Na zauna tare da tunanin kashe kansa tun lokacin da nake ƙarami, a kusa da 12 ko 13, ba zato ba tsammani a daidai lokacin da na fara al'ada ta don batsa. Na kasance ina tunanin mutuwa, game da yadda zan kashe kaina, game da abin da wasu mutane za su ce bayan na mutu.
“Oh, shi? Haka ne, ya kashe kansa a bara. ”
“Yana tsotsa, mutum. Na yi kewarsa. ”
"Fuck shi, allah tsine wa son kai."
Kuna samun gist. Har ma na je wurin masu kwantar da hankali don gwadawa da warware waɗannan batutuwa, amma babu ɗanɗano. Dole ne kawai in yi ma'amala da su, kuma kada in ba da kai, abin da na gaya wa kaina ke nan, kawai ku rataya a can don dangi da abokai, ba abin da za ku iya yi. Dole ne in yi ma'amala da tunanin kowane dare kafin in kwanta. Ya kasance mai raɗaɗi yanzu idan na waiwaya baya.
Ba wai tunanin tunanin kisan kai kawai yake ba, akwai kuma wasu tarin batutuwan da suka kwantar da hankula tun fara NoFap.
Yanzu, Na yi imani da zuciya ɗaya batsa shine dalilin, saboda kusan shekaru 12 na yi ma'amala da shit ɗin, shekaru 2 bayan fara NoFap, tunanina na kashe kansu sun shuɗe. Ya tafi, gaba daya tafi. Hakanan, suna iya dawowa duk lokacin da na daina komawa kamar haka, misali faduwa kowane kwanakin 2-3 na makonni 2 ko fiye
Amma yanzu, ba na mafarkin rayuwa, ba na son mutuwa, Ina so in rayu.
A halin yanzu 26. Sauran fa'idodin sun haɗa da:
- Rashin bugun kaina a koyaushe, wanda hakan ya haifar da girman kai
- Babban maida hankali kan tsabta
- Samun motsa motsa jiki kowane lokaci kuma
- Energyarin kuzari, kada ku ji daɗin mutuwa koyaushe
- Tunani game da haɓakar kai koyaushe
- Mai sauƙin tattaunawa da abokai
- Kada ku ji kunyar kaina
Don haka, ina sha'awar, shin ɗayanku ya sami irin wannan?
Kuma akwai wasu ilimin kimiyya a bayan wannan? Shin akwai dalilin da yasa hankalina ya kashe kansa ko kuma wannan shine kawai babban daidaituwa?
LINK - Me Yasa NoFap Ta Dakatar da Tunanina na Kashe Su?
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