Angiqiniseki ini Kwenzeka ngqo, kepha kuyesabeka, kuyesabeka, futhi kunjalo real. Okuthile kushintshile. Ingqondo nomzimba wami kuvuka ebuthongweni engiwele kubo ngiseneminyaka engu-8 nje ubudala, lapho ngithola ukuthi ukuzihlikihla iqhude lami kunginike "ukuqhaqhazela" kaninginingi.
Ngiqale uhambo lwami lweNoFap eminyakeni emibili edlule, futhi abaningi, abaningi, abaningi baphindela emuva kamuva, ngikholelwa ukuthi ekugcineni ngiyaqonda ukuthi yini odokotela abaningi be-NoFap abebelokhu bekusho njalo: I-NoFap ayikho mayelana "nokudonsa amatshwele" noma ukwenza "alpha", kumayelana nokuvusa i-fuck up.
Manje ngomongo othile: ngineminyaka engama-25 ubudala. Kwaphela iminyaka nginezinkinga zokucindezeleka / ukucindezeleka. Ngibe nezintombi ezimbili. Ngokuvamile nginamahloni kubantu besifazane ngaphandle uma ngidakiwe- lapho kwenzeka ngiba nomdlandla ngokweqile ngasemngceleni we-sleazy. Ngixhumene nabesifazane abaningi, kodwa angikaze ngiye ocansini empilweni yami; futhi angizange nginikezwe i- "tug" noma i-blowjob. Eqinisweni, ngikhubazeke kakhulu ngezindlela ezahlukahlukene: akukho layisense yokushayela, ubuntombi obusasebenza, futhi ngihlala ekhaya nabazali bami abangisekelayo futhi abacindezela ngasikhathi sinye. Eminyakeni engu-25 ubudala.
Impela, ngineziqu zasekolishi ezivela eyunivesithi eyisungulwe kahle, kepha ukuziqhenya okunginikeza ubhedu uma kuqhathaniswa necala nehlazo engilizwayo ngokuswela ilayisense lokushayela, indawo yami, futhi okukhulu kakhulu, ngingenabo ubulili nokusondelana.
Ungafunga ukuthi ngingumfanekiso weparele UMinkus, kodwa ngezindlela eziningi ngiphikisana kakhulu: nokaputeni webhola likanobhutshuzwayo esikoleni esiphakeme, i-baseball MVP, u-6'1, amazinyo aphelele, isilevu esixegayo. Futhi ngaphambi kokuthi ungimangalele ngokuziqhayisa, cabanga ukuthi ngivele ngavuma ukuthi ngiyintombi eneminyaka engama-25 ehlala ekhaya nabazali bayo futhi engakwazi ukushayela imoto.
Manje, ngaphambi kokuthi ngimemezele ukuthi onke la maphutha alungisiwe- ake ngikuqinisekise ukuthi asaqhubeka. Ngisamangele kuzo zonke lezi zindlela. Kepha okushintshile ngokuphawulekayo selokhu ngiqale lolu hambo lweNoFap isifiso sami sokuwashintsha. Akusekho “fuuuuuck” okwehlisa umoya, okwehlisa umoya njengoba ngiziqubula ngokunganaki njengoba umkhumbi ushayisa iqhwa. Cha - engikuzwayo manje yisifiso sangempela sokuthatha isinyathelo, nokuthatha isinyathelo manje. Fuck the iceberg.
Izifiso zami nokuba necala kwami akusathokozi kakhulu ekucineni kokuba kwami-- ngicindezelwa kaningi lapho bekhuphukela phezulu. Manje, ngibazizwa ngokujulile. Ngibezwa beqonda ngqo. Kuyabuhlungu, ukuqiniseka, kepha sengibonile (ikakhulu ngenxa yeNoFap, kubonakala sengathi) lezi zinkinga akuyona imithwalo engenakuphikiswa yesikhathi esidabukisayo nesinesizungu: kumane nje kuyizici ezibalulekile zokuphila engihlulekile ukuzenza. isipiliyoni noma ukufinyelela ngenxa yezimo ezahlukahlukene (ukukhula, ukukhathazeka, ukudana, insangu, ukuzethemba okuphansi).
