Ngicabanga ukuthi ngihlukile kunabantu abaningi abazithola belapha. Bengilokhu ngiphuma ngokwemvelo futhi angikaze ngihlupheke ngempela ekukhathazekeni, ekucindezelekeni noma ezinkingeni zokuzethemba. Futhi angikwenzanga lokhu ngenxa yezizathu zenkolo. Kepha ngilapha ngoba umbono wokungenzela mina inguqulo enhle kakhulu wawanele ukungidonsela ngaphakathi.
Ngiqale ukufinyelela emfucumfucwini inyanga noma ngaphezulu futhi ngibona imiphumela kodwa ngabuya njalo ngangena emikhubeni emibi.Kodwa ngenxa yekhefu likaKhisimusi esikoleni ngaphenduka uhlobo lwami olubi kakhulu. Ngikwenze izikhathi ze-3-4 ngosuku kuwo wonke amasonto amabili. Kwakukubi ukwedlula yonke engake ngaba nakho. Ngikhumbula ngiya edilini likaKhisimusi kumagogo ami futhi ngizwa sengathi igobolondo lomuntu. Ngakho-ke lapho uNyaka oMusha usuzungeza nganquma ukuthi ukushaya indlwabu kwakungeke kusaba yingxenye yempilo yami.
Angizizwa ngithande ukuya emzabalazweni wokuqala ngoba lokho kuyinto enhle kuwo wonke umuntu. Ngaphezulu kwalezi zinsuku yize ngifunde engicabanga ukuthi kubaluleke kakhulu empilweni, ukuzithuthukisa njalo. Ngingene ekuphakamiseni futhi ngithole amaphawundi we-15 ezinyangeni ze-4 ezedlule ngiguqula umzimba wami ngokuphelele. Ngiye ngawuvula ngempela umqondo wami futhi ngavuthiwe njengomuntu futhi ngabona amaphutha ami esedlule. Nginokuxhumana kwe-x10 kakhulu kunangesikhathi esedlule futhi angisasoli abanye ngamaphutha ami. Ngisenokude kakhulu okufanele ngikwenze kodwa ngibheke emuva bese ngimamatheka lapho ngivela khona. Into engenza ngiyeke noma yimiphi imicabango emibi ukukhumbula lowo muntu kuleso sidlo sikaKhisimusi nokwazi ukuthi angisiye yena. Angikholelwa ngempela emandleni amakhulu futhi angicabangi ukuthi uzothola abantu abaningi ezinsukwini ze-100 ezedlule. Kepha ngikholwa ukuthi cishe zonke izinhlobo zokwanelisa ngokushesha zinemiphumela kanye nokushaya indlwabu akusafani. Yenza izinto ezikwenza umomotheke esikhathini eside hhayi lokho okuzizwa kukuhle njengamanje.
Lokhu kungenzeka ukuthi akukhohlakali futhi akuhlelekile kahle kepha sekwephuzile futhi ngikhuluma nje okuza engqondweni. Kepha ngithanda ukukhuluma kancane ngezikhathi ezimnyama ngalesi sikhathi. Ngisanda kutshela intombazane engiyithandile futhi i -lineline yaxakwa nayo iminyaka engu-2 ngemizwa yami futhi ngayibuza ngosuku. Akuhambanga ngendlela yami futhi bekuza ekugcineni kwesikhathi esibi. Uhlobo lwami olwedlule lwami belungasebenzisa lesi sizathu sokungena kukho konke okungiphatha kabi. Kepha ngipakishe isikhwama sami sokuzivocavoca sasinomzimba omuhle kakhulu wase ngihamba ngebhayisekili nomngane omuhle. Ngithathe isinqumo sokuyisebenzisa njengesisusa kanye nobufakazi bokuthi ngisekhona isikhala esiningi sokuba umuntu engilwela ukuba yikho. Ngokubona kwami impumelelo yakho kuloluhambo ilinganiselwe uma ingeyomunye umuntu kepha wena. Impela ingxenye yami yenza lokhu ngoba ngicabanga ukuthi idonsela emantombazaneni. Kepha ekugcineni kosuku kungokwami nami kuphela.
Ngineminyaka engu-18 sengizoba neminyaka engu-19 bese ngiqeda unyaka wami wokuqala eyunivesithi. Ngokwethembeka okokuqala lapho ngishaya indlwabu kumagazini wezithombe zobulili ezingcolile kwakungomunye wababa playboy engangikutholile futhi kungenzeka ukuthi noma ikuphi kusukela eminyakeni yobudala engu-7-11 kuyinkumbulo yenkungu. Ngokuya ngokushaya indlwabu ngokuvumelana nezithombe zobulili ezingcolile zevidiyo mhlawumbe kusukela kubudala be-14.
Uma umuntu enemibuzo noma yini efana naleyo angakujabulela ukuyiphendula. Ngibhalisele ezinye izinsuku ze-100 abafana baqina.
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