Ni dalibi ne na Faransa kuma 17, Na taɓa yi mafarin rana daga 7yo zuwa 16yo, asali zan sake maimaita motsi da hannuna sai in ɓace a cikin tunanina na dogon lokaci, wani lokacin awowi, Ina ganin hanya ce ta tserewa gaskiyar, ba wanda ya taɓa sani, na an gani sau 2-3 yana yin shi amma zai sami uzuri don tabbatar da shi.
Wannan matsalar na iya kasancewa da alaƙa da raunin yara (an yi min azaba tun ina ƙarami) Ban taɓa bincika halin da nake ciki ba kuma ban taɓa gaya wa kowa ba saboda ina son yin hakan, shi ne gyaran dopamine.
Na fara PMOing a kusa da 12 lokacin da dan uwana ya nuna min batsa vids, ugh. Daga nan zan yi masturbate 1 zuwa 2 sau a rana.
Wadannan jaraba biyu sun kawo ni gyara yau da kullun na dogon lokaci, wannan ya haifar da ni babbanfarji duk rayuwata, abin dariya ne saboda koyaushe na kasance dogo, kyakkyawa, kuma makaranta ta kasance mai sauƙi a gare ni. Amma ban taɓa yin amfani da halaye na ba, kuma a yanzu ba ni da kyau a makaranta (ban da ajin Turanci)
Don haka har 15yo rayuwata ta kasance SHAGON kuma ban ma san da hakan ba, Ina jin kamar duk yarinta / ƙuruciyata ba ta da girma ƙwaƙwalwar ƙwaƙwalwa. Na yi wasan tanis, kwallon kwando, iyo amma na daina komai saboda yawan shan kwaya, ba ni da wata hanyar da zan iya cudanya da jama'a, na kasance baƙon abu game da 'yan mata duk tsawon rayuwata, ko kuma kusan duk rayuwata;).
A 15yo duk abin da ya canza, Na shiga saƙo (kamar makarantar sakandare da nake tsammani) kuma na sadu da wannan yarinyar, Amy. Amy ya kasance mai cetona ko ta yaya, a lokacin ba ni da abokai na gaske (Ina da “abokai” 3 amma na gane a yanzu cewa ba mu da ƙawancen da ya dace kuma sun koma baya ko yaya).
Kuma ina matukar sha'awar ta, kuma tana da kamar tana sha'awar ni, duk da cewa ta kasance 2y dattijo, hakika ta kasance daga Ingila kuma na yi kyau sosai a turanci don Faransanci saboda ina kallon duk jerin shirye-shirye na / finafinai a cikin Turanci don haka ni na iya yin magana da kyau, wannan ya sanya ni musamman ta.
Ba na tuna kwanan wata daidai amma lokacin da nake 15yo rayuwata ta juya tunda komai mai ban sha'awa ya faru:
Na haɗu da Amy kuma na yi tattaunawa mai zurfin gaske a karo na farko na rayuwata, har ma na gaya mata game da NoFap kuma tana son gaskiyar cewa ban kalli batsa ba, ina da malam buɗe ido na soyayya, amma na san ba ta cikina Layi dangane da kuzari da kyau (ko don haka nayi tunani saboda koyaushe kuna tunanin kun kasance mai zurfin ciki lokacin da kuke mai fapper kullum), don haka sai na nemi ci gaban kai…
Na gano NoFap; a cikin dare ɗaya na fahimci dalilin da yasa ban yi komai ba a cikin shekaru 15 kuma na ji dadi a duk rayuwata, NoFap ya bayyana mani tarkon dopamine kuma daga nan na yi ƙoƙarin barin PMO da MaladaptiveDaydreaming.
GASKIYA
Don haka tsawon watanni na yi streaks, tsawonsu sun bambanta, amma abu ɗaya tabbatacce, a kan girman sikelin daga 0 zuwa 10 MaladaptiveDaydreaming ya kasance 7 da PMO mai ƙarfi ne na 10.
A lokacin bikinmu na 16th na yi fatan kar na sake fap sake, an yi begen a cikin China ofc kuma na sake komawa cikin 'yan kwanaki bayan haka, amma shekara ta 16th ita ce mafi kyau a rayuwata, dangantaka da Amy ta kasance mai girma kuma ajikina ya kasance 2 makonni, wata daya, ko ma kwanaki 45, Na yi farin ciki da rayuwa. Na sami damar halakar da MaladaptiveDaydreaming, NAN NASARA KYAUTA DA KYAUTA KUNNE.