Ngaqala ukuqala iNoFap eminyakeni emibili eyedlule lapho ngingahlalanga ngiyishaya isonto ngingaqondile, futhi ngabona ukushintsha kwamandla ami nokuzethemba kwami. Ngibheke okuthile okufana "nezinzuzo zokungashayi indlwabu" futhi ngathola konke lokhu kuhamba noma indlela yokuphila, noma ngabe ukhetha ukuyibiza ini.
Noma kunjalo, ukuphinda engikushilo phambilini: iminyaka emibili futhi eminingi, eminingi, eminingi ibuyela emuva kamuva, ngikholelwa ukuthi ekugcineni ngiyaqonda ukuthi yini odokotela abaningi be-NoFap abebelokhu bekusho njalo: I-NoFap ayikho mayelana "nokudonsa amatshwele" noma ukwenza "alpha" , kumayelana nokuvusa i-fuck up.
Ekuqaleni, ngangizabalaza ukunweba umugqa ngaphesheya kwezinsuku eziyi-7. Ukuyala kwami kwengqondo kwakungalingani ne-testosterone yami (ebonakala) ikhuphuka. Umcabango owodwa ongcolile ungaholela komunye, futhi ngaphambi kokuba ngazi ukuthi isifiso singinqobile, futhi ngizochitha amahora we-3 + ngifuna i-porno ephelele ehambelana nanoma yisiphi isifiso sobulili esinqabile enganginaso okwamanje. Ngezinye izikhathi, ukubuyela emuva kungaba yank esheshayo engenazo i-porn kanye nomcabango wami kuphela. Akunandaba ukuthi iyiphi indlela, ngakusasa ngangihlala ngizizwa nginjenge-shit: ngicindezelekile, ngiyazisola, ngikhathazekile futhi angizethembi. Kwaba njengokusebenza kwewashi: nweba umucu ongaphezu kwezinsuku eziyishumi, izinto ezinhle ziqala ukwenzeka. Ngizizwa ngingcono. Ukubuyela emuva- khipha umzimba wami kuketshezi olubalulekile nobuchopho bami nge-dopamine yayo ebalulekile- bese uthola imiphumela.
Ngemuva kwemigwaqo eminingi emifushane, umehluko phakathi kwezifundazwe ezimbili (fapping vs. streak) wacaca bucwebezela, futhi ngasebenzisa inkumbulo yokubuyela emuva kokuzisola njengophethiloli wokuqhubekela phambili. Kwafika ezingeni lapho ngangizogwema khona izimo zenhlalo ukube ngangisanda kufakelwa, ngoba ingqikithi yami eyinhloko yayicace bha (ukuzethemba kwezenhlalo kukhuphuka kakhulu ngesikhathi somugqa). Uma ujwayela ukuthi uzizwa kanjani ku-streak, kuba yilokho okukhona futhi ezinsukwini ezilandelayo ukubuyela emuva, awusazizwa ufana nawe. Kuyafana ne- Austin Amandla elenziwa lilize ngaphandle kwe-mojo yakhe.
Ngakho-ke, ngezinzuzo zesikripthi kanye nemiphumela emibi yokufayelwa kucace engqondweni yami, ngakwazi ukuvumelana ngokungaguquki amasonto, kwesinye isikhathi izinyanga ngasikhathi. Ezinyangeni ezimbalwa ezedlule, ngigodle cishe ngokuphelele (ngaphandle kobusuku lapho ngathola khona ukuthambisa amabhola ama-horrid aluhlaza okwakubangelwe ukungakwazi ukwenza ngenxa ye whisky Dick- ukungqina ibheji lami lezinsuku eziyi-17).
