I can’t believe I made it to 60 days without PMO, it feels unreal. Started at 10yo, now 23yo. Used to do it at least once a day for more than a decade. Also was deeply addicted to video games (10+ hours/day) and a fucking mess. Had no friends, bad grades, crazy social anxiety (I’d try to gather courage for literally hours before going to the grocery store).
I hit rock bottom 2 years ago. I looked like death (130lbs for 6’1”). Couldn’t talk or even look at anyone (even family) without feeling shame. When I’d talk to a girl, she’d look at me with her eyes telling “I don’t want to be here”. I was depressed and had zero self-confidence during this entire period. I instinctively knew something was wrong. I used to think about suicide a lot, about how I could take a gun and end it all. It was a pleasant feeling.
Indray andro, tsy afaka naka izany intsony aho, zavatra tsy maintsy niova na hamono tena. Nanomboka nizaka lalindalina kokoa tamin'ny fanatsarana ny tenany ary tafintohina tamin'ny NoFap. Ity no teboka fanombohana ny fiovana.
Recovery evolution
I’m in no ways cured but completely changed my life for the better. I read reports here with people saying that they don’t feel interested in porn anymore, or that they relapsed after XX days and they felt nothing. Not in my case. I took a peek at day 45 and immediately felt the rush and had intense cravings for days after.
I eventually became angry at porn, at how you feel tired and powerless, and started to get better and better streaks. During the last year, I implemented meditation, work out 5 times a week (gained 30lbs in 2 years), eat healthy, read books, take care of myself and saw tremendous benefits, both for my mental and physical health.
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- Toe-tsaina: Tsy manana fanahiana ara-tsosialy intsony aho. Mahatsiaro aho fa misy zavatra mety hitranga amiko ary mbola ho tsara foana aho. Toa tsy dia be izany fa nanova tanteraka ny fiainako. Misaotra noho izany aho, mahatsiaro maimaimpoana maimaim-poana aho.
- Ny maso: manana maso manga aho ary ankehitriny dia mamirapiratra izy ireo. Nahazo fiderana be dia be.
- Fanintona ny zazavavy: Adala ny fanovana. Mandany fotoana be any am-piasana miaraka amin'ny zazavavy 3 aho (A, B & C, izay manana olon-tiana) ary manana anecdote betsaka momba azy ireo, saingy hafahafa (na tsia) raha tsy rehefa eo am-piandohana aho. Ny sasany izay tonga ao an-tsaiko:
- A dia manararaotra ny fotoana hanamboarana ahy na hikasika ny sandriko, izy aza nanandratra ny akanjoko mba "hahita raha mozika aho".
- Manana chat room ao amin'ny Facebook izahay, ary nifanome anarana ny anarana tsisy dikany (fialan-tsiny). B namadika ahy hoe "swimmer sexy" (manana tanana sy tongotra aho). Vita ny fametrahana ny anarany irery.
- Matetika izahay dia miresaka amin'ny tarika mandritra ny fialan-tsasatra, C dia manakaiky ahy foana miaraka amin'ny vatantsika mihetsika na saika, na dia misy toerana manodidina aza, dia mampihomehy. Ny mpiara-miasa hafa dia naneso azy io ary lasa mena tahaka ny voatabiha izy.
- Tsy ketraka intsony aho: Tena mankafy ny fiainana aho, mahafinaritra ahy ny hoavy. Zavatra iray izay tsy noeritreretiko mety 2 taona lasa izay.
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- Stay busy, all the fucking time. Don’t stay in your house if you feel energetic.
- Take this challenge very seriously, this is by far the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, you can’t give only 99%.
- Enjoy life and have fun, this is the best way to forget about PMO.
- Lift, the benefits are insane. As with NoFap, it taught me discipline, to work towards a goal and give everything you have to reach it.
LINK - Tatitra 60 andro mavesatra
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