ALFARMA
Fa'idodin su ne HUGE, gemu na yafe, tsokoki na, ba na jin kunyar kaina kuma, zan iya gano furuci daga yadda yake ɗaukar kansa / yin magana, mata sun lura da ni sosai, muryata ta fi ƙarfin maza kuma zan iya magana ba tare da kowace matsala, 'yan mata suna ƙaunar wannan ba_è
Amma REAL CHANGE ya kasance na fara gina halaye, hakika na fahimci cewa in sanya shi sama da kwanaki 45 dole ne in gina nan gaba maimakon yaƙar tsohuwar (-Socrates). Don haka sai na zazzage “Day Counter” a kan PlayStore kuma na kirkira halaye 15 don cinma yau da kullun, abubuwa kamar: -20 abs, 30 turawa da kuma 30 squats dama daga gado; -Shan sanyi na safe; -Yawancin bacci daga 00h00 zuwa 6:40; -Yan koyon waƙoƙin waƙa akan hanyata ta zuwa makaranta; -Yin wasan kida bayan karatu; -Dauke nauyi (kimanin 250x5kg) -Karanta babi 1 na littafi; da sauran halaye…
Na kuma yi amfani da kuɗi na na Kirsimeti don siyan ton na kayan da suka dace (saɓon hipster / classy) saboda har zuwa lokacin ina yin ado kamar shit -_-
Shekaru 17
Wannan shine shekaruna a yanzu, dole ne in yarda cewa ni nafi ƙarfi fiye da kowane lokaci, ya kasance yan watanni tun lokacin da na fara halaye na yau da kullun kuma yana da kyau shit, Ina cikin kwanaki 47 kamar yadda kuka karanta a cikin bayanin. Na karanta tarin labarai game da ilimin halayyar mata. Cuz Na sani, Ni sani, kamar, Na zama wasu nau'in dabba na testosterone, Na san zan iya samun kowace budurwa da nake so, amma na buƙaci wata hanya.
Don haka na koyi abubuwa kuma nayi amfani dasu a ƙasa tare da wasu girlsan matan 15yo kuma ina yin kyau, a da ina tunanin mata suna son yarima mai ora ora ko kuma “kyakkyawan saurayi”, amma abin ya fi haka rikitarwa, girlsan mata suna son namiji San abin da yake yi da kuma wanda yake da tabbacin, alfa idan kuna so.
Na kuma daina ba da amsa kai tsaye ga saƙonnin rubutu wanda ainihin abin da ya shafi zamantakewar kai ne, yanzu na bar mintuna 3 kaɗan kafin na amsa wa wani, wannan yana ba da mamaki ga 'yan mata su kasance da sha'awar ku, amma fa kuna da yawaita saurayin da kuka sani.
Baya ga wannan na sami sha'awar yin bidiyo mai motsi, har yanzu ina koyon manyan koyarwa a youtube. Na kuma tuntubi wasu tsofaffin abokai da ban yi magana da su ba tun shekaru, ta hanyar facebook, kuma suna son sabon ni! Ainihin an sake haifata tun daga yan watanni, zan iya cewa na tashi daga Yamcha zuwa Son Goku a cikin SuperSayen a cikin watanni 3, Na san har yanzu ina iya inganta duk da cewa.
MAGANAR CIKIN RAYUWATA
Ina da matsaloli biyu da suka rage kafin na sake haifuwa gaba daya kuma a shirye nake in ciji rayuwa kamar itacen apple mai laushi:
-First of all I have too much sex drive, it's incredible, I'm having rape thoughts all the time it makes me feel uncomfortable, I do consider women as our equals but deep inside me I want to control them all.
Misali wadancan 'yan matan 2 da nake tattaunawa da su yau da kullun, suna matukar sha'awar ni kuma ina aikata duk wani mummunan yaro kuma na tare su, abin da kawai zan iya tunowa shine kawo su wurina a ranar Litinin da kuma sace budurcinsu. Hakanan zan iya amfani da yarinyar mara kunya da na sani, wanda ba zai iya tsayayya da ni ba idan nayi tsalle a kanta.
Amma kar ku fahimci fahimta, Na kasance a kan karatun NoFap tun shekaru biyu, Na san komai game da yadda rayuwar jima'i ba ta da amfani kuma idan na sanya dukkan ƙarfin jima'i a cikin wani abu mai amfani (kamar ƙwarewar raina a misali) zan iya zama shahararren mai nasara da duka. AMMA duk da cewa ina so in maida kuzarin jima'i a cikin ayyukana ina kuma son mata, ina tsammanin ya kamata in yi amfani da wannan ikon ina da abin da yawancin maza basu da shi, ikon yin lalata da kowace yarinya, Ina jin kamar Ina buƙatar jin daɗin samartaka kamar yadda zan iya.
-The second thing troubling me is what I want to do next year as "after highschool studies", before I was on this big NoFap streak I wanted to do something in informatics, but now that I am where I am I realise it's not what I truly love in life.
Abin da nake so a rayuwa shine sadarwar jama'a (tunda ya zama mai sauƙi a yanzu), rayarwa, da yaren turanci. Don haka a zahiri ina shakku tsakanin zama malamin Turanci a nan Faransa, ko wani abu a cikin motsi, ko wani abu inda zan iya hulɗa da mutane. Me ku maza kuke ba ni shawara?
KARSHEN Yayi kyau, da kyau kun san manyan layuka na rayuwata yanzu, pfioouu ya zama kwanciyar hankali inyi magana da komai ga al'umma !! Kasance cikin ƙarfin faan uwan fapstonauts 😀
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