I’m 28 and am addicted to porn. Started in my early teens, although 56k modems and living with my parents curbed things. I definitely knew I had an addictive personality though, as I’d often masturbate to digital pictures and magazines 5-6 times a day in my early teens. So I took precautions when I moved out. I’m thankfully intrinsically cheap, so never went to prostitutes/strip clubs. I did go out of my way to never have a computer at home. Just never bought one. Went through college fine, M’d once or twice a day to mental thoughts only. Fine is relative, as I did have bad urges every few months and would pathetically creep on the roommate’s computer when he wasn’t home and go online. But overall exposure to the internet was pretty limited or else monitored, so the addiction didn’t reach it’s full “potential.”
Mgbe ahụ, agara m ụlọ akwụkwọ ahụike, zutere enyi m nwanyị mbụ na 22 ma nwa agbọghọ amaghị nwoke ya. Afọ mbụ nke ụlọ akwụkwọ sekọndrị nọ na-arụsi ọrụ ike ọ dịghị oge ọ bụla iji jiri PMO buru ibu gbaghaa. N'afọ nke abụọ nke ụlọ akwụkwọ sekọndrị na ihe ọ bụla mechara were obere oge. Aga m abanye n'ụlọ nyocha kọmputa, nweta ụlọ nkeonwe, ewepụghị oge n'otu oge wee pụọ kpamkpam, n'ụzọ anụ ahụ na n'uche. Ọ ga-adịkarị m mkpa ide akụkọ ma ọ bụ detuo ihe, n'ihi ya azụrụ m afọ 15 nke ultra-oldschool laptap nke na-arụ ọrụ na nhazi 33mhz. Ihe osise ahụ bụ na ọ nweghị ike ijikọ na ịntanetị. N'ime oge a, aga m enweta ED otu ugboro na ọnwa na-acha anụnụ anụnụ na enyi m nwanyị ugbu a wee chee na ọ bụ enweghị ụra ma ọ bụ nrụgide ma ọ bụ ihe ọzọ. Mana ihe dị mma, M na-enwekarị mmekọahụ 4-5x kwa ụbọchị.
(chi, naanị mgbe m na-ede ihe a, ọ na-egosi na ọ bụ ụdị nrịanrịa ma ọ bụ ọbụlagodi na-eri ahụ riri m ahụ.)
School ụlọ mechie mgbe 2 afọ otú ahụ ka m nwere na-aga n'ime m ebe kwụsịrị campus. Achọrọ m ezigbo kọmputa iji rụọ ọrụ ma zaghachi ozi ịntanetị gbawara… can nwere ike maa ihe mere. Wayyyy karịa PMO, ụzọ na-agakarị PIED. Amalitere m inwe mmasị na ihe siri ike na nke siri ike. O juru m anya mgbe m huru otu esi gbanwee na m na-eme ihe ike na ihe ojoo. Amaara m na ọ dị njọ nakwa na m na-eyiri grooves nke miri emi n'ụbụrụ m. Agbalịrị m ịkwụsị, otu izu na ebe a, mana ọ nweghị ihe kwadoro. M na-etinye nzacha na ihe niile mana m ka ga-ahụ ụzọ, na ịpị echefuru paswọọdụ ma ọ bụ friggin ịgbanwe kọmputa. Ọbụna ana m adọka kaadị ikuku na laptọọpụ ọhụrụ otu ugboro, naanị iji nweta nkwụnye wifi USB mgbe e mesịrị. ọ jọkarịrị njọ. Ọ dị m ka ọ dị mmadụ abụọ. Otu obi ojoo ma nke ozo nwekwuru obi ojoo.
N'ihi nsogbu ego na ezinụlọ m, ndị m na-ebi na mụ na 2 afọ azụ. Echere m: nnukwu, nke a ga-enyere aka. Enyere m kọmputa ahụ n'ime ụlọ ahụ. Na-atụ anya na ihere nke ihe nile iji gwọọ m.
Wrong. I just snuck down there at night. PMO’s into the wee early hours, then took caffeine pills to stay awake during the day. PIED with girlfriend gets worse, i get more stressed and insecure and seek out even more PMO. All this time I’m working as a psychiatrist and hear about people struggle with addictions to meth and alcohol everyday, all the while feeling idiotic and weak with my comparatively minor addiction that I still haven’t been able to shake after 10 years.
