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Akunjalo impela, impela- sihlakaniphile kunalokho. Kodwa-ke, lokhu kuyisibonelo sokuthi sidinga ukusebenzisa 'ubuqili bengqondo' kithi kuze kube yilapho sizithola sesinqoba. Fake it uze ukwenze isiqubulo esaziwayo emphakathini yokutakula.
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Lokhu kusebenza njengokuqalisa kabusha kwami ngokusemthethweni, njengoba kushiwo ngaphambili. Ngenkathi ngazi kahle izingozi nezingibe ezisacashile, ngijabule futhi ngiphelele ngaphandle kwesidingo sezithombe zobulili ezingcolile noma ukushaya indlwabu empilweni yami - ikakhulukazi njengoba kuyizindlela zokubhekana neziphutha.
Anginaso isifiso sokungena kulayini, futhi ngibheke izinto ukuze ngehle, noma ngithole i-dopamine hit ngokushesha. Ngiyazi kahle lapho ngiqala, nganoma yisiphi isizathu, ukwehla ngaleyo ndlela eya ezithombeni ezingcolile, esikhundleni sayo, njll.
Uma ngizithola ngisesimweni sengqondo, ngizama ukuthola ukuthi kwenzakalani, noma ngimane ngibheke ngokungaboni. Ngiphefumula ngeziningi zalezi zinto. Ukuzivocavoca okujulile, amasu okucabanga, nomthandazo izindlela zami zokubhekana nazo. Ngisaqeqesha ingqondo yami ukuthi icabange izithombe zobulili ezingcolile, ukushaya indlwabu kanye nabesifazane ngokuhlukile kunalokho ebenginakho esikhathini esedlule, futhi lokho kwesinye isikhathi kuqhubeka ngokubona- kepha lokhu kuyashintsha ngokushesha.
Ngithanda kakhulu ubulili bezwe wangempela kumicabango eyenziwe njengoba kwenzeka kwezocansi kanye nokushaya indlwabu. Lo mhlaba wangempela uphikelela ekusondelaneni ngokomzwelo, futhi lokho kwenzeka kahle kakhulu ebudlelwaneni obuzinikele, njengasesivumelwaneni somshado. Lokho kunikeza umongo omuhle kakhulu wothando lwangempela, ukusondelana kanye nokuhlangenwe nakho kocansi. Konke okunye ngaphandle kwalokho kunobugovu futhi akulona iqiniso, yingakho, kungagculisi.
Ukuyeka lezi zimilo zokulutha kwezocansi nezocansi bekulokhu, futhi kwesinye isikhathi kuyaqhubeka nokuba yinto enzima kunazo zonke engake ngabhekana nazo. Khumbula, lokhu bekungezelele kimi ukwengeza unyaka wama-20-plus, kusukela ngehlobo lika-1993, yize ukwenziwa kwalokhu kwakwakhiwa kudala ngaphambi kwalapho.
- Ngithole ukuthi ukushaya lo mkhuba kudinga ukuba nenhliziyo efile nathi, ukukhuthala, ukuqina kokungalilahli ithemba, nokwamukela umusa omkhulu kaNkulunkulu wokuthi, noma ngabe yini, uxolelwe futhi ubuyisane Yena.
- Ngithole ukuthi ukushaya lo mlutha, umuntu kufanele afunde indlela yokubhekana nokubhekana nezikhalazo. Umuntu akakwazi ukukugwema lokhu, i-knuckling emhlophe, futhi adale isilo esikhulu esiseduze nokuphila. Sula lokho, madoda! Impilo imfushane kakhulu. Ini? Ngabe sifuna ukuqhubeka nalomlutha eminye iminyaka engama-20? Sizoshintsha nini, uma kwenzeka,? Impela akwenzeki 'ngomlingo', kufanele siziguqule, emseni Wakhe.
- Ngithole ukuthi ukushaya lo mlutha, kufanele siqonde futhi sithokozele isayensi yako. Sidale izindlela ezikhuthazayo ze-neural ezidinga ukuthi wenze into efanayo efanayo, okudinga ukuthi uphendule ngendlela obukade uphendula ngayo ukuze uqhubeke futhi ukhule ngamandla ekufuneni kwakho kobugovu ukudla nokuchitha impilo yakho. I- KUPHELA Indlela esizoyishaya ngayo le nkinga futhi sizishintshe uma senza okuhlukile ekuphenduleni izimbangela nezincomo ezisifikela, noma ngabe zingaphandle kwethu, noma zingokomzwelo nangaphakathi kithi.
