Today is my first year sober, and I have turned off my timer a month ago. My dad (2 and half years sober – his is a porn addiction as well) a few weeks ago told me that there comes a time where you have to move on from the number. You have to own it, and can’t let the number own you. A year seperated and I have found the hardest thing for me….is being at peace with myself and not allowing the anxieties of my natural attractions and daily life to overtake and dominate my mind and body.
Isaky ny mahatsiaro manintona zavatra iray na olona tsapako toa mamadika ny sipako aho. Isaky ny manana ahiahy aho dia ampahatsiahiviko ny “lalan-kivoahana mora”. Indraindray aho dia mahatsapa fa tsy mahita pôrnôgrafia ary manadino ny fahatsapany ho meloka sy henatra, fa manalavitra izany amin'ny alàlan'ny mozika na ny fihazakazahana, na amin'ny fifandraisana tsotra fotsiny. Ny zavatra iray hafa manampy dia ny mitadidy ny zava-misy fa nanadino ny filahiako aho tamin'ny alàlan'ny fandehanana nandritra ny ora maro.
Nanakaiky ny taona voalohany nataoko aho indraindray fa ny fandraisana andraikitra sy ny fifandraisan'ny sipako sy ny olon-tiako dia mankanesa any amin'ny toerana raha te hody aho dia hamadika azy io. Ary tiako izy ary tsy te handratra na hamadika azy mihitsy. Ankehitriny satria misy fiantraikany amin'ny olon-kafa ny fiainako isan'andro dia manamora ny fahafahako mampihatra fifehezan-tena izany.
Ny tiako holazaina amin'izany rehetra izany dia ny fampisehoana fa na dia herintaona aza dia mety mbola hahatsapa ho ady manaitaitra ihany indraindray. Saingy mino aho fa ny olona manodidina anao no mahatonga ny fahasamihafana lehibe indrindra. Ary fotoana toa izao izay itodihanao sy tsapanao fa “oona… .. Herintaona izay”
I started single in this journey, my advice is to start with a Counselor. The one thing I was taught was that the place you need to be is where you are most afraid. I went 3 months just with a Counselor and single. Talking with a Counselor will help you both get connected and give you a basis to start from.
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LINK - 365 Days
by dmills819
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