Ni dan shekara 23 ne, ina zaune a Netherlands. Turancina ba shine mafi kyau ba, amma zan saka duk da haka. Na sami NoFap a cikin watan Fabrairun 2016 kuma na yi ƙoƙarin murmurewa daga abin da na sha. A yau ni 131 kwanakin kyauta ne daga PMO da sauran jima'i na jima'i. Ina yin Hardmode. Na kasance mai amfani da batsa na dogon lokaci, ya fara ne tun ina dan shekara 12.
Mutane da yawa suna cewa ina da kyau, amma ban taɓa samun budurwa ba, saboda koyaushe ina jin kunya da wahala don sadarwa tare da girlsan mata (damuwar zamantakewa).
A ranar 16 na fara ziyartar karuwai. A cikin Netherlands da kuma kusa da Jamus da Belgium kuna da gidajen karuwai na taga da yawa kuma ana samun karuwanci a sauƙaƙe. Tun daga wannan lokacin na kamu da cutar dashi. Na ziyarci kowane wata karuwai kuma na yi asara mai yawa a gare ta. Ina kuma ƙoƙarin dakatar da wannan jaraba. Ziyartar karuwai Na sami sauki sosai fiye da sadarwa tare da 'yan mata na al'ada kuma don shiga dangantaka.
Tun shekarar da ta gabata, na kamu da son yin jima'i da jima'i (ƙungiyoyi masu juyawa, motsa jiki, gangbangs). Tun daga wannan lokacin na fi sha'awar yin jima'i da 'yan mata na al'ada, saboda zan iya tafiya tare da mata da yawa rana ɗaya.
Tun daga Maris na wannan shekara, ina ziyartar likitan mata don jarabar jima'i. Likitana ya ce lallai ne in yi 1 shekarar mawuyacin hali don in murmure sosai. Ina kuma zuwa kowane mako don Jima'i Addicts Anonymous tarurruka, idan na haɗu da wasu mutanen da suke ma jima'i addicts da kuma kokarin murmure.
Na rasa abinda ke motsa ni tsawon shekaru da kuma neman jinina a rayuwa. Sau da yawa naji bakin ciki da damuwa. Hakanan, sau da yawa nakan jin kamar ni.
Tun daga farkon farawa na, har yanzu ina fama da alamun karbowa (layin kwance).
- mawuyacin
- juyayi
- Sanin tunani
- Flashbacks na PMO (samun ƙaranci)
- Tunani mara kyau
Amma ni ma na ga fa'idodi:
- Ƙarin shakatawa
- Ƙarin amincewa
- Alamar girlsan mata (amma har yanzu ina jin tsoron kusanto su)
- Matsayi ya fi kyau
- Mata sun fi kyau kyau yanzu
- Ba na son PMO (mafi sauƙin tsayayya)
Tun tsayawa, yana tare da hawa da sauka, amma ban daina ba. Har yanzu zan tafi. Har ila yau, dole in gode wa likitan kwantar da hankali da kuma taron SAA, cewa na tsabtace yanzu don kwanaki 131.
LINK - Kwanakin 131 kyauta na PMO da jaraba ta jima'i
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