So a while back I was in a dark hole of my own making. During my wife’s pregnancy our sexual activities stopped completely. Unfortunately I took that ad an excuse to let myself go and help myself. This was a very bad idea, and I found myself in a depression because of the lies I told myself and others that I was okay.
Then my son was born. I know we can never base our sexual healing on another person, but I think he triggered something. I realised that I’m going to be responsible for the man he will become one day and my actions and example will shape him.
I want him to be a better man than me, and the only way that can happen is when I live the life I want him to mimic.
He is 6 weeks old today, and its been just as long for me. I’m thankful that we can grow together. I know it will be hard at times, but greatness is forged in hard times.
Source: New dad, new beginnings
By Philip_ZA
UPDATE:
600 days and no PMO
I almost missed today’s milestone.
My life and routines changed so much during past few months. The phase where I was stuck in a habitual PMO streak feels like another lifetime that is a distant memory. There are days my thoughts still jump to those empty moments of ecstasy that PMO brings, even my body yearns for it at times, and I think that is the lasting effects an addiction has on a person. But luckily those moments are short, most of the time I don’t really notice them, Interestingly enough, they arise when I am hungry/angry/lonely/tired. So I know the warning signs and I can rectify it before things become too difficult.
Generally speaking, everything is as it should be. Family life has been great, and being present in the moment without the constant anxiety or fear of being found out is exhilarating.
This is a very hard journey to take, but it is worth it!
Hang in there guys, it’s definitely possible to break this destructive habit.