Since I have [quit porn] I have started to notice little things, my social awkwardness is starting to leave, I can focus more without having a problem, and you wouldn’t believe how sex with the wife has been. I have been super hard and last for a while. I don’t orgasm too fast and it hasn’t been going down a little ways through. I can switch position and I stays as hard as a flag pole.
For a while I was afraid of sex for a while, it either would get hard then goes soft or I would orgasm within a minute both of which is embarrassing. It was like that for years too and we haven’t really had a sex life and my wife loves sex. These are just little things and I don’t know how I am really supposed to be, I have always been this way because I never knew it was porn. Also, I have started to change my entire life, the way I eat, spend my free time, everything. I don’t really watch tv or play video games, I want to really start living.
I have never really hit a big streak but I am one of the ones that have been doing this for 1.5 years. I have learned a lot about this addiction and myself. I started using two counters during the beginning, one for no pmo and one for no p. I started to realize something here recently. I could do for a while with no pmo but couldn’t go for very long without p.
I was thinking about it and also realized that with no p there would be no pmo. I have always had a problem with pmo not mo, I don’t know if that will change the more and more as I push p out but if it does I will deal with it then. I would sometimes watch P for hours but rationalize that it is okay as long as I don’t pmo. I have known for a long time that P and the release of dopamine is the main problem not the full pmo.
There are problems with both but P is the big one. I cared more about my pmo counter than I did my p counter, I saw others had a long no pmo streak but there no p streak wouldn’t be as long. So I thought, why can’t I do that, others are. As long as my no pmo streak is intact it is ok. Soon I decided i’m just going to have one counter my no P counter. Slowly by slowly I have started to care a lot more about it and have been successfully cutting it out of my life. Whether it is 3 hours or 3 secs I will reset it and don’t like to reset it.
Sorry for the long post but if you have read until the end thank you for reading. Comments or questions are welcomed. I have struggled for a long time but I finally can see the end of the tunnel, wasn’t sure if i was going to be able to but now I know I can.
LINK – Little Successes
by nitsuj0786
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