Ngikholwa ukuthi ngingomunye wamacala amabi. Ngineminyaka engu-27. Ngiqale ukuthambekela ekushaya indlwabu ngisangene ngobuhlanya, mhlawumbe cishe ngo-6 noma ngo-7. Umzimba wami ubungakakhi isidoda okwamanje kodwa benginamafutha lapho ngithambile.
Uqale ukushaya izithombe zobulili ezingcolile ngokushesha ngangokunokwenzeka (11? 12?) Futhi ngisebenzisa i-Limewire ukulanda amavidiyo kungekudala. Ngokusobala, ngiqale amasayithi amashubhu njengoba evela. Ngaphandle kwecala engangizizwa ngoba ucansi lwaluyinto engekho (ngakhulela ekhaya lenkolo), angizange ngicabange ukuthi kukhona okungahambi kahle * ngami. Ngabona ukuthi ngiyingane enesibindi futhi ngisemusha, futhi njengoba wonke umuntu ebonakala ebuka i-porn, kungaba kubi kangakanani?
Izikole zami eziphakeme nezothando lwami ekolishi zazifana nezakho eziningi. Ukudutshulwa kwami kokuqala ngocansi kwaba ukwehluleka esikoleni esiphakeme, njengoba kwaba njalo nakumbhangqwana wokuqala wasekolishi. Ekugcineni, ngathola intombi njenge sophomore ekolishi. Ngenhlanhla, ubengithanda kakhulu futhi ebekezelela ukwehluleka okumbalwa ngaze ngagcina ngiphumelele. Ukuya ocansini naye kancane kancane kwaba ngcono, kepha akuzange kube kuhle ngokuhamba kwesikhathi sobudlelwano bethu beminyaka eminingana. Ngiqhubeke PMOing kulo lonke ubudlelwano.
Ngemuva kokuthi sihlukane ekuqaleni kwe-2012, ngagwema i-orgasm, okokuqala ngicindezelekile ngemuva kokuhlukana. Mina ngasizathu simbe angikaze ngithole isifiso sokubuka i-porn ngalesi sikhathi esifushane, futhi phakathi nalesi "streak" esingaqondile, ngabona lokho abaningi abakuchaza ngokuthi "amandla amakhulu" atholwe ekuziqedeni noma ekwelapheni i-PIED. Bengikulokho okungabizwa kuphela ngokuthi isimo sokugeleza okujabulisayo izinyanga ezimbalwa.
Ekugcineni ngo-Agasti walowo nyaka, injabulo yaphela ngokungazelelwe njengoba ngangena emgodini ojulile kakhulu wempilo yami engikhuphuka kuwo manje. Ngabe lokhu bekuwukuphela kwesipiki sokuqala "samandla amakhulu" kusuka ekuziyekeleni nasekuqalekeni kwenguqulo ye-porn ye-post-acute-withdrawal-syndrome? Uma isayensi kaGary ilungile, ngingasho ukuthi kungenzeka ngokubheka ukujula nobude becala lami.
Lapho ngiqala ukuzwa ukukhathazeka nokucindezeleka komphakathi kwe-INSANE, ngethuka futhi ngaqala ukuzama ukubuka i-porn futhi. Ngithi "ngiyazama" ngoba angikwazi ngisho nokuyithola ibe yi-porn ngalesi sikhathi (namanje angikwazi). Ngokwethembeka, lesi sikhathi sempilo yami sifiphele ngoba bengingaqapheli noma yikuphi kwalokhu. Bengingakayitholi i-YBOP okwamanje.
Ekugcineni ngathola isiza sikaGary ngoJuni ka-2013 futhi angikaze ngibe ne-PMO kusukela lapho. Ngishaye indlwabu futhi ngiqale ekuqaleni kokuqalisa kabusha, imvamisa ngandlela-thile futhi i-20% ithambile. Ekugcineni, nginqume ukuhamba kanzima ngaphandle kocansi nentombi yami ende.
