ʻO 24 wau a hoʻomaka paha i ka hui pū o pmo ma kahi o 13. No ka mea ʻo ka makahiki 19 paha ka lōʻihi o kēlā hana i hoʻokahi hola a e hana ʻia i kēlā me kēia lā.
Ua ʻike wau i kēia kaiāulu ma o kā Ted Wilson kamaʻilio ʻana me ka nānā ʻana i nā wikiō ted ma youtube akā ʻaʻole i hana maoli i kekahi mea me ka ʻike ʻē aʻe ma mua o ka noʻonoʻo he hoihoi loa a me ka mālama ʻana i kahi leka ma ka hope o koʻu poʻo. A laila i kaʻu huakaʻi nofap: i ka hopena o 2014 ua ʻae ʻia kaʻu noi i ke kula grad, ʻoiai ʻaʻole wau i ʻike pehea wau i komo ai. ʻAʻole wau i akamai loa a malia paha ʻaʻole ʻike ka mea e hana ana i nā ʻae. ka palapala i koi ʻia iaʻu e hāʻawi i loko e hōʻike e pono wau e lawe i hoʻokahi o nā papa i ʻekolu mau manawa ma mua o ka hala ʻana, a i ʻole ma hope paha o ke kālā ke kula. Ua ʻike wau e pono wau e hele pololei i kuʻu poʻo i kēia mea a ʻo ia ke kumu i hoʻomaka ai wau nofap, ʻo ia hoʻi ma Nowemapa 2014. I koʻu hoʻomaka ʻana ua hāʻawi wau i kahi hoʻāʻo hapa hapa wale nō, e kū ana i hoʻokahi pule a ʻelua paha ma aneʻi a ma mua o ka binge -e hāʻule ana, no ka mea, ʻoiaʻiʻo, maikaʻi loa ka porn ʻoiaʻiʻo (e heluhelu ma kaʻu ʻaʻole trolling).
Ua hala wau ma Malaki 5 2015, a ʻo ka ʻike hope loa o ka porn ma kahi o hoʻokahi pule ma hope. Hōʻike kekahi poʻe i ka leʻaleʻa i nā pule mua, akā e ʻae ʻoe iaʻu e haʻi iā ʻoe he gehena maʻemaʻe ia. ʻIke wau i ka haʻalele ʻana i nā ʻōuli e like me ke anuanu a me ka ikaika o ke anuanu a me ka ʻehaʻeha ʻana i nā manaʻo e holo ana mai ka ʻāʻī, ma o nā lima i nā pulima, a ua like wau me he mea lā ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke noʻonoʻo pono, e like me ka manaʻo o kahi hangover mae akā no ʻaneʻane ʻelua mau pule. Ua hoʻomaka wau e ʻike i nā pōmaikaʻi he mahina a me ka hapalua i loko, akā ʻo ka haʻalele ʻana ua maopopo iaʻu he ʻoiaʻiʻo kēia kolohe a hoʻomanaʻo mau wau iaʻu iho "ʻo ka manaʻo e like ʻoe me ka shit he hōʻike kūpono ia e hoʻi hou ana kou lolo".
ʻO nā mea a mākou āpau e makemake ai e hoʻolohe: nofap i kōkua iaʻu e haʻalele i ka nui o ka hopohopo aʻu i ʻike ai, no ka maikaʻi ʻole o ke kiʻi ʻana o kahi haʻi ʻōlelo iaʻu i ke kākāʻōlelo kula. Akā i kēia manawa ʻo ka hōʻailona wale nō aʻu e ʻike ai e nānā ana wau i nā kaikamahine ke ʻike wau iā lākou e nānā i hope; ma mua ʻaʻole wau e nānā i nā kaikamahine, a i ʻole kekahi, e kakali wale wau i ka hoʻi ʻana i ka home a hoʻopau iā ia (e manaʻoʻiʻo ʻoe ʻaʻole wau he ipo aloha a i ʻole he moekolohe?). I kēia manawa, ʻike wau i kahi kaikamahine uʻi / wela / wahine e hele wāwae ana i ka ʻaoʻao ʻē iaʻu a me ka noʻonoʻo ʻole ʻole e mālama i ka maka i nā maka āpau a hiki i kona ʻaoʻao pono iaʻu, ua pīhoihoi wau i nā manawa mua i kū ai kēia a makemake wau pono e kū ma kahi aʻu e kū nei no kahi minuke a noʻonoʻo e pili ana i ka mea i hala iho nei. Maikaʻi loa wau i kēia manawa akā maopopo iaʻu pre-nofap iaʻu e noho a hopohopo i kahi mea e like me kēia no nā lā, ʻaʻole maikaʻi loa.
He aha nā mea maikaʻi ʻē aʻe i hiki? Me ka lilo ʻana o ka ʻeha i mea ʻeha ma ka hoki a me ke ala kaʻaahi aʻu e hele a piha i nā ʻino i nā hola e hele ai au, ua hoʻoholo wau e loaʻa kahi laikini mokokaikala a me kahi mokokaikala liʻiliʻi e hiki ai iaʻu ke hele i ka hale waihona puke e aʻo ai, kahi inā kekahi kahi pihi hoʻowahāwahā e nānā wale i kā lākou ala no lākou e kū a i kekahi manawa e ala a haʻalele (hele mai, ʻano ʻakaʻaka paha?). ʻO ia ka mana o nofap! lol. Ua hala wau ma kahi o ʻelima mau pule mua o ke kau e ala ana mai kahi hiamoe huhū i hana ʻia no laila ʻaʻole nui ka hoʻopaʻa ʻana a me ka hana i hoʻokomo ʻia i laila, ua kiola wau i nā mea āpau i loaʻa iaʻu me ka maopopo ʻaʻole wau i hāʻule i loko o nā ʻano kahiko (hiki paha iā ʻoe ʻike i kahi e hele nei wau me kēia).
