Naanị ịchọrọ ịkọrọ onye ọzọ akụkọ m. O siri ike ịchọta onye m nwere ike ịkekọrịta nke a. Echere m na m nwere ike ịchọta enyemaka / agbamume sitere na obodo a. Echere m na n'idere nke a, m nwere ike inyere onwe m aka ichefu oge gara aga ma gaa n'ihu na-aga n'ihu.
M malitere iji porn dị ka 15 yrold. Dị ka ọtụtụ n'ime unu, m na-eji ya otu ugboro kwa ụbọchị. Mgbe ufodu oge otutu. Anaghị m ekwe ka m banye n'ụdị egwu ọ bụla.
Achọpụtara m na ka oge na-aga, ọ na-ewewanye windo nke porn iji mee ka m nwee obi ụtọ. Mgbe ahụ, ọ bịara ebe m chọrọ otu ụdị, ma ọ bụ ọnọdụ. Ana m ejide onwe m ka m na-ele ihe egwu egwu, mgbe ahụ, m kwenyesiri ike na m ga-ezumike tupu ya njọ.
Ahụhụ m malitere mgbe m ruru mahadum. (nke a bụ akụkụ nke m chọrọ ka m nwee ike ịgwa mmadụ banyere) Afọ ọhụrụ m, mkpanwụ m adịtụbeghị. Enwere m nsogbu ịga ụlọ ịsa ahụ. Na ọnọdụ dum nke m amụ bụ nnọọ nwụrụ anwụ. My bọọlụ na-adaba n'ime, ma na-adịkarịghị nghọta dị ka ha na-eji.
I knew then something was wrong. I found though that i could use fetish porn and i would acheive an erection despite the condition of my member.
Nke a dugara na nwa ebu n'afọ. Achọpụtara m na mgbe m kpaliri m prostate, enwere m ike ịgabiga. N'ihi ya amalitere m ime nke a, ọ bụ ezie na enweghi m ike ịnọgide na-arụ ọrụ ma ọ bụ na-esi na masturbation. Akụkụ nke akụkụ nke m na-eji isi m eme ihe. Enwere m mgbagwoju anya banyere ihe mere m ga-eji gbanwee site n'ịgba ume ma ọ bụghị site na masturbation nkịtị.
Nke a mere ka m jụọ mmekọahụ mgbe ụfọdụ. Ekwenyesiri m ike na m bụ onye ziri ezi, mana oge mbụ m na-agbapụta site n'ikike na-akpali akpali nanị m chere na ikpe mara ma dị egwu.
I continued doing this until it lost its novelty and become hard to ejaculte from anal stimulation. I felt as if my prostate had become empty, and my testicles just didnt have anything left to shoot out.
Nke a dugara na ọnwa nyocha siri ike na ịntanetị maka azịza. Daybọchị m sụrụ ngọngọ gafee YBOP ọ dị m ka Charlie mgbe ọ hụrụ na ọ natala tiketi ọla edo na ụlọ ọrụ Chocolate nke Willy Wonka.
M ghọtara ihe kpatara nsogbu ahụ.
Otú ọ dị, ọ bụ n'oge a ka m chọpụtara reddit, na ihe ndị ọzọ dịka r / jalbait na rwildild mere ka m lọghachi na-eme onwe ya. Emechara m na-eyiri ihe ndị a ma gharakwa ịnọgide na-erezi ya.
This is when i decided to get serioius about the procedure described here in NOFAp and also on YBOP.
Agara m maka 3months n'emeghị mkparị na porn, nke a nyekwara m aka ịlaghachi na nkịtị. Echere m na ndụ, na mmekọahụ m laghachiri. M nwere ike masturbate na-enweghị porn. M ga-abanye na ịsa ahụ ma nwa m nwoke ga-adị njikere.
This however lead me to feel overconfident and caused me to relapse. I started visitng r/gonewild again and it progressed to more porn. I hated myself afterwards, becuase I knew i had beat it, and i had recovered, and i could maintain normal erection, and i had a normal sex drive again morning boners and all….
I convinced myself that if I had anal orgasms it didnt count to i continued to prostate massage myself. But this made matters worse and recovery longer.
(if anyone is interested, i found that when you have a good prostate massage you lose all desire for sex for several WEEKS at a time, its like all of your manliness is taking out of you. Sometimes it even impossible to get an erection for days afterwards. I didnt understand these things at the time but now I do. If anyone is in a similar situation feel free to message me, i can tell you my experiences with it).
Ugbu a, m dị ihe dịka izu abụọ n'ime njem njem NOFAP, enweela m ezigbo obi ụtọ. Ebipuola m ụdị mmekọahụ niile na ndụ m.
Enweela m nri ụtụtụ abụọ n'izu a. M debere ụbọchị na January maka onwe m. N'ụbọchị a ma ọ bụrụ na ahụ m dị njikere, m ga-ahapụ onwe m ka m nwee ike ịchọta otu ugboro.
Enweghị m atụmatụ inye masturbation, m na-eme atụmatụ na onBIVROR PORN. Achọrọ m ime ka mmekọahụ m laghachi na nkịtị. Ma na-egbochi njedebe m otu ugboro n'ọnwa.
Thats my story fapbros. If anyone has had a very similar experience, please message or comment. We can help each other through this thing.
Jikọ - My akụkọ. Porn dị egwu na-etinye m na, na ihe m na-eme iji pụọ na ya.
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