Sekuphele isikhathi esingaphezu konyaka - ngiqale ukuzibophezela kwami kweNoFap ngoJulayi 27, 2015. Ngisemgqeni wami wokuqala, ngiyaqina! Kuningi okushintshile kusukela ngonyaka odlule.
Ngithuthele edolobheni elisha ngenzela umsebenzi omusha, bengisebenza lapho ngaphezu kwezinyanga eziyi-9 futhi ngiwuthanda. Impilo yami entsha muhle impela, kepha inezikhathi zayo nezimbi - ekugcineni ngithole iphuzu elibi kakhulu ekucindezelekeni kwami emuva ngoJanuwari futhi ekugcineni ngafuna ukwelashwa nemithi. Lokho kungisebenzela kahle kuze kube manje, okuhle, futhi ngiya ngokuya ngivumelana nomzabalazo wami njengento engaba yempilo yonke kodwa ephathekayo.
Ngisenayo intombi emnandi, yize besisobudlelwano obuvulekile selokhu ngathutha (isicelo sakhe ekuqaleni, kodwa kufanele thina sobabili). Ubudlelwano bethu nesibopho somzwelo siqinile kakhulu, siyangisekela engisizakala kakhulu ngalo, ngakho lokho kuhle. Ngisebenza ngocansi, noma isifiso sami singekho phezulu njengasekuqaleni lapho ngangisetshenziselwa ukushaya indlwabu nsuku zonke. Ngigodle yonke imisebenzi yocansi isikhathi eside futhi (izinyanga eziningi) futhi ngiphatha lokho nje kulungile.
Imvamisa nginamandla amaningi, ngicabanga ngokucace kakhudlwana, futhi nginesimo esizinzile ngokwengeziwe kunangesikhathi ngishaya indlwabu, kepha ngiyabona ukuthi isipiliyoni sami seNoFap cishe sihlukile kubantu abaningi ngoba, uma ngikhuluma iqiniso, angikuphutheli ngempela. Ngiyeke imidlalo yevidiyo esikhathini esingaphezu konyaka esedlule ngezizathu ezifanayo, futhi angikuphuthelwa lokho - kufana nokuthi ngiba nesikhathi esiningi namandla okuhlukanisa izinto ezibaluleke kakhulu kimi. Angikaze ngilwe nezifiso, angikutholi 'ukubangelwa' yi-porn noma ucansi / ubunqunu kumafilimu, isihogo, angivuselwa ngisho nasebhishi labanqunu noma okunjalo. Ngikwazi ngokuphelele ukuvuswa lapho ngifuna, noma lapho nginomlingani wami, kodwa ukuzithiba kuleyo nto akuyona into engilwa nayo.
Ngibheka i-porn ngezikhathi ezithile, kepha ngeqiniso, angizuzi kangako kuyo - ayikuthandi ukuthakazelisa kwami njengakuqala, njengemidlalo yevidiyo. Nginomuzwa onamandla wokuthi sengiphelelwe yisikhathi ngokuningi. Uma ngibheka izithombe zobulili ezingcolile, kusekelwe ekufuneni noma ngokuzama ukuzama ukufunda kuso (okusho ukuthi uma umlingani enesifiso engingasazi).
Mangisho, uma into evusa inkanuko ingekho… i-90% ye-porn ibonakala ngathi iyisimungulu. Angikwahluleli ngempela (ngaphandle uma kungenasisekelo ngandlela thile, okuluhlobo lwesihloko esihlukile), njengoba ngibona ukuthi luhlobo lwemidiya olwenzelwe isisekelo esithile sabathengi - kepha manje angikho kulokho isisekelo sabathengi, ngisabela ku-porn ngendlela engisabela ngayo kwimibukiso ye-TV engasho lutho.