Ma hope o kahi hana loiloi alo he alo kahi o kahi loea e nānā mai iaʻu i ka maka a ʻōlelo mai e pono wau e hana ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi (me ka hōʻino ʻole a me kekahi mea), ua maʻi au no hoʻokahi pule akā ʻo ia ka lā ma mua o ka hiʻu ʻana o kekahi arsehole. ʻo wau (ʻo ia ka hoʻoilo ma aneʻi). ʻAʻole i pau i ke anuanu akā hoʻomanaʻo wau i ka mea i haʻi ʻia mai iaʻu, lele wau i loko o kaʻu ʻauʻau anuanu mua loa, ʻo ia ka mahina i hala aku nei a he mau ua anuanu kēlā me kēia lā, 2-3 mau manawa i ka lā mai ia wā. Ua ʻike wau i kēia ma nā pou o kekahi mau nofappers i ʻōlelo ua kōkua ia i ko lākou noʻonoʻo a i ʻole kekahi mea ma ia mau laina. E ʻae nō wau. ʻIke ʻoe ke nānā maka ʻole ʻoe i kahi kanaka paʻakikī maoli, ʻaʻole wau manaʻo he naʻaupō hoʻoikaika kino akā ʻo nā kāne e like me he mea lā ua hele lākou i loko o nā ʻike paʻakikī, a hāʻule koke ʻoe a nānā aku a hoʻohālikelike me he mea lā ʻaʻole i hiki. ʻAʻole wau e ʻimi ʻimi me ka noʻonoʻo ʻole i kēlā mau poʻe a hoʻāʻo e nānā iā lākou, akā ma hope o nā ua anuanu me ka nofap ʻaʻole wau e nāwaliwali a loaʻa ka mahalo e like me ke kunou iki. Eia kekahi, ma muli o ka ua anuanu ua hāʻule au i kahi nui o ka lole wāwae me ka ʻole o ka hoʻoikaika kino ʻana ma mua o ka hele ʻana i ka ʻīlio a me kekahi mau pahu paʻi i loko o ka lumipaku ma mua o ka lele ʻana i ka ʻauʻau. Ma mua o nofap e holo wau ma kahi o ʻewalu km ʻekolu a ʻehā mau manawa o ka pule.
ʻAʻole hiki ke maʻalahi, aia ke kaua ma ka minuke. ʻOiai inā ua hana nui au i ka lā a hui pū me kaʻohana a iʻole nā hoaaloha mai ke kula kiʻekiʻe,ʻaʻole paha ka nui o nā kilomita aʻu i holo ai,ʻo ka noi e nānā i nā porn i nā manawa a pau. Ua hala aku nei au ma 90, aʻo 120 mau lā ka pahuhopu. Ua ho'āʻo nui au i ka'ōlelo aʻo i hāʻawiʻia ma nofap me ka laweʻana i ka meaʻaiʻona; ʻo ka noʻonoʻo he meaʻai olakino ia me nā hua holoholonaʻoihana e hoʻohaʻahaʻa i ka libido a meʻole. ʻOiai ua loaʻa loa iaʻu ka hopena kūponoʻole, ua hōʻoluʻolu au i nā mea aʻelua, a uaʻike wau i nā koi e lele i waho; Ua nui koʻu huhū a makemake wau e hele i waho i nā manawa a pau. ʻO koʻu manaʻo no koʻu hoʻokumuʻana i koʻu manaʻo e pili i ka moekipo me PMO,ʻo ia wale nō ke ala e haʻi ai. A laila, ua hoʻomaka wau eʻike i nā mea e hakakā nei i nā hakakā a me nā kaikamāhine a pau iʻikeʻole,ʻaʻole naʻe e nānā i kā lākou mau hua'ōlelo a hōʻole aku iā lākou akā, he maka maka.
A i kēia manawa ke makemake nei au i kāu kākoʻo. ʻAʻole wau i maopopo inā ua lawa wau e hōʻiliʻili i ka lā mua o ke kūlana. Ināʻaʻole, ke manaʻo pahaʻoe e kiola ke kula iaʻu? ʻO ka hana aʻu i hana ai, ua hikiʻole ke hāʻawiʻia i ka hopena. He mea nui kēia iaʻu. E like me ka mea i hele mau i ke ala o ka hakakā paʻakikī,ʻaʻole au i hopohopo nui i kekahi mea a ua paʻa mau i ka hana paʻakikī. ʻAʻole au i hoʻopili iaʻu iho e like me koʻu pili i ka hopena o ke kau. ʻOiai ua loaʻa iaʻu nā mea a pau e uhi pono ai, ua hana maikaʻi wau iaʻu a ua ikaika wau i kahi mea. ʻAʻole wau i hauʻoli ka hauʻoli akā no ka manawa mua o koʻu ola, ua like wau me he manaʻo koʻu. Inā paha e hoihoi hou au i nā papa a pau,ʻaʻole au e hopohopo akā no kaʻikeʻana aku i nā hoaaloha ua hele aku au i kahi kaʻawale mai oʻu aku (ʻo ia ke kumu, he hoaaloha wau, he mea aʻu i hanaʻole ai i ka wā o kaʻu mau keiki), eʻoliʻoli wau e lele hou i loko.
tlr: Ma o nofap uaʻike au i ka mea aʻu e makemake ai e lilo. Ua kūleʻa wau i loko o kahi lumi kūpono, akā mai ka kihi o koʻu maka iʻike au i ka mea e pono ai iaʻu akā i kēia manawa ke hopohopo nei au e kiʻi aku au ma waho o ka loaʻa. ʻOi, uaʻano maikaʻi loa nā ua anu.
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