Ngingasho ngokuzethemba ukuthi i-ED yami iwubhontshisi, futhi leli sayithi, kanye neningi labantu, yingakho. Okokuqala, ake ngikutshele ukuthi leli ngeke kube icala elibi kakhulu owake walifunda.
Eqinisweni, indaba yami yokuphumelela ilula (yize ihlukile) uma kuqhathaniswa nokuningi engikufunde lapha. Akunandaba, usongo lukhona, bafana. I-PIED ingokoqobo. Angikaze ngithumele lapha ngaphambili (futhi empeleni ngisanda kujoyina namuhla), kepha bengingeke ngibe lapho ngikhona manje ngaphandle kosizo oluvela kule ndawo, ngakho-ke ngifuna ukubuyisela umbono wami nesipiliyoni kini bafana.
Nginesiqiniseko sokuthi iningi lenu lizowabhekisisa amehlo enu kulokhu, kodwa empeleni ngilahle ubuntombi bami ngina-13. Ngangihlanganyela ocansini kakhulu kusukela cishe ngaphambi kokuba ngihlanganise i-15 kuya phambili. Ngikholwa ukuthi lokho kuhlobene kakhulu nokululama kwami, kepha noma ngubani kini ongaseyintombi, ngiyakholelwa kini; sonke siyakwenza.
Ngiyakwazi ukukhuluma kakhulu, ngakho-ke ngizozama ukukwenza lokhu kufushane ngangokunokwenzeka. Ngineminyaka engu-29 futhi ngijabule emshadweni (eminyakeni emibili manje). Ngibe nomkami kusukela sobabili sasingu-19, futhi impilo yethu yezocansi yayihlale imnandi. Saya ezikoleni ezahlukahlukene zangemva kwamabanga aphakeme futhi sahlala kude komunye nomunye isikhathi eside, futhi kulapho kudlala khona izithombe ezingcolile zobulili ezingcolile. Ngithole izithombe zobulili ezingcolile lapho i-intanethi ifika, cishe ngokushesha. Ake sithi cishe iminyaka engu-14 ubudala. Nganoma yisiphi isizathu, noma ngabe ngangiwumuntu ocansi kakhulu, yize kwakushisa, angikaze ngibe njalo nakimi. Engangikukho, noma kunjalo, kwakuwukuxoxa ngocansi. I-Cybersex ibe ngqo. Nganginomusa futhi ngiphumile kuyo (phakathi kobudlelwano nokuxhumana kwangempela kwempilo yezocansi) kuze kube yilapho mina no-GF (unkosikazi wamanje) sesiya esikoleni. Ngikuthethelele ngokuthi ngicabanga ukuthi kungcono kunokumkhohlisa ngokomzimba, ngakho-ke bengizongena ezingosini zokuxoxa ngocansi nabanye abantu (amantombazane, "amantombazane" futhi kwesinye isikhathi abanye abafana - yize beqonde ngqo) ku-inthanethi, ngenkathi kwesinye isikhathi ngifaka ezinye izithombe ezingcolile isizinda.
Ngangikwenza cishe kanye noma kabili ngosuku, ngangiba nezinsuku - kwesinye isikhathi amasonto - ngiphumile lapho nginentombazane yami, noma ngiya emicimbini / ekuzijabuliseni, kepha kwaba umkhuba ngokushesha ngingakuqapheli. Ngiphinde ngaba ngumpetha wokuhlela. Ngangizodlala noma yikuphi phakathi kwehora elingu-1 neli-3 ngaphandle kwe-O'ing Lokhu ekugcineni kwahumushelwa empilweni yami yangempela yocansi futhi ngokuhamba kwesikhathi, ngaba ne-DE ebucayi.
Ekugcineni bengingeke ngikwazi nokulala nekhondomu, futhi bengingazizwa lutho. Sashada, impilo yethu yocansi yehla (kwase kuyisikhashana) futhi yize empeleni sihlala ndawonye, sasiya ocansini mhlawumbe kanye ngenyanga. Mhlawumbe kabili. Futhi lapho sikwenza, ingqondo yami ibicabanga ngemicabango engcolile yokuzenzela u-O, noma ngingenza izaba zokungayizwa, bese ngiqeda ngaphandle kuka-O'ing empeleni.
