Ngingu-29 futhi angikaze ngicabange ngamantombazane amancane ngendlela yezocansi, empilweni yami yonke yabantu abadala. Bengihlala ngikhangwa ngamatits, imbongolo kanye nesimame, futhi bengingaqondi ukuthi umuntu ohamba ngezinyawo angakhangwa kanjani ezinganeni.
Ezinyangeni ezimbalwa ezedlule ngiqale ukuhlola ama-YouTube amavidiyo we-under-18, kepha ngisamantombazane angama-pubescent amdansa we-sexy, umdwebo wokugcona njll, angikaze ngibe nezithombe zobulili ezingcolile, kepha nokho Lokhu kuyinto enyanyekayo ngokuphelele, kepha akuyona into engokwemvelo ngombono wami ngoba amantombazane avuthiwe ngokuphelele emzimbeni nge-15-16, futhi yize singeke sikwamukele, amadoda akhanga ngocansi amantombazane alonyaka.
Njengoba ungacabanga, kukhona yonke i-YouTube subculture enikezelwe kumavidiyo ama-sexy amantombazane amancane. Ekugcineni, ngaholwa kusuka eminyakeni yobudala eyi-15 ngaya emantombazaneni aneminyaka engu-12, 10, 8 ubudala adansa ngama-bikinis ne-shit kanjalo. Kwangethusa ukuziphatha kwami. Ngangingakaze ngicabange kude ukwenza lolu hlobo lwento ngaphambili eminyakeni yami engu-15 + yokukhula. Nginguye ngempela lowo mfana? Isinyenyela esilahlayo esidlulela emantombazaneni amancane, futhi ekugcineni ingabe unkulunkulu uyakwazi okunye?
Ngangazi ukuthi kukhona okungahambi kahle kakhulu okwenzeka ebuchosheni bami. Lokhu bekungemina.
Kwakungezikhathi ngalesi sikhathi ngithola i-nofap. Ngabona ukuthi okwakwenzeka kwakuyimpoqo eqhutshwa yi-dopamine yobunono. Ingqondo yami yashiswa lapho kufayelwa kwabesifazane abadala, ukuthokozela kanye nokuqamba kwamantombazane amancane yilokho nje ubuchopho bami obumlutha be-dopamine babuyilandela.
Angikholwa ukuthi bekufanele kufinyelele kulelo phuzu, kepha yilokho okwangithatha ukuze ngibe ngokoqobo futhi ngibone ukuthi umonakalo we-porn nokushaya indlwabu wawenzani engqondweni yami. Ngiyekile kwi-PMO amaviki e-2 manje, futhi angikaze ngihlele ukubuyela emuva. Uma usocingweni nge-nofap, yithathe kimi, uyazilimaza wena. Kufanele ume kungakephuzi kakhulu.
LINK - I-Porn cishe iphendulele ekubeni ngumuntu ohamba ngezinyawo
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