantu, kwaye bendiphulula amalungu esini nabanye abantu ukuhambisa iphonografi. Isini andisoze ndacinga ukuba siyinxalenye yokuzibandakanya kwam kwezesondo kwiintsuku ezi-3 ngaphambili.
Kwandithatha ukuwa ezantsi nzulu ukuze ndiqonde ukuba umlutha wam undonakalise kangakanani. Ndicinga ukuba isizathu sokuba ndibhale le yeyomnye umntu ofumana iingcinga ezincinci kwaye uyazibuza ukuba ingaba yinto enkulu leyo okanye hayi. Sukwenza impazamo endiyenzileyo. Yamkele ingxaki ngokukhawuleza.
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