ʻO ka hakakā maoli ma hope o ka hoʻi hou ʻana ʻaʻole makemake hou i kekahi mea. I kēia mau makahiki kanakolū. ʻIke wau i koʻu mau hoaaloha e male ana. ʻLelo ka poʻe makemake lākou e make no kā lākou wahine a me nā keiki. Hiki iaʻu ke hoʻomaopopo i kā lākou e ʻōlelo nei, akā ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke minamina no ka mea ʻaʻohe oʻu manaʻo ikaika loa no kekahi mea. ʻIke wau i kahi hoaaloha e lilo i kauka ma hope o nā makahiki o ka hakakā ʻana e uku no ke kula.
Ma hope o ka hōʻole ʻia mai kēlā me kēia kula med i ka US, ua haʻalele ʻo ia i kāna hana a aʻo no ka MCAT no 2 mau makahiki me ka uku ʻole o ka noho ʻana ma ka hale o kona mau mākua e ʻai ana i ka pī a me ka raiki i kēlā me kēia lā. Ua komo ʻo ia i loko o kahi kula ma ka hikina 4 mau makahiki i hala i ka makahiki o 28. ʻO kēia ka manawa aʻu i hoʻi hou ai. ʻAʻole hiki iaʻu ke haʻi iā ʻoe no ke aha ʻaʻole wau e hoʻomanaʻo a ʻaʻole wau no ka hōʻiliʻili o ka noe lolo. ʻOiai hoʻomanaʻo wau i ka noʻonoʻo ʻana he naʻaupō kuʻu hoaaloha. Ua haʻalele ʻo ia i kahi hana uku maikaʻi e aʻo ai no kahi hōʻike āna i hoʻopahū ai. Ma ka makahiki 28, ua manaʻo wau ua ʻelemakule ʻo ia e hele i ke kula me nā makahiki he 22. Ua manaʻo wau ua ʻoi aku koʻu maikaʻi ma mua o kona loaʻa ʻana o kaʻu hana shitty i uku maikaʻi ʻia. Akā maoli, ua hoʻowahāwahā wau i kāna hana nui ʻana no ka hohonu i hiki ʻole iaʻu ke makemake iaʻu i kekahi mea e like me ia.
I kēia manawa, ʻike wau i kāna minoʻaka i plaster a puni Facebook e ʻōlelo ana i nā mea maʻamau a me nā mea maʻamau e pili ana i kona hauʻoli a mahalo hoʻi me ke kāʻei o kāna kauka. ʻAʻole wau i minoʻaka e like me kēlā i ka manawa lōʻihi.
Ua hāʻawi ka hana iaʻu i mau hebedoma. Manaʻo wau ʻaʻole lākou e pono iaʻu a he ahi lākou e kina koke ana iaʻu no laila ke kumu i hāʻawi lōʻihi ai lākou iaʻu. Eia naʻe, lawe au i ka wā hoʻomaha a kipa aku i kuʻu hoaaloha maikaʻi loa mai ke koleke ma Kaleponi ʻAkau. Noho wau me ia no kekahi mau lā e hiamoe ana ma kāna wahi moe. Makemake ʻoe e ʻike i ke ʻano o kona ola? He momona ʻo ia i kēia manawa. Honi ʻo ia. Loaʻa iā ia ka fungus ma kona manamana wāwae a hana ʻo ia ma ke ʻano he kākau ʻōlelo a kōkua i kekahi loio mediocre.
ʻO kaʻu hoaaloha maikaʻi loa mai ke koleke he kāne maikaʻi maoli ke nānā aku. Hoʻomaopopo wau i kona ala mua ʻana ma mua o nā mea ʻē aʻe a ʻaʻole pono i kahi uaki ala. Nānā nā kaikamahine iā ia i nā manawa āpau. ʻO 5'8 ″ ʻo ia, no laila ʻaʻole ʻo ke dude ʻoi loa, akā ʻo ia kahi dude. Mākaukau e hele i kahi e leʻaleʻa ai. Loaʻa iā ia ka ikehu e like me ʻoe e manaʻoʻiʻo ʻole ai, a loaʻa ka manawa e hoʻopaʻa a loaʻa ai nā mākia maikaʻi. Ua ʻike nā kaikamahine i kēia. Ua ʻike ʻo Guys i kēia. Makemake nā poʻe āpau e puni iā ia.