Phakathi kukaJuni '13 noJuni '14, ngangibona intombi yami njalo ezinyangeni eziyi-1.5 noma kunjalo. Sizoba nobulili obuningi, abanye baphumelele abanye bangaphumeleli, futhi nakanjani ngizobona izimpawu zomzimba ezilandela i-orgasm. Ukucanuzela kwenhliziyo, ikhanda elibuhlungu, ukukhathala, inkungu yobuchopho, ukudangala, ukukhathazeka, nokungakwazi ukusebenza kahle emphakathini. Lezi yizimpawu ebengibhekene nazo futhi ngiqhubeke cishe iminyaka eyi-3, kepha ngibonile ukushintshashintsha okukhulu kakhulu ngemuva kwe-orgasm. Noma nini lapho ngiqala ukungabaza inqubo yokuqalisa kabusha kanye nesayensi ye-PIED, i-orgasm izongivusa eqinisweni lokuthi okuthile kwakungalungile. Leyo ukuphela kwendlela engingachaza ngayo ukuthi ubuchopho bami bebuyini kukho konke lokhu. Akulungile. Ukuphela kwento engangigcina ngiphila kwakuwukuqashelwa kwe-sllllloowwwwwlyyy yami yokuthuthukisa izimpawu. Ngangiphatheke kabi, kepha nganginosizi olungu-1% kunangenyanga edlule. Futhi lokho kwakwanele.
Ngishilo isimo saphezulu naphansi sezimpawu zami, futhi ngicabanga ukuthi lo mphumela we-roller coaster yingxenye ebalulekile enganakwa kakhulu kuyo yonke le nqubo / ingxoxo. Indlela izimpawu zethu ezingokwengqondo ezifika futhi zihambe ngayo ngesikhathi sokuqalisa kabusha NGEMPELA yokuthi ukuhoxiswa okunamandla okuchazwe emithini enzima. Bathi izinkathi ezimnyama ziya ngokuya zikhanya futhi zingabi njalo, futhi izikhathi ezinhle ziba ngcono futhi zivame kakhulu njengoba uqhubekela phambili ngokuhoxa, okuyikho kanye okwenzekile ngami.
Bafo, angikwazi ngisho nokukutshela ukuthi ngangizizwa ngiphansi kanjani ngesinye isikhathi. Ngangifile ebuchosheni, ngingakwazi ukusebenza emphakathini ngisho nabangane nomndeni, ngicindezelekile, ngingakhuthazeki, njll. Manje, izimpawu azivamile futhi azinamandla kangako.
Mina nentombi yami sihlala edolobheni elilodwa manje, ngakho-ke ucansi luningi kakhulu. Simatasa futhi sicindezelekile ngakho-ke kuvame ukuba yinto yangempelasonto, kepha cishe ihlala ijabulisa futhi iphumelela. Okuwukuphela kwesifo somzimba engike ngibhekane naso ngezinye izikhathi yi-PE.
Okubaluleke kakhulu empilweni yami yansuku zonke, izimpawu zami zengqondo sezithuthuke kakhulu. Angikabuyi ngokugcwele okwamanje, kepha ngisondele kakhulu kunakuqala.
Ngokwazi ukwelulekwa… ..UMEDITATION mkhulu kakhulu kimi. Ukuphakamisa isisindo somqondo, futhi ingqondo ingaba ngumlingani wethu omkhulu noma isitha esibi kule mpi. Mane uhlale imizuzu engu-10 ngosuku bese ugxila ekuphefumuleni kwakho. Ngiqale lo mkhuba njengesinqumo sonyaka wami omusha, futhi kulapho-ke ukuthuthuka kwami kwaqala khona ukushesha.
Inothi elengeziwe lokuzindla nokuhlola ingqondo: Ngifunde okuthile okuthakazelisayo izolo. "Ukuzama ukudambisa ingqondo yakho NGENGQONDO yakho kunjengokuzama ukuziluma amazinyo." Ngakho-ke, sigxila ekuthobiseni umzimba, futhi nengqondo ngokwemvelo iyalandela. Vele uhlale lapho umzuzu bese ugxila ekukhipheni ukungezwani emahlombe akho. Yenza okuphambene nokubakhipha ezindlebeni zakho. Nikela ngokuphelele kumandla adonsela phansi bese uvumela ukucindezeleka ukuthi kwehle emzimbeni wakho. Lo mkhuba olula ungisize kakhulu.
Noma kunjalo, sibonga wonke umuntu okulesi siza ongeze inani. Izinto ezihamba phambili kuleli sayithi zifaka phakathi ukuzama ukufika ezansi kwale nto e-fucking. Angikaze ngichofoze i- “NOFAP (faka inyanga lapha) !! ' intambo empilweni yami kepha ngichithe amahora ngifunda okuthunyelwe okucabangayo mayelana ne-flatline, ama-receptors e-D2 nezifundo zesayensi. Lokhu kudinga ukuqhubeka nokwenzeka ngoba iningi labafana abaningi ekugcineni lizokwehla. Lokhu kufanele kube yindawo yokucwaninga, hhayi indawo yokuxhumana nabantu abafana abangakwazi ukuyeka izinsuku ezingaphezu kwezingu-10.
Qhubeka uqhubeke. "Noma yini enokuvela ... nayo izodlula."
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