I am 29yo, started watching porn/masturbating when I was around 13/14, and it always felt like it was just normal. I was constantly horny, checking out guys and fantasising a lot. Childhood was a bit hard so (now I know) I found ways to feel less emotions or to numb! With time the intensity of the porn I was watching kept increasing and I rarely had a day where I didn’t masturbate, watch porn and smoke weed (started at 17yo). I also started drinking in a very unhealthy way and started using party drugs. I felt depressed, devastated and helpless.
During lockdown I started practicing yoga and since then a deeply healing journey began! Awareness and presence were brought into me and I realised that if I wanted to feel better I had to change, so I slowly started shifting these negative habits in a gradual and natural way.
Edging still a problem
In 2024 I realised that PMO was leaving me tired and empty so I decided to stop ejaculating, but kept watching porn and edging. I did a few streaks of 5/6 months without cumming but I reached a point where I couldn’t handle the energy in my mind and body, and I had to release.
Now it’s been two months since I found NoFap and rebooting, got access to a good source of scientific based data that help me deeply understand and keep me motivated. The benefits are countless and shouldn’t even be questioned!
I also have adhd and a tendency to develop addictive behaviours, which is very common as adhd brain seeks dopamine. My brain still create sexual thoughts on a daily basis and I have to stay present at all time to not fall into this slippery slope..
My daily kundalini yoga practice really keeps me steady and centred and helps me navigating life’s challenges.
If I made it this far I’m sure anyone else can do it! Peace and love brothers and sisters ✌
BY: breathe.deeper