Noho wau me ia ma kahi lumi liʻiliʻi ma ke kolamu no laila he ʻike wau no ka mea maoli ʻaʻole ia e hoʻomākeʻe nui e like me aʻu. (Makemake ʻo ia e mālama i kāna ukana no kāna kaikamahine kūpono loa.
Ma hope o ke koleke, ua haki kāna ipo wahine me ia a ʻaʻole ʻo ia i ola hou mai ka nalowale ʻana iā ia. Ua koi ʻo ia iā ia iho e kiʻi i nā pahuhopu maʻalahi loa i ke ola ma hope o ka lilo ʻana o kahi mea āna i aloha ai a makemake ai paha. Manaʻo wau he maʻalahi ke makemake i ka mea maʻalahi. Hele ʻo ia i kēlā me kēia lā. Me ka ʻole.
Ua ala au i ke kakahiaka i luna o kāna wahi moe i ka lumi noho i ke kani o kāna mau ʻōwili momona ke paʻi nei kekahi i kekahi ʻoiai ʻo ia e ʻumeʻume nei. Lohe wau i nā paia lahilahi o kona keʻena ʻino. Hele ʻo ia i waho e holoi i kona mau lima i ka lumipaku me ka luhi a luhi loa hoʻi ma hope o 8 mau hola o ka hiamoe.
He wahine aloha maikaʻi ʻole kāna i kēia manawa e hana ʻino iā ia. Ua hui wau iā ia a puni ʻo ia i kahi kanaka weliweli, akā iā ia ʻoi aku ʻo ia ma mua o ke kaikamahine nani nāna i haʻihaʻi kona puʻuwai.
No laila ʻo kaʻu hoaaloha aloha ʻoi loa ka maʻi diabetic i kēia manawa, no laila ke ʻōlelo nei wau e hele mākou i kahi lā hoʻokolokolo manuahi ma ka hale hoʻoikaika kino kūloko. Ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia ʻaʻole. ʻAʻole hiki iā ia ke uku i ka uku mahina no ke aha e hele i hoʻokahi lā? Paipai wau e hele no kahi holo ma kahi o ka uku manuahi. Ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia ʻaʻole.
He mau lā kēia e hiamoe ana au ma kāna wahi moe i kēia manawa a ʻaʻole wau i haʻalele iki i kēia manawa holoʻokoʻa. ʻAʻohe a mākou mea e hana ai, no laila holo wau iaʻu iho a puhi ʻia koʻu noʻonoʻo e ka maʻalahi o ka holo ʻana a me ka wikiwiki o kaʻu holo ʻana. Ke hele nei i kēlā me kēia lā ma ka home, ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke uhaʻi i kahi mile he 12 ma ka pahu hana.
Hele wau i loko o ke keʻena o kaʻu hoaaloha punahele a pau me ka hou a no ka mea ua kipaku wau iaʻu no ka manawa mua i kahi manawa lōʻihi, a hāʻawi mai ʻo ia iaʻu i kahi hiʻohiʻona maikaʻi ʻole e ʻōlelo mai iaʻu ʻaʻole e pilau i kona wahi a ʻauʻau.
Akā he ihu ʻo ia i kona pilau ponoʻī. Aia nā lole lepo i hoʻopihapiha ʻia i loko o kāna lumi lole ʻaʻole ia i manaʻo e pilau akā e like me ka haumia o nā kānaka maikaʻi ʻole. Aia ka pala i loko o kāna kapeta no ka mea ʻaʻole ʻo ia i hoʻopilikia i ka hoʻomaʻemaʻe ʻana i ka soda āna i ninini ai.
Noho wau ma laila no ka manuahi, no laila ʻaʻole wau e ʻōlelo i kekahi mea. Akā hopohopo wau i kona olakino.
Ua hoʻopiʻi ʻo ia i nā mea āpau ma kāna mau gen. Akā ʻike wau iā ia i nā pīkī wela i loko o kona waha i loko o ka hopena pule. He ʻai mau ko ia mai ka lā Pōʻalima a me ka Lāpule. ʻOiaʻiʻo ke hele ʻana mākou i ka ʻai, haʻi mai ʻo ia iaʻu e ʻai i kahi mea nui i ka nui ma hope o kaʻu moʻolelo hoʻopaʻa i koho wau e paʻa i nā loaʻa liʻiliʻi ua loaʻa iaʻu i ka papa hana ma o ka ʻai ʻana i ke olakino maikaʻi.
Hoʻihoʻi mākou i kona wahi, a ke hānai nei au i kā mākou hoa pilikino i lilo i hope i kauka.
