Ewe, kuyaqhelekile ukuba uzive ungakumbi ngakumbi ngaphambi kokuba uzive ungcono xa ubuchopho buyabuyela ebukumeni obugcweleyo, kwaye buphinde bubuyiselwe. Ukubuyiselwa akuqhelekanga inkqubo efanelekileyo. Ukurhoxiswa kungabandezeleka. Ukwehla kwe-libido kunye nemvakalelo "yepenisi engaphiliyo" ("flatline") nayo ayiqhelekanga ekuqaleni. Yabona NCEDA!!! Ndiyeke uononopopayi, kodwa amandla ami kunye ne-libido ayancipha.
"Namhlanje ndiphawula usuku lwam lwe-7th ngaphandle koononophala, kunye nosuku lwam lwesihlanu ngaphandle kokuphulula amalungu esini. kodwa andikaze ndive le nto imbi ngaphambili. Andinayo i-libido, akukho mthi wamasa, akukho mnqweno wokwenza nantoni na. Kubi kakhulu kunangaphambili. Ndiyoyika. Ngaba iqhelekile le nto? ”
Ngakolunye uhlangothi, abanye abantu baziva bebhetele ngeveki yokuqala okanye kunjalo, kodwa ngezinye iixesha bazive becala ngakumbi kwithuba elithile emva kokuqalisa. Gcina ukhumbule ukuba abanye abafana banomlwelwe, ngelixa abanye bezama ukuvuselela izizathu ngaphandle kokulutha kwezilonda. Ukuphelisa i-masturbation enye enye into ekufumaneni izibonelelo ezikhawulezileyo. A umgca usenokuthi uvelise intloko yaso embi.
(Iintsuku # 5, 6): Ndingathi, ezi yayiyeyona mihla inzima ukuza kuthi ga ngoku. Eminye iminqweno encinci. Elona candelo linzima yayingenguye nomnqweno wokujonga iphonografi entsha, kodwa imvakalelo yento eyonelisayo ilahlekile, imvakalelo yosizi kunye nemvakalelo, yokuba ndizithathela amava amnandi kakhulu. Ngapha koko, imeko yam eqhelekileyo kunye nentetho ibonakala ngathi ayinakulinganiswa (ngekhe nditsho ukuba ibhalansi, kodwa iyaphazamiseka).
Lo mfana wenza Ividiyo ye-YouTube malunga namandla aphantsi ekuqaleni kokuqalisa kwakhona. (Qaphela ukuba abanye abantu babhekisa kwinkxwaleko yokurhoxa njengo "flatline." Ngapha koko, eli gama ekuqaleni lalibhekisa kuphela kwilahleko yexeshana ye-libido enokulandela ukuyeka.
Ukubuyiselwa akulona oluqhelekileyo. Olu hambo lube lukhulu kakhulu. Ndandidanduluka ngeveki yokuqala. Iiveki ezilandelayo ze-2-3 zayingozi umgca. Ndandiziva ndibi kangangoko ndandineminyaka. Ukuxinezeleka, ukungapheli, ukuxhalaba, ukucaphuka, ukhathele, njl. Kwangathi uzive ufana ne-coedine okanye adderall; Ngokuqinisekileyo zonke i-dopamine ezihlobene. Isibalulekileyo asiyi kuphazamiseka okanye ukuphazamiseka kwezi zicwangciso.
Isicatshulwa sam sokugqibela sagqiba imini 70 xa ndicinga ukuba ndiphezu kwalo. Nope. Iindaba ezilungileyo kukuba emva kweplatidi nganye ndafikelela kwinqanaba elitsha lophuculo. Ndaphumelela ngamandla onke amaxesha. Khawucinge nje ngokuba uguquko lwakhe luphawu lokuba utshintsho lwangempela luyenzeka ngaphakathi kwengqondo yakho.
Iimvakalelo kunye neempawu zokurhoxa bezigcwele kuyo yonke indawo. NgoMgqibelo (usuku lwe-6) Ndizifumene ndinexhala elibi kakhulu kwakhona. Ndandinomnye umhla odityaniswe nentombazana ngobo busuku, ke ndiqinisekile ukuba yayinento yokwenza nayo. Kodwa indoda ndaziva ndisoyika!