Ngithatha izinyathelo, noma kunjalo, ukuhlola nokuqonda okwami, ubulili beqiniso, okwamanje, obuyimfihlakalo kimi. Kwakuvame ukungicacela ukuthi ngangikuphi 'engangikufuna', kepha njengoba sengiphumile ezingcolile zobulili ngibona ukuthi empeleni angazi ukuthi ngiyini, noma ukuthi ngiphendula kanjani ekuvukeni. Ngithatha izinkomba zami kumlingani wami kahle, kepha ngiyabona ukuthi kuzodingeka ngizihlole ngokujulile kulokhu ngokuzayo.
Noma kunjalo, lokho kungena kwami kokugijima ngedwa, isipiliyoni se-NoFap esingajwayelekile.
Xhuma kokuthunyelwe kwami kwangempela
tl; dr - Ngaphezulu konyaka weNoFap, ngiyajabula ngokuthi ngikuyekile, ungaphuthelwa, ungalindeli ukuthi ngizobuyela kuyo. Hhayi umuntu onamandla angaphezu kwawabantu noma usozigidi, akudingeki ukuba ube njalo, ngenza okukhulu ngokwami.
Kuhle kakhulu kini nonke!
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Ukubingelela, i-Fapstronauts kanye ne-Femstronauts - iPipeOrganEnthusiast lapha.
Ngineminyaka engu-22 ubudala, futhi ngihlushwa ukucindezeleka okuqhubekayo, okusakazeka kusukela ngineminyaka eyi-12, futhi kuye kwaya ngokuya ngokuya ngokuhamba kweminyaka. Angikaze ngiqonde ukuthi kungani ngicindezelekile - ngokusobala, impilo yami imnandi impela. Nginempilo enhle, nginomndeni onothando, intombi enhle, abangane abahle, ngibe nokuhlangenwe nakho okuningi okuhlukile empilweni, angikaze ngibe nezidakamizwa, anginasikweletu nhlobo, futhi manje ngiqeda iminyaka engu-4 eyimpumelelo yekolishi . Nginomsebenzi othembisayo nojabulisayo ngaphambi kwami, nezinto eziningi zokuzilibazisa engithola ukunconywa kakhulu ngazo.
Ngiyacela, ungacabangi ukuthi ngiyaziqhayisa - empeleni, kuyaxaka kimi ukubhala impilo yami sengathi yinhle noma iyathandeka, ngoba ngihlala ngizizwa njengodoti oyisiphukuphuku, ongenalwazi, ongenamsebenzi wamaseli iplanethi. Naphezu kwakho konke enginakho, ngithola injabulo encane kakhulu empilweni nesizathu esincane kakhulu sokuqhubeka kwami ngikhona. Ngenza izinto ngoba nginomuzwa wokuthi ziyadingeka, ngoba abantu bathembele kimi, ngoba ngiyazi ukuthi kufanele ngibonge ngokuba nokuphila okuhle kangaka. Ngihlala ngiphila futhi ngiqhubeka ngenxa yamandla… kepha injabulo yangempela yokuphila kwami incane, futhi ibilokhu iphela ngokushesha nangokushesha. Lokhu kunganeliseki kube yisifo sokuphila kwami isikhathi esingaphezu kweminyaka eyishumi, futhi kungiqhubekele emaphethelweni kaningana. Kungaba yinto eyodwa uma okungenani nginesizathu sokucindezeleka kakhulu - kepha ukungabi nomkhondo wokuthi kungani ngizizwa ngingelutho kwenza kube kubi nakakhulu kimi.
Kepha izolo kusihlwa, ngikhubekile ngaphesheya kwale ngxenye ngenkathi ngifuna okuthunyelwe mayelana nokudangala nokungasebenzi kahle kwezocansi, futhi ngithole isixhumanisi senkulumo kaGary Wilson's TedX kubha eseceleni. Ingqondo yami yayishaywe ngokuphelele.