ʻ sayslelo kuʻu hoa aloha kahiko, “Maikaʻi nona. ʻAʻole wau i hana, ʻaʻole kūpono i kēlā mau pilikia. Nui nā mea i koe e hana. ”
AOLE PALAPALA MAOLI?!?! I koʻu manaʻo, hele au i ka ballistic. Loaʻa i kā mākou hoaaloha kahi noho dermatology ma Hawaii. Hana ʻo ia i ka gunna 300k i kēlā me kēia makahiki e hana ana i 9-5, NO ka mālama ʻana i nā mea maʻi maʻi nui, ka heʻenalu ʻana i nā manawa āpau āna e makemake ai, a me ka noho ʻana i kahi hale hoki nui, ʻoiai wau e noho nei i kahi ola mediocre meh me nā koho liʻiliʻi loa no ka mea ʻaʻohe aʻu kālā.
No kekahi kumu ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke kū e nānā hou aku i kuʻu hoaaloha maikaʻi loa, no laila ua wahaheʻe wau a ʻōlelo aku ua pono ka hana iaʻu i ka wanaʻao, no laila ua hoʻi wau i ka home ma mua o kaʻu pono.
I koʻu hoʻi ʻana i ka home, mai ka polū, ua leka ʻo Facebook iaʻu i ka ipo aloha a kaʻu hoaaloha punahele, ka mea wela i hoʻolei iā ia. He mau hoaaloha mākou ma mua o ka haki a ua huhū wau no ka nalo ʻana o ka pili. Nīnau wau iā ia pehea e ola ana kona ola a ua kala wau no ka MIA ma hope o ka haki. Pane koke ʻo ia e ʻōlelo ana ua maopopo piha iā ia, hāʻawi ʻia ʻo ia ka mea i haki me kaʻu hoa aloha.
ʻAʻole wau i haʻalele iki no hoʻokahi pule i kēia manawa, no laila hiki iaʻu ke nīnau diplomatik e nīnau no ke aha ʻo ia a me kaʻu hoa aloha kahiko i haki me ke kani ʻole e like me ke kani maikaʻi ʻole.
Ua haʻi pālahalaha mai ʻo ia iaʻu pehea ia. Ua manaʻo ʻo ia e like me kahi mea eo nui i loko ona. Laki ʻo ia no ka mea he maikaʻi ʻo ia ke nānā aku i kēlā manawa, akā ʻaʻole ʻo ia i ʻike maoli iā ia e hoʻāʻo nui nei i kēlā me kēia mea. Ua pale aku au iā ia ma ka ʻōlelo ʻana he maikaʻi kāna mau māka maikaʻi, akā ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia he ʻohana wale nō ia. Loaʻa iā ia he 2 nui a hana i kahi hana hapa manawa. ʻAʻohe āna hoʻolālā ma hope o ke koleke a makemake wale e noho pū me ia. Ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia i kekahi mea nani weliweli. Ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia ʻo kekahi o nā kumu i haki ai ʻo ia me ia no ka mea ua manaʻo ʻo ia inā e pau kā lāua pilina, hāʻule ʻo ia, a ʻaʻole ʻo ia makemake e noho me kahi kāne e pono ai i kekahi e lilo i kāne.
A ke hoʻomoe nei wau i ka papa. Ua ʻike ʻo ia i kēlā mea momona momona ʻo ia i loko o ke keiki hauʻoli i ke koleke i loaʻa ʻole ka hoʻāʻo ʻana i nā mea paʻakikī āpau a he minoʻaka maikaʻi kāna a me kahi mea maʻalahi.
Inā ʻoe e haʻohaʻo ana e ka hoa aloha kahiko. Hana ʻo ia i kālā hou aʻe ma mua o kaʻu (ma kahi o 3 mau manawa keu). Ke wela wela nei ʻo ia ʻoiai he keiki kāna i kēia manawa. ʻOiai ua ʻōlelo kāna kāne hiki iā ia ke haʻalele i kāna hana i hiki iā ia ke hoʻi i ke kula a mālama pono i kāna keiki inā makemake ʻo ia. Aloha nui ʻo ia iā ia. Ua pau wau i ke kamaʻilio ʻana i kēia manawa, akā ua ʻōlelo hou ʻaʻole makemake ʻo ia e noho me kaʻu hoa aloha kahiko no ka mea ʻaʻole ona makemake e kaʻana like i nā hua o kāna hana nui me kekahi mea e like me ia. Ua manaʻo ʻo ia e hoʻopau ʻo ia i ka hōʻiliʻili nona a halihali i kā lāua pili.