Olunye ushintsho lwakamuva ukwenzeka kaningi kwamaphupho manzi, obekungiphumelele sonke isikhathi sobusha (mhlawumbe ngoba ngangihamba nsuku zonke ngaleso sikhathi). Ekuqaleni ngangikhungatheke ngokumangazayo ngoba babezizwa njengokubuyela emuva okwakungelona iphutha lami. Kwesinye isikhathi ngangizizwa ngihlulwa yiphupho elimanzi bese ngithi “ngiyiliqhume, ngingahle ngiyishiye” ngiyishaye ubusuku obubili noma obubili- kuphela lapho ngathola khona ukuthi ukushaya indlwabu kungenza ngizizwe ngiphatheke kabi kunephupho elimanzi. Ngokwemvelo, ngokwemvelo, angazi ukuthi kungani ukushaya indlwabu kungenza ngicindezeleke kakhulu futhi nginamanzi amaphupho (ngezinga elifanayo). Enye into esizile ukuzwa isisho seNoFap, “Bamba iqhude lakho, setha kabusha iwashi; ukungcola ebusuku, qhubeka nomsebenzi wakho. ” Futhi kulokho ngithi FUCK YEAH ngoba ukuphuma ebusuku, ngokwezinga elithile, a into enhle. Bayathuthuka. Bayisibonakaliso sokuthi ubuchopho bakho kanye namahomoni akho abuyela ekulinganiseni.
Okunye engikuqaphelile ukuthi ubusuku enganginamaphupho amanzana ngalo lonke ubusuku (izinsuku) lapho ngivezwa isithombe esivusa inkanuko noma ezocansi. Ngobusuku engaqala ukubuka Marco Polo ngabona ubufebe: boom. iphupho elimanzi. Ngakho-ke ngenza umzamo omkhulu wokungabheki lutho oluvusa amadlingozi. Izolo ngesikhathi ngibuka Ukhohlwa uSarah Marshall Ngangiphuma egumbini njalo lapho uJason Segal noma uRussell Brand bebekwa. Ngokuhlanganiswa nalokhu, ngithuthukise indlela yokubona ukuvikela amaphupho amanzi, futhi kuze kube manje inezinga lempumelelo elingu-100%. Indlela ukuveza ngokusobala uRunkle kusuka Californication ngesinqe sakhe esincane esimfushane ngama-whitey tighties. Lesi sithombe siyangikhipha, futhi ngizama ukusicabanga njalo ebusuku ngaphambi kombhede (Runkle, uma ufunda lokhu, ngiyaxolisa ngempela).
Futhi lokho kusithatha manje. Izindaba ezimbi, ama-fellas, ukuthi angizizwa ngimangalisa ngaso sonke isikhathi. Angizizwa njengoGeorge Clooney lapho ngifika edolobheni. Angilali ebusuku ngizizwa ngibonga ukuthi konke kukhulu futhi kuphelele kangakanani. Ngomqondo othile, i-NoFap yenza okuphambene nalokho. Kukuvusa esimweni esikindiki. Ithi “Shaya wena nokunganaki kwakho. Nazi ezinye izinhlungu zangempela, isifiso sangempela. Yenza okuthile ngakho. ” Kunzima ukubona ukuthi undikindiki futhi uhlukanisiwe lapho undikindiki futhi uhlukanisiwe. Kufana nokuthi abantu abahlanyayo abazi kanjani ukuthi bayahlanya (noma ngizwe kanjalo). Kuphela lapho inkungu nokunganaki nokudangala okuqala ukukhuphuka lapho ubona khona ukuthi ubukade ungaphansi kwesikhathi esingakanani. Uhambe isikhathi esingakanani. Kuyakhulula futhi kuyesabisa, kepha kungcono kunokuzizwa undikindiki. Kufanele ngengeze, ukuthi ngaphezu kwalokhu kuvuka, ukungakhuli kuthuthukisa ukuzethemba, kunciphisa kakhulu ukukhathazeka nokudangala, futhi kukugcwalise ngokuzethemba nokuzola. Ngeke ikuguqule ube nguGeorge Clooney, kepha uzozizwa ufana naye kakhulu kunalokho owakwenza ngenkathi umanzisa izicubu ezijabule.
