Ama: Age 29, male, single, not religious, addicted to extreme/fetish porn in several genres, PMO’ed 2-3 times in most days with few hours of porn in a day. MO history of 17 years and PMO 12 years. Doing NoFap in hard mode (no porn, masturbation, edging, sex and minimum fantasizing).
Akuko: If you have PMO addiction this 90 day challenge is best way to take major first step. It can feel that 90 days no porn or masturbation is bad option if you have PMO’ed daily. It’s true, there’s no easy way out from problem that most likely took years to develop.
Does this 90 days mean that I’m cured from porn addiction? No. It means that i didn’t use porn for 90 days. This challenge gives option to break cycle of daily PMO and take some distance from problem to make better decisions about future. Now when sitting at day 90 it really doesn’t mean anything. What is meaningful is next 12-24 months, can i stay away from porn or not. That is meaningful at this point.
Benefits from NoFap: Saved 200-300 hours in 90 days because i didn’t watch porn. My computer and phone is clean and anyone could use it without finding out my porn secrets. Now i can be honest about my porn use, will people believe is another question.
I’m more capable to feel emotions again. I can be sad, happy or feel pleasure. I would say that my mood has been more stable now than before and i’m more happy now. I couldn’t be totally honest about my porn use and i suspect that it was like dark shadow around me.
Confidence, energy and motivation: No major changes but i think that those are little better now.
With women: I think that my hesitation with women is lower now. Another thing is that sometimes i notice that i have done or said something that actually was ballsy confident thing to do. I would say that difference before and after is that now i don’t need to try so hard and things just happen more naturally. Is this placebo? It can be but on the other hand because i’m more horny it’s more likely that i naturally act in that way.
There have been few situations where women have done something that makes me wonder do they know that I’m not doing PMO. Maybe i just seem more friendly or approachable when I’m not on PMO and that explains these situations. This could be placebo again.
Sexually i feel recovered. I feel horny and i would like to get sexual release. Real sex would be most attractive option now. I feel that i was years in sexual flatline when i used porn.
Things that i learned when doing NoFap: I learned that PMO totally killed my natural sexuality and libido. My daily porn use didn’t reflect my needs for sexual release. I used porn because my brain needed stimulation not because i needed sexual release. I realized how much i used MO and PMO to escape from negative things/feelings.
Milestones during 90 days: First milestone was 30 days. Getting 30 days was extremely hard. It took long time and several relapses to get there. My opinion is that If you can get 30 days it’s likely that you can make it to 90. Also i felt that major emotional progress started after 30 days.
Another milestone was days 62-70 when my libido came alive. At the day 60 i felt that i was like 70% rebooted but then it magically happened, urges exploded and my libido was alive. I felt that i was rebooted at day 70.
Hardest days: For me hardest days was 62-70 when urges were very high and there was no way to avoid those. These urges were different than early days because now i needed sexual release.
Day 7 was very hard. Brain wanted stimulation but i didn’t need sexual release. 7 Days is something that you can do it again in 7 days and that makes relapse look like attractive option. If you are at 30 days you have more to lose.
Relapses. What did they do for me?: I relapsed several times. I think that these relapses were breaking daily cycle of PMO. I don’t know if those relapses affected to this streak.
My opinion is that relapses are like playing first few tracks from full album in random order, over and over again. After few times you know what to expect but you don’t know anything about last tracks of album.
When will you know how 90 days will turn out? When wondering how you can be sure how you will feel at day 90, I would say that you need to be at day 90 to know for sure. M aking any long term evaluations would be mistake at 30 days. Even at day 60 i would have made wrong assumptions how things will go when i hit 90.
Negative sides of NoFap: There were negative things like difficulties to sleep, blue balls and headaches. Biggest is sleeping, i used PMO when i didn’t get sleep and it seems to be hard to replace with anything.
Nrọ nrọ: I didn’t get wet dreams.
If i would start now what i would do differently? I would keep daily log for myself. I would write how i feel at that day and how strong urges are. It would be nice to read now.
Summary: 90 Days was hard but it was worth it. This was probably best thing that i could do in my situation. I would recommend this to anyone who has PMO addiction.
Thanks for reading! If you have questions feel free to ask.
by SurnameX
AKWỤKWỌ BỤGHỊ - Akụkọ 75 Days na banyere mmekọahụ riri m ahụ
Ama: 29 y/o male, single, not religious, addicted to extreme porn, PMO’ed 2-3 times in most days with few hours of porn. Now doing NoFap in hard mode [no PMO].
Akuko: It has been 75 days since last masturbation. Only thing that i can say that after day 60 urges have exploded to the new record. Really positive thing is that now I’m horny for the first time in my life. When i was on PMO i was never horny without stimulation. I always wondered how it feels when guys told that they are horny and they need to get laid.. now i know how it feels. It has been really hard to get any sleep when I’m this horny. I was expecting and hoping that horniness would happen but i didn’t know that it would take over 70 days. Otherwise it has been stable ride.
Maka ndị nwere mmasị ka nrọ ọ bụla na-adịghị na NoFap.
Banyere mmekọahụ riri m ahụ: Achọrọ m ide banyere ọgwụ ọjọọ m. Ọtụtụ ndị nọ na NoFap maara ihe ọ pụtara ịṅụ ọgwụ ọjọọ ma achọre m ịkọwa ìhè na isiokwu a. Echere m na ndị mmadụ adịghị edekọ ihe ịṅụ ọgwụ ọjọọ na-egosi ha.