Inkanuko yami yezocansi yehle kakhulu, futhi ngicabanga nje ukuthi konke bekuyingxenye yokushada, noma ukuba nowesifazane ofanayo (omangalisayo) iminyaka eyishumi… Ngakho-ke ngivele ngaqhubeka nokwenza i-cybersex rushes nokubuka i-porn eceleni, futhi thina ilokhu ilahlekelwa ukusondelana futhi yaqala ukulwa kakhulu.
Konke kumshaye kakhulu umlandeli ngenkathi sinquma ukuqala umndeni, obekuleli hlobo nje eledlule. Ngo-Agasti kuya kuSepthemba kwakuwasha - kwesinye isikhathi ngangike ngibe u-O, kwesinye isikhathi hhayi, kepha nganginciphise i-PMO kanye ne-inthanethi yocansi ngoba ngifuna ukugcina "amasosha" ami ehlolile. Ngingakwenza kuphela lapho kufika isikhathi sakhe senyanga. Njalo ngaphandle kwakhe azi, kunjalo.
Ukwehluleka ukukhulelwa kwakuwukufika kithi, futhi phakathi naphakathi kuka-Okthoba, nginqume ukuthi ngizoyeka ngokuphelele i-PMO, ngangizizwa ngiphoxekile ngemuva kwayo noma kunjalo .. Ngakho-ke izinsuku zokuqala zazilungile, kepha ngaqala ukuthola lezi zikhathi ezinolaka lapho Ngangena emsebenzini, owawusendle. Ngangizithinta lapho ngifika ekhaya, kodwa ngabe u-O - ngenqaba u-O. Ekugcineni, izikhala zasendle zanyamalala, kodwa kanye nazo, zahamba ngokuphelele isifiso sami. Lapho kufika isikhathi sokuqala ukuzama ngoNovemba, angikwazanga ukukugcina. Singawuthola ucishe ube uhhafu wamandla, mhlawumbe ngaphezulu kancane, ngangiwuthola, futhi kungapheli mizuzu, wawungaxhuga. Amasonto amabili aqondile. Amabhola aluhlaza beyiqiniso. Futhi angakhululekile.
Ngingakaze ngibe ne-ED ngaphambili, ngobusuku besibili kwenzeka, ngigxume ku-inthanethi futhi ngathola le ndawo. Ngichithe ama-HOURS ngifunda konke engingakwenza ku-PIED nakho konke okuhlobene nakho. Angikholwanga. Kwakungimi lo. Lokhu kwakwenzeka kimi!
Izinto zazinzima endlini yethu, futhi ngikhumbula cishe ngoNovemba 8, ngizinikele ngokuphelele kuNoFap. Noma kungathatha isikhathi esingakanani, ngangizilungisa. Nginike umkami iqiniso eliyingxenye yokuthi ngingenza kanjani uM ukuba abe nemicabango lapho ngifika ekhaya ngivela emsebenzini kodwa bekungaba u-O ngezikhathi ezithile. Ngamchazela ukuthi lokhu kwakungikhungathekise futhi kuphazamise ubuchopho bami. Wamangala, kepha wangeseka. Angicabangi ukuthi wayebuqonda kahle ubunzima besimo, kepha wakhululeka ukuba nesizathu sokuthi ngingakwazi ukusithola ingxenye engcono yamasonto amabili.
Izimpawu zokuhoxa zingishaye kanzima. Ukudana, ukukhathazeka, ukungathandi ukudla, ukukhathala, ukubanda - benginakho lokho isikhathi esingaphezu kwesonto. Ukungakhulumi ngokuphelele nge-zero sex drive ne-libido eyayiye eholidini lokuthi ngubani owaziyo isikhathi esingakanani. Ngangizibophezele ekungazithintini nokho, futhi ngangizigcina ngimatasa ngamaphrojekthi asendlini, ama-push up kanye neHockey emnandi. Udokotela wahlola i-testosterone yami, eyayilungile, wanginika iViagra. Yebo, lokhu bekungumhlanga wokugcina kimi. 29 futhi watshelwa ukuthi azame iViagra. Ngafunga ngempilo yami ukuthi ngeke ngiyithinte leyo nto.
