Ngiyi-32. Ngiqale i-PMO ngesikhathi ngise21 futhi ngaqhubeka ngihamba nayo. Bengijwayele ukuhoxa ngezikhathi ezithile kepha ngenxa yokuthi ezinye izinto zazihlala engqondweni yami, hhayi ngoba ngangicabanga ukuthi ziyinkinga. Ekugcineni ngabona ukuthi sengingena ezintweni ezimbi kakhulu futhi lapho ngiqala ukubuka ama-video ocansi ophoqelelwe, ngazi ukuthi kufanele ngiyeke.
Ukufunda ngomkhakha wezocansi nokuthi yini abesifazane abadlule kukho kusize futhi. Wake waqaphela ukuthi cishe zonke izinkanyezi ze-porn ziyinki? Abanye kakhulu? Bengilokhu ngizibuza ukuthi leyo yindlela yabo yokuveza umonakalo imboni nabasebenzisi bayo abayisebenzisela bona.
Vele angizange ngiye e-turkey ebandayo khona manjalo. Ngishintshele kumavidiyo we-amateur, ngicabanga ukuthi lokho okungenani bekungaxhaphazi kangako. Amanga esizitshela wona. Ukulanda ama-video ezithandani ezingalindele noma sentombazane isoka layo elalithembisa ukuthi liyimfihlo ngaphambi kokuyifaka kwi-intanethi. Kunendawo ekhethekile esihogweni yalaba bakamuva, ama-bastard abakuwo nakithi ngoba ukusetshenziswa kwethu kuyakhuthaza.
Ekugcineni ngakwazi ukuyeka uP ngokuphelele. Vele ngangisazungeza nama-movie alinganisiwe i-R kepha kwakuncane kakhulu futhi ngazishaya emhlane ngomsebenzi owenziwe kahle. Kodwa-ke ukucabanga kwami ngokuyisisekelo kufinyelele kugiya eliphezulu nangaphezulu kokukwenza ibhalansi. Ngoba kwakungeyona i-porn, angizange ngiyithathe ngokungathi sína okuyiphutha. I-Porn iholele ekuchitheni isikhathi namandla amaningi kepha ukucabanga kungenziwa kalula futhi noma kuphi lapho kwakulula ukucabanga ngakho njengokungekubi kangako.
Kungaleso sikhathi lapho umlingani wami efika empilweni yami lapho engaqala khona ukwenza umzamo omkhulu wokubhekana nobabili. Lokho bekuyiminyaka eyi-5 edlule. Ngithole i-NoFap kanye nalo mphakathi ngonyaka owedlule. Ngosuku lwami lwe-74th manje futhi nakhu ukuthuthuka engikubonile.
- Ngisebenzisa isikhathi esengeziwe ukwenza okuningi. Akugcini lapho kungivimba ukuthi ngizulazule ngiye ezweni le-porn kodwa futhi kuqinisa engikutholile kwaNoFap.
- Ngigxile kakhulu futhi ngixwayile ngomsebenzi wami.
- Angisabacabangeli abesifazane okusho ukuthi ngikhululekile kakhulu kubo. Phambilini bengivele ngibe paranoid ukuthi bezwa imicabango yami noma babone ukuthi ngingumuntu omubi ngempela.
- Ngizizwa kahle ngami. Phambilini, ngangizizwa sengathi ngiphile nje, ngiza kuphela lapho ngifuna ukwehla bese ngibuyela ekulaleni okungenangqondo.
- Wonke umsebenzi owengeziwe nomuzwa omuhle kusho ukuthi ngilala kangcono kakhulu.
- Ukuma ngezinyawo nokukhuthala kuthuthukise impilo yami. Angisadli ngokudla okungenamsoco ngoba nje angikhathazwa ukupheka.
Ngenkathi ngiqala, bekuwukwenza izinto zisebenze futhi ezansi lapho. Manje, kepha ngifuna ukukhululeka kulo mkhuba omubi kangaka ukuze ngikwazi ukulawula impilo yami futhi. Nginombono wokuthi ngifuna ukuba ngubani futhi ngokokuqala ngqa esikhathini eside, kubukeka sengathi ngingafika lapho. Angikabikho ngokugcwele okwamanje futhi ngenkathi izinto zisezingeni eliphansi ezansi, akusenjalo. Kepha ngicabanga ukuthi ngiyabona ukukhanya ekugcineni komhubhe.
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