Emva kwexesha elithile ngexesha losuku ndaqala ukuhlaziya i-masturbating encinci ekhaya ... kunye ne-crap engcwele, ndandiziva ngokunyanisekileyo ukunyuka kwe-dopamine emzimbeni wam. Ndifuna nje ukuyivavanya kancinci ukuze ndibone ukuba izinto zihamba njani, kodwa umntu ndiye ndavula ngokukhawuleza. Ndaziva ngathi yi-heroin junky ekugqibeleni ilungiswa. Umzimba wam wonke wawuva ngcono; akusekho zimpawu zibandayo; umqala obuhlungu wawuphelile; Bendikwazi ukuphefumla impumlo yam ngokugqibeleleyo; Ndandinamandla, ndonwabile; kwaye uxinzelelo olunganyamezelekiyo lwaphela kwaphela!
Uyaphambana… ndandisazi ukuba ndinomhla ngobo busuku, ke ngoko andifuni ukuba ne-orgasm kwaye ndijongane neemvakalelo ezantsi kunye neminqweno emva koko. Ngethamsanqa ndafumana isicatshulwa kuye, esaphambukisa ingqalelo yam kwaye ndakwazi ukuyeka… Umhla uhambe kakuhle.
Ngeentsuku ze-7 kunye ne-8 ekugqibeleni ndiqala ukuziva ndilunge ngakumbi. Ilizwi lam linzulu kwaye liqinile, ukuba iyavakala. Ndingathetha into ngaphandle komzamo omkhulu ngoku. Emuva kwiintsuku zoononophala ilizwi lam lalingaphantsi kwaye lingalindelekanga. Ngamanye amaxesha xa ndiza kuthi ngokukhawuleza ilizwi lam libe lithambe kakhulu, okanye lide liqhekeke ngokungathi ndandikwishumi elivisayo (Ndingu-31, lol.) Ukuthetha kufuna nje umzamo omkhulu kwaye kuye kufuneke ndihlale ndijonga isandi selizwi lam , ngokungathandabuzekiyo eyongezekileyo kwinkxalabo yam kwezentlalo ... Ndiva ngathi kukuthintela iphonografi kunye nokuhambisa amaphambili kufanelekile nokuba kungokuphuculwa kwelizwi lam ukuza kuthi ga ngoku!
Ndaphinda ndenza i-masturbate kwakhona namhlanje ngosuku lwe-8, kufana nje nomkhwa wemvelo okanye into. Ngokuqinisekileyo ndifumana ubuntununtunu, kuba ndikhawuleze ndanolwakhiwo olunzima… ngaphandle koononophala okanye umbono omnandi. Kwakhona kwakunzima ukuyeka, kodwa ndathatha ishawa ebandayo ndaphambukisa ingqalelo yam. Ndifumanise ukuba ukugxila kwenye injongo okanye umsebenzi kunceda kakhulu. Uhlobo lokutshintsha kwegiya kwingqondo yam ukuze uxakeke ngomnye umsebenzi okanye umsebenzi.
Inyathelo lam lokuqala yayikukuqonda ukuba iimpawu zam zokurhoxa zibangelwe ngumlutha kwaye yayingengomzimba wam nengqondo yam indixelela ukuba i-PMO iphilile. Ngaphambi kokuba ndifumanise malunga nesayensi emva kokuxhatshazwa koononophala, ndiza kuzama ukuyeka-ndiziva ndibuhlungu kwaye ndicinga ukuba i-porn kufuneka ibe yimpilo kum kuba ndandiziva ndibi xa ndiyinqumle. Ke ukwenza nje oko kuqonda kwakukhulu kum.
Zeziphi iimpawu zokurhoxa ohlangabezana nazo? Okwangoku ngeentsuku ze-10 ndinamaqhina esisigxina esiswini sam ngokungathi bendiya kuvavanyo okanye kudliwanondlebe. Kwakhona andinakukwazi ukugxila kwi-shit.
Ndiye ndadandatheka ixeshana. Okwangoku ndihamba neemoodswings ezintle. Ndifumana imizuzu embalwa xa ndiziva ndilungile, emva koko ndibuyela ekukhanyeni, ukuxhalaba, emva koko ukuxinezeleka ... Ngokusisiseko ndibambelele entlokweni yam. Iqhina esiswini sakho lixhala kwaye liqheleke kakhulu kulo naluphi na uhlobo lweziyobisi okanye ukurhoxiswa kweziyobisi, ukuze uzive ukhuselekile kulwazi ukuba kuyinto eqhelekileyo. Kuyangqina ukuba ukuyeka iphonografi kwakuyinto elungileyo kuwe.