Abaningi benu ngeke bathande lokhu engizokusho. Futhi uma ngandlela-thile ukwenzile lokhu kwafika endaweni yami enkulu yokulahla i-inthanethi, ngifaka ikepisi lami indlela yakho. Engizokusho ukuthi ingxenye enkulu yokuvuka kwami ibibandakanya nokuyeka insangu ne-caffeine, kokubili engikudle njalo iminyaka. Ngayeka ukubhema ukhula ngoNovemba ka-2013. Ukuyeka ukhula kwadala ukukhathazeka okhubazekile okwathatha izinyanga kwaphela. Kuthathe izinyanga eziqinile ze-9 + ngaphambi kokuthi ngizizwe ngiwumuntu wami omdala futhi.
Ukuyeka ikhofi kwafika kamuva kakhulu. Ngikwenzile ngoba nginqume ukuthi angifuni ukuthembela kokunye ngaphandle kokudla, amanzi nokuzivocavoca umzimba. Amaviki amabili okuqala anobudlova - ikhanda lakho lixakekile, ukukhathala kuyisitimela sezimpahla- kodwa kuba ngcono. Angikwazi ukukhulumela wonke umuntu, kepha ukucindezeleka kwami okuningi nezinkinga zanyamalala lapho ngishiya i-caffeine. Kwaqondana? Mhlawumbe. Kepha angizimisele ukuphinda ngisebenzise izinto futhi. Ngeke ngidle ngisho namakhukhi e-chocolate chip. Okungiletha ephuzwini lami elilandelayo:
Ngicabanga ukuthi ezinye izinzuzo zokuyeka le mikhuba azizishintshi kangako ngokomzimba / ngamakhemikhali, kepha isiyalo esidinga ukusenza– futhi sinamathele kulolo shintsho. Ngithole ukuthi sonke lesi simo siyindida: Ngichithe iminyaka neminyaka ngidla izidakamizwa, i-porn, imidlalo yevidiyo nanoma yini enye emizameni yokuzizwa ngingcono; ukuzama ukufeza uhlobo oluthile lokwaneliseka kwangempela ebengikuntula kakhulu. Kodwa-ke, ngemuva kokugwema zonke lezi zinto, ngithole ukuthi ukuthula nenduduzo ebengikufuna ngezinto bekuphakathi kwami sonke lesi sikhathi. Bengingadingi ukungeza. Bengidinga ukukhipha. Futhi manje njengoba sengikwenzile lokho, sengikulungele ukwengeza futhi: kuphela ngalesi sikhathi, ngizobe ngengeza izingxenye zempilo engizithola zinenjongo futhi ziyanelisa, kunokuba ngibe nezikhuthazi ezingenamsebenzi ezenza izinto zibe zimbi kakhulu ngokuhamba kwesikhathi.
Manje ngizama ukuthini lapha? Iyini inhloso yale novella yokushaya indlwabu? Mhlawumbe kungukufinyelela kumuntu onjengami, umuntu ocindezelekile futhi okhathazekile futhi obesedlala umtshingo wesikhumba sakhe isikhathi eside ngangokunokwenzeka. Mhlawumbe kukhona umuntu obhemayo izinsuku ezishiye ifu lentuthu nezinkumbulo ezifiphele nobusuku obunamathele. Mhlawumbe kukhona umuntu onjengami, owahlanganisa ndawonye ama-NoFap streaks amaningi, kepha akazange abone noma yiziphi izinzuzo ezingaphezu kokuzethemba okuthuthukile noma i-libido.
Yazi lokhu nje: I-NoFap akuyona igagasi lamanzi lapho izinzuzo zivela ngokushesha emkhathizwe bese zishaya noma yini ekuvukeni kwayo. I-NoFap iyi-glacier. Inamandla, inamandla, futhi izinzile. Cishe awukwazi ukuyibona ihamba, kodwa kunjalo. Futhi ngokuhamba kwesikhathi, kuzoveza okuthile mkhulu kunokuba ungacabanga. Kepha njengoba ngishilo: inzuzo yangempela yeNoFap akuyona amaphuzu ayi-10 ngokuzethemba namaphoyinti angama-20 kubudoda.
Umvuzo omkhulu ukucaca. Umvuzo wokugcina uwukuthi ubuhlungu.
LINK - Umoya ongcwele. I-NoFap gurus yayiqinisile. Kwenzeka ngempela.
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