Enwere ike ịmalite ma ọ bụrụ na ị nọ n'ọnọdụ obi jụụ.
I believe that many non addicted people will think that porn addiction means that I’m obsessed by watching any type of porn. This is not true at all. I’m sure that people think that because i’m porn addict it means that i have seen many “famous big money porn movies”. This again is not true at all. I have seen probably only 15 movies like that.
M ga-ekwu na e nwere akụkụ abụọ na ọgwụ ọjọọ riri m: ingchọ na ikiri. N'ezie enwere m ahụ riri ahụ karịa ịchọ egwu karịa ị na-ele ya. Aghọrọ m oke nhọrọ banyere egwu egwu m na-ele ma na-achọ. Mgbe ịchọọ ihe siri ike ịchọta ya ọ ga - amalite ogologo oge. Echere m na nyocha na-ewe 80-90% nke oge na ikiri 10-20%. Mgbe m chọtara ihe siri ike ịchọta, enwere m obi ụtọ.
Mgbe ndị mmadụ na-ekwu banyere ịrị elu nke porn, maka m ọ pụtara nke a: Nke mbụ enwere m obi ụtọ ịhụ ụfọdụ foto na-abụghị nke gba ọtọ ma ọ bụ nke dị nro, mgbe ahụ achọrọ m egwu egwu ọzọ, mgbe ahụ ihe ọhụrụ na ihe na-awụ akpata oyi n'ahụ. Achọrọ m ịhụ ihe ọhụrụ na ihe ọhụrụ. N'otu oge ahụ achọrọ m ịhụ ụdị ụmụ nwanyị ndị ọzọ, ọnọdụ ụfọdụ, akụkụ igwefoto, omume ount Ọnụ ọgụgụ nke ihe dị m mma na-agbadata ọtụtụ. Ọtụtụ oge, enweghị m ike ịchọta ihe ọ bụla dị ọhụrụ ma dị mma nke mere na achọrọ m ụdị ụdị nke egwu egwu .. Ọbụna ihe na-awụ akpata oyi n'ahụ karịa nke gara aga. Mgbe m mere nyocha a, ana m edezi oge niile n'otu oge.
E nwere oge mgbe m gbalịrị ịkwụsị iji porn egwu egwu mana enweghi m ikike maka iji m mee ihe ma lọghachiri ọbụna karịa ebe m nọ.
Ejiri m ọtụtụ taabụ n'otu oge na mgbe m chọtara ihe dị mma, m meghere ya na taabụ ọzọ ka m chere. Mgbe ihe zuru oke zuru ezu, ahọtara m ebe kachasị mma ma tinye aka na mgbochi. Ihe m chọtara n'oge usoro nyocha abaghị uru mgbe ejaculation gasịrị. Anaghị m ekiri otu vidiyo ahụ ugboro abụọ, achọrọ m ihe ọhụụ ọhụụ na nyocha.
Maka m usoro a nke nyocha na ikiri wee bụrụ ihe ọ bụla na-enweghị atụnyere. Iwuli ma si na nke a pụta bụ ihe ọbụlagodi inwe mmekọahụ anaghị atụnyere. Echetara m na afọ ndị gara aga, echere m na inwe mmekọahụ adịghị mma dị ka egwu porn na ọ bụ eziokwu. Ezigbo ụmụ nwanyị enweghị ike ịsọ mpi ma ọ dịkarịa ala mgbe ị na-egwu porn.
Ekwenyere m na n'otu oge ahụ mgbe ị na-ele porn nwere mmetụta dị ukwuu, ihe ndị ọzọ malitere iche .. Ọ dịghị ihe ọ bụla. Enwere m mmasị ịba ụba maka ọtụtụ ihe ndị ọzọ ná ndụ. Porn nwere mmetụta na-adịghị mma ná ndụ m ma eleghị anya karịa karịa m.
Enwere m porn iji gbanahụ nchegbu, ụra nke ọma, mmetụta na-ezighị ezi, nsogbu mmekọrịta, nsogbu ndị ọzọ, mgbe owu na-ama m ma ọ bụ na-agwụ m ike. Eji porn gbanye mgbọrọgwụ na ndụ m kwa ụbọchị. Enwere m olileanya na enwere m ike ịdị ndụ na-enweghị nchegharị kwa ụbọchị banyere porn.
Ọdịnihu nke porn? Achọrọ m iweta nke a n'ihi na mgbe m malitere iji porn ịntanetị banyere 12-13 afọ gara aga. O siri ike ịhụ foto ọ bụla gabigara ókè. Ekwenyesiri m ike na ihe dị n'ebe ahụ ma ọ dị n'okpuru ala ma sie ike ịchọta. Ugbu a ọ dị mfe ịchọta vidiyo zuru ezu nke otu ụdị egwu egwu. Echere m na na nnukwu foto, ndị na-eji porn na-aghọwanye ndị na-enweghị isi maka ihe ha na-ekiri na a na-ewere oke dị ka ihe nkịtị. Anaghị m ekwu na a ga-amachibido porn ma ọ bụ ihe m chọpụtara.
Daalụ maka ịgụ ihe!
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