Abin ban mamaki. Ban gano PMO ba bayan maraice maraice na rashin ƙarfi tare da mace wacce nake matukar so. Shine farkonmu (kuma mai yiwuwa na ƙarshe) game da jima'i, kuma na ji kunya, ƙasƙanci, rikicewa, da tsoro. Ba zan taɓa samun irin wannan 'gazawar turawa' ba, kodayake abubuwan da nake yi sun kasance a hankali amma a hankali na raguwa na liningan shekaru.
Yayin da nake karanta bayanan sake kunnawa a cikin YBOP kuma na yi tunani a kan halaye na na baya, na fahimci hakan, duk da cewa ba na kallon batsa kowace rana, na kasance cikakke ga al'ada ta al'aura. A zahiri, wannan ɗabi'ar ta faro ne tun ina ɗan shekara 12 ko 13 kuma da wuya wata rana ta wuce lokacin da banyi F da F ba (fantasize da fap) aƙalla sau ɗaya idan ba sau da yawa a rana ba. Wannan ya kara har zuwa shekaru 40 na FMO (fantasy, masturbation, orgasm) - duk da cewa tsawon shekaru 10 na wannan lokacin na yi aure.
A cikin 'yan shekarun nan, sakamakon raguwar hankali a hankali (rashin iya fitar maniyyi, yin laushi nan da nan, karamin girma ko inzali idan zan zo, wani lokaci rashin tsayuwa), na shiga cikin bidiyon' ilimin jima'i '(yanzu na fahimci mafi waɗannan waɗannan an ɓoye batsa da gaske) kuma tsawon watanni a wani lokaci za su iya yin gyare-gyare sau da yawa a rana, suna tunanin wannan zai taimaka wajen dawo da libido (na kuma karanta game da yin rubutu a wasu littattafan Tantra). Babban Kuskure - Yanzu na fahimci cewa wannan dabi'ar ta kuma taimaka matuka wajen raguwar shaƙatawa - akasin abin da nake tsammanin zan yi (da kuma abin da aka ba da shawara a cikin littattafan).
Da zarar na fara karanta YBOP, sai na fahimci cewa faɗuwa, zato da kuma zubi - haɗe da wani lokaci (yawanci sau 1-2 a mako / mako amma wani lokaci a kowace rana don kwanaki 4 ko 5 a lokaci ɗaya) Kallon batsa ya kasance cikakke tsarin. Kai. Don haka nan da nan na tafi PFMO - kyauta (Batsa, Fantasy, Masturbation, Orgasm).
Yau rana 18 kuma bambancin ya kasance mai ban mamaki. Shekaruna 53, don haka ban fara yin wasan tsalle zuwa Intanet na Intanet ba - kamar gidajen Playboy / Penthouse na tsakiya; amma asali na kasance ina faɗuwa da fahariya na shekaru 40. Na yi aure shekara goma, kuma na sami masoya da yawa, amma F&F bai daina ba.
Me na lura tunda babu PFMO? Babban layi na kimanin kwanaki 10, to wannan hawan mai ritaya na wani 'ɗanɗano' na jan hankali ga mata waɗanda da na wuce kamar matsakaicin kallo. Ina samun wani irin ni'ima mai dadi kawai kasancewar ina tare da mata wanda ban taɓa yin irinsa ba. Abinda ya rage mata 'rashin sani' idan na gansu - kamar idan kwakwalwata bata tafi wurin da ake tunanin ba, tunanina game da su yana fadada fiye da bayyanar waje.
Na fi amincewa da haɗuwa da kyawawan mata kuma gamsuwa ta jima'i na ƙaruwa - daren jiya da daddare a wani liyafa suna hira da raha da ban dariya tare da wata mace wacce kyawunta da saduwa ta makonni uku da suka gabata sun tsoratata.
Ina fahimtar cewa yawancin rashin tsaro na zamantakewar jama'a, fushin kaina, rashin son zuciya da kuma ma'anar 'ban yarda ba' - cewa na yi ƙoƙari akai-akai don yin aiki tare da magunguna daban-daban - shawara, hypnosis, bita, ƙari) tabbas mai alaƙa da dysregulation na dopamine, fapping da fantasy. Babu shakka ban mamaki.
Yana kama da duk wannan ƙarfin rai da kuzari da natsuwa da ƙarfi wanda ake ɓatarwa da kuzarin tunani da mayar da hankali wanda aka watsar da su a cikin rudu (saboda zan 'tattara' hotunan mata masu ban sha'awa yayin da na wuce ranar da zan sauka zuwa lokacin da na dawo gida da daddare - abin da ban mamaki na rashin hankali) ya kasance ba zato ba tsammani a gare ni don rayuwata, cimma burina, da kuma kai wa ga lafiyayyen, hanyar ɗan adam ga mata. Irin wannan kwanciyar hankali ne bawai musan mata ba kuma kashe wancan kewaya ta atomatik wanda zai fara tallan batsa nan da nan in ga mace mai kyau! Na san ni hanya ce da wuri kan wannan tafiya; Na yi sa'a saboda ba ni da yawan al'adar batsa; kuma, Har yanzu ina da wasu lamuran lafiyar jiki (mafi akasarin testosterone) waɗanda watakila ke ba da gudummawa ga zama ƙasa da mafi girman kai na. Kuma, wannan fahimta ta kasance babban taimako. A karo na farko a cikin shekaru 5 na gaske ina jin kamar namiji. Na san wannan shine farkon tafiya kuma nima na san cewa ba zan sake komawa PFMO ba. Kai.
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