One of my main triggers after giving up porn has been these damn fantasies, some of them would last just a few seconds, but others when my brain is “idle”, like when trying to fall asleep, and often involved long detailed fantasies.
It would rarely lead to full blown Fapping, (more like a fondling, or what I would refer to as mind-masturbation.
Anọ m na ụbọchị 62 nke m reboot na ihe ijuanya na echiche efu na-apụ n'anya ugbu a, m na-eche na ọ bụ ụzọ ndị dị na ụbụrụ m na-emezigharị, na anaghị eti mkpu maka obere squirt nke Dopamine.
N’ụzọ dị ka ịhapụ “enyi ochie”, nke m nwere ike ịga leta ndị gbara m gburugburu, ọ nweghịkwa onye nwere ntụle. N'oge m malitere ịmalite, m ka ga-aga "ebe obi ụtọ" ahụ niile m maara, ọ bụ ezie na amaara m nke ọma, mana n'ihi na m na-eche echiche maka 10 + afọ ọ bụ ebe siri ike ịkwụsị ịga.
Ya mere, e nwere ihe dị njọ n'ebe a, ma ugbu a, m na-ahụ na ebe ọ bụ na ha na-agbapụta na ụbụrụ m (akpatre) ịgwọ ọrịa.
Naanị m chọrọ ịkọrọ ihe ịtụnanya a m na-enwe! Ọ bụrụ na onye ọ bụla nwere otu nsogbu na echiche efu, ọ nwere ike iwe obere oge, mana ha ga-apụ n'anya ma nwụọ ma ọ bụrụhaala na ị nọgideghị 'na-enye ha nri'!
njikọ -Echiche efu na-adighi ike!
By True2Myself
AKWỤKWỌ N'ỤLỌ NCHE - My Journal, and Road to Recovery
Greetings all,
First off I want to say how grateful I am to the designers, MOD’s and anyone else who participated in the creation of this website! Kudo’s to all of you!
I am a 59 y/o male who is sick and tired of living this secret life of shame, and damaging my own life and others around me. (especially my wife). It’s been a weird trip through the years (no not THAT kind of trip 
) and I have tried to stop looking at porn, but doing it on my own without any resources made it d@3m near impossible, so I always picked it back up again. Not only am I trying to save my marriage, but I’m just tired of living a double life of secrecy and lies, and it needs to stop.
I am registered on other porn addiction related websites and actively participating, but they lack the mechanics of the brain chemistry, and what is really going on in this twisted messed-up mind of mine. Thankfully YBOP and this site answers those questions and gives me something I can sink my teeth into. Also reading posts from other members here gives me some assurance that I am not alone with this addiction, and that there IS hope to kick it for good.
Thanks to anyone who has read all of this and comments are certainly welcome.
Sorry this first posting is so long, and a bit scattered,
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