One of my main triggers after giving up porn has been these damn fantasies, some of them would last just a few seconds, but others when my brain is “idle”, like when trying to fall asleep, and often involved long detailed fantasies.
It would rarely lead to full blown Fapping, (more like a fondling, or what I would refer to as mind-masturbation.
Andro faha-62 amin'ny famerenako indray aho ary nahagaga fa efa lasa tsy ho ela intsony ny nofinofy, ary mieritreritra aho fa io no lalan-dra ao amin'ny atidoha mamerina mandamina, ary tsy mitaraina ho an'io Dopamine kely io.
Amin'ny lafiny iray dia toy ny famelana ny "namana taloha" io, iray izay azoko notsidihina tamin'ny olona manodidina ahy, ary tsy nisy olona nanana famaritana. Tamin'ny dingana voalohany nanombohako ny famerenako dia mbola handeha any amin'ilay "toerana falifaly" mahazatra rehetra aho, na dia fantatro tsara aza, fa satria nofinofisiko nandritra ny 10+ taona lasa aho dia toerana sarotra ny tsy hitsidika intsony.
Noho izany dia kely ny fahatsapana eto, saingy tsikaritro fa izany dia satria manenika fa ny atidohako dia (farany) manasitrana.
Te hizara ity zava-bita mahatalanjona iainako ity fotsiny aho! Raha misy olon-kafa manana olana mitovy amin'ny nofinofy dia mety maharitra fotoana fohy, fa ho faty izy ireo ary ho faty raha mbola tsy tohizanao ny "famahanana" azy ireo!
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By True2Myself
FANAMARIHANA voalohany - My Journal, and Road to Recovery
Greetings all,
First off I want to say how grateful I am to the designers, MOD’s and anyone else who participated in the creation of this website! Kudo’s to all of you!
I am a 59 y/o male who is sick and tired of living this secret life of shame, and damaging my own life and others around me. (especially my wife). It’s been a weird trip through the years (no not THAT kind of trip 
) and I have tried to stop looking at porn, but doing it on my own without any resources made it d@3m near impossible, so I always picked it back up again. Not only am I trying to save my marriage, but I’m just tired of living a double life of secrecy and lies, and it needs to stop.
I am registered on other porn addiction related websites and actively participating, but they lack the mechanics of the brain chemistry, and what is really going on in this twisted messed-up mind of mine. Thankfully YBOP and this site answers those questions and gives me something I can sink my teeth into. Also reading posts from other members here gives me some assurance that I am not alone with this addiction, and that there IS hope to kick it for good.
Thanks to anyone who has read all of this and comments are certainly welcome.
Sorry this first posting is so long, and a bit scattered,
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