YIMINA icala ngqo akhuluma ngalo. Ngiqale ukubuka i-porn ngasikhathi singeminyaka eyi-12, ehambelana nesikhathi lapho ukudangala kwami kuqala khona. Ukucinga okuqhubekayo kwezinto ezintsha nezixakile, umuzwa wokufikelwa isizungu nesithukuthezi lapho ubuyela empilweni yangempela, konke lokho kufaka isipiliyoni sami ngokuphelele. Kwakunezikhathi lapho ngangivimbela khona amasonto ambalwa noma inyanga (njengomuntu osemusha ngenxa yenkolo futhi njengomuntu omdala ukuze nje ngizihlole ngokwami ukuzithiba engicabanga ukuthi), kodwa ngokusho kwedatha engiyidingayo eduze kwe-4-5 izinyanga ku- okungenani ukwenza umehluko ngempela, futhi angikaze eminyakeni eyi-10 ihambe isikhathi eside kangako ngaphandle kokushaya indlwabu futhi / noma ukubuka uhlobo oluthile lwe-porn.
Into eyinqaba kunazo zonke ukuthi, angizange ngicabange nokuthi nginomlutha, ngoba, ngokweqiniso, angizithandi izithombe zobulili ezingcolile konke lokho, futhi ukushaya indlwabu akuyona yonke into ekhethekile kimi. Ngiyakwenza nje ngoba… kahle, kuzwakala ngokweqiniso ngathi KUFANELE ngikwenze - futhi izolo kusihlwa ngibone ukuthi lelo qiniso yilokho okungenza ngibe umlutha!
Kuyangimangaza ngokuphelele imininingwane yesayensi eyabekwa nguWilson - bengingazi ukuthi into efana nokulutha kwezidakamizwa ze-intanethi ingadala uhlobo olufanayo lwezinguquko zomzimba ebuchosheni obungaba umlutha wamakhemikhali. Lapho sengikufundile lokho, yonke into ichofoze ndawonye, kanye nesizathu sokucindezelwa kwami njalo, ukungabi namandla, ubuchopho bami buzizwa sengathi kufanele busebenze kanzima sonke isikhathi esibi ... NGOKUGCINA NGIYAZI UKUTHI KUQHUBEKA NINI.
Ngakho-ke ngokuyisisekelo, ngiyaqala kabusha ngoba i-FUCK. LOKHU. SHIT. Ukucindezeleka KukaFuck. Fuck ED. U-Fuck uzizwa sengathi ngiyisiphukuphuku futhi ngiphuza futhi anginele ngokwanele sonke isikhathi sokungena. Ukuxhuma ku-hentai akuwufanele nakancane umonakalo owenzayo ebuchosheni bami. Ngiyagijima NGENZE.
Ngitholwa nginecala elikhulu ngokuzibophezela kwi-no-fap (inhloso yami eyiseduze ukuthi ngikwenze ku-Dec. 31st, 2015, ngaleso sikhathi ngizohlola isimo sami futhi ngiqhubeke uma kusebenza). Kodwa-ke, ubuchopho bami obunyantisayo, obungabazayo bokuzithemba osebuvele bukhona bezama ukuhlehlisa imizamo yami.
Umzabalazo wami awunaso isifiso sokwenyama sokungafaki - kungukungabaza kwengqondo ukuthi ngingasithuthukisa isimo sami nganoma iyiphi indlela. Ngihlala ngicabanga ukuthi 'kahle, sengineminyaka engama-22 ubudala, ubuchopho bami busethwe ezinhlangothini zayo ngakho-ke mhlawumbe angikwazi ukukushintsha manje ...' noma ngibambeka kakhulu lapho nginamahloni futhi ngithukuthele ukuthi ngilethe usizi olungaka kimi engicabanga ukuthi angifanele ngisho nokulungisa.
Ingabe bakhona abantu lapha abaqale eminyakeni yami yonke futhi abangakhuthaza? Ngidinga ngempela ukwazi ukuthi okungenani kukhona ithemba elincane kimi.
Noma yiziphi ezinye izingcezu zezeluleko noma imibuzo zamukelekile.
TL; DR Impilo yami inhle impela kepha ngizizwa ngingelutho, ngemuva kokubuza imibuzo enginingi ngikholwa ukuthi ishumi leminyaka le-PMO lisolwa. Ukuqalisa kabusha ngoba i-FUCK. LOKHU. SHIT.
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