Qalisa / Nxusa —-> Impendulo —–> Umkhuba. Kulula kanjalo. Uma siguqula impendulo yethu, sizoshintsha umkhuba wethu.
Khumbula: Ukuchazwa kobuhlanya ekwenzeni izinto ezifanayo zakudala, ngenkathi kulindelwe umphumela ohlukile.
Kubesilisa (nabesifazane) lapha: uma ngikwazi ukushintsha kule ndawo, noma ngubani angashintsha. Indaba yami, enamakhona amnyama kakhulu, isebenza njengesibonelo ukuthi noma ngabe kubi kangakanani, lokhu kugxila kangakanani, kungashintshwa futhi kufanele kuguqulwe.
Njengamanje ngibhala okuthile engikubiza ngokuthi i- Indlela ye-Sati, futhi ngizothumela isixhumanisi kumagazini wami uma sesiqedile, esizomela amasu ahlukahlukene asetshenziswe yimina ukunqoba lo mlutha weminyaka engama-20 nangaphezulu.
Ngiyanibonga nonke ngokufunda iphephabhuku lami uma nikwenzile, ngokungisekela, nangokungithandazela.
Futhi ngiyabonga Qalisa kabusha i-Nation / YBR, nangamadoda angemuva kokudalwa kwayo.
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Uhambo lwami:
Ngenkathi lolu hambo oluya enkululekweni luqala kimi ngoJulayi 17th, 2003, ngenkathi kudalulwa (kumkami oseneminyaka engama-20 manje) ukuthi ngangivame ukuvakashela izitolo ezidayisa izincwadi ze-porno, impi yami ibuyela emuva kakhulu lapho njengomKristu ngingena ocansini Ukuba umlutha wezinhlobo emuva ehlobo lika-1993. Ukuba yingxenye yesonto elifana nehlelo futhi elihlukumeza ngokomoya akuzange kusize ngalutho, njengokuziphatha ngokocansi ngokweqile, okuxubene nokukhuliswa kwami okungenaluthando, nokuthola izithombe zocansi enkundleni yokudlala njenge ibanga lesi-4 noma lesi-5, konke kuxutshwe ndawonye ukungiletha endaweni yokuluthwa. Futhi, ngisemusha, kube nomcimbi omkhulu ohlukumezayo obudlala indima futhi.
Bengilokhu ngilwa nalokho obekulokhu [ikakhulukazi] kungumlutha wezithombe zocansi ezithambile (yize kunjalo nge-hardcore yesikhathi esithile), kufaka phakathi ukushaya indlwabu nokuhlela, kusukela ngo-1993, ngalo mzabalazo wembulwa kusukela ngo-2003. Uhlobo lwamaKristu lokutakula 'kusukela lapho, kepha olunoshintsho oluncane lokuziphatha.
Indaba Emuva: [Izaziso ze-Trigger!]
Ekufuneni ukuqonda indlela engiziphatha ngayo, bekubalulekile kimi ukuthi ngiyihlaziye kahle le ndaba yami emuva- ukunganakwa okuhluphekile ngiseyingane, hhayi nje ekunakekelweni ukudla okunomsoco, kepha okubaluleke kakhulu ekunakekeleni ngokomzwelo.
Lokhu kunganakwa kwahlanganiswa ngubaba owayengekho (owashiya lapho ngise-4), nomama ongihlukumezayo owayezongihlazisa ngokungibiza ngamagama angihlazayo nangithukayo.
Ngesikhathi sengifunda ibanga lesi-7, ngase ngikulungele ukuzibulala. Angicabangi ukuthi nginesibindi, kepha ngangicabanga ngaso njalo. Ngenxa yezincwadi ezithile zamaKhatholika engizifunde ngaleso sikhathi, nginqume ukuthi indaba yami iqhubeke, ngibone ukuthi isahluko esilandelayo besibheke ini.
Kwabonakala njengokuthakazelisa kimi ukuthi, ngesikhathi ngasinye sehlakalo esibuhlungu empilweni yami, kwakukhona ucansi olubi, i-porn noma ukushaya indlwabu okwangethulwa kimi ngandlela thile noma okunye, kwaba ngathi ngumsindisi wami.
Isibonelo esivelele kunazo zonke ngalesi sikhathi lapho ngadlwengulwa khona ngiseyinsizwa njengesihambi esibalekayo ehlala emigwaqweni.
