Namuhla usuku 61 ngokuphelele PMO mahhala. Angicabangi ukuthi ngike ngaba nalokhu isikhathi eside ngaphandle kwe-P noma i-M selokhu ngaqala ngomsebenzi we-porn cishe nge-13 yobudala; Manje sengineminyaka engama-58. Angifuni ngisho nokwazi, uma ngikwazile ukuhlanganisa amahora, zingaki izinsuku noma amasonto aphelele empilo yami asetshenziselwe ukuzitika ngalomlutha. Bengilokhu ngizama nokuma cishe isikhathi eside njengoba bengikwenza.
Bekuhlale kunolunye usuku ebangeni ebengingalivuma ngalo, “lapho ngineminyaka engu-18, lapho ngineminyaka engama-21, 25, 30, 35, 50, lapho ngingena ekolishi, lapho ngiphuma ekolishi, lapho Ngiyashada, lapho ngihlukanisa, lapho ngishada futhi, lapho lo msebenzi usuphelile, ”yadda, yadda, yadda. Uthola umqondo.
Ngaphandle kwemiphumela engemihle ebangelwe ukulutheka, kubuye kube nemiphumela emibi ebangelwa ukuphindaphinda njalo. Ngayeka ukubhema lapho ngineminyaka engu-24 futhi ngayeka ukuphuza lapho ngineminyaka engama-39. Kwakungamakamelo okuhlangana e-AA engaqala ukuzwa ngawo nge-SA nokulutha kwezocansi futhi ngacabanga ukuthi "ekugcineni, indlela yokuphuma kulokhu!" Akungisebenzelanga.
Lapho ngiqala ukuthola i-yourbrainonporn ngacabanga nokuthi "ekugcineni, indlela yethu yalokhu!" Yize kungenzekanga khona manjalo, isisekelo solwazi engisitholile ku-YBOP mayelana nokuthi lokhu kungumlutha we-dopamine ngempela siyisisekelo sempumelelo yami kuze kube manje. Bengilokhu ngifunda konke okuthunyelwe kule webhusayithi kusuka kuJon64 noWilliam. Isayensi yobuchopho ku-YBOP kanye nokuqonda kukaWilliam ukuthi ungaletha kanjani lolo lwazi emzabalazweni wansuku zonke kube wushintsho olukhulu.
Ngaphezu kokuba nazo zonke lezo zinhlamvu, into eyodwa ebingigcina ngingenayo i-PMO kulezi zinsuku ezingama-60 ezedlule ngigwema njengesifo hhayi i-porn kuphela (duh!) Kodwa futhi nanoma yiziphi ezinye izinto ezingafaka esikhundleni se-porn. Kimi lokho kufaka i-racy TV noma imibukiso ye-TV enabesifazane abakhangayo kubo, kufaka phakathi ezinye iziteshi zezindaba zekhebula. Angizibuki izithombe zamantombazane ezigqoke ama-bikini noma izingubo zangaphansi noma ngigqoke ngokuphelele.
Ngigwema nokuzivumela ukuthi ngibheke abesifazane abangizungezile. Ngokusobala uma ngikhuluma nomuntu ohlukile, kepha ngihamba epulatifomu lesitimela noma ngilinde kulayini ku-deli, noma ngihlala endaweni yokudlela, uma ngibona owesifazane okhangayo ngivele ngibheke eceleni. Lokho kuphambene ngqo nalokho ebengikwenza eminyakeni engama-45 edlule, futhi kuyasebenza. Kungabonakala kungekhona okwemvelo, njll., Njll, kepha anginandaba. Leyo yinani engizimisele kakhulu ukulikhokha. Angidliwe yinkanuko, angiziboni ngiya ocansini, futhi angisiyo leyo letch egling bonke abantu besifazane okwenzeka bavele emkhakheni wami wombono. Azikho izithombe zobulili ezingcolile, akukho okufaka esikhundleni sezocansi noma yiluphi uhlobo, kufaka phakathi ifantasy. Lowo kwakungumbulali kimi nakudala. Hhayi, ngizwa sengathi ngiyabhibhidla manje.
Yilokho ebengisebenzela futhi yilokho engizoqhubeka nokukwenza. UNkulunkulu anibusise nonke nina bafana kanye nama-gals futhi nibe nosuku olukhulu olungenayo i-PMO!
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IPOSI YOKUQALA (iminyaka emibili ngaphambili) - Ngifuna impilo yami ibuye
Lokhu ukungena kwami kokuqala kwephephabhuku. Ngiyindoda eneminyaka engu-56 ubudala, bengilokhu ngivela kusukela eminyakeni engu-13 noma engu-14; isikhathi eside kakhulu. Njengabantu abaningi abalingana nami iqale ngomagazini, yathuthukiswa yaba ama-movie, kwabe sekufika i-vcr, i-dvd, ikhompyutha yasekhaya, futhi ekugcineni kwaba yi-smart phone. Ngineminyaka eyi-17 ngiphuzile ngotshwala kepha angikaze ngiye emhlanganweni we-AA iminyaka eyi-8-10. Asikho isilingo sangempela sokuphuza.
Lo mlutha we-PMO ungibulale kancane kancane iminyaka. Ngazitshela ukuthi ngizoyeka lapho ngihlanganisa iminyaka engu-18, lapho ngingena ekolishi, lapho ngiphuma ekolishi, lapho ngineminyaka engu-21, lapho ngishada, lapho ngihlukanisa, lapho ngiphinda ngishada, blah, blah, blah. Ngithole imininingwane yokulutha umlutha ekuvulekeni kwamehlo kwe-YBOP futhi ngethemba ukuthi ukwazi nje isayensi yobuchopho kuzokwanela ukuthi ekugcineni ngiyeke; kwakungeyona.
Ngibe nesikhathi sezinsuku ezingama-22 emuva ngo-Ephreli-Meyi. Leso kwakuyisikhathi eside kunazo zonke eminyakeni eminingi. Kusukela lapho ngihambe ihora, usuku, izinsuku ze-5 bekude kakhulu, ngicabanga. Bengiyilungu elijwayelekile laseNingizimu Afrika kodwa futhi bengingakaze ngibuye lapho iminyaka futhi anginaso isifiso sokubuyela emuva. Nginethemba lokuthi ukuzibophezela ekuhlanzekeni nasekuthembeleni kulokhu nakwamanye amawebhusayithi ekugcineni kuzongisiza ngiphume kulesi sihogo ebengikuso. Ngisemshadweni wami wesibili, cishe sekusele amasonto amathathu ukuthi sigubhe iminyaka engu-3 sazalwa. Izingane ezimbili emshadweni ngamunye endala zineminyaka engu-20, encane ineminyaka engu-27. Ngibatshele konke mayelana nokuluthwa utshwala kodwa hhayi ngalena.
Ngatshela umkami ukuthi ngangiqala nini ukuya eNingizimu Afrika eminyakeni engaba ngu-16 eyedlule. Ubudlelwano bethu abukaze bufane kusukela lapho. Ngifunde imilayezo ekhuthazayo yabafana abaye banesikhathi esibucayi sokululama nokuthi yilokho engikufunayo ngempela, hhayi izithombe engiziqeqeshele ubuchopho bami ukuhalela. Kwanele manje. Nginifisela inhlanhla nonke lapha.
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