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Sampling the Moment of Revelation
This is where it gets mind blowing: What I learned throughout my experiences in recovery is to first acknowledge the fact that you will feel more joy before PMO (as non-users do), but not after PMO (as a user). Because you don’t feel joy after PMO, you are actively detracting from pleasure <- (revelation?). Porn-users (addicts) seek PMO in the hopes of not feeling the stress, when it’s simply the little monster who actively engages in the same mechanisms (stress-guised-as-pleasure <- ↔ -> the urge) as you do when PMOing! PMO-users (addicts) haven’t acknowledged that PMO is actually the depletion of pleasure on their end and therefore entirely stress, and because they’re unaware that they’re physiologically forcing themselves to actively deplete pleasure <- (revelation?) they only double down on the belief that they gain “pleasure,” when pleasure is actually sought outside of PMO all together, where it’s not in-authentically stressed, but authentically experienced through any other activity but PMO. As technological innovation would follow, we’ve created an extraordinary vice. In other words, your brain may not have acknowledged the circular logic it relies upon to get what it can never achieve without thorough reevaluation, hence the circular nature of PMO addiction ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶’ .
The little monster (lower ideal) dies as you die, so when you catch the little monster dying, ( you’ve already experienced PMO… )
^ This bubble right here, might just be the silver-lining that your moment of revelation would follow if you were to continue on your journey, convincingly so. Arguably, two people come to this conclusion:
- Those who’ve spent years addicted and are now of old age
- Those who follow the utility of their insights through enough obsession. <- You’re smarter than you think you are; it’s never too late!
There are many online books that take the form of this obsession, we just have to stick to it to ask people more about these types of helpful resources (e.g. pdfs, websites, online books, etc…) heck you might already be half-way there, but all you need is an individual’s substantial experience (either from yourself or someone else!). Journaling for an audience, you guys specifically, helped a lot. But, I think this is the secret code, a giant facade! Non-users either haven’t endured the stress-gauntlet of PMO or they’ve acknowledged it! Are you willing to acknowledge that you’re already a happy non-user? …
TL;DR lol
immediate gratification doesn’t necessarily lead to satisfaction, so gratification in the correct sense would pertain to the utility of the interval of time between withholding and entertaining engagement. Essentially, reinforce the addictive substance’s futility, by either integrating your experiences apart from or involving porn (e.g. thought life), with methods of delayed gratification and general mindfulness.
(comment: I’ve been trying to put this in my own words the day after I configured the moment of revelation, which was in December 2024, so it’s not like I’m coming up with this off-the-cuff. Genius is the meditation of knowledge. okay now the next part. Yep, we’re changing into another topic. You don’t see posts like this everyday; this is long-form, and beneficial for cognition anyway)
REMINDER:
Forcing something that’s already being depleted, is silly. In reality, the energy of/for accomplishing something is compensated by doing something else that develops the goal, accomplishing the sub-goal; it takes two to tango! Three? Five… sure that too. So, physiologically forcing an emotion in the hopes of feeling an emotion is plain stupid because you’re compensating with something that’s already being depleted, when in reality you could feel elation in committing to goals and sub-goals. PMO isn’t a goal and sub-goal, no matter how you put it, it’s just chasing false happiness.
Though it took me over 15 years to realize this, and an online book within only 7 months after escaping, I want you to know that, at least, you’re not silly enough to not realize this anymore. It will take time to get used to the mindsets I learned, and your own.
- “PMO can’t chase happiness if it depletes it.
- PMO only chases happiness, forcing you to deplete it.
- It already happened, as it never will satiate just a peek.
- It forces you to physiologically deplete satisfaction, never satiating just a peek.
- Forcing Pleasure Depletes Pleasure.
- It doesn’t satiate just a peak because it already has.
- It’s the little monster dying; I’m a happy non-user.
- A flag that need not be tempered, flying in the wind its symbol for pleasure.”
“The little monster is putting itself through stress, and therefore dying, as you were putting yourself through the stress and therefore dying. It’s experiencing the same thing you’re experiencing. Don’t force pleasure, don’t watch those videos, don’t feel like you need to look back at those images, either, because it’s the same feeling.”
PMO’s only outcome is orgasm, on the other hand. In fact, one might argue there are two outcomes: Stress & a Depletion of Yourself.
“Physiologically force yourself, deplete yourself. Force pleasure, and you won’t make room for it.” ~ Anonymous
- If You Happen to Fail With These Introspections… Perhaps what you should remember next time is that since stress-guised-as-pleasure/the urge translates itself through PMO or compulsive-MO, you end up embodying its debilitation after PMO. There’s always a chance to refrain through objective thinking; when you attain the high through the stress of compulsive-MO/PMO, you begin to put on the little monster’s shoes, which is unpleasant of course. You might think that you’re debilitated already when the little monster continues to die for a very long time before physically relapsing (a.k.a. the urge is still going on), but remember: Relapse always initiates in thought; keep it that way. You’re a happy non-user.
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By: VoreRecoverer