Ngokwamava am amanje, kunzima ukufumanisa ukuba iimvakalelo zam zibangelwa kukurhoxiswa kwe-porn okanye uxinzelelo / uxinzelelo lokudakumba ebesele ndikulo. Ndingatsho ukuba nangona ndiziva ndizithembile kwaye ndikhululekile ukungabinamanyala iveki yokuqala okanye kunjalo, iintsuku ezimbalwa zokugqibela ndicinga ukuba ekugqibeleni ndiziva ndinqwenela.
Ndiyimini 28 ngoku kodwa iintsuku ze-14-21 ziyiintsuku zokuhoxiswa. Ixhala elikhulu liyintloko yam. Ndandivalela yonke ixesha eyayiyingozi, andinakuze ndiyisele namanzi kumdlalo wokuzivocavoca ngaphandle kokuziva ngathi wonk 'umntu wandibukela kumangalisa, xa ndibeka intloko yam ukuba ndiphuze umzimba wam uya kuhamba njengento malunga nokuhlaselwa ngokuxhalabisa kwakungekho mnandi kakhulu. Kubonakala ngathi bancedise ngoku ngokubulela.
Ndingumhla we-42. Umgama omde ngaphandle kwe-O, kunye nowesibini mde ngaphandle kwe-MO okanye i-PMO. Ndiza kwenza irekhodi le-PMO kwiintsuku ezimbalwa. Nantsi into ekhoyo: Andiziva mnandi ngayo nantoni na. Ndimbi phakathi koluntu kunangaphambili. Andifuni kuhlala nabantu. Xa kufuneka ndihlalisane, ndihlala ndiziva ngathi sisidenge esipheleleyo. Iintloni. Nguthixo owoyikekayo ukuzama ukukhokela ubomi obuqhelekileyo xa usiya kurhoxa. Ndiyazibuza ukuba abantu mabacinge ntoni ngokuziphatha kwam okuqaqambileyo, okucaphukisayo, nokuziphatha kwezi veki zimbalwa zidlulileyo. Andiziphathi ngokwendalo kwaye andonwabanga nje ngoku. Umoya wam uyatshintsha xa ushiye umnqwazi – uhlala uziva ndinomsindo, imvakalelo engazange ibe yingxaki kum ngaphambili.
Ndinenkathazo yokulala.
Ndivusa unkulunkulu oye wahlaselwa kwangethuba, angenasiphelo kwaye akanako ukuyeka ukukhaba imilenze nokuyijikeleza.
Kwaye ndiziva ngathi intloko yam ikumnyama, ilifu elimnyama.
Andikwazi ukugxila. Ndiyabhideka. kwaye andikwazi ukulandela incwadi ngokulula. Xa ndifika ekhaya ndize ndilale phantsi, ndidiniwe, ndiziva ngathi isandla esikhulu siyandicinezela, sindigcina ndingavuki.
Oo, kwaye ipenisi yam kwathiwa ifile kwiiveki ezimbalwa emva. Owona mbinana kwiingxaki zam…
Ndikholelwe, nam ndiye ndaziva ukuphakama. Kwiiveki ezimbalwa zokuqala kwilinge lam lokuqala kwiinyanga ezintandathu ezidlulileyo, bendisoloko ndonwabile. Ndonwabe ngakumbi kunanini na ngaphambili, ndonwabile ngokwasentlalweni, ndithembele ngakumbi, njlnjl. Kwaye kwezi veki, ndathambisa ibhulukhwe kumantombazana ambalwa kwaye ndadibana nentombi yam yangoku. Kodwa ngoku… Ewe, ndiziva ngathi ndiyaphambana.
Ndiyathemba ukuba abanye abantu abanesidima, iimpawu zokurhoxa ixesha elide bafumana intuthuzelo ngokufunda oku. Kubonakala kum akukho zithuba zaneleyo malunga neempawu zokurhoxa ixesha elide abanye bethu abanamava ngazo.
Ukufumana izinto ezininzi kunye nokuziva ugxile ngakumbi, kodwa umthi wakusasa waya. Ndifundile malunga neflethi, kodwa oku kubonakala kuncinci. Ilungu lam lobudoda lingaphantsi nje komndilili kwaye belisoloko lihle lincinci. Kodwa iyancipha kwiintsuku ezi-3 ezidlulileyo. OKUNINZI. Ifunyenwe yayimfutshane kwaye imxinwa kwaye yajika yaba mnyama ngombala kwaye into eyayiqhele ukuba pinki imfusa. Ndiziva ngathi ndifile kwaye ndiziva ngathi ukuba ungazami kwi-PMO inokufa kwaye iwe. Utshintsho lombala lukhangeleka lulisikizi kwaye loo nto iyandikhathaza kakhulu.