Kwakuneminye imicimbi lapho, ngokwesibonelo ngenkathi ngizizwa ngiphansi, engathola izithombe ezingcolile [eziphrintiwe] ezitaladini. Noma, ngesinye isikhathi lapho ngibanjwa ngizama 'ukudla nokudla' esitolo sokudlela sendawo ngineminyaka engu-14 ubudala, intokazi eyisifebe yanikela ngokungiyisa ekhaya layo. Ngikhumbula ngiqondiswa ngabesifazane abahlukahlukene bengena bephuma egumbini. Kwangena i-blonde, kwaphuma u-brunette ngokuhamba kwesikhathi- bengingazi ukuthi kwenzekani kuleyo ndawo ebhemayo futhi ekhanyayo.
Lapho sengibe ngumkristu emuva e1985, impilo yami yaguquka. Ngibe nezinkinga zokukhanuka nokushaya indlwabu, kepha ngathola isikhathi esinqunyelwe sokunqoba kulezi eziku-1990-91. Lesi kwakuyisikhathi esihle kakhulu senkululeko empilweni yami encane.
Ngemuva kwalokho ngahlangana nomkami engizobaba naye. Sathandana, wayeyintombi nto ngenkathi sishada i-3 eminyakeni eyalandela, kepha ngesikhathi sokuthandana kwethu kwaba nokushiswa okukhulu kwengqondo - okwangiphatha kabi kakhulu ngaleso sikhathi, ngoba ngangiyilungu lebandla elisemthethweni.
Ngesikhathi sokuthandana kwethu, ezinsukwini zakuqala, bekukhona ukunqatshwa nokwamukelwa okuningi kuye kuye ngalolo hlobo lwabangela ukuphindaphinda okuphindaphindiwe kwezinkinga zokwenqatshwa kanye nokushiywa. Bengiswele kakhulu ngokomoya.
Ngobunye ubusuku nginqume ukumtshela ngokwenzeka kimi ngisemncane, futhi wangenqaba ngaleso sikhathi ngokuba yisisulu sobugebengu engangingenacala. Lokhu kwagqashula lokho okwake kwaba umlutha we-20 plus year lokho kwaqhubeka emshadweni wethu.
Umusa KaNkulunkulu:
Kudala sazenza lezi zinto phakathi kwethu, futhi uyazi amandla azo zonke.
Kepha nangemuva kokuqonda kwami lezi zinto ngokomqondo wazo kusukela ngo-2000-03, angibange ngisakwazi ukugqashula ngize ngiqale ukufunda ngomusa omkhulu kaNkulunkulu kimi. Kuze kube yilapho ngifunda ukwamukela uthando lukaNkulunkulu olungenamibandela kimi, lapho ngingavele ngikwazi ukugqashuka ehlazweni elangigcina ngiboshiwe, naphezu kwemizamo yokuyeka.
Okungisiza kakhulu njengamanje ukuqonda umusa kaNkulunkulu, njengoba lezi zindaba zocansi beziphethwe kahle ngaphansi 'komthetho' (“… you shall not”) - kepha esikhundleni salokho, lo musa uthi kimi, “Uyathandwa futhi uyaxolelwa konke izono zakho, noma ngabe zithini! ”- zonke izono zami ngenkathi uKristu efa esiphambanweni, zazikhona konke kusazokwenzeka. Lokhu kusho ukuthi ngokuqondene noNkulunkulu, ngixolelwe ngokuphelele futhi angigcini lapho - kepha ngilungile (ngimi ngokufanele noNkulunkulu), ngcwele futhi ngcwelisiwe (ngihlukanisiwe) - akukhathalekile ukuthi indlela engiziphatha ngayo - okuhle noma okubi. Konke okudingekayo ukuvuselela ingqondo yami ngeqiniso.
Ngaphandle kokuzama ukuzwakala 'njengokwenkolo' ngenhloso, lokhu okungenhla kwakubaluleke kakhulu kimi ukukuqonda, ngoba ihlazo elinobuthi nokuziphatha kwezomthetho yikhona okwakushayela lezi zilutha nokuzitika.
Inhloso yami Lapha:
Yize ngimusha kulesi sithangami, ngithole ukuphulukiswa okuningi empilweni yami kuze kube manje, futhi ngithemba ukuthi ngizokhuthaza abanye ohambweni olufanayo, noma ngabe bangamakholwa noma cha, sonke singabantu futhi sonke sidinga ukwelashwa ekuphukeni kwethu kule ndawo, njengoba lezi zingxoxo zocansi ziyizimpawu zezinkinga ezijulile.
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