I wanted to share this experience with you as a way of providing hope and encouragement, with full transparency and honesty.
As of today, September 10, 2025, I have been free from porn for the last 94 days. This is after having consumed porn, in average, 4-5 times a week for the last 16 years.
This means, in all of these days, I have not watched a porn video, and I haven’t touched myself to orgasm to any pixelated image or video of a woman/women. In these 94 days I have masturbated about a couple dozen times, to my imagination remembering hot moment with my exes or one night stands I’ve had, and lately, and most wonderfully, to body sensation alone, like those first times during teenage years (more on that later) Some of the times have been to kill boredom or give myself a mood lift, and others have been to calm down from a raging bout of horniness.
The benefits experienced so far are as following:
-My eyes are mine again: the pressure to look at an attractive female has disappeared most of the days. I choose to look and admire if I want to, and only for 1 second or less. Staring at a woman’s body parts feels disgusting, not because I dont enjoy it, but because by now the conditioning is strong enough that such behavior is unacceptable.
Plus, the rush and pleasure I used to feel from looking at a girls body has greatly subdued. My craving for a female presence, romance, actual touch and interaction, have increased.
-Body is responsive again: the first month without porn, my d*ck felt like a dead fish. There was almost no sensation down there, the only thing that would give a spark was imagining hot moments with my exes, and still, there was much to be desired. By now, I can close my eyes and just enjoy the sensation of touching myself, and it feels amazing. I dont orgasm every day like I used to. Its every 2-3 days on average. But being able to touch yourself to orgams through bodily sensation, building up to a powerful release, is quite the thrill. I reckon it has been about 16 years, before my conduits were fried with porn (I’m 33 now)
*I’m aware that there’s a hard mode, no touching or making yourself orgasm. Big Respect to all the brothers who are choosing that path and have achieved it. It is not my path and I’m okay with it. I still work out 4-5 times a week and have plenty of energy to live my life, work, and have stable routines. Everyone is different.
-Greater self respect: the streak is a big source of pride, every day. Even more than a streak, it’s a new identity. I thankfully have 3 brothers who are my adopted family, we are all reasonably successful and have accomplished things we are proud of, and we all admire each other. Two of them have 10+ years marriages, and one 5+. I’m single at this time, and my longest relationship has been a 18 months.( I’ve prioritized new experiences in my life over commitment as a general rule, since porn and pleasure were always a big drive in my sexuality. My body count is at around 50, which ot something I’m super proud of, but hey, it is what it is. It’s been fun, no regrets, but I look forward to a real relationship where porn is not present, and I don’t have wandering eyes, and can pour all my energy on her) The fact that I can be a beacon to them and show them it’s possible to be free from porn is a big motivation for me, and at times of craving, not disappointing them has been the one thing holding the line. I know they won’t judge me if I were to relapse, but then again, we all thrive on proving to each other that things that seemed impossible are possible. This is one of my biggest contributions.
-Easier interactions with women: my main source of reps has been the gym, where I’m surrounded by good looking, healthy, spandex wearing ladies. (By now I just chuckle when I see guys much more defined and muscular than me staring at a girl passing by or doing squats. I know exactly where they’re at, mentally, even if they look so good physically.) It’s easier to hold eye contact now, and to exchange words, and most importantly, much easier to dim that craving for proximity and wanting to drool over her looks and her body. I guess another way I can say it is that my “attachment” has been reduced considerably. Still a work in progress, but this, alongside controlling my eyes, is a victory in my view.
-Awareness of your unique, holy duty: when you realize most men in the world can’t stop watching porn, even those people you admire (celebrities, church ministers, politicians, etc) you realize tthe importance of your mission. Each one of us that is clean is helping recover men’s power, and at the same time, protecting women from exploitation and objectification. It hits right at the core of one of the most sacred missions of a man’s existence, which is being a protector. I hope one day to mentor young men and young women, and being a refuge for them, pure from the influences of lust and over sexualization, where they can be safe and learn a healthy way to relate to each other, a privilege I didn’t have growing up (I grew up in a very sexualized culture, Cuban, which prioritized sleeping with as many women as possible, even cheating on your girl if necessary, because that made you more of a man)
All this being said, the battle is still going. 3 months is significant for me personally, but it’s just a drop of water in the larger scale of liberation. I hope you found something valuable on this testimony, and I look forward to reading your impressions, as well as making another one of these for the 4 month milestone.
God bless you, my brothers, stay strong, until victory always 
Age 33 – 3 months free
