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Burina shine na daina batsa 100% kafin na kai shekara 17, nayi yunkurin sake yi sau biyu kuma rikodata ita ce Watanni 1 ba tare da PMO ba.Zan shiga karo na uku yanzu kuma ina fatan zan shawo kan wannan, na gaza Sauran biyun sun sake dawowa kamar yadda na sake komawa sau da yawa.Da sake yi sai na ji daɗi a matsayin ɗan adam na ji farin ciki.
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Ina shan wahala ta OCD amma ba abin ban tsoro bane. Na yanke shawarar zama kaina kuma na sami ƙiyayya mai yawa, Yana ƙara damuna da HOCD kuma na zama ɗan kashe kansa, sa'annan na yanke shawarar gyara rayuwata, na fara zama abokai da mutanen kirki kuma ina da budurwa amma bana son yin gwaji akanta don in tabbatarwa da kaina, hakan ba daidai bane a ra'ayina.
Abin da na kasance ina aikatawa
Na kasance ina koyon abubuwa da yawa game da matakan OCD da matakai don shawo kanta, kuma ni ma ina koyon cewa waɗannan tunani ne kawai da tsoro da ƙwaƙwalwa ke ƙirƙira kanta, Amma ina fata da gaske ban taɓa shiga Hotuna ba kamar yadda nake fata ina da amnesia cewa ba ni da HOCD's, Na Bayyana kaina Demisexual Ban damu da sha'awar wani abu ba idan dai ban ji damuwa ba da kuma rikicewar da ke gudana a cikin kwakwalwa, amma na kasance madaidaiciya Duk rayuwa kuma na san koyaushe zan kasance ina matukar fatan wannan zai warke.
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