I ka hopena o kā mākou kamaʻilio ʻana, nīnau ʻo ia i ka mea e hana nei me aʻu. ʻAʻole wau e ʻōlelo nui, he hana make wale nō, nani nā mea āpau. A ʻinoʻino nā kaikamahine wela e like me ka shit. Nīnau ʻo ia i ka mea i loaʻa iaʻu. Makemake au i nā mea, i ʻōlelo ʻo ia.
No laila huhama iaʻu, ʻokoʻa?
ʻ Wordlelo i ka poʻe naʻauao. I koʻu hele ʻana i kaʻu mau laina lōʻihi, ua ʻike maopopo wau i kaʻu hoaaloha punahele ʻoiai ʻo wai ʻo ia. He lili, nele, molowa, kāne. Aloha au iā ia, a pēlā nō. Akā ua hana wau i nā kala he nui nona no ka hohonu o loko, ua like wau me ia.
No laila, ʻo ke kuhi o kēia moʻolelo holoʻokoʻa holoʻokoʻa kēia. AOLE MAKAHIKI. Hiki i ka poʻe ke ʻike i kou hoʻowahāwahā ʻoe. Ma muli o kou hele hewa wale ʻana a palaualelo ʻoe, ʻaʻole ia manaʻo ʻaʻole hiki i nā wahine ke ʻike ʻaʻole ʻoe he kāne.
ʻIke paha nā kāne ʻē.
Ua hele aku wau i kaʻu hoaaloha kauka a ua kamaʻilio lōʻihi me ia ma ke kino cuz aia ʻo ia no nā lā nui. Ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia ua lilo wau i mea haʻahaʻa i hoʻokahi manawa i kā mākou aloha aloha, a ʻaʻole hiki iā ia ke pili iaʻu cuz ua kanalua ʻo ia iā ia iho, a ʻaʻole ʻo ia makemake iaʻu e hana pū kekahi. Ua ʻike ʻo ia iā ia iho e hele i ke ala maʻalahi i ke ola ke pili ʻo ia iaʻu. Ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia e huli ʻoe i loko i ka poʻe āu e hoʻopuni ai iā ʻoe iho, a nona, ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia e lilo ana iaʻu.
ʻAʻohe mea makemake e hōʻino ʻia, akā ʻaʻole wau i huhū no ka mea he ʻoiaʻiʻo ia.
Makemake ʻoe e ʻike i ke kumu o kou aloha ʻole. Pehea e pili ana i kahi kaikamahine? Ke holo nei nā mea maikaʻi mai iā ʻoe no ka mea hiki iā lākou ke ʻike iā ʻoe.
Ua kono mai kuʻu hoaaloha kauka iaʻu e noho me ia i loko o kona keʻena keu no kekahi manawa e hoʻihoʻi i koʻu ola ke hiki iaʻu ke uku no kaʻu meaʻai ponoʻī a hoʻomaʻemaʻe iki i ka hale ʻoiai ʻo ia e hana ana.
Ua noi wau iā ia no ke aha ʻo ia e hele nei e kōkua iaʻu ma hope o kēia mau makahiki.
Ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia, no ka manawa mua i ka manawa lōʻihi, hiki iā ia ke ʻike he makemake wau e ʻoi aku i kaʻu. A ʻo wau wale nō 8 mau lā i nofap hou, a hiki iā ia ke ʻike i kahi mea i loli i loko oʻu.
ʻO ka mea aʻu i ʻike ai ʻo ka makemake maoli ʻaʻole wale i kou poʻo. Ke ala nei i kēlā me kēia lā a mālama i kou ikehu moekolohe e hoʻomaikaʻi iā ʻoe iho a me nā mea āpau e pili ana iā ʻoe, ke hahau nei i kāu mau pahuhopu, ʻaʻole i ka pīpī ʻana i kou mau makemake āpau i kahi ʻōpala cum. Ua manaʻo wau ʻaʻole makemake i kekahi mea e ikaika ai au. ʻAʻole ia.
Ua haʻi wau i kaʻu hoaaloha punahele e pili ana i ka fap, a ua haʻi wau iā ia ʻaʻole wau makemake i kekahi mea ma hope o koʻu hele hewa ʻana a hana ia i kēlā me kēia lā. Ua kuhikuhi wau iā ia i kēia kolamu a me nā wikiō youtube āpau, a ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia, "ʻAʻole au e ʻike i ka mea e pili ana i kekahi mea."
ʻAʻole.
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