Akụkụ nke usoro obibi obibi m nọ na-eme ka m rụọ ọrụ na mmemme methadone otu ọnwa. Amalitere m izu ole na ole gara aga. Achọghị m na mbụ n'ihi na ọ dị m ka ọ na-eme ka ọgwụ ọjọọ ha nwee ụdị dị iche. M ka na-echekarị nke ahụ, mana n'ịhụ ọtụtụ ụmụ nwoke 50, 60, 70 afọ bụ ndị na-emezigharị ndụ ha mgbe ha jesịrị heroine ruo ọtụtụ iri afọ, mwute dị na nke ahụ nyeere m aka ịfefe ụzọ iche echiche nke ọma na ọgwụ ọjọọ riri m ahụ. .
Agbalịrị m ịkwụsị tupu oge ahụ mana enwere m nkụda mmụọ na adịghị ike n'oge oge ịenceụ mmanya. Ma ọ bụghị ọzọ. Ana m arịa ọrịa nke oge niile m lara n'iyi na-agba ọsọ n'ihu obere ihuenyo na-enwu gbaa. Ana m arịa ọrịa nke na-edina n'akụkụ enyi m nwanyị na bed mgbe m rụsịrị juu. Ike gwụrụ m ịhapụ ụbụrụ m wee na-akọghachi ụfọdụ ọnọdụ rụrụ arụ n'isi m ebe ọ bụla m nọ, onye ọ bụla m nọ.
Nke a nwere ike kwuo ụlọ ọgwụ m na-arụ ọrụ, mana ọ bụ n'ezie YBR na YBOP ma gụọ ihe niile ederede gị nyere m ka m nwee ike ịmalite ma nwee ike ime ya. Ekele dịrị onye ọ bụla etinyere ebe a. Enwere m ekele maka oge gị na imeghe ya ma nwee olile anya na m ga-enyere ndị ọrịa m aka dịka ụnụ sirila nyere m.
Jikọ - Ntughari ohuru iji regharia mgbe o na-aru oru n'ulo oru ulo oru
June 18, 2013
after 10 yrs glued to the computer, I kicked the addiction and fixed the PIED!!
July 06, 2013
hey you guys/girls/men/women,
just wanted write about my success story because it’s largely the result of motivation gleaned from this site. my story is here: http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=10524.0
but in a nutshell, same story as most of you all here, looked at too much porn, started to get into harder and harder stuff, started to affect relationships, etc x 10 yrs. was so fed up with the wasted time and energy and the embarrassment of having ED at 28!
so I quit looking at porn for 2 months, still had problems with PIED, then found this site and realized I had to get serious and quite PMO altogether. I did so for the last 2 months even though i only put up the counter about a month ago.
Didn’t have sex during the last month but my girlfriend (long distance) visited last week and we’ve been having sex about twice to three times a day for the last week without any problems, at 90 to 100% hardness. i feel awesome; like I’m a teenager again. it’s a huge change from what it was, which was either ED, going soft quickly after penetration, or being at like 70% hardness the whole time and having to have sex really rough and frantically to maintain the erection. sex now lasts wayy longer. no tricks or pills or anything, just no PMO. i must sound like a cult member or salesman.
barely had any cravings during the no PMO time. Had lots of cravings during the first 2 months of no porn though. now i have no more cravings. porn is so negatively associated with humiliation and life regression and social awkwardness that i honestly find it unappealing.
flatlined for a good month during the first no PMO month. that was kind of worrisome, but it went away after that time.
I kept myself a little more busy than usual during all this time. scheduled more time with friends, worked out more, ate better, read more. during the first few weeks, i read a lot of stories on this site for motivation and i took notes!
anyways, I’m stoked. for petty man reasons, I’m happy that the wanger works again. secondly, I’m happy to have kicked this addiction. it was taking over my mind. i was seriously thinking and visualizing porn scenes for days after watching them. it was pretty toxic.
this has changed my life. more time in the day, more confidence, more energy, more motivation. who knew jerking off for 20-30min a day could have so many wide-ranging effects?? anyways, ism crazy grateful to this site an to everyone who has posted.
feel free to PM if you have any questions or wanna talk. -minh
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