Bengifuna ukuxoxa ngendaba yami njengeyintombi yendoda ene-PIED nokubuyisa emuva lonke ulwazi esilutholile kule webhusayithi kwaba nesandla ekusisizeni ukuba siqonde i-neurobiology yokulutha kwe-porn futhi nomgwaqo ophuma kuyo.
Ngihlangane nesoka lami ngenkathi li-19 futhi sengimdala futhi enganginaye enganginaye kade ngangimdala kunami futhi angikhulanga ngibuka i-porn ye-inthanethi. Eqinisweni abambalwa babo baye baba nenye inkinga yokujula ngaphambi kwesikhathi. Ngingu-pragmatist empilweni futhi konke kudinga umzamo, ukuzijwayeza nokuzibandakanya kubandakanya nezocansi, ngakho-ke angikaze ngilindele iziqhumane ngokushesha lapho sihlangana ndawonye.
Isoka lami lalikade linomunye umuntu ngaphambi kwami futhi lalinenkinga enkulu nge-ejaculation, nalo likuthole kunzima futhi lalinganisa ukungakwazi kwakhe ukuza njengokuntula isifiso ngaye. Ngicabanga ukuthi kubalulekile njengomlingani ukweseka futhi ungathathi lokhu ngokwakho; Ngangihlala ngizama ukungakwenzi lokhu futhi ngingahluleli noma ngilindele. Ukukhuluma nokugcina ingxoxo ivulekile ngezocansi kusizile impela; uma engakwazi ukukhipha umuthi ngabe kulungile.
Ekuqaleni ucansi oluqondiswe emgomweni lwalucindezelwa kakhulu futhi luzozizwa luphoxekile uma lungakwazi ukuza. Ekuqaleni ubulili kungenzeka ukuthi bebufana ne-rutting, ngokushesha okukhulu futhi empeleni ngishise ingalo kusuka emsebenzini wesandla futhi ngishaya imisebenzi kungenzeka ukuthi ibiyimisebenzi yokukhiya imihlathi. Ekuqaleni [i-ejaculation ebambezelekile] yayinhle - ngithola ukuzijabulisa okuningi njengoba ngifuna! - kepha kungekudala ngaba ngumsebenzi futhi ngangizodinga amabhakede e-lube ukuze ngiqhubeke. Kumelwe ngishise ama-calories amaningi embhedeni kunasejimini!
Isoka lami belikhulume ngendlela azobuka ngayo izithombe zobulili ezingcolile nokushaya indlwabu cishe zonke izinsuku - kwesinye isikhathi wayezokwenza noma ngabe wayengazizwa ukuthi uya ocansini, kwakuyinto nje ayenza ukudlulisa isikhathi futhi wayesekwenzile kusukela lapho wayengumuntu osemusha. Ngaleso sikhathi ipeni lawa futhi ngabeka ezimbili nezimbili ndawonye futhi ngasikisela ukuthi azame ukuyeka izithombe zobulili ezingcolile nokushaya indlwabu ukuze azwele njengoba ngangisanda kulalela ingxoxo uGary ayenzile ngale ndaba.
Wayengazethembi kakhulu ngokuntula kwakhe ukuzwela futhi ukuzethemba kwakhe kwezocansi kwakuphansi impela. Uyeke ukufota lapho, ngo-Agasti 2015. Qedela ukubanda okubandayo. Kwakunzima kuye kepha wayeqinisekisa ukuthi noma nini lapho ethola isifiso wayeziphazamisa ngandlela thile (kuyena uthanda imidlalo yezemidlalo neyevidiyo). Imivuzo ayizange yenzeke ngobusuku obubodwa, kepha yavela kancane kancane.
Sinciphise izinto ngamabomu sasebenzisa izindlela uGary Wilson abhale ngazo - isikhumba esiningi esikhunjeni, ukuqabulana, ukubhucunga umzimba, ukubopha, ukubikezela kwangaphambili. Ukungakhathazeki uma eza noma cha, ukujabulela nje ukuba ndawonye. Kancane kancane waba nokuzwela futhi angafika ezikhundleni ezahlukahlukene. Kwesinye isikhathi izinto bezingasebenzi futhi lokho bekungalunga, kwesinye isikhathi izinto bekufanele zibe nzima futhi zisheshe futhi lokho kuzoba kuhle futhi.
NgoJulayi 2016 saya ocansini oluhle kakhulu, wathi lwaluzizwa lukhulu kakhulu futhi, yize wayengeke eze kanjalo okwamanje, ngathi angingakhathazeki njengoba kuyinqubekela phambili emangalisayo. Ngiyaziqhenya ngaye nangalokho akufezile futhi ngizizwa ngijabule kakhulu ngokulawula ubulili bakhe, ukhule ezethemba futhi ejabule kuye.
Okusize kakhulu kithina ukukhuluma ngakho, sikhuluma ngalokho akudingayo nokuthi azi ukuthi akahlulelwa futhi akalwe ngokusebenza kwakhe ngokocansi. Kuthathe ingcindezi futhi kwamvumela ukuthi alaphe futhi axhumane naye futhi. Ngicabanga ukuthi lowo muzwa wamukelekile ubaluleke kakhulu futhi lolu hambo ludonsa isikhathi eside nobabili okudingeka nitshale kulo imali. Ngiyethemba ukuthi indaba yami ibaluleke kubantu laphaya futhi ngibonga kakhulu futhi kulokho okwenziwa uGary, ngizizwa ngibonga kakhulu ngoba besingeke sibe lapho sikhona ngaphandle kwalolo lwazi. Ngicela ungapheli amandla !! Yiba nesineke futhi ubungaze izinzuzo ezincane, noma ngabe zibonakala zingabalulekile.
[Izincwadi ezizimele, ezinemvume yokwabelana - ngoJulayi, 2016]
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