Ngacinga ngazungeza ngathola amaphilisi eMaca - ngingumuntu ongenasineke engiyikho - engifanele ukusho ngokuhlangenwe nakho kwami, ukuthi ngibe nguGodsend. Ngemuva kwesikhathi esingangesonto noma amabili ngiphuza la maphilisi amahlandla ama-3 ngosuku, ngazizwa izinto .. Izimpawu zokuhoxa zaqala ukudlula, amandla ami aqhamuka, futhi kwaba nokuzwa okuncane epipi lami (kubukeka kunempilo kakhulu). Angikaze ngizithinte KONKE yize ngangiqale ukucabanga kancane, lapha nalaphaya. Ngithola ama-semi-erections ngezikhathi ezithile, kepha akukho lutho olukhulu kakhulu noma olunzima kakhulu. I-libido yami ibizoza idlule, futhi bengingaqiniseki ngempela ukuthi kwenzakalani, kepha umzimba wami wawungohlobo oluthile lwenguquko. Hhayi u-O'ing empeleni wayesiza ekulinganiseni ubuchopho bami.
Phakathi nakho konke lokhu (ngisho naphakathi kwesigcawu sami), ngangimelene nokuzama ukubuyisela emuva. Nganginothando kakhulu nomkami, sasizobamba, sasingane futhi sithinte lapho sodwa sodwa, futhi lokho kwasiza nakanjani.
Lapho kufika isikhathi "senkathi yokuzama" yethu yangoDisemba eyenzeke ngesonto eledlule, ngangikhathazekile, kodwa futhi ngazizwa ngilungele. Ngangingenayo i-O'd cishe ezinyangeni ezimbili, futhi ngangingenayo i-M'd cishe amasonto ama-5. Saqala ukukhanya, ngezwa ukunyakaza okuthile phansi, sasisondelana ngokwengeziwe, futhi saqhuma. Bengingazange ngibe lukhuni kanjena EMINYAKENI. Senze uthando, sobabili safinyelela emvuthwandaba, futhi sikwenze njalo ebusuku kusukela (5 zilandelana manje) singenazo izingqinamba futhi akukaze kuzwakale lokhu okuhle kusukela ngisemusha. Bengifuna ukuthumela lapha, kepha benginqikaza uma kungenzeka kube umphumela "wokujaha", engingaqinisekisa ukuthi awunembile. Lesi yisivumelwano sangempela, bafana.
Kuningi kakhulu engingathanda ukukubhala, futhi nazi ezinye izindaba ezimbili ebengizizwa zihlobene nami, futhi zingisize kakhulu:
- http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=20230.0
- http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=30919.0
Sicela uzizwe ukhululekile ukungibuza noma yini ongafuna ukuyazi; Ngifuna ukusiza ngangokunokwenzeka. Lokhu bekungithusa, futhi ngifunde amacala amabi kakhulu, ngakho-ke ngicabanga nje ukuthi abanye abantu bakhathazeke kanjani.
Ungashaya lokhu, bafana. Usongo lungokoqobo, kodwa kunjalo ukunqoba.
I-PS Xolisa noma yimaphi amaphutha abalulekile esipelingi / wohlelo - ngikuthumele lokhu kufoni yami.
Ezinye izimiso zokuphila ngu:
- Yeka ukuzithinta. Kube bonke. Misa - vele ume.
- Ukubonga kubalulekile kakhulu. Umkami wangisiza ukusheshisa ukubuyiswa kwami.
- Namathela kuzithangami Zendaba Yempumelelo. Ziba okusele uze ululame.
Indaba yami yokuphumelela: http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=32389.msg512939#msg512939
LINK - Ukuqedwa ngempumelelo ED
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