Ngaba ujonge ukuzithemba wonke umntu athetha ngaye? Ndiziva ngathi ndixinezelekile. Andinayo iminqweno yoononophala okanye nayiphi na into enokwabelana ngesondo kwaye ndifumana iimvakalelo ezibuhlungu malunga ne-ex yam engazange ndiyive imbi, naxa sahlukene. Kwaye bendikwenza inkqubela phambili yokuphakamisa ubunzima kwaye kutshanje khange ndikwazi ukugqiba iiseti zam zesithathu kuwo nawuphi na umthambo. Ngaba ukho omnye umntu onamava otshintsho olugqithisileyo kwinkangeleko kunye nokuziva uphantsi? Okanye amandla anciphile? Ukuba konke oku kucace gca, leliphi elona xesha lide oye walibona umntu ehamba ngalo? Oku kuvakala ngathi kukungakhathali…
Uyabona, ingqondo yakho ilibele ukuba ungawenza njani amanqanaba afanelekileyo (okanye uphendule ngokuchanekileyo) kwii-neurochemicals eziphambili ezenza ukuba uzive wonwabile kwaye unomdla ngesondo. Xa belahlekile uziva ungcono. Iimpawu zokurhoxa zinokwahluka kuba ezi neurochemicals, ezinje nge-dopamine, zenza imisebenzi emininzi. Ngapha koko, ukungalingani kwenye ye-neurochemical kuguqula imiyalezo yezinye iikhemikhali zobuchopho. Ngokwesiqhelo, ii-neurochemicals kwingqondo yakho zidlala i-symphony njenge-orchestra ephindaphindwe kakuhle. Ngexesha lokurhoxa, imvumi nganye idlala ingoma yayo.
Ukuzivocavoca, ukucamngca nokuhlalisana konke ukunceda ukulinganisela kwengqondo ngokwemvelo. Phuma Izixhobo zeSolo kuba oomatshini baye bafumana luncedo. Zama kwakhona Ukuqalisa kwakhona iingcebiso kunye nokuqwalaselwa kwaye Iingcebiso zikaMalume uBob zoTywala.
Ukuba ulinda ngokuzithemba, ingqondo yakho iyakuqonda ukuba awuyi "kuyinyanga" nge-porn (evelisa ukungxama okukhulu kwezo zilahlekile zemichiza-kodwa yenza ukuba ingqondo yakho Ngaphantsi phendula ngexesha). Ekugqibeleni, ubuchopho bakho buxakekile kwaye buqala ukuvelisa (okanye buya kuba neengxaki ngakumbi) kwiikhampani ze-neurochemicals.
Emva koko uya ngempela yiphilise, endaweni yokuzinyanga ngokwakho. Linda. Kuxhomekeke kubudala bakho, ingqondo, kunye nobude bokusetyenziswa kwe-porn, kungathatha iiveki okanye iinyanga ukubuyela "kwesiqhelo."
Nazi izichazo zegama zeentlobo ezibuhlungu iimpawu zokuhoxiswa Abantu babika ngexesha lokuphulukana nokusetyenziswa kakubi kweefosora. Ziyakwazi ukufana nokukhutshwa kweziyobisi, njengoko kuchaziwe kwiphepha. Jonga kwakhona Ngaba i-erectile i-dysfunction (ED) enxulumene nokusetyenziswa kwam porno?
Nalu olunye uluvo olunomdla malunga nokunqwenela ukutshintsha kunye nexesha:
Xa ndayeka i-orgasming (andikaze ndibenobudlelwane) ukutya kwam kunye neendlela zokuzilolonga zaya esihogweni. Ndaqala ukuba likhoboka lokutya, amafutha, iswekile, kunye ne-intanethi (thabatha iphonografi). Ke, ndandinempilo "xa ndandiphulula amalungu esini ngoku. Ngoku ngoku 1-2 kwiminyaka kamva, kwaye mhlawumbi i-10 ejaculations kamva (ukusuka kwi-masturbation), ndikwindawo yam ende kakhulu" yokugcinwa kwamadlozi "(inyanga + enamandla). Ndiyabona ukuba NDISENGCIPHELELE kwisistim sangaphandle kunokuba ndandinjalo ngaphambi kokuyeka iphonografi.
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