Lokhu kungukuqala okukhulu, ngikhona ngosuku lwama-46. Bengizama iminyaka ukuphatha isonto, futhi kungazelelwe, sengikulo. Yini ebihlukile kulokhu? Zimbili izinto, intombi yami egibele u-100%, empeleni ibamba iqhaza kule nselele ngenxa yezizathu zayo. Ukuba nalokhu kusekelwa, nokuziphendulela kumuntu engimthanda ngaphezu kwanoma yini, kuyisikhuthazo engisidingayo. Okwesibili, njengomvuzo lapho sifika ezinsukwini ezingama-90, siya e-adventure yangaphandle esiqhingini ndawonye. Kade sikhuluma ngakho amasonto manje ukwakha ukulindela ukuqhubeka silwa. Ngikhumbula amasonto ambalwa adlule (sizama lokhu nge-hardcode, ngakho-ke akukho sex!) Ngenkathi sisesimweni esibucayi kakhulu esasingu-70/30 esasizoholela ocansini, futhi kwakukuhle kakhulu kimi ukwenza isinqumo. Esikhundleni sokuthi "cha" ngasho igama lesiqhingi, futhi sobabili sama ngokushesha. Sifuna ngempela ukufika kule ndawo. Ngicabanga ukuthi kubaluleke kakhulu hhayi ukuba nesikhathi esiqonde lapho uya khona kuphela, kodwa ukuhlela umvuzo ngosuku lwama-90 ukugcina umbono ngesikhathi nesikhathi sokwakha isasasa. Kepha-ke, futhi angingabazi ukuthi lesi yisizathu sangempela sokusebenza ngalesi sikhathi, kubalulekile ukuthi ube nokuxhaswa nomuntu ophendula kuye. Nginenhlanhla enkulu yokuba nentombi enhle kangaka (ngiphume ngokuphelele kuligi yami!) Ogibele nale 110%, kepha sonke sidinga ukwesekwa kwabanye abantu abakuqondayo maqondana nalokhu.
Ngezinsuku ezingama-46, ezinye izinguquko engingazibika; ukukhuthazeka okwengeziwe kanye nesifiso sokuphila kahle komzimba. Ngiwuthungile ngokuphelele umhlane nezingalo zami ekukwenzeni ngokweqile ejimini, kepha nalokhu akusivimbi isisusa sami sokubuyela emuva. Ngiqale ukubuyela kuyo (maqondana nokuqina komzimba) esontweni eledlule futhi ngizimisele kakhulu ukuba ngumzimba wami omuhle kakhulu. Ngifuna ukuba namandla ayisisekelo weqiniso namandla lapho ngiwadinga. Ngifuna ukubambeka ekudleni okuhle impela futhi ngibe nokulinganisela okuhle kokudla okuhlukile ukuze ngizinike konke ukudla engikudingayo. Ngifuna ukuzizwa ngiphila! Uma ucabanga ngobuhlungu engikubo njengamanje emzimbeni wami ngibona lokhu njengokulungiswa okukhulu, kepha kungubuhlungu obuhle! Ngiyazi, ngenxa yenselelo yeNF, ukuthi 'nalokhu kuzodlula', nokuthi kukufanele isikhathi eside. Ngizizwa sengathi ngilawula uqobo lwami ngokomzimba.
Ezinye izinzuzo- sengizitholile (futhi ngisaqhubeka nokuthola) ukuzethemba kwangempela. Eqinisweni ngihola umhlangano womsebenzi, futhi ngikhulume negumbi labangu-12 engisebenza nabo, ngesimo sokukhululeka ngokuphelele nokuzethemba okuhle. Le yinto ebengingacabangi ukuthi ngiyenze ezinyangeni ezimbalwa ezedlule! Nginguye so Ngcono kakhulu ezimeni zenhlalo, angizizwa sengathi ngidinga ukuhlaba umxhwele kakhulu abanye abantu, ngidinga ukuba yimina uqobo. Ngiyakhula ukuzithanda ngezinto engingaziguqula, njengezindlela zami zokwenza izinto kanye nendlela ubuchopho bami obusebenza ngayo. Engingakusho kakhulu maqondana nalokho ukuthi abantu ngokuvamile bangithola ngithandeka. Abantu bangitshele ngomusa omkhulu ukuthi 'bayangithanda ngempela'. Eqinisweni, umngane / engisebenza naye wangichaza njengoshizi wezimbuzi; ekuqaleni babezonda (haha) kepha ngemuva kwesikhathi bakhula beyithanda futhi kuyinto enhle kakhulu (bakusho lokho!).
Ngicabanga ukuthi abantu bathanda ukwethembeka, futhi bafuna abantu abakutholile. Ngokwethembeka, lapho ngiphikelela ngokwengeziwe nenselelo yeNF- kulungile ayikwenzi ngicabange ukuthi ngithole konke okuphume- kodwa kunginikeza isimo esithi 'ngiyakwazi, ngingenza noma yini!', Futhi ngicabanga ukuthi leyo mindset eqotho wonke umuntu ayikhomba ngaphakathi.
Ezinye izinto - ngifunda ukuzibandakanya nokufunda kangcono (lokhu kuzothuthukisa okuningi kakhulu) futhi ngihlale ngigxile entweni eyodwa ngasikhathi. Ngithenge i-Lord of the Rings ukuze ngiyifunde okokuqala. Ngenye yalezo zincwadi 'engizofunda ngazo', njengoba ngingeyena umfundi omkhulu, ngicabanga ukuthi lena indawo enhle yokuqala.
Noma kunjalo, ngivuke sekwephuzile impela futhi esikhundleni sokuzivumela ngilingwe ngenza izinto engizibona zikhiqiza. Kuyahlekisa bengicabanga ukuthi kulobubusuku ukuthi kaningi kangakanani kulezi zikhathi bengizongena esilingweni, kepha ngivele ngathi.
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